остаться во сне

Come - Adrianne Lenker (1.1 speed)

lyrics and singing by me @notninoo
was produced 50/50 by me and @postm4n
art by colorfulorgan

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LYRICS:

What's the matter?
I've heard you're under water
A disaster
Still adding on the pressure
And there's no rest
It follows to the nest
Think of the past
And let me ask


When did the sun start to run?
Dam dadam da day
To breathe there is a price to pay
Dam dadam da day
Be the hunter not the prey
Dam dadam da day
For life you're just a piece to play
Dam dabadam da day


Not your problems
Don't be the one who solves them
Good intentions
Should not drain all your essence
And they won't change
If you keep this path safe
What are the tasks?
I need to ask


When did the sun start to run?
Dam dadam da day
To breathe there is a price to pay
Dam dadam da day
Be the hunter not the prey
Dam dadam da day
For life you're just a piece to play
Dam dabadam da day







Running Sun

This song is a quintessence vibe of my room. I wrote the lyrics to it, as well as the chorus approximately  August 2024, but never fully completed it until I decided to revisit all the demos I've done since the start of that year and realized: "god daymn, this is actual fire". I'm never coming back to my past though, I think I got whatever I needed to from that period of my life, at least for now.

Lyrics:

(Intangible words of self doubt and aggression)
I think...
The drugs... hah
Hey Fate, can you please drop that shit?
Uh, ok

Never in my life, no-o
Never in my life, no-o
Never in my life, no
I ain't coming back, no I ain't coming- (Sike)

Over and over and over again
I ain't asleep man, I'm doing my thing
Didn't just think man, I think I'm addicted
I'm getting evicted while posing as victim, yeah

Drugs, yeah
Only heavy weight on my mind, yuh
Should I step back or keep
Pushing on the grind?

And I don't know all of these people, no
Think that I'm empty from the inside
What a blessing to be saying that at least
I'm not left behind all this

Rubble, trouble
All I needed was some hope to keep me standing, breathing
Tumbling over, given rope, I'm barely breathing

Heart is almost getting cold, yeah
Hope yeah
getting hard but I manage to cope, hah
Nothing will stop me from achieving all of my goals, huh

Besides all the problems that I've buried inside my soul
Besides all the memories, forgotten in the joints, yuh-ha-hah

Never in my life, ay (o-o) 
Never in my life, no-o
Never in my life, no
I ain't coming back, no I ain't going back
(never, hah)
Never in my life, no-o
Never in my life, no-o( gr-r-r-a, yuh-uh-uh-uh)
Never in my life, no
I ain't going back, no I ain't going back

This was just a demo, and uhm
I never actually recorded t-th-the verse
But yeah, turned out great

Never In My Life

Literally wrote this before an exam, the same night. I couldn't fall asleep but I couldn't study as well, just sat there in a complete disillusionment with myself, hating the fact I can't force a single ounce of respect towards my mom and her money, myself, my time and my own sanity.
I knew I was doing the wrong thing, I blamed myself for it, but I couldn't understand that I had no other choice.
Worst. Feeling. Ever.
At the very least, I got to distract myself at least a bit.
Felt like Cobain while recording the part after the "rip me and rape me and..." part.

Lyrics:
I should be doing something
I should be singing more
No I should study books
No I should earn more
I should be following
My dreams right now
I should be falling asleep
To get up right?
I must be crazy, I must be insane
But I know that I ain't, right?
It took too long again
Why must I fight night
Fight night

Good night
Good night
Sleep tight
Tomorrow must be better, huh, right?

Good night
Good night
Good night
Good night

Rip me and rape me and
Tear me apart, yeah
Wish I was better at
Something but art, yeah
Wish I was normal
I wish I was free
But here I am crying for
Someone who hears
This song

I hope you enjoy
I hope you enjoyed
But no one hears this

Good Night

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r.i.p shaurma ✟✟✟

селфха́рм — преднамеренное повреждение своего тела по внутренним (душевным) причинам чаще всего без суицидальных намерений. Самоповреждение встречается как симптом многих психических расстройств. Наиболее частая форма самоповреждения — порезы кожи и расцарапывание кожи при помощи острых предметов. Другие формы самоповреждения включают в себя пережатие и удары по частям тела, обжигание кожи, препятствование заживлению ран, вырывание волос, употребление токсических веществ. Люди, занимающиеся селфхармом, называются селфхармщиками.

Июнь сдох - Волосы (prod.luminaria)

All of these projects were just laying on my drive, decided to post them, since other projects I'm working on right now are pretty far away from posting. Most of these things feel cringe to me, but maybe something will give you some enjoyment, idk.

Text me if u want to use some beat.

Something very cool, but I don't see myself going in that direction for a while {DEMO}

Alex G - Race

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Juliet - Cavetown

Fate is something you choose. It does not exist.
And even if it does, we'll never know. Not in this life.

I create new things and I don't care what they are until it is done.
I just want to introduce some variety in art and ways of life for smart people :)

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@Fakest_fate

Something very cool, but I don't see myself going in that direction for a while {DEMO}

Fake Fate