deep october

Stuck in your mind 
You can’t be there for everyone 
Drugs you should try 
We can fiend them together, love 
Once upon a time we both had things to do everyday 
The we almost died when we wrecked your sister’s Chevrolet 

XANAX IS A TERRIBLE MIX WITH ALCOHOL 
I
WISH I COULD ADMIT YOUR DAD WAS WRONG 
And 
His stolen prescription; adderall 
How
Could I ever fix this after all?

The times when 
We were just 
Survivin 
You’re alive, 
Guess I did some
Thing right then 
Touch the sky
Whenev the sun is shinin
I’m just surprised 
We were too young to die then 

Ah ah I 
Ah ah I 
Oblong oxycada 
Watched a lot of friends die 
Damagin medulla oblongata inside 
Heart breaking my mama she wish god was in mine 
Ah ah I 
Ah ah I 
I rock gosha, Prada
And a lot of N9
No moonlight sonata 
Have u got up this high?
I can’t talk about it 
Not if god is implied 
Implied

drugs you should try (prod. suni vega)

Gun to your head 
Sun’s infrared 
Light covers your face 
I’m super high
Unsupervised 
Could go one if 4 ways
Flight of the soul
Close your eyes and it’s over
Plight to get sober
I just might get some closure 

As the nights older 
Eyes to the sky 
Got me blind looking nowhere


I wanted to die when she told me that she loved him 
I wasn’t surprised what it was and what it wasn’t 
That’s I survive, I hang on to my assumptions 
I can see it months in 
Like I’ve already done this

I look to the sky right directly where the sun is
Lock into my eyes let my retinas getting sun kist 
Issa different high when it’s way too much to function 
Am I the only one with 
No fear of repercussion 

Feelings to percussion, 
I hope I do it justice 
Ceilings that get busted 
Can really turn to dust quick 



I can feel the rush...
Rush rush rush 
This is what it does 
To us us us 
A culprit of 
Un 
Adultered love 
In ur touch touch touch 
I’m closed in, shut 
Might I open up 
If I must must must

I wanted to die (prod. suni vega)

Leme fuckin find out 
This shit was a lie 
Different color painted eyebrows 
You look me in my eyes 
I just wonder why, how
I believed u the whole time 
memories will die out 
Somewhere over time 
Baby come here, close ur eye 
Maybe somewhere I can find 
Empathy 
U could be my rider 
And my entity
I talked to ur mama
She was listening 
To all of our problems
I admittedly
Put them in my favor
I knew you might find out later 
I’m so catered 
It’s whatever 
It’s ok 
Cuz I’m forever MIA
I feel better when it rains
With all this weather 
In my brain 
And I feel pleasure 
I feel pain 
When I need effort 
To remain 
Stuck
We just took the same drugs 
Now I’m too high stay up 
And I just hope I wake up 
Tomorrow
And I’m dreaming of space
I can borrow 
With the stars that we traced
In Navarro 


But it’s whatever
It’s ok 
If in my head 
Is where u stay 
And it’s a never endin pain 
And on my bed where there’s a stain 
Of ur makeup
And you hate when I take drugs
Well I hate when u say stuff
About it 
And your parents both hate your
Surroundings...

itriedloving II (prod. suni vega)

Heart in her tummy before starving to ingest 
And the stars will coming as we plummet to our deaths
I got scars on my arm, on my stomach and my chest 
I was starting to love and now I wonder what it meant 
I don’t know 
If anything will change 
Keep me close 
Judging by the stains on your clothes 
There’s something that’s taking a toll 
On me 

Strung out 
She was drug addicted 
Only comes out 
When the suns eclipsing 
How can one sound 
Breed so much suspicion?
From the come down 
Of a month’s prescription 
With your brain
Cells 
Frying 
Face
Pale 
Crying 
And your make up 
Runs black on my shirt again 
Stays up 
Face down in the dirt and wind 

I know deep within  
Based on your relation to kolonopins
You could seek revenge 
Maybe it’d be better to get lost again 
We pretend 
Everything is better I don’t wander why 
Youre keepin in 
Everything I told you I was bothered by

strung out (prod. suni vega)

white freckles (prod. senshei) 2019

Dashboard (feat. deep october x sewerperson)

BAP MY BOOM

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apathy w/ guccihighwaters

instagram- fatherfuneral

Art by me
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Thank you for all of your love <3

