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[Verse 1]
I’m so cold I’m freezing
I’m so alone I’m hurting
The suns warmth seems more distant 
More distant than before

[Chorus]
Black suns, red moons
Dead flowers, broken dreams
Nothing here, empty fears
Liminal space for miles and miles
Back to where I belong

[Verse 2]
I’m running out of time
In a place that’s endless
I found the clearing to the sky
Is it real at all?
Can I feel at all?

[Chorus]
Black suns, red moons
Dead flowers, broken dreams
Nothing here, empty fears
Liminal space for miles and miles
Back to where I belong

[Bridge]
Breathing slowly
Traversing slowly
Dying slowly
Crying crying bleeding

[Chorus]
Black suns, red moons
Dead flowers, broken dreams
Nothing here, empty fears
Liminal space for miles and miles
Back to where I belong

[Verse 3]
In your arms I belong
Just a boy and his girl
Just with you I don’t feel wrong
Just for you I might go on

Black Suns, Red Moons

[Chorus]
Hurting and burning from hurt,
I’m sorry
I won’t out-right kill myself
But livin’ I ain’t tryin’
I’m not opposed to dyin’ 

[Verse 1]
I’m sorry that I feel this way
I know today
You tried so hard to love me
But I’m numb to your kindness
It’s already kind of too late
My heart is already filled with hate
It lasted longer than expected
But even the calmest of souls 
Can’t outlast human condition, ambition, and the hell we create

[Verse 2]
When I look in the mirror I’m disgusted 
I’d be doing you a favor for self-deletion
I couldn’t look just a bit more normal, 
I had no base to mold to hope
It could have been so much worse but it could have been fucking better
I get to watch other people live my dream
And it would seem
The urge to kill myself gets stronger every day


the guilt of your face keeps the bullet in my magazine
the gun is tucked away

[Chorus]
Hurting and burning from hurt,
I’m sorry
I won’t out-right kill myself
But livin’ I ain’t tryin’
I’m not opposed to dyin’ 

[Verse 3]
This is less a song and more a cry for help
But you can’t help me
I’m fucked in every way
You keep trying to measure me to other humans problems but it doesn’t just make it go away
The pain I feel every day
I said I won’t but
I’ll kill myself I swear I’ll fucking do it
You knew it
I’m sorry you had to see me this way
I’m sorry you had to know me at all

Hurting And Burning

[Verse 1]
I'm so fucking sorry
I didn't mean for this to happen to you
I'm tearing my heart from my chest
I didn't do for you what was best

[Chorus]
If I killed myself tomorrow
I know the pain would fade away
In this life I fucking hate it
We're so cruel, we're so cruel
If I killed myself today
I would hurt those who stayed
In this life I fucking hate it
We're so cruel, we're so cruel

[Verse 2]
I'm just tired of feeling all this emotion lack emotion lack empathy
can you feel my shades of grey
Can you tell I didn't want to wake up today? 
You just wanted someone to love.
You just wanted someone to love.
You just wanted someone to love you.

[Chorus]
If I killed myself tomorrow
I know the pain would fade away
In this life I fucking hate it
We're so cruel, we're so cruel
If I killed myself today
I would hurt those who stayed
In this life I fucking hate it
We're so cruel, we're so cruel

[Verse 3]
Only once, the result is permanent
I ruined your life, like a failed experiment
I should of spoke up, I should have stopped it
And now my heart is full of regret and self-hate, irate feelings that they can't relate.
I feel so cruel I ruined your future. I did this. It's my fault.

[Bridge]
Hurting, yearning, wanting to feel something more.
I'm just a bisexual femboy, what the fuck would I know about saving those I love.
I destroy everything and everyone around me, those I love romantically and my bros whom I also love. Though you were the latter, I thought I could be good for you.

[Verse 4]
I'm not dying, I'm already dead
That's what I said, is it a metaphor
maybe it is, likely its not entirely, forced sobriety, If I had the chance I'd down and drown it all away.

[Verse 5]
I'm fucking sorry little bro, its my fault you got ... Its hard to live like that. A mistake that permanent and I'm reminded every time I see your face. I'm so sorry. I cant forgive myself.

