I look in her eyes I see dreams I see vitals

staying depressed ive been stranger then death 🙃

yoo fam.. that line.. staying depressed I've been stranger than death.. fucking chills.. this song speaking to my emotions heavy. this is a masterpiece fam💜🖤💜🖤

“Will anyone remember me when I go?” 😞
“I’ve been seeing signs in the things I was blind to” 💯 
“👉🏻 When it stays in my brain, and it makes me a mess 👈🏻” ‼️
“Staying Depressed is something stranger than death.” 🔥

deep october

Stuck in your mind 
You can’t be there for everyone 
Drugs you should try 
We can fiend them together, love 
Once upon a time we both had things to do everyday 
The we almost died when we wrecked your sister’s Chevrolet 

XANAX IS A TERRIBLE MIX WITH ALCOHOL 
I
WISH I COULD ADMIT YOUR DAD WAS WRONG 
And 
His stolen prescription; adderall 
How
Could I ever fix this after all?

The times when 
We were just 
Survivin 
You’re alive, 
Guess I did some
Thing right then 
Touch the sky
Whenev the sun is shinin
I’m just surprised 
We were too young to die then 

Ah ah I 
Ah ah I 
Oblong oxycada 
Watched a lot of friends die 
Damagin medulla oblongata inside 
Heart breaking my mama she wish god was in mine 
Ah ah I 
Ah ah I 
I rock gosha, Prada
And a lot of N9
No moonlight sonata 
Have u got up this high?
I can’t talk about it 
Not if god is implied 
Implied

drugs you should try (prod. suni vega)

Gun to your head 
Sun’s infrared 
Light covers your face 
I’m super high
Unsupervised 
Could go one if 4 ways
Flight of the soul
Close your eyes and it’s over
Plight to get sober
I just might get some closure 

As the nights older 
Eyes to the sky 
Got me blind looking nowhere


I wanted to die when she told me that she loved him 
I wasn’t surprised what it was and what it wasn’t 
That’s I survive, I hang on to my assumptions 
I can see it months in 
Like I’ve already done this

I look to the sky right directly where the sun is
Lock into my eyes let my retinas getting sun kist 
Issa different high when it’s way too much to function 
Am I the only one with 
No fear of repercussion 

Feelings to percussion, 
I hope I do it justice 
Ceilings that get busted 
Can really turn to dust quick 



I can feel the rush...
Rush rush rush 
This is what it does 
To us us us 
A culprit of 
Un 
Adultered love 
In ur touch touch touch 
I’m closed in, shut 
Might I open up 
If I must must must

I wanted to die (prod. suni vega)

Leme fuckin find out 
This shit was a lie 
Different color painted eyebrows 
You look me in my eyes 
I just wonder why, how
I believed u the whole time 
memories will die out 
Somewhere over time 
Baby come here, close ur eye 
Maybe somewhere I can find 
Empathy 
U could be my rider 
And my entity
I talked to ur mama
She was listening 
To all of our problems
I admittedly
Put them in my favor
I knew you might find out later 
I’m so catered 
It’s whatever 
It’s ok 
Cuz I’m forever MIA
I feel better when it rains
With all this weather 
In my brain 
And I feel pleasure 
I feel pain 
When I need effort 
To remain 
Stuck
We just took the same drugs 
Now I’m too high stay up 
And I just hope I wake up 
Tomorrow
And I’m dreaming of space
I can borrow 
With the stars that we traced
In Navarro 


But it’s whatever
It’s ok 
If in my head 
Is where u stay 
And it’s a never endin pain 
And on my bed where there’s a stain 
Of ur makeup
And you hate when I take drugs
Well I hate when u say stuff
About it 
And your parents both hate your
Surroundings...

itriedloving II (prod. suni vega)

Heart in her tummy before starving to ingest 
And the stars will coming as we plummet to our deaths
I got scars on my arm, on my stomach and my chest 
I was starting to love and now I wonder what it meant 
I don’t know 
If anything will change 
Keep me close 
Judging by the stains on your clothes 
There’s something that’s taking a toll 
On me 

