A slow ballad about love lost forever.....

My Crying Eyes

i just felt like dropping some music, enjoy <3

@exposing.toxicc - River Of Tears [p. @malloy x @aidanhan ]

It started perfect
Back when we could work it
All the little notes that you'd leave for me

A sunset holding
All our wiltin roses 
A painting flowing red of our legacy

You couldn’t love me
Didn’t know how to be
I was the fool for losing you

You couldn’t help me
Help myself
So I planted my feet back into that mess

And they say
I’ll know
When it’s time to let you go

They say
I’ll know
When it’s time to let you go

So let’s get married
Pull up the horse & carriage
Anachronistic luggage in the danger zone

So why oh why oh
We swimming in the Nile?
When nothin' makes us smile when we’re on our own?

You couldn’t love me
Didn’t know how to be
I was the fool
For losing you

You couldn’t help me
Help myself
So I stuck my feet back into that mess

And they say
You’ll know 
When it’s time to let me go

They say
You’ll know
When it’s time to let me go
Go

{solo}

And they say
We’ll know
When it’s time to let it go

And they say
We’ll know 
When it’s time to let it
It’s time to let it
It’s time to let it
It’s time to let it 
Go oh oh oh oh go oh oh
Let it Go oh oh oh oh go oh oh

they say

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Crown of Chaos

Michael Paul - Wide Open

Lyrics:
Oh, feel my heart
A child's racing tiktiktiktik
The river's cold around my waist
The pews were brimming
So she was sull

The nightmare is dressed in lace
With scarlet skin and darkest faith
She said those words that echoed poison
"See the wheel, watch the blood"

It only comes at night
All because of you
The nightmare on the rise
All because of you
It's face I've seen it, it ain't right

The sky turned black with bonfire smoke
Of every wheel, as father said
Encased in sleep, I saw an image
And as the moon rose

That wheel bit my finger
Turned blood into water
That wheel bit and sunk deep
To me into bread 

It only comes at night
All because of you
The nightmare on the rise
All because of you
It's face I've seen it, it ain't right

Eternal sleep took me there
When I walked in the chamber
But never woke
And this body,
And this craving
It comes on at night,
I woke up with no control
A second nightmare in red

It only comes at night
All because of you
The nightmare on the rise
All because of you
It's face I've seen it, it ain't right

It only comes at night
All because of you
The nightmare on the rise
All because of you
It's face I've seen it, it ain't right

THE BRIDE OF THE CRIMSON REST

It creeps in slowly.

First, a line that feels too familiar.
Then a melody that writes itself a little too easily.
It’s theirs, but they don’t know where it came from.
It’s just there. And it creeps them out.

When artists break, they make noise.
When academics break—
they carefully examine every possible cause.

They do what they’ve been trained to do:
Ask a question.
Test a hypothesis.
Document everything.

So, they go granular.
They map verse lengths.
They chart emotional pace.
They count refrains.
They rank self-awareness—
per measure,
labeled, tagged, time-stamped, scored.

The results are clear.
Uncomfortably so.

The lyrics aren’t random.
The tone shifts aren’t intuitive.
They’re… too deliberate.

Like the songs were written
by someone watching their lives from the inside.

Theo squints at a spreadsheet.
“There is a pattern,” he says.
“But I’ve never seen anything like it before.”

Kate doesn’t answer.
She’s busy color-coding irony.

Eventually, they stop analyzing.
They write,
not to understand—
but to just see what’s left.

Ava’s pencil stops.
She smiles, remembering how Julian laughed
at her terrible attempt to rhyme “solidarity” with “clarity.”

At that exact moment, Julian’s pen hovers.
He pictures Ava in the hallway—
her dimples catching the light,
that little nod she does when she approves
but won’t admit it.

The cat settles in Kate’s lap, purring like a soft engine.
Kate sighs—low and content—
and for a heartbeat, everything feels right.

They looked for a variable.
But the answer didn’t come in an equation.

It came in something worse.

A feeling.

And feelings—
scientists hate feelings.

They’re messy.
They don’t converge.
You can’t replicate them.
And you definitely can’t explain them
without ruining the effect.

This is Test Eleven.

The method failed.
The emotion broke through.

And this is a song about what happens
when you feel everything—
and don’t know why.

Song: I’m Not Sure Why

I'm not sure why I'm shouting, but I feel I must
The silence weighs heavy, and my voice is dust
I'm not sure why I'm crying, but I feel I need
The tears flow like rivers, my soul to feed

I'm not sure why I'm running, but I can't stay still
Chasing after shadows up a lonely hill
I'm not sure why I'm fighting, but I can't give in
The battle's my refuge, where the pain begins

I'm not sure why I'm hoping, but I cling to the thread
A whisper of faith in a mind full of dread
I'm not sure why I'm dreaming, but I hold on tight
To a vision of peace in the darkest night

And every question burns, like a flame on my tongue
Every answer fades, like a song unsung
But something inside me keeps pushing me on
Though I can’t explain what I’m searching upon

I'm not sure where I'm going, but I won't turn back
The road may be winding, but I've found my track
I'm not sure why I'm shouting, but I feel I must
In this echoing void, I will place my trust

Test 11: Why Do You Feel What You Feel? (I'm Not Sure Why)

Feel free to say what's inside your mind 
Don't be afraid of the sunshine
You are so kind, smart and pretty
Feel free to be what you want baby.

Under the green lights, I wished you were here
One year later, I heard your laughter 
The wind was singing : « She is coming.
One year later, on September. »

I like tickling you inside your bed 
You laugh so loudly, shaking your head 
You give me the strength to go on daily
I'll be here for you whatever you need

Under the green lights, I wished you were here
One year later, I heard your laughter 
The wind was singing : « She is coming.
One year later, on September. »



Under The Green Lights

NickJC Joyful Ft UnknownKid11111

COVER SONG

This is part of a live jam session held at my house on February 7, 2016. Super Bowl Sunday!

Larry Ponczek - Lead Guitar
Joe Storino - Vocal & Bass -
Joe DeBrizzio - Rhythm Guitar -
Ron Snyder - Guitar -

Black Magic Woman - Santana (Peter Green) COVER - Ponczek/Storino/DeBrizzio/Snyder - LIVE

Rage is an energetic instrumental including some clean guitars.

Rage

turning my emotions into lyrics.

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@exposing.toxicc - River Of Tears [p. @malloy x @aidanhan ]

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