[Verse 1]
I’m stuck in a maze
My mind tries to dismiss it
But your smile sets ablaze
Any vow I’d keep distant
This ain’t child’s play, I know what I’m hungry for
If I speak it loud, I’d break my world apart
‘Cause him indoors is rationing love for power
Yet your midnight call, it steals my only calm, I’m devoured

[Chorus]
Should I give in or act like I am strong?
Touches still lead me where I shouldn’t be
Will I lose it all if I chase this dream?
Or is risk a path that sets me free?
Should I leave, or yield to the thrill I see?
Or stay with vows that mask reality?

[Verse 2]
You’re damn cute in that suit
But can’t swap the life I’m living
This Ealing dream shines bright
You stand near, a tempting sign
I hold two kids, degrees, a home so secure
And your shape rules my thoughts, I’m drawn for sure
Secret acts, though veiled, ring in broad daylight
Each stolen kiss might burn the bonds we formed, I’m craving spark

[Chorus]
Should I give in or act like I am strong?
Touches still lead me where I shouldn’t be
Will I lose it all if I chase this dream?
Or is risk a path that sets me free?
Should I leave, or yield to the thrill I see?
Or stay with vows that mask reality?

[Breakdown]
Could he be devil in disguise?
His glance breaks vows I built for truth
One brush ignites rebellious proof
I’m trembling, still longing to fall

[Chorus]
Should I give in or act like I am strong?
Touches still lead me where I shouldn’t be
Will I lose it all if I chase this dream?
Or is risk a path that sets me free?
Should I leave, or yield to the thrill I see?
Or stay with vows that mask reality?

Should I

The papers, they're not lookin' out for no one, 'cept for their own people.
There's a lot of power in this building.
And that's who the broadsheets are lookin' out for.
Dem people up there, in Broadcasting House, yeah.
Like they ain't thinkin' of us, they're thinkin' about their one worldview, the one that's up there.
In this city, there's a sick focus on takin' you down.

[Verse 1]
To be real, I can't trust this place
It's a mission every day to keep a straight look on my face
Came up on the grind, no silver spoon or gap year
My accent's Northern, they hear it and they just sneer
They won't let me learn from my mistakes, they want me gone so quick
Tryna find a reason, any little thing to pick
I'm a black man at the Beeb, I climbed the wall they built
Now I'm inside they're tryna gut me with their manufactured guilt

[Pre-Chorus]
Is it safe here?
Is it really safe?
I don't feel safe, nah
I don't feel psychologically safe

[Chorus]
Daily Mail on my trail! Telegraph on my back!
Blowin' up my errors, tryna get a reaction
Judge, jury, executioner, demandin' an extraction
Want the DG to come out and give this black man the sack!
It makes me anxious
So anxious
'Cause this ain't justice
Nah, this ain't justice

[Verse 2]
Can't even trust my colleagues, what paper do they read?
Leakin' private chatter, plantin' a poison seed
I make one small slip, they gotta sharpen up their aim
Tryna hit my career, try to tarnish my whole name
You turn your face down and won't stand for my cause
They’re alright, Jack, but one day there'll be no one to fight for yours
They see a "black woke bastard" when they look in my direction
A scapegoat for the failure of the posh boy selection

[Pre-Chorus]
Is it safe here?
Is it really safe?
I don't feel safe, nah
I don't feel psychologically safe

[Chorus]
Daily Mail on my trail! Telegraph on my back!
Blowin' up my errors, tryna get a reaction
Judge, jury, executioner, demandin' an extraction
Want the DG to come out and give this black man the sack!
It makes me anxious (Makin' me someone I don't wanna be)
So anxious (Drivin' me someplace I don't wanna be)
'Cause this ain't justice
Yeah, it's what they've always shown to me
Someone's always tellin' me
Just calm down and let it be

[Bridge]
They say "If you hate your job, mate, just get a new one!"
But this ain't just a job, it's a war that must be won
The loudest in the room ain't the one who leads the best
I lead with resilience, puttin' my heart to the test
Yeah, I've thought about it, but right now I'd rather stay and give 'em hell
Watch the beast that wants me gone, trapped inside its own cell.

[Chorus]
Daily Mail on my trail! Telegraph on my back!
Blowin' up my errors, tryna get a reaction
Judge, jury, executioner, demandin' an extraction
Want the DG to come out and give this black man the sack!
It makes me anxious
So anxious
'Cause this ain't justice
Nah, this ain't justice

[Outro]
Psychologically safe...
I don't feel...
...Watched...
...Black man at the Beeb...
...Judged...
...Is it safe?...


