The Upload

lyrics 


water
yeah
i know that u take me to the slaughter
if u ask me then ur a monster
u had left the remants in the locker
u think u culd hide it w the blockers
u need ask forgiveness from the father
u go far but i think i could go much farther
the candles out it makes it so much darker
i return unburdened by the marker

winter weather frozen my soul
up in ny and im shivering cold
rotting away in the stronghold
chairs all collapse and the food molds
dont wanna ask u what u know
look at the ice in this wood bowl
look at the damaged old ship hull
look at the damage ur brain holds

this forest leads me out to open air
its been twenty months since i had found u there
held my lungs so i culd try compare
but nothing u had tried could let ur soul repair
the salmon swimming down the riverbend
had been ur final meal, for that i make amends
and if u find urself on this plane again
i hope u let the grudges guide ur sweet revenge

water
yeah
i know that u take me to the slaughter
if u ask me then ur a monster
u had left the remants in the locker
u think u culd hide it w the blockers
u need ask forgiveness from the father
u go far but i think i could go much farther
the candles out it makes it so much darker
i return unburdened by the marker

Folk Tale As Old As Time Itself But Forgotten By Many

Feel the weight in my age
Should I drink and wilt right here
When the rage has all lifted
I'll still use hate to block my fears

I see blue
I've left oceans, I've left family
No devotion
mixed up feelings bout existing

Mostly anxious, of course broke
Guess I'm angry
Trying not to find a burner
Destruct naturally

Guess it's like that
Curse on my back
Only see black
In my memories

- FamilyPet -

I found religion in places it shouldn't be.
And I found beauty in faces I shouldn't see.
Found I was clinging to people I didn't need.
Found out I'd only be happy in my dreams.
Look at the stars,
Watching them die
Spacial perspective of my life
Smoke in the sky at midnight
Drifting out like high-tide

wondering when's the highlight
of my lowlife, when someone dies i get tongue tied because my mind just holds on tight to the thought that every night

might be my last, wasn't built to last,
and the years go slow but the days go fast. and i cant move past the simple fact,

that the end wont wait, even if you pray,
even if you cry

, even if you beg,

we are all the same, in the way we hate, the way we love, at the end of the day we're all the

same

blue ft. familypet

be my corpse bride, make me feel alive
put me in places people can't survive 

ima zombie a maniac
i can't breathe why wont you text me back
falling in pitch black, i can't see, haunt me back

corpse bride, show me the bright side,
clean my soul baby call me a low life
i'm no average hero baby i'm gonna fly high
writing in my room, guitar and a glass pipe

i'm caught in a bad dream 
a nightmare you're casting
i'm pleading please baby 
just haunt me back x2

be my corpse, make me feel alive
put me in places people can't survive

call me jack skellington, bare bones i shed my skin
pull my heart of my chest, to rest from the pain i'm in

am i foolish to believe, that one day you'd find me
and take my heart from my hand and save me from dying

the weight on my shoulders collapses to floor
lifes a bottomless pit without you to adore

i'm caught in a bad dream 
a nightmare you're casting
i'm pleading please baby 
just haunt me back x2

be my corpse bride, make me feel alive
put me in places people can't survive

haunt me back w/ moonlet (prod. antongxldn)

i become less interesting the older that i get

prod. Anxiety Attacks! x cFee! x Bruce Leen
guitar/mix/master: Anxiety Attacks!
IG: www.instagram.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS/
Twitter: twitter.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS

LYRICS:
I'm sorry for the things I said
I'm sorry bout the shit I did
I lose my mind just tryna sleep at night
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive,
thinking maybe one day you'll be mine
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive...

it's alright, it's alright, it's alright, yeah
it's only right I spend some time by your side, yeah
you're feeling helpless & you're in denial
I'm feeling selfish when I'm suicidal
you're feeling helpless & you're in denial
I'm feeling selfish when I'm suicidal
you know I'll be there if you need me, 
I'll be here as long as I'm breathing
heaven down to hell when you're leaving, 
holding onto hope, & I'm thinking ya...