[Chorus]
If I killed myself tomorrow
I know the pain would fade away
In this life I fucking hate it
I'm so cruel, I'm so cruel

I'm better off dead anyway

I'm sorry little bro

Got told my life isn’t as bad as yours.
Pain judged and measured, I never fucking asked you though
Guess all my pain was just placebo.
Guess I’m all better now.
Fuck that, fuck you.
You never gonna know what,
I’ve been through.
You never gonna feel that,
I’ve decayed to.
Don’t compare yours to mine
Got suicide on my mind,
Sad music all the time
One’s relate to me the most
Become the outlet when I’m morose
Fuck that, fuck you.
You never gonna know what,
I’ve been through.
You never gonna feel that,
I’ve decayed to.
Don’t compare yours to mine
If you relate at all, fuck em all
Fuck everything and everyone 
Your pain is yours alone, but know you aren’t alone
Your pain is yours alone, but know you aren’t alone
Invalidating, contemplating, 
Fuck em, 
I was the boy, 
left the dark
Addicting solitude, display my hurt in forms of art
You can call me soft, I don’t really give a fuck
Lack of compassion burns the world
Fuck that, fuck you.
You never gonna know what,
I’ve been through.
You never gonna feel that,
I’ve decayed to.
Don’t compare yours to mine
Don’t compare yours to mine
Don’t compare yours to mine
Don’t fucking compare yours to mine

Don’t compare yours to mine

another day,
another hurt.
broken off the rip, 
damaged from the start.
every morning is the same fucking critical
flatline my heart

i’m lost in the echoes, i’m drowning in the pain,
i try to move forward, but i’m so stuck in the rain.
these shadows keep whispering, the keep calling my name,
but nobody’s listening, and i’m the one to blame.

i’m struggling i’m struggling to make it through every fucking day.
i wanna stay home, i want to lay in bed
think about what’s never said, think about when i’ll be dead
i’m struggling i’m struggling to make it through every fucking day.

i’m lost in the echoes, i’m drowning in the pain,
i try to move forward, but i’m so stuck in the rain.
these shadows keep whispering, the keep calling my name,
but nobody’s listening, and i’m the one to blame.

do you fucking love me?
will you bring pleasure to my face?
i’m a fucking loser.
if im not sad, i’m a lewd disgrace.

i’m hoping for instant death
im fucking hurting, i cant catch my breath
i’m too scared to live, i’m too scared to die
i crave release, let me say goodbye

darling do you love me?!
if you do, let me know
darling do you feel me?!
if you do, let me know
because if you love me and show me the slutty side of you, with loyalty, and honesty
then for you i’ll stow this hell
into your arms
i fell.

i’m lost in the echoes, i’m drowning in the pain,
i try to move forward, but i’m so stuck in the rain.
these shadows keep whispering, the keep calling my name,
but nobody’s listening, and i’m the one to blame.

i’m the one to blame.
i’m sorry darling.

i’m sorry darling.

i’m sorry darling.

I’m to blame

Yuh,
Yuh, 
Of fucking course. 
You don’t need me anymore right?
Being used, guess I should be used to it.
Everybody’s doing it. I’m not so new to it.
I’ve gotta lotta fake friends (fake friends).
I’ve gotta lotta false wins (false wins).
I’ve gotta lotta dreams that were crushed and burned but I guess I should be used to it.
Everybody’s doing it. I’m not so fucking new to it. 

I’m tired of the pain, I’m tired of the shame.
You fucking used me up, trapped me in your game.
Now I’m like a ghost, haunting my own name.

Fading away like I was never wanted. (Never wanted).
All I ever wanted, was to share my heart (Share my fucking heart).
But like an old work of art, nobody really wants it (nobody wants me).
When the artist, the artist is still alive (Still alive).

I’m tired of the pain, I’m tired of the shame.
You fucking used me up, trapped me in your game.
Now I’m like a ghost, haunting my own name.

Any real friends, they are all dead (All dead to me).
Any old lovers, they cannot see (refuse to see).
What the pain I took from giving, you know that I am loving. All I ever, forever wanted was for someone to accept me, and love me like I’m wanted. Just love me, love me for me.

I’m tired of the pain, I’m tired of the shame.
You fucking used me up, trapped me in your game.
Now I’m like a ghost, haunting my own name.

If I cry, would you laugh at that?
If I bleed, would you laugh at that?
If I die, would you fucking laugh at that? 

I’m tired of the pain, I’m tired of the shame.
You fucking used me up, trapped me in your game.
Now I’m like a ghost, haunting my own name.