Is it safe here?

Epilogue – The Walls that Speak
Back in Brixton, Gil channels grief into brick and verse. He and local masons restore a forgotten railway arch into The Kofi Centre, etching its walls with stories of every young life lost to violence or policy. He inscribes Kofi’s name beside his own, finally understanding Utnapishtim’s lesson: the city remembers what its people build together. Immortality is communal.

[Intro]
I guess I now believe it
And I think we all believe it too
So take all these lessons and build
You can take all these lessons and build
So take all these lessons and build

[Verse 1]
Driven by a new decision
Can't hold this silence no more
Bearing the echoes of this incision
Etched bright and deep across the wall
His steady heart pounds with precision
A legacy lives inside these courts
His steady heart pounds with precision
A legacy lives inside these doors

[Chorus]
We'll make it all work out, we'll make it all work out
We'll make it all work out, we'll make it all work out
We'll make it all work out, we'll make it all work out
We'll make it all work out, we'll make it all work out
"Communal truth...", "Walls remember..."

[Verse 2]
I don't mind their past inhibition
Pushed us against the wall
Mistakes of their flawed vision
It's easier to let them fall
From the strength of our tradition
Our answers heard their true calls
Build and leave with what we know
And this spirit won't fade at all

[Bridge]
The flood of stories, faith in the shared of heart
And the walls reflect, the walls project
A light on everything we've made
Flood of stories, living in the words we've heard
And as the walls reflect, the walls project
A light on everything we've made—worked out

"Homes for People"
"Homes for People..."

I guess we gotta make them see
And I think we gotta make them believe
So spray all these visions and go
You can spray all these visions and go
So spray all these visions and go

[Verse 3]
Crafting a new intention
Can't hide their plight no more
Wearing the mark of oppression
Left lying stark across the door
Their hearts beat with conviction
A message screams through the courts
Their hearts beat with conviction
A message screams through these doors

[Chorus]
Make it all work out, make it all work out
Make it all work out, make it all work out
Make it all work out, make it all work out
Make it all work out, make it all work out
"Not profit...", "For the people, now..."

Brixton Resonance - Track 7 - The Walls That Speak

[Chorus]
Creator, lend your spirit, give me might (Give me strength, yeah)
I won't disappear or flee from fight (No, no, I won't run away)
Stand against this crushing, present dread (My head held high against it all)
I won't utter any last farewell, unsaid (No goodbyes, no final call)
This moment won't improve, not ever, ever, ever (Nah, it won't get better, Lord)
Creator, lend your spirit, give me might (Oh, Creator, strength to see)
I won't disappear or flee from fight (Won't fade or flee, just me)
Stand against this crushing, present dread (Facing all this heavy fear)
I won't utter any last farewell, unsaid (No final word, just staying here)
This moment won't improve, not ever, ever, ever (Never gonna improve, hear?)

[Verse 1]
Just surviving, I aspire (Aspire, aspire)
Smoothing out the angst my thoughts inspire (Creases gone, I pray)
Hollow spots where my assurance used to stay (My certainty, it left)
No safe space fills the void I'm now afraid to weigh (Feeling so bereft)
Yeah, I am grounded in this present moment, you see (Uh-huh)
But ICE agents still want to send folks like me to prison, honestly (Oh, Lord)
My past does not define me, I repeat the line (Yeah, I keep repeating)
But my papers ain’t quite straight, Lord, I'm losing time (Clock is ticking, bleeding)
I work hard, put in effort, day and night (Hardest worker, me)
My sweet children, they still shine so bright (My babies, wild and free)
I'm a good person, truly, from my soul (You know I am, you know)
But immigration wants to take my future, take my toll. (Watching my future go)

[Pre-Chorus]
So when they come, those shadows taking hold (When they come for me)
May quiet greet their path, a story to be told (A quiet ending, please)
Yet I pray, for peace I desperately chase (For peace, I chase and yearn)
That I discover calm in my own lonely space (A quiet place to turn)
My spirit's troubled by the past, the way things were (Still haunting me, the past)
If only I'd been stronger, made plans that could endure (Should've built something to last)
Still I pray, for light within this darkening place (For some small ray of hope)
I find some comfort in this current day, with grace (Just trying hard to cope, oh)

[Chorus]

[Drop]

