prod michael harrison

please close your eyes
stop watching me 
eyes fixed to the pavement
not a pretty sight to see 

but why do i care
wind blows through the trees
ghost not even there
am i the only one who sees
clear enough to watch as your lies tear along their seams
try to tell myself 
its not as frightnight as it seems

please close your eyes
stop watching me 
eyes fixed to the pavement
not a pretty sight to see 

but why do i care
wind blows through the trees
ghost not even there
am i the only one who sees

pretty

(prod acey & me)

oh
if i cry now 
would you be ashamed 
"is this how u act now at ur big age" :/
little conversations
i start to feel drained
think of all the friendships i used to maintain

i cant see whats nearing 
lots of fog out in the plains
peering through the glass
leave my hand prints on the panes
feel younger than i am 
always look so pale faced
i would leave the house but i wont make it past the gate

"talk amongst yourselves"
nothing left to say
even if there was 
rather shut myself away
people talk alot but dont say anything
ur words hit hard
put my head in hands and brace

if i cry now 
would you be ashamed
"is this how u act now 
at ur big age"
little conversations
i start to feel drained
think of all the friendships i used to maintain

if i cry now

maintain

prod by moneo
@dyingforcertain for pic <3

i pull on my hair 
refil the shattered glass 
i hold in my air
i wonder will i last

dont think its fair 
clawing, it tears
at me this year

i stay you still hurt me? :/
came with open arms.
back to places ive been
fern aligns the paths 
honest, would you care for me? 
when i come apart
feels like im just circling
right back where i started

i pull on my hair 
refil the shattered glass 
i hold in my air
i wonder will i last

dont think its fair 
clawing, it tears
at me this year

oh 
oh 
oh 
im lost

this year (moneo)

prod @stezzyxl <33


how are u with me? 
ill worry for a time 
when flowers bloom to dust
there gone before my eyes

ignoring what i said
used to go and tell her friends
wrongdoings i repent
make it ache inside my head
dripping liquor in the sand
comes in waves that i neglect
wasted time sat on the fence
now im feeling its effect

https://open.spotify.com/track/7CiiHaxnJ8XJnpPCDrwmL5?si=kT635nlKQTGYz__AHsmLNA

https://youtu.be/oB_cq54fyqI?si=MJc67wBDwbk43K-V

effect (stezzyxl)

cover of my friend auby song<33
https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc

it takes time to trust 
red line from love
why do i let you slip out my hands 
i act surprised when u went and made new friends

contemplate w/ notcursed

produced by @uvshy
thanks cam for pic
<3

i should be honest 
and i can be honest 
ill burn all my bridges 
and fulfil my promises to you

ill bury my sins deep in my garden 
was not my intention to be such a burden 
and i 

when everythings unjust 
theres nothing left here 
its all collecting dust 
right on my shelf dear

nothing before this 
it plays and it torments 
quite some time its been dormant
and my efforts exhaustive 

deep in the forest 
my mind such a torment
im unearthing burdens 
and im all alone and im

when everythings unjust 
theres nothing left here 
its all collecting dust 
right on my shelf dear

lalala

burden (prod. shy)

cover kinda of "take on the world" by you me at six


just say the word
and well take the world
just say ur hurt
and well face the worst

i can see
see the pain in ur eyes 
believe 
believe me i have tried
i wont
i wont pretend to know what uve been through
u should know
i wish it was me not u

just say the word
and well take the world
just say ur hurt
and well face the worst
nobody knows u the way that i know u
look in my eyes i will never desert u
just say the word
and well take the world x2

worst (you me at six)

prod Liminaldream
sadchill - https://youtu.be/bVADCzSEEdw?si=NPinYZvhiypZ8Tmz

were u always unsure 
did u care for a while
tend to find myself
hoping we reconsile

and now its not urs
see ur losing ur smile
u must feel some remorse
to act so jealous now

ooooo

dont u cry its getting u nowhere
you come to find ur actions have consiquences
i know u act under false pretenses

dont u cry its getting u nowhere
you come to find ur actions have consiquences
i know u act under false pretenses

were u always unsure 
did u care for a while
tend to find myself
hoping we reconsile

and now its not urs
see ur losing ur smile
u must feel some remorse
to act so jealous now

˗ˏˋ ♡ ˎˊ˗

remorse

prod by caves <3
master @itsseele
@whosvacant


i see refections at the waterfront
hide my face
dont like who ive become 
know u think
i wont amount to much
i still ruin everything i touch
i still ruin everything i touch.

i wish i was better than this
im tired of thinking im worthless
woah
tired of this fleeting feeling
i look at my reflection 
i dont wanna be here 
coz i ruin everything around me
tear it all down
in anger i ruin my image
burnt images on the ground
never been somewhere so sickening
I RUINED EVERTHING 
I RUIN EVERYTHING
I RUIN EVERYTHING 
I RUIN EVERYTHING

whispers around 
was it something i said 
what should i do 
you were my only friend
if it  where my choice 
id be with u instead
ur eyes full with tear drops 
and mine full of dread 

but youd stick it out though 
if you really cared
its not surprising 
just cause and effect
well was it worth just to feel some regret?
typical im just means to an end

i see refections at the waterfront
hide my face
dont like who ive become 
know u think
i wont amount to much
i still ruin everything i touch
i still ruin everything i touch.