Go fucking use someone else. 
You were so close to me, now that I’m no longer needed, I barely get a hello.
You’ll stop in just to make sure I remember.
But I’m fucking over this.

I’m tired of the pain, I’m tired of the shame.
You fucking used me up, trapped me in your game.
Now I’m like a ghost, haunting my own name.

Tired of the Pain (used)

[Intro]
That's right, according to a local source, the backrooms might be real. Tune in this morning at nine where we talk about the solar eclipse and how you can be a part of history.
(I was so close to giving up, but then... you came.)

[Verse 1]
Are you here for the solar eclipse,
the black sun, the urban legend, 
or maybe it's me.
Either way, 
I know you wanna go there,
I know you wanna see,
The backrooms baby, will you go there with me?

[Chorus]
Let's go away, far away.
Rings of flame, guide our way.
Yellow halls, just beyond the breach.
Give me your hand, come on, just reach.
No one can dare to judge our pain.
You always know I'm not exactly sane.
Black shadows and retro static, 
I am a darkness fanatic.

[Verse 2]
You, can feel me.
You, can know me.
But I can't go on this way.
Drowning in my sleep, everyday.
You, can hurt me.
You, can heal me.
I'll never leave you here alone, because it's in you I find my home.

[Bridge]
The shadow morning ignites my heart
The rain of mourning, darkness art.
I'm a good boy who sharpens his knives,
Cutting through the silence, where darkness thrives.
Steel meets steel, in the blackened glow,
In the backrooms, where the shadows flow.

[Chorus]
Let's go away, far away.
Rings of flame, guide our way.
Yellow halls, just beyond the breach.
Give me your hand, come on, just reach.
No one can dare to judge our pain.
You always know I'm not exactly sane.
Black shadows and retro static, 
I am a darkness fanatic.

[Outro]
(I will never give up on you. You hear me? I'll love you forever. Fuck what they think about us! Fuck what their perfect light is! I'll live here in the dark, with you. Only you can stop this bleeding.)

Darkness Fanatic

Here

Here I am, (here I am)
Feeling like this, (feeling like this)
And I can’t seem to calm my mind. 
When they take it all away, (when they take it all away)
And they shove me to the side, (and they shove me to the side)
Just know I will forever need you.

Struggle not to feel alone,
Even when the sky is brighter
I never settle to a home,
A bleeding heart never gets any lighter.

Suffering, (suffering)
Yet again, (yet again)
Break me down or break me in ,
Either way I take it, I know I’ll bleed again.
Broken, (broken)
Worthless, (worthless)
You know I’m not alright, will I make it through tonight?

Hey hey listen, listen listen listen
Is it obvious I’m missin’,
All my life it’s been my mission,
Finding you, but I guess you knew 

Struggle not to feel alone,
Even when the sky is brighter
I never settle to a home,
A bleeding heart never gets any lighter.

Whispers in the dark, (in the dark) 
Tell me lies just to survive. 
Every scar’s a work of art, 
But I’m tired of painting pain just to feel alive.
Call my name, (call my name) 
But say it slow, (say it slow) 
Like you mean it, like you’ll never let me go. 
I'm drowning in the silence, 
screaming deep inside— 
Tell me, are you listening, 
or have you said goodbye?

Struggle not to feel alone, 
Even when the sky is brighter 
I never settle to a home, 
A bleeding heart never gets any lighter.

Falling faster, (falling fast) 
Living in the shadow of my past. 
But maybe if I crash and burn, 
I'll rise again—your name’s the lesson I still learn.

Hey hey listen, listen listen listen 
I was never just a victim, 
I was born from all that’s missin’, 
Searching for a light that always led to you.

Struggle not to feel alone,
Even when the sky is brighter
I never settle to a home,
A bleeding heart never gets any lighter.

I never settle to a home

(Verse 1)
I wake up to static in my veins
Another day beneath the weight
Where every breath just sounds the same
And every step resents its fate

The skyline’s made of rust and smoke
I swear this life’s some kind of joke
They build you up to watch you crawl
Then blame you when you lose it all

(Pre-Chorus)
If I vanish in the noise, will they care?
Or just shrug like I was never there?