[Verse 2]
Misconstruing, what is real or fake right here (What’s real, what’s fake, Lord?)
That some glimmer of truth is present, standing near (A light that isn't clear)
It helps to picture hope remains, holding me so near, my dear (Hope, just stay so near)
But I know, these burdens are heavy to bear (So heavy, so much to fear)
Old shadows follow wherever I go, the constant fear (Still chasing, always here)
If only I'd been stronger, stood taller than before (Should've been a giant, yeah)
All the words I left unsaid, knocking at my door (So many things to share)
Ego that I failed to shed, weighing on my soul (That pride, it took its toll)
And liberated all my outstretched hands, to make me whole. (Searching for control)
Lord, I think I have cancer, symptoms are so clear (Oh, the pain, it grows)
No insurance, and Medicaid needs documents this year. (Nowhere left to go)
I’ll work until I drop, just to keep my family fed (Till my last breath is spent)
Trump, I voted for him, now he’s turning on my head. (My own vote, a dark lament)
I love my spouse, so much, what am I to do, Lord? (My love, my only plea)
Clarity comes through calm, not chaos, says the word. (But chaos surrounds me)

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

[Drop]

[Outro]

I am more than my fears

[Intro]
Yo... check it. Yeah.

[Verse 1]
Someone snatched my own head, man, swear I truly misplaced it
Must've just taken that feeling, when your sweet lips touched my face, kid
Yeah, you got me buggin', losing my own mental state
Mind scattered on the pavement, can't even stand up straight
'Uh, real talk.'
See, I stand up tall 'gainst any mountain
And break it down with the strength of my hand
I'll scoop up all the fragments, build a new island
Might even grow some fresh land, understand?
'Cause you just walked off with my heart, yo, tucked it in your coat
Security just shrugged their shoulders, like, 'There she floats!'
Yeah, just ran off grinning, my whole spirit now your prize
No pursuit, no questions, just that sparkle in your eyes.

[Chorus]
Guess I'm a soul child! (Yeah!)
The heavens know I'm a wild child, honey! (Oh, you know it!)
Yeah, I'm a soul child! (Straight up!)
Lord knows I'm a style child, money! (Get that paper!)

[Verse 2]
Just wanna speak a final thought, yeah, before this whole thing's done
I never meant to steal your precious hours, not even a single one
But your body, it just grabbed me, stole my whole sense of will
You split, but swear to God, I can still see you standing still
I'm just mesmerised by that tight dress, those curves, a living art
Your frame holds me locked and entranced, ripping my whole world apart
'Damn, she fine.'
I'll earn that respect back, one of these moments, for sure
Yeah, got my own path to follow, kickin' down every door
Sometimes I'm hopeful, sometimes sad, navigating this strange flow
Tryna make sense of the feelings, gotta let the real truth show.

[Chorus]
Guess I'm a soul child! (Hear me now!)
The heavens know I'm a wild child, honey! (Yeah, a wild one!)
Yeah, I'm a soul child! (No doubt!)
Lord knows I'm a style child, money! (Stack it up!)

[Bridge]
If our paths don't cross in this existence, this current earthly sphere
I'll find you in the next life, please don't hesitate, just be near
'Cause some connections, they just linger, beyond the physical sight
A spiritual resonance, shining like a guiding light
Yeah, you took a piece, but you left a vision, a blueprint in my head
Of what could be, what might've been, though all the words were left unsaid.

[Chorus]
Guess I'm a soul child! (Still here!)
The heavens know I'm a wild child, honey! (Can't be tamed!)
Yeah, I'm a soul child! (Always!)
Lord knows I'm a style child, money! (Yeah, get that!)

[Outro]
Yeah, I'm a soul child, baby...
I never accept a straight 'no' for a response, no sir…
Lord knows I'm a soul child, baby...
Mmm-hmm... yeah.

soul child

[Intro]
"If I could earn it, then why won't you? Stand up and make it thrive."
"Now or never, now or never... (Yeah)"

[Verse 1]
Yo, look, I put in the hours, my grind ain't a secret
Last quarter, I slayed that project, no way I'mma tweak it
No more days of just standing around, it's right now or never, I'm claiming my worth.
Kept my lips sealed, my head in the game, no complaints from my side
Saw the vision clear from the jump, ain't no place to hide. (Uh-huh)
They won't ever tell me I'm too slow, knew I had this fire from birth.
Came from the bottom, no handouts, just concrete and dirt
Still gotta stay sharp, yeah, I stack up the work.

[Pre-Chorus]
Painting a future when I spit my truth, don't call me just a rapper, I'm truly an artist.
This ain't some fluke, nah, I rolled the dice and scored with my shot. (One shot!)
Still got fuel in my tank, ain't at full throttle, but the engine is hot.
They don't ever wanna see me advance, but I know in the long run I'm winning regardless.