I'm sorry for the things I said
I'm sorry bout the shit I did
I lose my mind just tryna sleep at night
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive,
thinking maybe one day you'll be mine
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive...

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The Heart & The Knife

eh something different


I didn't know 
nobody told me
that this how it goes 
when you're important

pull up in a f150
UU tee with the gucci
smoke another blunt now I'm waist deep
ya see me on set but I'm finna lack sleep no
got the money stretchin like play-doh
eyes so low at the table
ya I'm sad when you leave
imma miss you 
she broke my heart with a needle

I didn't know that this how it goes 
when you're important 
but I'm finna find out
ya losin my grip
feelin like shit

you ain't feelin this so leave my bed, this is bad.

I didn't know 
nobody told me
that this how it goes 
when you're important

nobody told me (prod. young taylor)

prod. sapphire2001

lyrics:

i can feel in the air tonight
smoke seeping from my lungs tonight
i dont wanna disappoint you
i dont wanna disappoint you

yeah you are so toxic like a poison i just threw up in the bathroom
medicate myself until i feel like i dont have you
stab me in the hall, leave my body by the stairway
bag me up and throw me somewhere nobody will find me
you cut me off so the cuts are on me now
i was by myself, now im choking claustrophobic
medically diagnosed depression from my therapist
you say im faking, check the fucking trash bin

disappoint myself and everyone else thats around me
you wish you were richer oh my god now thats astounding
i wish i could be a different person than myself yeah
ive been making plays might book a show at the foundry

chemically engineered they say that im so toxic
everyone around hates when i sing cause im obnoxious
i dont wanna die but i dont wanna fucking be me
ima shoot myself the day i see my face on tv
ima get a bag like my name was louis v
ive been making music vids im on a shooting spree
i dont wanna live and i dont wanna make you cry now
all the voices in my head are telling me to die now

u cut me off so the cuts r on me now..

vocals in order of appearance
93feetofsmoke
fats'e
cøzybøy

produced by jay vee
coproduced by fats'e & 93

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@cozyboycries

bleed for no reason w/ 93feetofsmoke, fats'e, & cøzybøy

prod. @ghostrage
mix/master @93feetofsmoke

oh hey, miss ur face
life been throwing fades
shadows on the lake 
oh hey, i'm not okay
sup like hows your day?
yeah i'm doin great
x2

In the back of your thoughts
like the ghost in your hall
I’m the first one to leave
You’re the first one to call 
Hope that table is gone
The initials moved on
you keep friends for a week
Guess a month was too long 

I bite down on my tongue 
u always temperamental 
Scratchin thru my schedule 
room never presidential 
Tell myself to move on 
Stop being sentimental 
back to dabs and liquor 
whipping tracks and rentals 

say its kool 
But its not 
Not the type
to stir the pot
Leave the past 
Dead to rot 
You’ve proven that it’s not worth it 

Ok kool 
Oh wait nah 
fisticuffs 
On the block
Quick to aim
Quick to jump 
Still the same 
you’re still not

oh hey, miss ur face
life been throwing fades
shadows on the lake 
oh hey, i'm not okay
sup like hows your day?
yeah i'm doin great
x2

I bite down on my tongue 
ur always temperamental 
Scratchin thru my. schedule 
room never presidential 
Tell myself to move on 
Stop being sentimental 
back to dabs and liquor 
back to whipping tracks and rentals 
 
say its kool 
But its not 
Not the type
to stir the pot
Leave the past 
Dead to rot 
You’ve proven that it’s not worth it 

ok kool 
Oh wait nah 
fisticuffs 
On the block
Quick to aim
Quick to jump 
Still the same 
you’re still not

oh hey, miss ur face (prod. Ghostrage)

big bad wolf (prod. vague003)

things arent always what they seem

prod. @taylor & @sainttomorrow
backing vocals by saint tomorrow too
a cute one to warm ya up in the winter cold