GO HEAD BRING ME PRESSURE YUH
OH YEAH SO DEPRESSED BECAUSE
I JUST KEEP ON MESSING UP
HOPE U HEARD MY MESSAGE YUH
IM NOT FUCKING LETTING UP
I NEED ALL THE EXTRA LOVE
YES BECAUSE
FEEL LIKE I DONT GET ENOUGH
LET ME GET AHEAD FOR ONCE 
THAT WOULD BE MY PREFERENCE

IM OKAY
THEYRE NO NAMES
NUMB THE PAIN
NOVACAINE 

I THINK THAT IT'S JEALOUSY
THINK IM FINALLY PRESSURING
THEM TO COME AND GET ME
MY EXPRESSION'S DEAFENING
LOUD AS WHAT SHE SAID TO ME
I NEED YOU TO BLESS ME
FUCK ME, TOUCH ME SEXUALLY
IN LIFE I WANT THE BEST THINGS 
BUT IS TIME WORTH INVESTING
YEAH I GUESS UNLESS WE
YEAH I GUESS UNLESS WE DONT
------
MIND THIS TIME OF DAY
I FIND MYSELF ALONE
PRODUCTS TO THE FACE
THE DOCTOR FOR MY SOUL YUH
MINDSET IS ERASED
BIRDWATCHING THE CROWS
TARGET FOR A GAZE
LOCKSMITH FOR THE DOJA
THE GRASS IN WHICH I LAY
IS RELATIVELY GROWN
AND PROPERLY MAINTAINED
FOR GOD AND ALL TO KNOW 
THAT IM FINE ON MY OWN

I KNOW ITS ANXIETY
AT LEAST WHEN IM IN PRIVATE THINGS 
ALWAYS FEEL SO EMPTY 
TRYNA DO IT QUIETLY
AND MY DEFIANCE SILENCING A VOID TRYNA INVENT THINGS YA
BUT I THINK ITS DONE PLENTY ENOUGH 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HObGHcM_OOQ

soundcloud.com/kaynives/heart

@kaynives   

@darkskyparadox

JEALOUSY </3 (prod. KAY NIVE$ x DARKSKYPARADOX)

instagram - fatherfuneral

art by me
-----------------------------------------

BROWN EYES, PALE FACE
I KNOW HELL WAITS
IN THE DARK
I SEE STARS

PRIZE OF THE SHOWCASE 
IM COMING HOME LATE
I'VE BEEN GONE
WAY TOO LONG

GOD TRIED TALKING TO ME
I'M HIGH NOT LISTENING
SHINE BRIGHT, IM GLISTENING 
FINE LINES DEFINE ANYTHING 
 </3

PROD.  @prblm

MM. @darkskyparadox
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vvju_2NXs8&t=103s

IN THE DARK (PROD. PRBLM x DARKSKYPARADOX)

no samples
prod mix master @93feetofsmoke

video: https://youtu.be/La0kW8IDOa8

lyrics:

nowadays
headache
cold shoulder
getting colder
guess I'm growing older

imma loner
lie and say 
i love her
u dont come over
when your sober

x2

i don't wanna tell you
what I think I about
drugs are longer now
i never leave the house
don't look at me for help
i hate to watch u drown
still tried my best no doubt
like fuck u talking bout??

lie & say i love her

lyrics

4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all
4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all

she lick the blade clean, while my fucking blood drips
i choke her neck while our motherfucking tongues kiss
she say i got good dick, i make her cum quick
she got a boyfriend, oh well, fuck it
baby i'm a vampire, counting money up
gold fangs in my mouth, smoking on a blunt
black tee on my back, red cape now
baby tell me it's okay before i break down

4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all
4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all

she lick the blade clean, while my fucking blood drips
i choke her neck while our motherfucking tongues kiss
she say i got good dick, i make her cum quick
she got a boyfriend, oh well, fuck it
baby i'm a vampire, counting money up
gold fangs in my mouth, smoking on a blunt
black tee on my back, red cape now
baby tell me it's okay before i break down

REAPER

before i break down [prod. reaper]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcig2UlY7VA

Lyrics below 

produced: @prodnitrous

Mastered by @darkskyparadox

https://www.instagram.com/fatherfuneral/


I said fuck a litre 
I been chiefin foe
Percs make me anemic 
Barely bleedin in the cold 
We got lots of leaders
think that Jesus is a clone 
Tho I’m not a firm believer 
But them demons getting close 

Me and my father 
Finally got caught up 
He still has love for me. 
Went to my mom 
And I was surprised 
She didn’t smell drugs on me.
I feel okay 
And I’m in amazement 
Damn I love LSD.
I wanted to die 
So I can see why 
They say don’t do regularly
If mixed with amphetamines 
It’s something that’s heavenly sent. 
If psilocybin 
I feel alive when 
I feel the pressure and presence of god 
When I’m in a mindset 
End of perspective, don’t know what the time is 
Please bring a friend and come chill for the night 
And stall 
Let’s see how the night evolves.
I’m feeling sick 
I’m losing faith 
My ambition 
Like time, slips away.
5 in A.m. 
my minds in a place 
Where eyes to their lids 
Puts time in a maze. 