[Chorus]
I need that promotion, yeah, I need that pay rise! (Pay rise!)
It's now or never, can't you see the hunger in my eyes?
Yeah, it's now or never, or I'm taking my talents and running wild! (Running wild!)
If I could earn it, then why won't you? Stand up and make it thrive.
No more days of just standing around, it's right now or never, I'm claiming my worth. (My worth!)

[Verse 2]
Yeah, switching lanes, yo, saw you just the other morning
Walking to the office, your phone took a dive, no warning.
I scooped it up smooth, then you hit me with that stare (That look!)
Like, "Who's this brother?", caught me off guard, right there.
Liked the whole vibe, the way you carried yourself, yeah, you fit the description
Thought, "This could be somethin' real," felt like a premonition. (Real talk)
Bought you a drink when we linked up, kept the conversation flowing
But I'm still waiting for that green light, tell me where this thing is going.
I've been pushing harder than all time, I don't have leisure to pause and chill.

[Pre-Chorus]
Painting a feeling when I spill my soul, don't call me just a talker, I'm truly an artist.
This ain't by luck, nah, I took my shot and I landed my target.
I'm not fully cooked yet, not at 100, but the flavor is charging. (Charging up!)
They don't ever wanna see me advance, but I know in the long run I'm winning regardless.

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Yeah, the clock is ticking, on my career, on my heart, it's truth
All these sleepless nights, man, chasing that sweet success, that proof
Even when I was feeling so low, man, I just kept moving, I wouldn't quit. (Never quit!)
Either I level up here, or I'm out the door, moving onward
To a better situation, a better love, a better job, looking forward.
This feeling ain't new, this urgency, it's a part of my soul
Need to know if we're all in, or if I gotta take back control.

[Chorus]
I need that promotion, yeah, I need that pay rise! (Pay rise!)
It's now or never, can't you see the hunger in my eyes?
Yeah, it's now or never, or I'm taking my talents and running wild! (Running wild!)
If I could earn it, then why won't you? Stand up and make it thrive.
No more days of just standing around, it's right now or never, I'm claiming my worth. (My worth!)
I need that real love, yeah, I need that connection! (Connection!)
It's now or never, can't you feel the yearning in my chest, yo?
Yeah, it's now or never, or I'm seeking a better energy, yes, yo! (Better energy!)

[Outro]
My progress sprung from the soil like Roddy, I had no one, I grew from dirt. (From dirt...)
"Now or never... yeah..."
"Better you... better job..."

Pay Rise

Should I (The W13 Mix)

[Intro]
Yo, street calling... but the signal's weak.
Got a message for the ends, let the truth speak.
Uh huh.

[Verse 1]
Listen close, this city's got a rhythm, but it's out of tune,
Stuck in a flat, wish I could see the full moon.
Still renting flats, dreaming of a deed, yeah, that's the plight,
These property prices keep me up all night.
Zero-hour hustles, no security in sight,
Wages stuck low, ain't nobody living right.
Our folks bought homes for peanuts, times are truly flipped,
This whole economy, man, it feels totally ripped.

[Chorus]
Yeah, this London hustle, it's a wicked joke,
Tryna stay afloat, man, I'm constantly broke.
Another month, another bill, another scheme,
Living out here, feels like a bad dream.
Yeah, a real bad dream.

[Verse 2]
Then the phone buzzes, curated lives on display,
Make silly clips while my actual life just flies away.
Scrolling through feeds, watching all the perfect lies,
My bank balance screaming, dollar signs in their eyes.
Student loans looming, credit cards piled high,
Mental health bending, beneath this grey London sky.
Don't ever pause, just spend and just spend,
This endless buying, it will never truly end.

[Chorus]
Yeah, this London hustle, it's a wicked joke,
Tryna stay afloat, man, I'm constantly broke.
Another month, another bill, another scheme,
Living out here, feels like a bad dream.
Yeah, feels like a bad dream.

[Bridge]
They talk about progress, but for who, I gotta ask?
The news on repeat, tryin' to blame my peers, behind a mask.
Gentrifying districts, where the old souls used to roam,
Just numbers on screens, hearts turning real cold from home.
Where's genuine care? It's packaged and sold for views,
Click here, sign up, they just want to confuse.
Start broke, stay broke, that's their whole big game,
No bright tomorrow, just the same old pain.

