As I Search Myself
© April 1999 – Raji Abuzalaf – From the play “My Two Sons”
Featuring "The Family" on Vocals

Despite all the good things that God has given me
Am I wrong to aspire?
Although there's the blessings of a godly family
I've a longing desire

Living with the sorrow of being second-best
It's been burning my pride
Think about tomorrow as I begin my quest
There's a yearning inside

Well I'm off to explore what my heart is looking for
Is my true destiny waiting inescapably?
And by faith make my claim as I call upon Your name
O Lord, bless me as I search myself

Well he’s off to explore what his heart is looking for
Is his true destiny waiting inescapably?
And by faith make his claim as he calls upon Your name
O Lord, bless me as I search myself

There must be an answer that's well within my reach
Yes I’m feeling the strain
I must take a chance and I'll learn from those who'll teach
How to deal with my pain

Filled with the sadness of always feeling strange
I am leaving today
Hoping for the gladness when I can make my change
I believe there's a way

Well I'm off to explore what my heart is looking for
Is my true destiny waiting inescapably?
And by faith make my claim as I call upon Your name
O Lord, bless me as I search myself

Well he’s off to explore what his heart is looking for
Is his true destiny waiting inescapably?
And by faith make his claim as he calls upon Your name
O Lord, bless me as I search myself…

Faith Songs

As I Search Myself

His Love
© April, 2024 – Raji Abuzalaf

We call on the Name of the Lord
For He is our righteousness
Redeemer of our sinfulness
Provider of all faithfulness
And love
His love

We welcome the day of the Lord
For in it is our recompense
Paid by blood of innocence
Forgiveness is the evidence
Of love
His love

We long for the Grace of the Lord
For He is the Holy One
Glorified in all He’s done
Through Him our salvation’s won
In love
His love

We reach for the Hand of the Lord
For His is the healing touch
Faithfully revealing much
Gratefully we’re feeling such
A love
His love

Blessed be the Name of the Lord
For He is our righteousness
Redeemer of our sinfulness
Provider of all faithfulness
And love
His love…

His Love

Hold My Heart In Your Hands
© May, 2024 – Raji Abuzalaf

La la la la  la…la la la  la la la la  la…

I know… I could never live without you
But there’s so much I wanna learn about you
You know… I could spend my nights beside you
So take my hand, girl, and let me guide you

When you hold my heart in your hands
Come on, listen, baby
Can’t you feel my love?
It’s just you and me now
When you hold my heart in your hands
Don’t you know I love you?
Can’t you feel my love?
Kiss me, little darling

You know… I won’t ever let you leave me
I’ll prove my love each day so you’ll believe me
I know… you’re the only one for me, dear
Open up your heart and then you’ll see clear

When you hold my heart in your hands
Come on, listen, baby
Can’t you feel my love?
It’s just you and me now
When you hold my heart in your hands
Don’t you know I love you?
Can’t you feel my love?
Kiss me, little darling

When you hold my heart in your hands
Come on, listen, baby
Can’t you feel my love?
It’s just you and me now
When you hold my heart in your hands
Yes you do…
Can’t you feel my love?
Won’t you kiss me, little darling

La la la la  la…la la la  la la la la  la…

Hold My Heart In Your Hands

In The Twilight
© September 2023 – Keith Adams & Raji Abuzalaf

There’s a time in space where hopeful lovers dwell  
Hovering between sunset and darkness of the night
Where evening’s wanton passions cast their spell
A place where romance often blooms – in the Twilight

There’s just enough light to expose the heart’s yearning
True intentions can’t hide when desperation is in sight
Where restraints are cast off and prevented from returning
A place where temptation meets fruition – in the Twilight

Twilight – where all your needs are met
Twilight – a chance you won’t regret
Twilight – a trip you can’t forget
More than a place, it’s a mindset

There’s a shift from casual glances to longing stares
No distinction between what’s wrong or what is right
Where desires aren’t judged cause no one really cares
A place where steamy lovers linger – in the Twilight