ruin w/ vacant

prod king theta
TY CAM FOR PIC

letters that i keep 
cus i thought it would help
youre not so nice to me 
said you meant well.
sore eyes not blinking right
cant see it for myself
lay it out in black and white 
let go of things i held

lay it out in black and white
talking just to pass the time
and silence gets to me sometimes
but ill be alright

its all unfamilar 
cant stomach it at all
used to think i need her 
dont talk anymore
rinse and repeater
watch the pages turn

i grow tired with passing hours
we still water wilted flowers

letters that i keep 
cus i thought it would help
youre not so nice to me 
said you meant well.
sore eyes not blinking right
cant see it for myself
lay it out in black and white 
let go of things i held

˗ˏˋ ♡ ˎˊ˗

black and white

prod by michael harrison

its just how i am
distant for a while 
find my way back again
i still care, its not what it seems
do u think im terrible
been gone for weeks

i get on ur bad side 
when im all worked up again
distant when i dont feel right
its why im losing friends

curtains closed so i can mend 
im better on my own again
fall behind it never ends 
come back when im over it 

i get on ur bad side when im all worked up again 

its just how i am
distant for a while 
find my way back again
i still care, its not what it seems
do u think im terrible
been gone for weeks

ty for listening to my songs. i know i take a long time.

terrible

self prod
guitar by hiraeth
<3


in ur own ways
tell me where u stand
no. its not 2 faced
dont understand? :)
is all that you take
left the way u found it? 
now this i cant shake
not this, i doubt it

Maybe on a different day
You’d have been nice to me
Maybe in some different ways
U formed apologies
If the weather was a different type 
Would u still be with me?
Cloudy, with seafret in sight 
Does that mean anything?
its the way that you are
i thought you loved that i hated myself, not to mention
my critiques are poor
theres nothing left in this hollow, ashen and hes tarnished
to
no ones support
i probably could do more
baby watch me fumble, every chance i get in love
im
cutting down my line
is that what you planned for my life ?
its clearly out of spite, youve done it 3 or 4 more times

shake w/ hiraeth

corbin cover
cover of "mask it to the casket" :)
https://open.spotify.com/track/16u5jqodaQ5oWqhoTxhJhe?si=CeaWjF9zSFumLTxvtCpsbg

I can't be your crutch, can't hold myself up
Most days feel like a scumbag, I'm pushing my luck
Always saw through it, puppet on a string
I'm no narcissist, not in love with me
I get too frustrated when I'm not sedated
Threw away all my passion, baby I'm paying for my actions
Why you gotta celebrate it? I think that the wall's 'bout to cave in
I'm a kraken, my feelings being drowned, yeah, I sank them
Pathetic, yeah, I'm so pathetic, I get it
I'm a menace, it's time for my penance
Confession, I've been known to cause infection
A weapon, lethally inject, no discretion, no
I can't be your crutch, can't hold myself up
Most days feel like scum, I'm pushing my luck
Always saw through it, puppet on the screen
I'm no narcissist, not in love with me
No emotion, I mask it to the casket
Can't control it, do you really want to see me relapse?
Overloaded, I think it's time I pack in
Any way you fold it, yeah, it's always gonna be a back then
No, no emotion, won't let them see
Nothing to show, no vanity
I think I've lost all sanity
I have become my worst enemy
My heart is breaking, it's more than what's fair (more than what's fair)
I'm non-existent, it's like I'm not here (like I'm not here)
Don't wanna sink again, I don't, I'm scared (I don't, I'm scared)
I'm getting tired of this

mask it (corbin)

ty for help @itsseele <33
self prod
guitar @hiraethsry :D

to think i owe, anything at all
taking out my hand is all that u know
theres no walking this back, not letting it go
u dont even feel bad, youl reap what u sow

im lifting your weight, i wont carry this around
leave me lacking in faith, let it all hit the ground
lead me, shackles and chains, theres no hope for me now
how long does it take?! im done dragging it out

weight

prod by Liminaldream

blink, im 24
theres still things i cant be rid of
i think i could do more
feeling younger than i am

fell distant from my friends
things felt different on my end 
i feel my stomach sinking when

standing over a hole i cant fill
going nowhere, im at a standstill
this october, it weighs like anvils

and i could last 
this december
find my flame 
in dying embers 
find my passion
and it wont change how fast im aging 
i cant take it 
i cant

blink

prod by me and jacob vallen

wont eat for a while
my stomaches been aching
and im not myself 
not as of lately
few months ill heal right? im hardly inpatient
its not feeling real, counting cracks in the pavement
takes all i have to pull my anchor out
i dont know who i am, know everything about u
takes all i have, to make the words come out
im making nothing last, im pretty anxious now
 
dont tell me "people change" like you look down on me
you always said "its nothing" its alot to me
started turning heads, wont look back at me 
was just more of the same a little differently
giving nothing back 
its not important now
things u take for granted 
let my anger out 
i just cant grasp it
nah, its not important now

takes all i have to pull my anchor out
i dont know who i am, know everything about u
takes all i have, to make the words come out
im making nothing last, im pretty anxious now

evergarden ❀

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