(Chorus)
I’ll bleed for the last time—loved or dead
A scream carved deep in what’s unsaid
No meaning left, no goals, no thread
Just ticking clocks above my head
I’ll bleed for the last time—loved or dead

(Verse 2)
They sell hope like it’s gasoline
But light the match and you’ll see
The truth is cold, and always burns
And nothing sacred ever returns

I gave my soul to empty hands
Wrote my name in shifting sands
Tried to matter, tried to fight
But even stars give up their light

(Pre-Chorus)
If I fade beneath the flood, who’ll stand?
Or will the silence understand?

(Chorus)
I’ll bleed for the last time—loved or dead
No flags, no flame, no tears to shed
The world won’t stop, it never bled
For dreamers crushed beneath its tread
I’ll bleed for the last time—loved or dead

(Bridge)
And maybe that’s the final truth
That worth was never bulletproof
That even hearts made out of fire
Collapse beneath the weight of wire

(Final Chorus)
I’ll bleed for the last time—loved or dead
No final words, no path ahead
Just ashes where the future fled
And this shell the world once misread
I’ll bleed for the last time… loved or dead.

I’ll bleed for the last time, loved or dead

[Intro]
Yeah…
You don’t know me, but you think you do
You see lace and call it weak
But I’m stronger than the silence that raised me
I’m Twilight Black

[Verse 1]
I was born in a name like fire
But I talk like rain and I dress in wires
They call me sin, they call me shame
They call me him, but I never came

To be your soldier, I ain’t a blade
I’m a poem in the middle of a war parade
Brother’s a legend, I’m just a sigh
He leads the charge, I ask “why?”

He wears steel, I wear scars
He lights suns, I count stars
You think I’m fragile, you think I fall
But I survived when no one called

[Chorus]
I’m Twilight Black
Soft voice, hard past
Lip gloss like warpaint
You laugh—I outlast
I bend, but I never break
Cry slow but don’t fake
I’m not your dream, I’m not your threat
I’m the echo you can’t forget

[Verse 2]
They said I don’t fit in the frame
Tried to crop me out of the family name
Tried to lock me up in roles I hate
But I picked the lock with grace and pain

Paint my nails with blood and gold
Hide my heart in stories untold
You want me to stand like Skies
But I was born to float through lies

Yeah, I’m soft, I’m small, I’m slight
But I fight demons every night
Without a gun, without a scream
Just mascara stains and dying dreams

[Chorus]
I’m Twilight Black
Pastel in pitch black
A whisper in the bomb blast
You blink—I’m still intact
Mock me, block me, test me, bend me
They tried to end me
But I walk this path with my own light
In heels, not spite

[Bridge – Spoken Word over ambient beat]
You see weakness.
I see survival.
You see pretty.
I see power.
You see a joke.
I see every time I didn’t die.

[Final Chorus]
I’m Twilight Black
Don’t need your map
I cry in code
And I love like collapse
I’m the soft that cuts
The ghost that lasts
Not a phase, not a mask
I’m Twilight
Black.

Twilight Black

[Verse 1]
Lace around my wrists, not chains
Soft voice, sharp truths in the rain
I dress in dreams you’d never wear
But I’d kneel if you just stared

You walk like storms that never beg
And I tremble just beneath your legs
Not broken, but I want to be
If it means you’d notice me

[Pre-Chorus]
I wear mascara and silent screams
Painted nails, undone seams
I’m not your knight—I’m your prey
Please don’t look away

[Chorus]
Break me like you mean it
Love me like a weapon drawn
Pull the strings that hold me up
And prove I still belong
I don’t want soft—I want control
Wrap me in your fire whole
Call me pretty, call me weak
But love me fierce and make me bleed

[Verse 2]
You laugh like war, I sigh like silk
You’re lightning—I’m the spill
Every bruise a work of art
If it gets me close to your heart

I don’t want safe, I want the cage
A place to cry, to burn, to rage
I’ll be the doll you bend and dress
If you whisper that I’m best

[Pre-Chorus]
I cross my legs, hold my breath
Praying for your sweet regret
Tell me I’m a lovely mess
Then pin me to confess

[Chorus]
Break me like you mean it
Love me like a battle won
Push me down with all your grace
Then tell me I’m the only one
I don’t want calm—I want the flame
Say you’ll never learn my name
Call me darling, call me toy
But fill this femboy void with joy