Strung out 
She was drug addicted 
Only comes out 
When the suns eclipsing 
How can one sound 
Breed so much suspicion?
From the come down 
Of a month’s prescription 
With your brain
Cells 
Frying 
Face
Pale 
Crying 
And your make up 
Runs black on my shirt again 
Stays up 
Face down in the dirt and wind 

I know deep within  
Based on your relation to kolonopins
You could seek revenge 
Maybe it’d be better to get lost again 
We pretend 
Everything is better I don’t wander why 
Youre keepin in 
Everything I told you I was bothered by

strung out (prod. suni vega)

eyes heavy, I'm tired

eyes heavy, im tired (prod. suni vega)

Dashboard (feat. deep october x sewerperson)

Attention

its been a while so i'd thought id share this. new project soon. hopefully some videos 

produced by reaper - https://soundcloud.com/prodreaper
picture - https://soundcloud.com/nova1599

Lyrics:
Vices got me falling
My plugs' calling
We're sad but balling

These days i wake with an attitude
She's like why you mad at me?
Baby I'm not mad at you
I just hate the world and all the things that I've had to do
Bad decisions with some bad intentions 
Oh baby I'm bad for you
But you're good for me
Fuck it we'll call that chemistry
You want us to grow old together like an oak tree
But baby I'm growing tired and I'm only twenty three 

Vices got me falling
My plugs' calling 
Orange  bottles full we're sad but balling
Young dumb boys making money thats appalling
If we grow old we'll have trouble recalling

I'm living in the now why the fuck you stalling?
Been making money ever since star shopping
I got smile but inside I'm sobbing
You can hate on me but the money keeps coming

Vices got me falling
My plugs' calling 
Orange  bottles full we're sad but balling
Young dumb boys making money thats appalling
If we grow old we'll have trouble recalling

vices got me falling (prod. reaper)

spotify

apathy w/ guccihighwaters

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qGYyo9hQP70

@blacklunged

one of these days
i hope to be okay
im fixing the things
that felt right out of place
im an addict at best
you can take anything
as long as you stay
babe youll be my everything

i dont wanna bother you
stop hittin me up, were through
im takin it day by day
i dont even know what to say
im just tryna better myself
these bottles right up on the shelf
spent nights with the thoughts in my head
spent days wishin all this would end

no i dont need a friend
just need you to save my life
tried endin it twice
a blunts in my right
im thinkin wouldnt it be nice
to fade to the pavement?
these words on my grave are meant
to drive one last statement
right into the back of your neck

no i wont say sorry
i just want you by me
drive my car to your house
just to die in your arms
by myself

Follow me <3

i'd die for you (prod. blacklunged)

no samples
prod mix master @93feetofsmoke

video: https://youtu.be/La0kW8IDOa8

lyrics:

nowadays
headache
cold shoulder
getting colder
guess I'm growing older

imma loner
lie and say 
i love her
u dont come over
when your sober

x2

i don't wanna tell you
what I think I about
drugs are longer now
i never leave the house
don't look at me for help
i hate to watch u drown
still tried my best no doubt
like fuck u talking bout??

lie & say i love her

lyrics

4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all
4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all

she lick the blade clean, while my fucking blood drips
i choke her neck while our motherfucking tongues kiss
she say i got good dick, i make her cum quick
she got a boyfriend, oh well, fuck it
baby i'm a vampire, counting money up
gold fangs in my mouth, smoking on a blunt
black tee on my back, red cape now
baby tell me it's okay before i break down

4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all
4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all

she lick the blade clean, while my fucking blood drips
i choke her neck while our motherfucking tongues kiss
she say i got good dick, i make her cum quick
she got a boyfriend, oh well, fuck it
baby i'm a vampire, counting money up
gold fangs in my mouth, smoking on a blunt
black tee on my back, red cape now
baby tell me it's okay before i break down

REAPER

before i break down [prod. reaper]

