being odd these days since i don't get sleep
got no time 'cause i'm wrappin' it on my wrists
all my old videos still in my phone
listenin' to my voice, man' i really feel like a clone
sorry for the child who lives inside of me
for not being a youtuber, yeah, always been your dream
i'm hella wasted 'cause nobody ever told me
i would be this stuck, man why am i so dumb?
i don't put expectations in people i don't know
since i'm a fool and i always fail on my own
i hate this damn world, wanna go back home
to watch some old dvds, when i get so alone?

no dogs are barkin

prod. neverforever

im so out of it
im tired im lost
i feel tired of this shit
i feel tired of this bitch
im so tired of this shit
i feel so brain dead cuz i fell into a pit
tell myself i wont be missed
starve myself till death
cut myself on open wings
ik what you fucking mean
cuz im tired of this shit
cuz im tired of this shit
cuz im tired of this bitch

tired of this shit

fuck sobriety

@girled

https://open.spotify.com/album/6bGbUsUVYTqhMQMLEN8coG?si=spKEAcUySau-PwPPjvZV0g

pick it to bits

(i forgorr who produced this sorry)

LYRICS:
are you using my body 
or are u just feelin alone 
ur placed in my head
you said it was hard in ur room
i must forget just to get you out of my mind 
if im really feeling desperate ill reach out to you know i cannot stay  at times
picture perfect because you exist when i call ur phone will you pick up the line
its alright gotta draw right back 
get to switchin in the car drivin while im with that without you 
how come everybody  say all kinds of stupid shit 
i wouldve left my house in peace and didn't have to quite 
if i really had to pick it wouldn't even be you 
so now your stuck up without me you fuckin evil bitch 
This part is stuck in my head 
i feel so vulnerable to you sometimes when i cry 
lay down and scroll all on my phone until i decide 
do u  really need you 
its not complete

i feel like your using me...

in my darkest dreams i see
ur much closer now to me
i have got you in my hair
i can feel you round me everywhere
if i ever was to tell
i could talk of you so well
but ur here in me and will always be
the secret that i want to keep

in a kiss lies so much more than touch
and my lifes found a new temptation
and ecstasy has meaning once again

vera showed me this song ty vera i love u

strawberry switchblades

you bring me nothing but misery, but here i am waiting 4u
lyrics
tappin out
in my head 
i see bright lights
riding in
i think im feeling it now
just like you did
taking hits for you
cuz i wanna feel like im supposed to
i could disappear
if this is what makes me feel so real
and ill break for you baby
cuz it makes me feel so real
and ill break for you baby
cuz you make it feel so real
and ill break for you baby
cuz you make it feel so real
and ill break for you baby
cuz you make it feel so real
break-alex g cover/rotversion

break my skin cause you make it feel so real

im actually going to do it so bury my body whore

This time is different, I feel different
Lost under tension, fateful companion
Your skin is frozen, my wounds closing
You overestimate the ones you love, the steps you take
And I want us to be best friends
But maybe, baby
I can't pretend


When I’m asleep is when you call me
Don't talk too deep, we'll be sorry
Find hope in nothing, we are nothing
I want us to be until the end
But maybe, baby
I can’t pretend

until the end

get high with me w/ leff

ig tearstaineddoll
prod. myss

why must i bleed for those i love?
why can’t they see it’s them i trust?
i’m shouting loud but it’s never enough,
my heart’s on fire, but you call it dust.

i’ve been pulling thorns out of my own skin,
every time you strike, you say it’s “discipline.”
i’m the mirror you refuse to look in,
breaking just to make you whole again.

and i keep carrying what’s not mine,
drawing scars just to draw a line.
you say i’m selfish when i say “i’m tired,”
but i’ve been burning on your fire.

why must i bleed for those i love?
why can’t they see it’s them i trust?
i’m shouting loud but it’s never enough,
my heart’s on fire, but you call it dust.

why must i bleed for those i love?

why must i bleed for those i love?

i’ve given you everything you could touch,
but you only want more, you only want more.
how do i find myself again
when i’m lying face-down on the floor?

why must i bleed for those i love?
why can’t they see it’s them i trust?
i’m shouting loud but it’s never enough,
my heart’s on fire, but you call it dust.

Bleed for me instead

everia