[Bridge]
I’m not strong, I’m soft and sore
But I’ll give you all and more
Let me kneel where angels fell
In your heaven, or your hell

[Final Chorus]
Break me like you mean it
Leave your mark across my skin
Kiss me like I’m blasphemy
And drag the worship in
I don’t want sweet—I want divine
Crush my soul and call it mine
Call me yours, just once, aloud
I’ll wear it like a wedding shroud

Call me yours

[Intro – Instrumental: Slow synth arpeggios, pulsing beat, haunting pads]

[Verse 1]
Neon ghosts in midnight chrome
Driving fast, but always alone
Streetlight halos blur and bend
Time loops back—no start, no end

A signal hums through broken dreams
Static whispers, cracked machines
In the sky where hope once spun
Now hangs the cold Black Sun

[Chorus]
Black Sun, burn my shadow
Turn my circuits into soul
I was hollow, I was shallow
Now I ache to lose control
In your glow, I see forever
But it’s twisted, cold, and numb
Hold me close inside the silence
Bathe me in the Black Sun

[Verse 2]
Memories like VHS
Rewinding pain I can’t suppress
Your name’s encoded in my chest
But I can’t find what’s left

Wires tremble with the fear
Of never getting out of here
I chase the dawn, but always run
From the gravity of the Black Sun

[Chorus]
Black Sun, burn my shadow
Paint the world in violet red
I’ve become a digital echo
Of a life I left for dead
You’re the omen in my mirror
You’re the god I can’t outrun
Crash my heart into your orbit
Take me with you, Black Sun

[Bridge – Spoken Word Over Ambient Synth]
I saw the future through tinted glass
Cities falling, love won’t last
But in your darkness, something stays
A beauty hidden in the blaze

[Final Chorus]
Black Sun, bless my ending
Make my final moment pure
Through your void, I find beginning
Of something broken but sure
You’re the silence after thunder
You’re the code that can’t be spun
So let me fade into your splendor
Let me die beneath the Black Sun

[Outro – Instrumental: Melancholic synth fading into a soft, droning hum]

Black Sun

[Verse 1]
nails chipped black, mascara bleeds
called me cute just to laugh at me
said “you’re brave,” then blocked my page
guess it’s fine, i’m used to shame

fishnets tight like my chest gets
every breath feel like a death threat
i dress like this to feel like me
but they just see what they wanna see

can’t go home, can’t go out
can’t cry loud, so i shut my mouth
silence feels like second skin
so i stay inside and wear my sin

[Hook]
i don’t wanna die, but i don’t wanna be
they only love me in fantasy
flesh too soft, voice too light
i get erased when they turn on the lights
if i disappear, would they notice?
or just say “damn, he was so focused”
i’m not okay, but it’s aesthetic
pretty pain wrapped up poetic

[Verse 2]
starved for touch but scared to ask
they hold me tight with a broken mask
“you’re hot, but not in public though”
yeah, i know. yeah, i know.

every day’s just glitch and error
every mirror holds a terror
closet full of skirts i wear like armor
but even lace don’t make it softer

don’t want pity, don’t want fame
just want someone to know my name
not the one they make up for me
but the one i whisper in therapy

[Hook]
i don’t wanna die, but i don’t wanna be
every hug feels like make-believe
i’m the dream they scroll right past
softboy.exe, loading too fast
if i vanish, would they care at all?
or just miss the way i stalled
i’m not okay, but it’s poetic
just another femboy glitch aesthetic

[Outro – Whispered & Fading]
paint my grave with pastel blue
don’t lie, just say you never knew
that i was real beneath the lace
just tryna find a safer place

Don’t lie, just say you never knew

[Intro]
Fuck…
I don’t feel much anymore
Just static
But when she pulls me in…
I breathe again

[Verse 1]
I fake my smile like I fake my sleep
Nobody knows that I barely eat
They say “cheer up,” but I’m too far gone
Numb by day, dead by dawn
My voice don’t rise, my hands just shake
Every laugh I give feels fake
But when she calls me her “pretty thing”
I forget I ever felt a goddamn sting

[Pre-Hook]
Velvet ropes, my wrists go numb
And for a second, I’m someone
She rides me like a war she’ll win
And I swear, that’s when I feel again

[Hook]
Only when she breaks me, I feel alive
When she says “be still,” I survive
Her grip on my throat is sweeter than air
Her nails in my back mean someone cares
No joy in the light, no hope in the day
But she takes me apart in the softest way
And I smile…
Only when she breaks me