конченный человек

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcig2UlY7VA

Lyrics below 

produced: @prodnitrous

Mastered by @darkskyparadox

https://www.instagram.com/fatherfuneral/


I said fuck a litre 
I been chiefin foe
Percs make me anemic 
Barely bleedin in the cold 
We got lots of leaders
think that Jesus is a clone 
Tho I’m not a firm believer 
But them demons getting close 

Me and my father 
Finally got caught up 
He still has love for me. 
Went to my mom 
And I was surprised 
She didn’t smell drugs on me.
I feel okay 
And I’m in amazement 
Damn I love LSD.
I wanted to die 
So I can see why 
They say don’t do regularly
If mixed with amphetamines 
It’s something that’s heavenly sent. 
If psilocybin 
I feel alive when 
I feel the pressure and presence of god 
When I’m in a mindset 
End of perspective, don’t know what the time is 
Please bring a friend and come chill for the night 
And stall 
Let’s see how the night evolves.
I’m feeling sick 
I’m losing faith 
My ambition 
Like time, slips away.
5 in A.m. 
my minds in a place 
Where eyes to their lids 
Puts time in a maze. 


I’m subbing Kratom for Percocet 
Mind has been made up, no early death. 
I wouldn’t miss you 
Or being misused 
I’d prolly miss all those dirty texts. 
I feel the walls and they’re closing in 
Think I forgot about what sober is 
Haven’t been home in like over six 
Months think I’m getting too old for this 
I swear them Gucci lil loafers hit 
Givenchy is soft like it’s gopher skin 
She said she likes to get choked and shit 
And I’m the first one not an older man
I was 18 when I owned da whip
You was 18 on your phone and shit. 
More If I miss you 
Never an issue 
I’m all alone on the road (and shit) 

Move. 
Yeah you gotta move. 
Watch how I move 
Pussy is bruised 
From 2 intervals 
Can’t talk to the news 
Questions are cool 
but no interviews.

IF I MISS YOU (prod. Nitrous x Darkskyparadox)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFE7yVvHdxo

LYRICS BELOW+++

BEAT PRODUCED BY @imissutelo

MIX AND MASTERED @darkskyparadox

I stay by your picture when I'm stoned
12 oz, punch liquor on the drive home
Shadows in the flicker of the light bulbs
Will anyone remember me when I go?
Lie low
Lie low
I've been suicidal
Neck hangs with my eyes closed
Don't matter where I go
This decision is final..
Never look behind you 
Might see what you don't like to 
I don't talk to God 
but sometimes wish I could find you
I look in her eyes
I see dreams, I see vitals
and I been seeing signs in the things I was blind to...

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

Song about a drug... 
You can see it in my eye, 
Something about your love gets me really fucking high
and
Through my mind you run from problems that you're hiding
I've been coming undone, put me in a cycle. 

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

MAKE ME FORGET (prod. IMISSUTELO x DARKSKYPARADOX)

single from Strange Death. Enjoy ♥️ prod. @stillvanishing


Cage me in, ok I may just never leave 
3 day binge, this is like day 70 
brain won’t quit, it inflicts pain regularly 
Drain like wrists, it’s a switch blade severing 
Baby it’s unsettling
In the dark, least the stars look heavenly 
We’re so far apart from everything 
Have you thought about that Evelyn?
Send me a text when the sex gets boring
I don’t think about my x no more 
Left on read, I press ignore 
Out my head, protect, restore. 
Yes of course 
Come to the crib impress me more 
Fuck everything I said before 
Way too deep in the red leaf Forrest 
I see signs I’m pressing forward 
There’s no time to let me mourn 


Said you feel so pretty with my hands around your throat 
Things I been forgetting still gonna dance around my skull 
Lights inside the city, let a tree fall when I go 
I could use your pity, can you sweet talk to my soul  
Stuck in deep thought, here I go 
This my default MIO

MAKE ME FORGET (prod. IMISSUTELO x DARKSKYPARADOX)

Deep October

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