[Chorus]
Yeah, this London hustle, it's a wicked joke,
Tryna stay afloat, man, I'm constantly broke.
Another month, another bill, another scheme,
Living out here, feels like a bad dream.
Yeah, feels like a bad dream.

[Outro]
London... still calling... but the line's cut.
Guess we just gotta keep on keeping our mouths shut.
Or maybe not...

Bad Dream

[Verse 1]
Why did this perfect man just start to disappear?
Why has he suddenly killed all our connection?
I fear he’s messaging some other women, not me
While I’ve been deleting his application.
Wait ‘til I get my hands on him, I’ll tell him a thing or two
For all of this time he has kept me just waiting
Praying to the stars to deliver him into my arms
Despite all my growing frustrations.

[Pre-Chorus]
And he must want me (He must want me)
Desperately (Desperately)
How my whole soul yearns for him
Is he miles away? (Is he miles away?)
Is he doing okay? (Is he doing okay?)
This guy is testing me, uh-huh, uh-huh, uh
Help me, help me, help me, Lord
You’ve got to tell me

[Chorus]
Oh honey (Woo-hoo), where the hell did my man go? (Woo-hoo)
What's taking him so long just to call me? (Woo-hoo)
Oh honey, where the hell is my lover?
Hooking up with another? (Woo-hoo, yeah)
If you ever see him, baby (Baby), if you see him, tell him (Tell him)
He should follow.

[Verse 2]
I’m doing lonely acrobatics, pulling my jeans off at 3 a.m.
And I’m so damn tired of living like this.
He’s probably somewhere getting ready, trying to look his best
Uh, hello? Over here is where your girl is.
Wait ‘til I get your heart beating, I’ll turn the heat up too
For how much I’m planning to love ya, no one above ya
Praying to the stars to rush you, hurry you along
Baby, I was ready to rush ya.

[Pre-Chorus]
And he must want me (He must want me)
Desperately (Desperately)
How my whole soul yearns for him
Is he miles away? (Is he miles away?)
Is he doing okay? (Is he doing okay?)
This guy is testing me, uh-huh, uh-huh, uh (Help me)
Help me, help me, help me, Lord
You’ve got to tell me

[Chorus]
Oh honey (Woo-hoo), where the hell did my man go? (Woo-hoo)
What's taking him so long just to call me? (Woo-hoo)
Oh honey, where the hell is my lover?
Hooking up with another? (Woo-hoo, yeah)
If you ever see him, baby (Baby), if you see him, tell him (Tell him)
He should follow.

[Bridge]
I just wanted a ring, I wanted a ring
I wanted that little shiny thing right on my finger
I imagined a big and sparkly diamond I could show my friends
And talk, and brag about it…
But when that talk got real, you vanished without a sound
And now I'm gonna be alone, so can you
Hurry up here, sir…
I want it, want it, want it, want it, want it.

[Chorus]
Oh honey (Woo-hoo), where the hell did my man go? (Woo-hoo)
What's taking him so long just to call me? (Woo-hoo)
Oh honey, where the hell is my lover?
Hooking up with another? (Woo-hoo, yeah)
If you ever see him, baby (Baby), if you see him, tell him (Tell him)
He should follow.

[Outro]
I just wanted a ring… I wanted a ring…
That little shiny… shiny… shiny…
Where did my man go?

Where The Hell Is My Lover?

[Verse 1]
You'd think the world had heard enough of ancient fairy stories
I look around me, and I know it isn't so
Some people want to fill your head with ancient fairy stories

[Pre-Chorus]
And what's wrong with that?
I'd like to know
'Cause here we go
Again…

[Chorus]
God is dead
(God is dead)
But good is not
Stand on up and write your plot
God is dead
(God is dead)
So don't you rot
Your will is free, it's what you've got.

[Verse 2]
I can't explain, the feeling's plain to me
We’re not the sinners
Now can't you see?
He didn’t make some rich and leave us in a ditch
Now can't you see?

[Pre-Chorus]
What's wrong with that?
I need to know
'Cause here we go
Again…

[Chorus]
God is dead
(God is dead)
But good is not
Stand on up and write your plot
God is dead
(God is dead)
So don't you rot
Your will is free, it's what you've got.

[Bridge]
Meaning doesn't come in a minute
Sometimes, it doesn't come at all
I only know that when you're in it
The struggle isn't silly
The struggle isn't silly at all.

[Outro]
Believe in yourself
And believe in the story
You'd think the world had heard enough of ancient fairy stories…
And what's wrong with that?

God Is Dead

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