There’s few words spoken, no obligation to confess
Conscience succumbs to seduction without a fight 
Where on the other side await these deeds of darkness
A place where anxious lovers embark – in the Twilight

Twilight – where all your needs are met
Twilight – a chance you won’t regret
Twilight – a trip you can’t forget
More than a place, it’s a mindset

More than a place, it’s a mindset
In the twilight

In The Twilight

Poets And Painters
© February, 1979 – Raji Abuzalaf

The poet and the painter
Who are searching for the answer
Hail from Great Port Freedom
To those who fill the graves

They will join the thinker
And the singer and the dancer
Players waiting joyfully
For the One who lives and saves

The author and the sculptor
Who are crafting for the lancer
Yearn to find true justice
And hope to free the slaves

They will join dissenters
Who are fighting social cancer
Seekers waiting patiently
For the One who calms the waves

The minstrel and the artist
Who are bearing the romancer
Strive to free the captives
And those who hide in caves

They will join disciples
Who are greeting the Enhancer
Leaders waiting faithfully
For the One who still forgave

The poet and the painter
Who are searching for the answer
Hail from Great Port Freedom
To those who fill the graves

They will join the thinker
And the singer and the dancer
Players waiting joyfully
For the One who lives and saves

Poets And Painters

Amor Perdido
© January, 2024 – Paola Corona & Raji Abuzalaf
Featuring Paola Corona on vocals

Te quiero mucho, mi amor
Porque siempre has sido tan encantador
Te necesito, mi corazón
Pero tanta espera está más allá de la razón

Te quiero mucho, cariño
Pero nunca pensaste en enviarme un guiño
Te amo solo a ti, querido
Aunque no sepas que alguna vez he existido

Dime cómo puedo llamar tu atención
Dime cómo puedo ganar tu corazón
Si tan sólo supieras de verdad cuánto te amo

Te deseaba, mi amado
Pero estos sentimientos están en el pasado
Ansiaba tu amor, querido
Pero temo que mi sueño se haya perdido

Cómo hubiera podido llamar tu atención
Cómo podría haber ganado tu corazón
Lastima que nunca supiste en realidad cuánto te amaba

Te quise mucho, mi amor…
  Te quise mucho
  Ay, te quise mucho, mi amor
  Porque tenía que ser asi?
  Nuestro amor está perdido
  Why does it have to be like this?
  I loved you, my darling
  Our love is lost…

(English Translation)

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Love Lost
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I love you so much, my love
Because you’ve always been so charming
I need you, sweetheart
But this much waiting is beyond reason

I love you so much, honey
But you never thought to send me a wink
I love only you, dear
Even if you don’t know that I ever existed

Tell me how I can get your attention
Tell me how I can win your heart
If only you truly knew how much I love you

I wanted you, my beloved
But these feelings are in the past
I longed for your love, dear
But I fear my dream is lost

How could I have caught your attention?
How could I have won your heart?
It’s a shame you never really knew how much I loved you

I loved you very much, my love...
  I loved you very much
  Oh, I loved you very much, my love
  Why did it have to be like this?
  Our love is lost
  Why does it have to be like this?
  I loved you, my darling
  Our love is lost…

Amor Perdido

To Believe
© June, 2024 – Raji Abuzalaf

I watched my little boy just the other day
He got down on his knees and began to pray
He said, “O God, why don’t You help us out?”
But there was no reply, so he began to doubt

And he wept, and he wept, and he wept, and he wept

“Don’t you hear the children crying?”
“Can’t you see there’s good men dying?”
“Don’t you know there’s bad men lying?”
“Can’t you tell that I’m still trying?”

“To believe, to believe, to believe, to believe…in You”

I watched my little girl just the other night
She knelt down and prayed feeling so contrite
She said, “O God, won’t You end man’s oppression?”
But there was no response, so she began to question

And she cried, and she cried, and she cried, and she cried

“Don’t you hear our cries, it’s chilling?”
“Can’t you see good men’s blood spilling?”
“Don’t you know there’s bad men killing?”
“Can’t you tell that I’m still willing?”