[STREAMING]

what you mean (p. taylor morgan & saint tomorrow)

prod. by @hellahaunted and @sainttomorrow

lyrics
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what if i testify against everything that i
have been saying this whole time
cause i’m probably telling lies
what do i do when i
feel like lying down to die
does the dirt eat me alive
do the worms feed off my eyes
open wide for the flies
cause they’re feeding off your spine
crawling up & down in line
like a soldier bound to die
come inside so will i
wipe your feet until they’re dry
wipe the tears out of your eyes
part of me likes when you cry

winter and summer collide
this universe isn’t mine no
we hope this reaches you in time
chaotic but jesus christ you’re beautiful
(x2)

get caught up constantly in life’s residuals
and paint the sky full of agonizing visuals
can’t press rewind when you realize it’s minuscule
so don’t let go it’ll only leave you miserable

the cycle (prod. caspr x saint tomorrow)

Lyrics:
call me hideo kojima cause im always playing games with the big dollars
hit me on the phone wit a burner if you need me holler
messin wit a freak got these females in a leather collar
comin out in droves cause they heard i got the big guala

kick start hearts cause im layin on the big dough
pour that henny all alone im gettin lit tho
fuck fake friends i rather stay inside and live low
stone cold heart but its the best that i can get tho

master of horror, call me shinji mikami
i stepped up to the game might fuck around and make a tsunami
all this fye that i be spit send me a beat i could body
you could see that ima dragon so dont call this a hobby, cause i could murder it

got so many flows you never heard of it, smokin on that gas so i could learn from it,
im permanent
i write some letters just to end up burning it,
i had some feelings im returning it

heard my name around so you like hold up
you send a message to the boy like wassup roll up
but i aint messin wit no snakes or no bitch in the cut
dont you ever hit my phone cause i done glowed up

you seen me ball but issa big sell
cause when i close my eyes i see hell
im gettin money if you couldnt tell
im gettin bread with my personnel

late night face time grave sight same time slave mind but im sure itll be alright
smoke right no light no fights sit tight while i think of what of what to say while youre in the sky

cant steal my flow without thinking bout death
embody the void that you feel in your chest
reaper come thru thats an infinite rest
its coming soon based on what ive assessed

am i getting deprecated, everybody medicated
feel it in my stomach so i stayed up late and meditated
dont know if ill make it, but i know that it been long awaited
you could check my verse and see that i aint even motivated

heard my name around so you like hold up
you send a message to the boy like wassup roll up
but i aint messin wit no snakes or no bitch in the cut
dont you ever hit my phone cause i done glowed up

i got that big talk but it dont mean nothing yo
i got these kids out there tryna be cop the flow
and i could set it up it drop like dominos
cause im the illest im the realest you prolly know

been on that grind day by day but you aint showed up
you get to talkin lil bro but you aint glowed up
and now im icy im cold and my heart snowed up
dont even talk to me bitch cause i done grown up

Grownup

grownup

Produced, Mixed + Mastered by FRAN$E

Lyrics:
i said slowly follow me until we're dead
i said solely you're the one who's in my head
sip slowly numb away the pain instead
cause i dont breathe when im all alone in bed
count your heart beats to help me rest
sync breaths feel your back press against my chest
its all us babe no swear i won't contest
feel your fingers on my face swear i cant forget

no i cant forget
i see your face in the mirrors i try to catch my breath
i know we're oceans away but i swear i try my best
your silhouette in the rain, my heart pounds out my chest

i said slowly follow me until we're dead
i said solely you're the one who's in my head
sip slowly numb away the pain instead
cause i dont breathe when im all alone in bed
count your heart beats to help me rest
sync breaths feel your back press against my chest
its all us babe no swear i won't contest
feel your fingers on my face swear i cant forget

Slowly

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