Oh my god dude come on with this constant beautiful song shit man you got some insane talent every one of you’re songs has be able to brung tears to my eyes its amazing

🤷🏽‍♂️

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keep fckn fienin mane
say y u leanin mne
i gotta bag of crshd dreams lyk wht u need mane

i js hope my last breath will b a sigh of relief
i kno im comin rite back
im js a drop in the sea
n either way i manifest
i know ill feel u w me
cuz we've always had this same distance between us
so hazy out here lately
i feel lost w my lady
locked indoors allday
js bc it is raining
grindin teeth like prince zi goddamit im facin
hella blunts js thinkin 
y my soul so vacant

im back grippin on2 my ego mane
js tryina b normal eatin w ur family

i got a bag of crushed dreams like wht u needin mane

scrape my face on the pavement w/ shy

tothegood - "out of mind"
released on 27.05.2017
@lilxlotus @youngburial
free download: bit.ly/2qt1NyR
bandcamp: bit.ly/2qZktJW
spoti.fi/2Bpo07A
apple.co/2Ab3U3e

lyrics:

LIL LOTUS 

I was 17 i lost you in silence
Tried to hide all my pain with violence
Traded all of my scars for tattoos 
Now everything i do just reminds me of you

I dont want you to see this
Maybe i miss you too much
I scream in my sleep
Do you hear me 
Or am i not screaming enough
Id give anything just to hear your heart beat and bring you back to life  
You have a grandson
He look just like you
I tell him all the time

I was 17 i lost you in silence
Tried to hide all my pain with violence
Traded all of my scars for tattoos 
Now everything i do just reminds me of you

fats'e

I know your just testing me 
I miss the way you would sit right next to me
And make up stories 
To pass the time 

I guess this is how it's supposed to be
Blood shot eyes keep me company
I want out
Of my head sometimes. 

This is how it's supposed to be.

out of mind

spotify

in silence (feat. LIL LOTUS & fats'e)

[VERSE 1]
When every thought brings so much pain.
It's hard to explain.
I don't wanna feel anything.
It's hard to explain.
I don't wanna change.
Something in my brain,
Telling me to hate.
All I ever say,
I don't wanna change.
Something In my brain,
Won't go away.

[CHORUS]
Far from home, where you'll find me,
made my bed and i'll finally lay in it.
Lay in it.
Far from home, where you'll find me,
made my deathbed and ill finally lay in it.
Ill lay in it.

[VERSE 2]
Backpacked on my own,
rather be fucked up all alone,
Airplane mode on my iPhone,
Running from a careless path I wish I'd never known,
But I know that...
Everyone that I believed in was holding me back,
Matter of fact,
I wasn't leaving because what I needed was space that I lacked,
I got off track,
Don't wanna do it by myself,
But I don't want no help,
The only way's to runaway
and write a story to tell.

[SPOKEN WORD]
Made a promise that I'd love myself
And a promise that I'd break it.
Made a promise that I'd get better 
And a promise that I'd fake it.
Promised myself that I'd give it up,
Give up everything you hated.
Made a promise that I'd enjoy my life, and a promise that I'd take it.

[CHORUS X3]

deathbed

Free Download

rip your underwear (prod. tothegood)

production by jay vee
vocals by shinigami

@ihateshinigami
full project together soon

grew up too fast
like a bullet breaking thru the glass
remember that
fell asleep in every single class
i hate the fact
that ive become an insomniac
i hate the fact
that im never ever going back

cant even say that im feeling sad
i cant help but dwell on everything i had back when i was a kid
all those emotions they cease to exist

the world was so new woke up bright every day
now im just jaded its faded to grey
and i lay in a coffin that i helped create
facing the fact that ill never feel great again

shinigami - grew up 2 fast (prod. jay vee)

no samples / with love, @4evrgone + 93 <3

I went dry
Fucking giving chances
Lord knows
Bloods old
On my fucking mattress
Hands cold
No hope in us ever lasting
Old souls
Still prone to infatuation

You'll hit me up
say what's up
Hope you're ok,
Ok
Gotta go about my damn day
Yeah Shits changed

Try to sleep
Really late at night
Guess it's morning
Toss & turning
Guess u hurt me

I guess you hurt me x3

hmu say wsup hope ur ok, ok w/ 4evr

w/ @ihateshinigami <3

an echo in the void, my world has been destroyed
dissipate, disintegrate, annihilation
chew me up and spit me out without a doubt
you're the last thing on my mind
i hope that the sky is forgiving when i cut the cord
everyone is itching to get something from me
but i just wanna get away
i wanna get away

i wanna get away

i don't care what you think of this 
the thought of you just makes me sick
like why did I always forgive, 
surfaced love made me forget
you bet I've learned a lot from our 
cashing out now all these scars
can live on, reminds me of my bad decisions
i don't care what you take from this 
still wish you luck despite that shit
cause I know I'll be fine, 
you bet I'll make damn sure of it
i'll make sure of it..

i just wanna get away w/ Shinigami

prod @4evrgone i jus added sum bass <3

found myself so thin
downing bottles again
I don't care what you did
just wanna distance myself

from the old bleeding well
from those posts seeking help
know I can't accept shit 
so just go on without me

just get on without me 
know it won't be harming 
know you won't be hurting 
from much that's been haunting me

and that's fine

leave it up to me 
let me fucking bleed 
let me stay 
x3 

it never really mattered anyway

it never really mattered anyway prod. 4evr

no samples

@carsonconner

I know I got problems taking pills now 
I know I got problems with my head now
I know you don't love me cut that shit out
No trust cuz girls jus fuck for clout now

I been staring at the sky till morning 
Connecting stars like dots to see your face 
really I'm just sinking in a sailors grave 
They acting like they know me so I hide away

Like where the fuck were you when I was down and out
Fucked up every day blacking myself out  
If you really loved me you would cut me down
Help me count the rings and then kick me out

I know I got problems taking pills now 
I know I got problems with my head now
I know you don't love me cut that shit out
No trust cuz girls jus fuck for clout now
x2

problems w/ carsonconner

Guitar/Prod; https://soundcloud.com/93feetofsmoke <3

Lyrics:

GrxyIce:
Is it too much 
to want this to fade 
can't i, jus relieve the pain 

distanced myself
fucked up my health
nothing really helps
nothing really helps

GrxyIce & 93:
wear myself thin
bones are snapping again 
an is it too much 

93:
nothing i take 
helps the ache 
numbs my pain 
nothing i do 
lifts the hate 
from my face

giving up on sleep 
i don't wanna breathe 
hide that i'm a fiend
just give up on me 
i'm a waste you'll see 
save your energy

GrxyIce & 93:
wear myself thin 
bones are snapping again
and is it too much 
and is it too much

Is It Too Much w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE (Prod. 93)

Just a little something we were working on and never released :)

Cover of "If It Means A Lot To You" by A Day To Remember 
Guitar and Mixing by Shinigami
Recorded in 2017

shinigami + shy - If It Means A Lot To You (Acoustic Cover)

credits:

@4evergone
@charlieshuffler
@kellbender
@pxlm
@supachefm
@guccihighwaters

i will never be a memory

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a place where i belong [feat. supachefm!] (prod. 4evr)

miss u haven't met u tho

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mitchell
booking/contact: badghostinternet@gmail.com

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