demo 2014

Fuzzy signal
blurred transmission
hold the vigil
don't know the vision

I'd love to be just like you 
but wont
I'd love to do the things you do
but cant help seeing through
the bullshit

so tell me
where do we go from here
please tell me
where are we going
if we embrace not knowing
and ill tell you all the places
we could have been

Vigil

Mama we're lost 
Mama we're lost
Don't know why
don't know why

Recycle me recycle me
Just like a wave back into the sea
Swear I am not trying to be
as cliché as can be
But after all I am just 
rowing my boat so merrily
life is but transitory

It woes me that this woe is me
and my misery loves company
With all beauty to hold and see
I focus on what shouldn't be

So I'm breaking down
or just falling off 
maybe falling out
Until I dig the hole
far much deeper than
ever seeing out
and then hopefully
no one could even hear me speak any more

Just wait for next holiday
celebrate not knowing a thing 
about what it is that you're doing
(absolutely no idea it seems)

Dance along with all the other cultists 
eat and drink so merrily
never question if its scary
ever so passively performing ritual

Bask in your gluttony and greed
Surely then you will be happy
(Bask in your gluttony and greed
Surely then you will be happy)

Until you're not

Erosion/Ritual

Days full of this
us versus them in practice
All the while preaching 
tell me how is everything 
in moderation
everything in moderation
except attention seeking
and monetary gain

When will we have had enough
Been said a million times
Cant say it any different
Would it even make a difference if we could

This unspoken 
shared dream fabric
ours to make
kept secret tactic

A dying soul once came to me
and even quicker than the heat could leave the body
Said take what get and you make it work
You take what you get and fucking make it work

You take what you get
and you make it work
You take what you get
and fucking make it work

Unspoken

Burning hope is like 
burning your cheap cigarettes
Short-lived 
just unsatisfying enough

and full of 
poisonous additives
to always 
keep you wanting more

and you burn out 
just like that much quicker
gone and done
in one instant much faster

Because everyone just loves an original 
almost as much as
burning the whole meaning
Yeah everyone just loves an original 
almost as much as
changing the whole meaning

How can we expect
To live with this much wanting
How can we accept
That we'll die with this much needing

Burn/Out

I don't know what you've been told
But you don't know how far I'd go to find out
Somewhere inside your eyes
I can see what you can find in mine
We share this very moment in time
Does that make it yours or mine
We'll find out in time

You should see (what you should see)
and I could be what you see
I don't even know (I just think I know)
You just think you know too
That's alright, we'll find in time
What was really ever yours or mine
What was really never yours or mine

Patience (In Time)

One fate I know
is tried and true
sometimes life can get 
so beautifully brutal
but nights into days
goes on this way
until you finally say
your heart is full

this heart is full to you
deep down always new
proudly wear the passion
just like a fucking fashion

Craving holding on
Keep from caving in
Gleaming from within

Friendly to the curse 
and fucking fit right in
finally figured out
now just put it out
no time to begin
like right now

Either giving in or holding on
Take what's taken now
you're taking taking now
what do you get then

Fate (What You Get)

Follow it through until the end
the longing need to feel the pain
Not sure where to even begin
just need to feel it to the grave
Feelings the same along
can't see it any other way
A dull bright aching in the gut
reminding me says told you so
yeah we both knew it'd end this way
yeah we both knew it ends this way

Building a grand architecture oh yeah
penning the perfect master script
describe in detail all the reasons
to pick apart the feelings you just let slip

Hope you could stay safe long enough (Hope you could stay safe long enough)
Hope you could stay safe long enough (Hope you could stay safe long enough)

To see meaning in the passion and how it
wont stop bleeding through reaction
the senseless feeding on distraction
left seething through the whole day
The hopeful and the shameless
with sunk and misplaced trust
dying for where the blame is
kept living just for the rush

Hope you could stay safe long enough (Hope you could stay safe long enough)
Hope you could stay safe long enough (Hope you could stay safe long enough)

Things do get better even when broken
blind to the end but we keep on hoping
I know you will find your own way through the dark
if you keep stumbling

Reckless

She's the one that just can't trust her insides
and every day it's killing her
She finds a boy with way too much to hide
and loves to believe his every word
And I'm the sweetest guy she'd ever meet
well isn't that just a tragedy
The anticipation makes me weak
so she may never see that side of me no

Like suicide I'll close my eyes
I didn't mean to ruin the surprise
but it seems like every time
things all just come to this
So I'll keep dreaming
while you keep screaming
out for someone but no one is there to hear
Well I'll be there

Well so now you know and
don't you leave a thing unsaid
We both know what's better off
when we'll both soon be dead
So take each breath holding it in
as if it were your last
and some day soon you know
this too will pass

Like wind the time gets blown and changes
and all the while we do the same thing
and keep it going 
while we think we can
But all we see is make-believe
that lets lovers be and
haunted hopeless souls get left 
somewhere in between

Party Crashing

Contrast comes back (keeping us yearning)
Either keep this on track (or fuel the burning)
If you finally find that (you keep it all turning)
Well could you even turn back
(Would you even change a thing)

And if you knew in your heart
All of the things that you could be
If you knew then would you start
to work towards what you need
Oh please you can 
(don't keep waiting for a lead)
One keeps the beat in all of us so deep
(one beats in all of us so deep)

Now is everything 
you think you're made of
Stories and lies
and all the things you make up
You're choosing your own life
no time to wake up
With each new day
to start again

And if you could try
well maybe you could find
A better life yeah
maybe you could feel inside
A little bit less weight
(on your chest pressing in)
A little easier
(for you to just breathe again)

Because we're all just searching
For a meaning
Hoping to find something
more than lucid dreaming
Carrying these scars
slowly healing

Opened back up again 
(can't help but giving in)
Open back up again when you 
(can't help but giving in)

Well I see your heart (feel it beating)
Seizes my lungs (stops my breathing)

Tachycardia (Contrast)

Fight fight
because you can barely see straight
Might might
try opening those eyes a little wider to this life
Hide hide
when you can't even think straight
Might find
this world has so much more to offer you

Don't lose control don't lose control
if you can't mirror what you're shown
You're not alone you're not alone
just feel more weight than you can hold
(if you feel more weight than you can hold)

Try try
looking deep down inside
Find find
what is taking your control
Inside inside
it feels like something is missing
Not right not right
always feels like not right

Don't lose control don't lose control
can't help but mirror what you're shown
You're not alone you're not alone
just feel more weight than you can hold
(if you feel more weight than you can hold)

Where can you find a center
when the whole world is looking for a balance
Trying hard to remember but still
feeling more lost than progress now so
no thinking is changing where you're
feeling hopeful feeling hopeless

trying blending changing 
but slowly transgressing
right back
to where you started

Chameleon

anxiety, love, frustration, unpolished expressionism and existential disdain.

demo 2014

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