mauve nois5

On The Run

these days are blurry

In Another Life, When We Are Both Cats

Felt inspired to try making shoegaze again. mixing this stuff is such a challenge, this one needs a lot more love

Strangers Sketch 3 18 25

farewell the past

I wish I could take it all back

LadyDisaster

neckdeep

excited about this one, up tempo cigarettes after sex influence

All music written, composed, recorded, and produced by John Kowite

still see your shape in my bed (demo)

produced by mix
https://open.spotify.com/album/6mPphknLrZFvYqizJ69Ai8
enjoy <3

lyrics:
some nights i wanna die, wanna die, wanna die
i can't even cry, even cry, even cry
everyday its all the same, all the same, all the same
but there's more i need to save, need to save, need to save

i wanna breathe but wanna go
safe in your arms but you will never know
and i don't do what i need, it don't feel right
ill pick my scars till you feel alright
walk all over me, does my skin feel fine?
what does feeling safe really feel like?
i still hold hope one day ill come to know
i dont even feel it by myself when im at home

close my eyes till i feel alright, close my eyes its alright
close my eyes till i feel alright, close my eyes its alright
close my eyes till i feel alright, close my eyes its alright
close my eyes till i feel alright, its alright, its alright

its alright, its alright, its alright, its okay its alright
don't fear, my dear i love you, its okay i love you (its okay)

its okay, i don't need nobody but myself
its okay, i can talk and talk but it'll never help
its okay i'm here, but ill live for them, and ill live for you
its okay don't fear, is this really my life is this what i do?

if i breathe it in, remember how it felt back then
arms around my skin, my kin, i lost, to reel it in
its time to roll the dice, no matter how i try
the house will take its price and leave me high and dry

SOME NIGHTS I WANNA DIE JUST CUT ALL OF THE TIES
I CAN'T EVEN CRY, ITS ALWAYS ON MY MIND
EVERYDAY ITS ALL THE SAME, ILL ALWAYS FEEL THIS WAY
BUT THERES MORE I NEED TO SAVE, I WON'T LET YOU DROWN TODAY

sinking, sinking, sinking, sinking
sinking, sinking, sinking, sinking

close my eyes till i feel alright, close my eyes its alright
close my eyes till i feel alright, close my eyes its alright
close my eyes till i feel alright, close my eyes its alright
close my eyes till i feel alright, its alright, its alright

close my eyes, close my eyes, close my eyes, close my eyes

some nights i wanna die, wanna die, wanna die
i can't even cry, even cry, even cry
everyday its all the same, all the same, all the same
but there's more i need to save, need to save, need to save

close my eyes

p. perii

>>lyrics<<
throwback to the summer of 2019
it felt just like a dream
we were only 14
but we're 20 now, older than we seem
and all i need
is you to come with me

i wanna match your clothes to mine
i wanna wear matching bracelets with the colour of your eyes
you make me wanna do that corny couple stuff
i never thought id be this much in love
you make me wanna match your clothes to mine

we're all grown now but i dont know what to do
my lifes in shambles but it feels much better with you
i've lost track of the amount of times youve blocked me
but you keep running back
i know we're meant to be from the way you look at me
from back when we were wearing backpacks

i wanna match your clothes to mine
i wanna wear matching bracelets with the colour of your eyes
you make me wanna do that corny couple stuff
i never thought id be this much in love
you make me wanna match your clothes to mine

2019

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https://open.spotify.com/album/1jYjE4SUs9yd4rC3ydjHvM

mauve nois5

eventually