so much for showing, just gonna be a laughing stock
i wouldnt have even done it, 
and i need a safeguard in case i give up
so i've deleted everything, 
scrubbing out everything
can't hurt if i'm unobserved

i've deleted everything

i dont think youll do what u wanna
i been smoking green light the fauna
make the beat hot like a sauna 
cause i can only sing bout marihuana

where the kick at
i dont need a transient to make the beat slap
i think ill take that
cause im the king of the hill i shouldnt say that

i been thinkin bout moving the product
or at least until im stepping in some pradas
i been living my life like its a drama
except every day im seeing a new comma

where the kick at
didnt mean to break you off like a kit kat
i think ill take that
cause everything is mine i guess i shouldnt say that

εїз ☆ Whimsical Forest Gnome Discovers The Sacred Triangle Wave ☆ εїз

i watched a man die last night
shoveled pills but they couldn’t even keep him alive
and when i saw my reflection in those empty eyes
i bit my tongue

and he said
“boy, it seems i’ve finally reached my time
the gross unknown, the twisted blurry lines”
and i couldn’t help but stand there
stoned and petrified
i wish i’d said goodbye

if i see your face again i think i'll fall apart
conflated, left in idle stress, you found your way in to my art
floating down the lake bed, tears piled in my arms
cos it all leads down to something less, we feel so small amongst the stars

if i die here wondering, "was i ever enough?"
deflated, lost the confidence to bottle it up
falling through the mattress, fear boils and erupts
no lifeline can save me drowning, i'm giving up

so i looked to myself
and asked “who the hell am i?
was the death of who i was a noble sacrifice?”
shoveled pills and then drank the liquid suicide
i’ll let fate carry me tonight

and he said
“boy, it seems i’ve finally reached my time
the gross unknown, the twisted blurry lines”
and i couldn’t help but stand there
stoned and petrified
i wish i’d said goodbye

PERMADEATH

This is kinda like a tribute/ homage to imintoyou by @brakence....

So emotional,
is it my fault again
if im emotional
can we pretend we're friends?
Oh, you left me here alone
friend you didn't know
so why'd you call my phone
you left me here- 
so emotional
is it my fault again
if im emotional 
can we pretend again
I just want a friend 
why can't we pretend
ill start all over again
I loved you once again 
cuz im into you
cuz im into you

Pretend

Sglily Scream Cover

Met with nothing but hate from the world she knows, she seeks out a new comfort. 
-
The first single to expathmia's upcoming concept album!

The Occurrence

vai5000 & jish! - cirrostratus

[LYRICS]

Did you like my cupcake? I got it special made,
I got it- got it special made, did you like my cupcake?
I got it made for you, I hope you swallow me too,
I hope you swallow me too, special made for you.

Uh, all alone on the closing shift,
gotta get done and get home,
it's colder in here without all of the people,
and I really wish that I wasn't so alone.
Walk over to my locker, there's a note,
laying on my backpack by my coat, try this cupcake I made for you.
Who left this here, well i guess i have to

Do you taste the opium? I laced- It's laced with opium,
We're gonna have a lot of fun, its special made- with opium,
Feel your body start to tingle, feel your body letting go,
We're gonna have a lot of fun, I hope you swallow me whole.

sparklecringe - cupcake

lyrics written and recorded by josetta, dylan longworth, & silkscarf (aka phoebe andromeda)
guitars and extra instrumentation provided by silkscarf & josetta
produced and mixed by jish!
mastered by silkscarf

[LYRICS]

[josetta]

starting to think you’re not serious
i put in all this goddamn effort, just to get paid back with dust
this shits been making me furious
i guess you can tell it’s been getting quite hard to adjust

we haven’t spoken in a month
thought that i’d get a response by now
you’ve been testing my patience, losing all of my trust
i’m still wondering why and how

you never called me back
call me back
please call me back sometime
you never called me back
there’s so much to unpack
please don’t lose track of our time

[dylan longworth]

starting to think that i’m delirious
for two weeks, i felt weak, you did it again
why are you acting so mysterious?
i’d speak, but hell we aren’t better as friends
labels bring security, you exhibit no maturity
lying sorrow full of scurities
there’s no future that’s got you and me

bomb me with your love, plead to call me up
said i wouldn’t, but i swear you called my bluff
watched you give me up, how am i not enough?
not a ghost but i watched you turn to dust
eternal cycle, wont make it out
i’ll sleep for hours, my heads too loud
i miss notification sounds
just call me back i’m breaking down

[silkscarf]

i can’t escape you
i can’t move on
choked on our dream
swore i could feel you
inside the walls
do you still feel me?

[josetta]

you never called me back
call me back
please call me back sometime
you never called me back
there’s so much to unpack
please don’t lose track of our time

don’t know why you can’t let me go
i was lovebombed, you took control
disappeared then you went ghost
“if you need a thing just let me know”
never thought i’d fall down this low
finally reaping what i sow
i don’t know what i’m supposed to do
now that i gave my life away to you

josetta, dylan longworth, silkscarf, & jish! - call me back (demo)

b-sides and rarities EP

The Mergansers taking from Amour Sisterhood 2025 compilation

original photo by Lal Tuna

The Mergansers

Third- Courante

SCRATCH OUT MY EYES. NEW EP OUT 8/22
email: expathmia@gmail.com