I’m subbing Kratom for Percocet 
Mind has been made up, no early death. 
I wouldn’t miss you 
Or being misused 
I’d prolly miss all those dirty texts. 
I feel the walls and they’re closing in 
Think I forgot about what sober is 
Haven’t been home in like over six 
Months think I’m getting too old for this 
I swear them Gucci lil loafers hit 
Givenchy is soft like it’s gopher skin 
She said she likes to get choked and shit 
And I’m the first one not an older man
I was 18 when I owned da whip
You was 18 on your phone and shit. 
More If I miss you 
Never an issue 
I’m all alone on the road (and shit) 

Move. 
Yeah you gotta move. 
Watch how I move 
Pussy is bruised 
From 2 intervals 
Can’t talk to the news 
Questions are cool 
but no interviews.

IF I MISS YOU (prod. Nitrous x Darkskyparadox)

v rare chill 93 blapper w no 808s i wrote this in a very pink hued kick ya feet up zone out into the melancholy overcast smog of the city n appreciate ur blessings type beat setting #showyamomchallenge lmk wht she thinks of it!! 


guitars/prod/mix/mast @93feetofsmoke

life loud cut the feedback! 
never learned how to relax
grass green no relapse
i got what u want
but u don't need that 

life loud cut the feedback
never learned how to relax
grass green no relapse
i got what u want
but u don't need that

lost my mind, left it vacant
chewing 2s on vacation
she got gucci on here fragrance
she got louie on her daybed
and i don't really mind it at all
I don't pick up when u call 
cuz u don’t hear when I talk
& I don’t care when ur gone 
they're never on what I’m on 
That’s why I’m always alone

take 2 steps back 
u don’t know me
take 4 shots down
and I’m ready
not sure where I’ll
be in the morning 
got 8 missed calls
on my home screen 

take 2 steps back 
u don’t know me
take 4 shots down
and I’m ready
not sure where I’ll
be in the morning 
got 8 missed calls
on my home screen 

life loud cut the feedback!
never learned how to relax
grass green no relapse
i got what u want
but u don't need that 

life loud cut the feedback
never learned how to relax
grass green no relapse
i got what u want
but u don't need that
x2

take 2 steps back 
u don’t know me
take 4 shots down
and I’m ready
not sure where I’ll
be in the morning 
got 8 missed calls
on my home screen 
x2

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cut the feedback!

prod. eris.. mix/master by darkskyparadox

it was a beautiful day
miss you 
I wish you could stay
Meet rock bottom
I just peaked off molly 
and I think I remember your face (x2)

and I'm sea sick
I been swimming to my limit in the deep end
Almost died 
this time I'm sinking
China Shop 
I can never stop thinking
and I mean it
When I say
"you were made for reason"
I don't hate that you came to me tweaking
Just as long as you pick up the pieces
Yeah the pieces..

it was a beautiful day
miss you 
I wish you could stay
Meet rock bottom
I just peaked off molly 
and I think I remember your face (x2)

We never took a vacation..
I wass too high 
and I never knew why I didn't make it
to the vacant little Days Inn
in a desert somewhere deep out of vegas.

CHINA SHOP (prod. Eris x Darksky)

single from Strange Death. Enjoy ♥️ prod. @stillvanishing


Cage me in, ok I may just never leave 
3 day binge, this is like day 70 
brain won’t quit, it inflicts pain regularly 
Drain like wrists, it’s a switch blade severing 
Baby it’s unsettling
In the dark, least the stars look heavenly 
We’re so far apart from everything 
Have you thought about that Evelyn?
Send me a text when the sex gets boring
I don’t think about my x no more 
Left on read, I press ignore 
Out my head, protect, restore. 
Yes of course 
Come to the crib impress me more 
Fuck everything I said before 
Way too deep in the red leaf Forrest 
I see signs I’m pressing forward 
There’s no time to let me mourn 


Said you feel so pretty with my hands around your throat 
Things I been forgetting still gonna dance around my skull 
Lights inside the city, let a tree fall when I go 
I could use your pity, can you sweet talk to my soul  
Stuck in deep thought, here I go 
This my default MIO

JEALOUSY </3 (prod. KAY NIVE$ x DARKSKYPARADOX)

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