dk what u want from me
huh is it hard to see
yk what u mean to me
i think ur hard to reach
my heart bleeds when u leave
dont wanna be seen
by u thats all i need

im onna block niggas knowww
arp all that i tote
if she wanna leave let her go
if u wanna leave u should know
baby i do not wanna forget u

lose myself w/ shyne & rage (yungdni)

@iloveyelowandmom prod @haikux
lyrics

ive been heart broken before
i dont wanna do this anymore
she so bad she rock mk
amg 4 door
broke me to my core
felt so worthless
what is my purpose
she left me 
did i deserve this
feel like im asking too many questions
my life has been full of lessons
baby im jus waiting for the blessings
she told me she love me
then she hate me
keep me guessing

baby u dont care w nicky (haiku)

no no x2
don’t go x3
stay, stay
what you say, say? x4
no i’m not okay x2
i wan eat your face
she gon bite me with her fangs, fangs
fangs…

what u say (nassim)

prod @cardinalsaflame + @1plugsoon
Hate myself i don’t wanna be alive 
Off the building im taking a dive
Don’t like how u lookin im takin yo eyes 
I start to wonder why I even try 
Damn, why am i so shy 
Damn, why am i this guy 
in the mirror i dont like my reflection 
Put my heart in a song & she walk out and left me
High in the sky i fly high like a pelican 
Debating, she leaving , she walk out, she gone.
I’m recording our love and she breaking my phone 
I don’t like how i look so im breaking my bones 
I get high and cry.  That’s me in my zone 
U shine bright in the sky like the North Star 
Put the bullet in my brain I don’t want talk 
Chop off both of my legs I do not want walk 
Tell me what u said, cmon come again 
I’m losing myself so im losing my friends 
When the tears start rollin ion think they gon end 
In a battle for love ion think ima win 
Treat me like a piece of paper in the wind 
Reach yo hand out girl u the 1 I depend on 
Tell me your problems u smile in your sleep 
Not liking my body so I don’t wanna eat 
Rather starve myself and die 
Rather starve myself and cry 
This a portrait of self hatred 
No pulse no I can’t make it 
And my brain is ripping apart I cannot take it 
Won’t put on a smile no I can’t fake it 
I drown in my tears I might fuck around park lake it 
Push start , can’t break it 
Yo heart, won’t take it 
I know who I am and I know who u want me to be 
Don’t got a pulse but my heart got a beat 
My words get stuck in my throat , my heart want me to speak 
Like, why did she leave?
Why do I breathe?
Why do I live?
And , why won’t she die?
So much to say up in so little time 
Im gon kill myself ion care if it rhyme.

a portrait of self hatred

Recorded this on a Hyperx Headset

door slamming its sounding like thunder
tell me girl why u leaving oh
i am the reason she bleedin oh
i am the reason she breathing
girl tell me im the reason
tears are fashionably out of season
pop out in raf simmons she believe me
i keep the baddest hoes on the deep end
oh she was sad, told her to repent
it can get bad give her a reason

it can get bad , it can get tragic
i was in cla benz 4matic
rip out her heart, dk who had it
i really like her <-- that is the sad part
hemi on engine, oh yea this the fast car
race for her love feelin like nascar
made her a song she was like "thats hard"
deleting that song.., she dont like that part
the part where i talk about me dyin
it was nights where i stayed up cryin
it was days i had woke up dreaming
it was days i was sayin i was tryin
it was days she walk out w no reason
it was days she had left w no body
trappin , a popular hobby
dyin, a plausible option
jumpin, im hurdlin obstacles
diamonds same color as popsicles
reading my vision im readin the opticals
i can save that for another song..
she gettin loud and i told her im never wrong
im done, walking out, girl im leaving
im done coping , im better off seething
i told her i was the reason....
im the reason she breathing.

i am still the reason (ikari)

ily jannah and cap
lyrics
tore me apart like what is u doing
girl this love thing is so stupid
u told me to get out but im not moving
is it me or him who is u chosing
black truck black truck
baby girl back up back up
you left me for him u switched up
tears on my chrome its ripped up
empty nights but you're still here
my whole life been a nightmare
see in the mirror i see the glare
see you ina party i stop and stare

not the one you love w jannah & caponeti (dimpl)

nenjixnicky - seeing sounds

when i get high i go look at the sky
wondering why we here just to die
ik its hard to listen but i try
got u a tissue know u finna cry
please dont cry , please dont cry
your tears they fill a river
nervous wreck, fender bender
got her in my room oh im finna bend her
heart on my sleeve need a coat for the winter
dont like what she did so i cope for a minute
cant stand your face so i leave for a minute
she the reason im here i aint breathe in a minute
aint feel the breeze in a minute

cus i been stuck all in my bed , all in my head , i aint wanna get out
friends think that im dead ion answer calls ion answer texts now
she blockin all of my methods i had to go hit this hoe off of a textnow
put the bullet thru my chest ow
walk up to u w my head down
cus ion wan see ur disappointment 
ik im a failure ik that im weak
living and dying im trying all week
shaking my head im like damn, man fuck
i keep a glock in the tuck
u wan ride in the bity dont die in that truck
my body is trash put it in the dump
she put my name in her skin
wonderin when ima win
wonderin when ima go all out
girl tell me where we begin

not the one you love w jannah & caponeti (dimpl)

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