ANXIOUS FROM THE TOPIC AND THE ADDERALL - 93FEETOFSMOKE

ANXIOUS

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always breaking, always healing
all I tried to find was meaning
fill my heart and learn to let go
sacrificing all my being 

always healing, always breaking
I’ve lost track of what my age is
in this little lifeless meadow
I thought I could bring salvation
//

Thank you everyone for your patience and support while I pour the totality of my heart and soul into creating my album; it means the world to me.

always breaking, always healing

vox from brakence - brakence 2.0 freestyle
intro from LA LA Land

maybe i'm not good enough

Bury

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I’m gonna drive my car into the lake
I live my life in all the wrong ways
foot on the gas and I’ll lock myself inside
and maybe then, I can get some peace of mind

I’d say I tried but I know that isn’t true
not up to par and the water’s flowing through
thought I could handle a little more than this
seems I was wrong; that I’ll readily admit

I guess my mom thought that I could make it big
or at least move out by 26
I guess my dad thought that I could be a star
but here I am drowning in his shiny car

Looks like I drove this car into the lake
I lived my life in all the wrong ways
there’s no one here, it’s the middle of the night
I’m out of time and I should’ve said goodbye

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car in the lake

Aleph - 'Burden'
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i usually sit on every song i make for months on end worrying about how i am going to release it and if people will like it/care etc etc.  This doubt and frustration has permeated into the writing process which has resulted in me writing stuff "because i want that big reaction", which often doesn't always feel authentic, or, even if it does, and i'm not able to manifest anything , i feel a lot negativity towards my self and my music.  i think a lot of people struggle w/ this.

To get out of that phase, some friends and i started a weekly project where we each have only a single hour to make something with a criteria//ruleset that limits or focuses our approach.  This is a song I wrote this week in my single hour and its very simple, but i liked the result so much I decided to flesh it out a bit more w/ another 30-40 minutes of fine tuning.  The name comes from this process which i think can remove the burden i've placed on myself and heal the relationship i have with my work.

Anyway, if you got this far, thanks for caring about my work, and hopefully if you're a creative person maybe this will help you?

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burden

it never rains

hi it's 12:48 in the morning and I just wanted to let u know i really love u

i love waking up next to you

R E // S I N ! ! ! ! !

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maybe i'm not good enough

chasingdivinity

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