[Verse 2]
They ask what’s wrong, I don’t reply
Just bite my tongue and wait to die
The world’s too loud, my mind’s too thin
So I let her carve her name into my skin
She says “you’re mine,” and I believe
Like pain’s the only way I breathe
I’m not a lover, I’m a thing she owns
But at least I’m not alone

[Bridge]
She calls me “darling,” I lose control
Takes me apart, then makes me whole
Her pleasure’s sharp, her mercy’s cold
But when I serve, I feel bold
I wear a smile she sewed in red
A boy gone soft who wished for death

[Hook]
Only when she breaks me, I feel alive
When she says “be still,” I survive
Her grip on my throat is sweeter than air
Her nails in my back mean someone cares
No joy in the light, no hope in the day
But she takes me apart in the softest way
And I smile…
Only when she breaks me

[Outro]
So if I’m quiet, don’t ask why
I’m waiting to be seen through her eyes
Twilight Black, a ghost, a toy—
But when she breaks me… I feel joy..

A boy gone soft who wished for death

[Intro]
Yeah…
Just ash and silence now
No one’s comin’ back for me

[Hook]
I’m livin’ in the wastes, I’ve been left to waste
Brother doesn’t know, I’m dying in this place
Sky’s turned red, and my hope went gray
Ain’t no sun where I lay, just decay

Tried to call for help, but my signal’s dead
Got ghosts in my heart and blood I bled
You said we’d fight till the end, now you walk away
I’m livin’ in the wastes, I’ve been left to waste

[Verse 1]
My boots sink deep in the cracked old stone
No one left, just me and bone
You wear power armor, I wear regret
You made command—I made my bed

Tattooed the pain on my arms in code
Every scar a secret I never showed
Wasn’t your shadow, wasn’t your shame
But I still got burned in your name

You shine in steel, I drown in dusk
You fight for glory—I rot in rust
Forgotten like a flare that never lit
I’m the brother you don’t admit

[Hook]
I’m livin’ in the wastes, I’ve been left to waste
Brother doesn’t know, I’m dying in this place
Sky’s turned red, and my hope went gray
Ain’t no sun where I lay, just decay

Tried to call for help, but my signal’s dead
Got ghosts in my heart and blood I bled
You said we’d fight till the end, now you walk away
I’m livin’ in the wastes, I’ve been left to waste

[Verse 2]
Rad meter’s screamin’, lungs full of dust
Drinkin’ from bottles with caps and rust
Sleepin’ in ruins with a pipe gun close
Ain’t no home, just ghosts and posts

Power cores dead, and the sky don’t blink
I write in blood when I run outta ink
You got a vault, I got a hole in the ground
And a holotape loop that just replays sound

Brother, you shine in your Brotherhood chrome
While I eat cram cold and die alone
You left with pride, I stayed with pain
A femboy wastelander, lost in the rain

[Bridge – Spoken/Whispered]
I just wanted to be seen
Not saved
Not saluted
Just seen

[Final Hook]
I’m livin’ in the wastes, I’ve been left to waste
Brother doesn’t know, I’m dying in this place
Sky’s turned red, and my hope went gray
Ain’t no sun where I lay, just decay

Tried to call for help, but my signal’s dead
Got ghosts in my heart and blood I bled
You said we’d fight till the end, now you walk away
I’m livin’ in the wastes… I’ve been left to waste

Left to waste

[Verse 1] 
I scream in color, but you only see gray
I talk in thunder, you just walk away
This room is full but I feel alone
Every word I say just sinks like a stone

[Pre-Chorus]
You nod like you’re here, but your eyes look through
Like I’m wallpaper fading, not someone you knew

[Chorus]
I’m so stressed out, I want to fucking die
There’s a war in my chest and I don’t know why
I’m choking on silence, it’s louder than sound
I beg for connection, but no one’s around
No one listens, no one sees
It’s like I’m nothing — just static and screams

[Verse 2]
I write my pain in invisible ink
You scroll past me faster than you think
I drown in doubt while they float above
Starving for meaning, dying for love

[Pre-Chorus]
I try to matter, but I’m falling through
A ghost in the mirror, a voice they outgrew

