Name: the penance - demo by expathmia
Duration: 3 min 25 s
Description: a little demo i've had for a while. idk if i'll continue to work on it in the future or not. it's kinda shitty cause I never really finished it but whatever lol

when this comes in, it's just so so so good

guitar and prod @cherryrizla
vox @cherryrizla @leytonmode @blissom

twisting

onemanarmy

* a citizen expresses their concerns.

track 2/7

self produced, self-written, and self assured

lyrics:
i can tell you how it starts
you can tell me how it ends
i can tell you how it starts
you can tell me how it ends
setter of trends, setter of trends
put me on a pedestal
i love to be my own false idol
show me where believers go
ten bodies at the edge of a cliff

now you're picking up
what he's putting down
(x2)
it's been getting easier to act like
i'm the main character of my life
and i'm afraid of where this might be headed
promise me
you won't let me see
all the ways i might fall short

i'm planning my escape
keeping a poker face
this game that we play
is getting old
how much longer will it take for you to
call off the dogs you think you own
you think you own everything
(are you committed to the bit?)
(it's eating you up slowly but surely)

excellence syndrome

Excellence Syndrome, or when the Joke Becomes Your Personality

self prod+mix

lyrics:
tell me i'm responsible
treat me like i'm out of my head
you say that i'm volatile
oh was it something i said?
i don't like how you talk to me
honestly you can follow me baby
all this time i been wandering
apologies for monotony lately

ok my feelings weren't true i didn't mean that
i went and latched onto you and you can see that
it wasn't something i'd do, can you believe that?
can you believe that?
can you believe that????

get me out of my head, i'm feeling aimless
was it something i said that i can just take back?
i know i'm better off dead don't make it painless
i didn't know at the time it would just fade to black
oh get me out, oh give me something new
things headed south, i don't know what to do
i'd go without, i'd sew my mouth right shut
oh hear me now, i'll go and get my stuff

i didn't want it but i need it
flash forward on the ground, 'cause i'm bleeding
you're so fucking conceited
look at you now, are you happy? you succeeded
i don't mind, no i don't mind tho
i close my eyes and let the time flow
i go outside and shut my pie hole
started thinking i'm onto something

ok my feelings weren't true i didn't mean that
i went and latched onto you and you can see that
it wasn't something i'd do, can you believe that?
can you believe that?
can you believe that????

get me out of my head, i'm feeling aimless
was it something i said that i can just take back?
i know i'm better off dead don't make it painless
i didn't know at the time it would just fade to black
oh get me out, oh give me something new
things headed south, i don't know what to do
i'd go without, i'd sew my mouth right shut
oh hear me now, i'll go and get my stuff

repeat second half of chorus

volatile

||see you soon||
just a little something to hold off till my album,,,

prod me ykyky

🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
i know you're trying your way
but it's not what you planned
the mark i made on this place
that is not who i am
but who am i to say "no" to..
(i give it my all)
it's so true
but people always look saying
"do i even know you?"
no you don't
but will soon will find out
(one day)
imma lose my mind now.

[hook]
cause i'm going crazy this is never what i wanted
be honest
it feels so different from when i started
i never thought i'd ever reach a point like this
but i'm just trying to make a difference
i just wanna fucking live my life

[verse 2]
but i don't wanna have to leave this all behind
but i don't know how
and you don't know when
the cycle will repeat it's self i just want it to end
but i'm stuck sitting here saying better luck next time
i just hope the next time i'll be there
until then i'll be spinning around while you stare
i got some shit i'm tryin to say i gotta prove it
instead i'm letting it die

[hook]
cause i'm going crazy this is never what i wanted
be honest
it feels so different from when i started
i never thought i'd ever reach a point like this
but i'm just trying to make a difference
i just wanna fucking live my life

[outro]
its time that you look inside
you would never believe who i could find
it's coming soon i promise on my life
you just gotta believe that you're on time.

live my life

~ thought it would be cool to remix "home" again to see just how much my production skills have improved in the months since I put out my first remix!

 ~full credit again to @dramatrial for creating the original track and for providing me with the stems to make my remixes! :3

~ apart from the elements used from original song's stems, this flip was produced, mixed, and mastered by me! more original music (hopefully) coming soon!! :3

jish's home renovation! (drama trial - home [jish flip V2])

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qTwplbhVcbY&ab_channel=FayBay

yeah i think you gotta love hack
flip a switch and you just turn me on like that (mmm)
why you ghost me when im askin do you love me back (uh)
got my wires crossed im bout to have a heart attack (OUCH!)
yeah your love is a virus
but my firewall just cant fight it (oo/ew)
tried to control alt and delete (woo!)
tongue tied trippin over my feet

thigh highs crop top i hope you notice me
i'm the only one in your general vacinity
all your mixed signals got my circuits fried
complete overload to my harddrive
too many things have gone unsaid
why won't you just jump in my bed
hard-stuck single messed up my head
tried to open up, left on read

yeah i think you gotta love hack
flip a switch and you just turn me on like that
why you ghost me when im askin do you love me back
got my wires crossed im bout to have a heart attack
yeah your love is a virus
but my firewall just cant fight it
bought my heart tore up the reciept
double texted beggin you please

all i need is a little attention
been a bad girl, lock me up in detention
gotta pop pills to control the depression
gonna go back playin league and genshin
sucks we died before we could bloom
i give up i'll be in my room
might come out in one year or two
don't wait up, i'll be fine it's cool

Lovehaxx

Produced, mixed, mastered by November Day
guitars by alkyl
138bpm Cmaj

lyrics:
Nobody on this earth is thinking about me right now 
Live with a filter, assert myself, pretend I’m highbrow 
So if you see me you could maybe be proud of the way that I turned out 
My drifting spirit echoes silence, lay awake til I’m crashed on the floor 

Don't know what to say
Cause you'd leave me unopened anyway
Sorta hopin your location could be next to me 
Off a whiim, swam too deep I knew I couldn't swim
(Swam too deep I- Swam too deep I knew I couldn't swim)
Now I'm drowning but I haven't got my feet wet

Filter

a little demo i've had for a while. idk if i'll continue to work on it in the future or not. it's kinda shitty cause I never really finished it but whatever lol

the penance - demo

most of the melody from https://soundcloud.com/threedimensionsapart 's splice pack

meadows

art by  @melacholic_chrysanthemum: www.instagram.com/p/C6zhR0bS34U/?u…MzRlODBiNWFlZA==
thank you to https://soundcloud.com/cocovanss for showing me the albert camus recording used at the end:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GFHLYJlqAF4&ab_channel=AhmedHoussem

self grieving

your proud anchoress -|-
email: expathmia@gmail.com

the penance - demo

expathmia

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