[Chorus]
I’m so stressed out, I want to fucking die
With a noose made of thoughts I can’t untie
Each breath feels borrowed, each day’s a lie
I’m talking to shadows, but they don’t reply
No one listens, no one hears
Just a soul breaking down after all these years

[Bridge]
Maybe if I vanished, they’d finally see
Maybe silence is louder coming from me
But for now I’ll scream until I’m hoarse
Begging the void to change its course

[Final Chorus]
I’m so stressed out, I want to fucking die
And I’m not ashamed to say it this time
This isn’t a phase, it’s a funeral song
For the voice you ignored all along
No one listens, but I still bleed
In a world that doesn’t hear me scream

[Outro]
So if I fade, don’t act surprised
I told you all, with tearstained eyes
I’m so stressed out… I want to fucking die.

I’m so stressed out

Hey hey bro
Do you dream of loving me
It’s okay if I make you feel something If it’s something we can share
Take my hand in yours
Fem-boy fuck-toy bark barkin for the emo dommy mommy barkin love me love me i love you i love you
take what you want from me
make me fill a sad girl full of melancholy love

Darkness asks, What are you, what are you, though
Lookin' for a reason not to cry
Please don't cry, please don't cry, though
I'm in pain every single night

My heart’s broken
My world’s crashed
In the open
Ash to ash
Fire to fire
Black to black

Eyes closed
whispers in the night
Shadow's dance
cuddled tight

I feel so sad as I write this song
I think about bro and where I went wrong
I wanna feel something 
Something at all

Dark hearts meet soft eyes
Darkness girl shadows femboy light
Mix of tears and laughter
We fit perfect together

She wears black on her sleeve
I wear pastel heartbeats
Whispers in the moonlight
Fantasy skies at midnight

Get forced to feel 
Turning numb's too real
Night wants me back from the day time steal

Darkness asks, What are you, what are you, though
Lookin' for a reason not to cry
Please don't cry, please don't cry, though
I'm in pain every single night

She saw me in the crowd
Hair pink cute and loud
Chaos enters peace
Hearts never cease

Darkness asks, What are you, what are you, though
Lookin' for a reason not to cry
Please don't cry, please don't cry, though
I'm in pain every single night

Condemn joy but a
Fem-boy wanna be a
Fuck toy in
Tie die so i
Try bi sadly saying
Bye bye fuck the world

Hey hey bro
Do you dream of loving me
It’s okay if I make you feel something If it’s something we can share
Take my hand in yours
Fem-boy fuck-toy bark barkin for the emo dommy mommy barkin love me love me i love you i love you
take what you want from me
make me fill a sad girl full of melancholy love

Darkness asks, What are you, what are you, though
Lookin' for a reason not to cry
Please don't cry, please don't cry, though
I'm in pain every single night

My heart’s broken
My world’s crashed
In the open
Ash to ash
Fire to fire
Black to black

Hey Hey Bro (Darkness, she’s my bro)

[Intro]
I ain’t made for love, but I die for the cause…
Pretty face under blood, still breaking the laws
Of nature, of war, of fate, of me—
Send me down, Super Earth, I bleed for free.

⸻

[Verse 1]
Combat boots laced tight, and I’m lookin’ divine
I kiss the barrel before I cross the line
Flashing lights on my drop pod screen
Got gloss on my lips and a war machine

They said “too soft” — now I paint with gore
Dual pistols bark like a theatre encore
I’m the sweet little sin in a nightmare dress
But I’m purging bugs while I’m feelin’ depressed

Blood on my gloves, still fixin’ my fade
Shot a bot in the head, now I’m countin’ what’s saved
It said: “Save the Earth” — too late, I’m the flood
And this eyeliner’s sharp when I’m caked in mud

⸻

[Chorus]
Drop me in, let me fall like rain
Flames in my heart, but I smile through pain
If I don’t come back, then remember this:
I looked cute as hell when I blew that cliff

War is hell and I’m dressed to kill
I cry in the dark but my aim stay still
I ain’t got love, but I’ve got my fight
So salute me, babe — I’m your knight tonight.

⸻

[Verse 2]
Yeah, I sleep to the sound of orbital strikes
Poppin’ Termies in formation, this my life
Got scars on my chest and stars in my eyes
And I’ll never make it home, but I’ll still try

They mocked me once, now they beg me in squads
I’m the trap with the trap, baby, praise my mods
Runnin’ recon with heart, and a voice like sin
Tell ‘em “freedom’s not free,” then I light that pin

Hit the beacon, I’m callin’ down fire
Heaven don’t want me, but death’s my admirer
They say I’m a sin — nah, I’m salvation
A pretty lil’ ghost built on detonation

⸻

[Bridge]
I wear eyeliner under my visor.
I write poems on the back of my ammo crates.
I kiss danger like it’s my only lover.
And every scream out here… sounds a bit like fate.

⸻

[Chorus]
Drop me in, let me fall like rain
Flames in my heart, but I smile through pain
If I don’t come back, then remember this:
I looked cute as hell when I blew that cliff

War is hell and I’m dressed to kill
I cry in the dark but my aim stay still
I ain’t got love, but I’ve got my fight
So salute me, babe — I’m your knight tonight.

⸻

[Outro]
Callin’ down justice, painted in pink…
Falling like a star — don’t blink.

Drop me in (Femboy Helldiver)

(I'm just a guy, in love with the dark)
[Verse 1]
Neon flickers on the gas pump glow
Dust on the dash, heart beating slow
Coffee burns like the memory of her name
She pulled up in silence, wild and untamed

Black boots hit the gravel with grace
Moonlight still painted on her face
Eyes like midnight roads that never end
Voice like thunder you don’t defend

[Pre-Chorus]
She said, “You look like you’ve been running.”
I laughed, “Aren’t we all?”
She smiled like a loaded secret
And leaned against the wall

[Chorus]
She waits at dawn
Wrapped in leather and night
A storm in stillness
A flame without light
She calls me close
And I don’t resist
She’s the shadow I crave
In the morning mist

[Verse 2]
She took my hand with quiet command
Told me things I still don’t understand
Talked about freedom like it’s a crime
And kissed me just to steal back time

Radio played an old, broken song
Something about right feeling wrong
I asked her where she’d go from here
She said, “Wherever the dark is near.”

[Pre-Chorus]
She said, “Don’t fall in love with danger.”
I said, “Too late for that.”
She laughed and pulled me closer
Her smile a welcome trap

[Chorus]
She waits at dawn
Where the sinners find grace
Where the lost ones pull over
And stare at her face
She takes the wheel
And I lose control
She’s the morning’s regret
And the night in my soul

[Bridge]
Oh, the sky turns red
But she stays black
Like the part of me
That won’t turn back
And in that truck stop light
With her fingers on my lips
She whispered, “You’re mine…
Even if just for this.”

[Final Chorus]
She waits at dawn
With the engine cold
Her heart’s a ghost town
Her touch, too bold
She drives away
And I stand alone
But I still feel her
Like smoke in my bones

[Outro – instrumental sax and synth solo]
She’s the darkness that haunts the break of day…
And I’d meet her again… in the same damn place.

She waits at dawn

[Chorus]
Take me under your lunar eclipse
Fuck me so I know you love me
Love me so you know I need you
Take my blood for pleasure
Take hands together 
It’s better to be loved by shadow
Than not loved at all 


[Verse 1]
I fell in love with the Blair Witch when I was younger
I think she is just as misunderstood as me
I want to build a bridge, between our hearts
Show her another way
We’d satisfy desires, put out and start fires
Controlled burn, we would see our way
She may be a murderer, I’d love to be hers

[Verse 2]
I’d love the monster, I’d hold her close
No more need to sit morose.
A blackened soul, hurt by time
I’d do anything to make her mine
Sex and outlawed magic
We’d share the same tragic
Tale of the darkness lovers

[Chorus]
Take me under your lunar eclipse
Fuck me so I know you love me
Love me so you know I need you
Take my blood for pleasure
Take hands together 
It’s better to be loved by shadow
Than not loved at, at all 

[Verse 3]
Remember when we finally met, you went to kill me
You were drenched in blood of those who hurt you, they were un-welcome in your forest
I was fast, oh so quick
I said I love you, and I hugged you
You’ve never been held by some boy so warm before 

[Outro]
You may be darkness magic but as I have it, I loved my way into your dark, I brought warmth into your heart,
You’ll never have to be alone.

Blair Witch

Higher pitched vocalist: Skies Black
Lower Pitched: Twilight Black

All lyrics are handwritten, all songs are made mostly through AI.

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