“To believe, to believe, to believe, to believe…in You”

And so I bowed down wondering if He even sees us
I raised my hands and prayed in the name of Jesus
I said, “O God, are You there? Can’t you hear?”
This time I heard an answer, a soft voice in my ear

And I prayed, and I waited, and I listened, I heard Him say,

“I made the Earth a blessed venue”
“And placed free will to choose within you”
“Let My Spirit take control, I’ll defend you”
“Show a little faith and then continue…”

“To believe, to believe, to believe, to believe…in Me”

To Believe

Come Along
© May 2024 – Keith Adams & Raji Abuzalaf

Come along
And hear my song
I sing it passionately
Come along
Come on, come on
The truth will set you free

Come along
It won’t be long
And you can see what I mean
Come along
Right on, right on
The truth is yet to be seen

My only wish is to open your eyes
Get you thinking with your own mind
My hope is to unveil their disguise
All of their lies
That clouded the skies
And kept you blind

Come along, it can’t be wrong
Discover what’s in store
Come along, go on, go on
The truth will open the door

My only wish is to open your eyes
Get you thinking with your own mind
My hope is to unveil their disguise
All of their lies
That clouded the skies
And kept you blind

Come along
And hear my song
I sing it passionately
Come along
Come on, come on
The truth will set you free

Come Along

Your Kind Of Love
© June, 2024 – Keith Adams & Raji Abuzalaf

It’s alright – the way you treat me, baby
You hold me tight and squeeze the life out of me
It’s alright – the way you cheat me, baby
You stay all night but then you never love me

It’s alright – spend all my money, baby
It ain’t so bright to squeeze each dime out of me
It’s alright – you think it’s funny, baby
You start a fight just when it’s time to love me

Don’t need no woman that’d break my heart
Your kind of love just ain’t that smart
Don’t need no woman that’d leave me for dead
Your kind of love is like a hole in the head

It’s alright – the way you kiss me, baby
My lips turn white, you squeeze the blood out of me
It’s alright – the way you dis’ me, baby
You leave despite your vow to always love me

Don’t need no woman that’d break my heart
Your kind of love just ain’t that smart
Don’t need no woman that’d leave me for dead
Your kind of love is like a hole in the head

I don’t need your kind of love
It hurts your kind of love
You can keep your kind of love

Your Kind Of Love

Diana
© August, 2024 – Raji Abuzalaf

Diana, give me a hug, Diana give me a smile
Diana, let me hold you for just a little while

Diana, give me your hand, Diana give me your arms
Diana, won’t you let me have a taste of your charms?

Diana, show your heart, Diana show you care
Diana, for a moment let down your pretty hair

Diana, share your thoughts, Diana share your mind
Diana, for a moment leave your worries behind

Diana, share your hopes, Diana share your dreams
Diana, don’t you know that sharing always redeems?

I know you may be wondering just why I sing this song
When people share their feelings, it never could be wrong
So stop and see, it’s just a gift from me…

Diana

Waiting Game
© September, 2024 – Raji Abuzalaf

On this journey all these years, you’re still alone
You keep waiting for that love you’ve never known

I believe that you’ve been searching near and far
Maybe you’ve been trying a little bit too hard

Why do you shelter all this love deep inside?
Open up your heart and put away your pride

It’s such a crying shame that you play this waiting game
There’s no one else to blame when you play this waiting game

Every turn you take, there’s heartache left behind
Love seems so good but you can’t make up your mind

I believe that you’ve been hurting just the same
Baby, now’s the time to end this waiting game

Why do you keep on pushing true love aside?
What’s it gonna take to make you satisfied?

Waiting Game

This creative team met back in high school in Houston, Texas in 1969. They became friends quickly and discovered a unique synergy early on – songwriting. Keith manifested his expressions mostly in the area of lyrics, while Raji fashioned his creativity through melodies and arrangements.

The number of songs that they generated as young teens in a short period of time was incredible. What was even more astonishing was that neither of them could read a musical note, and yet they were able to compose lyrics, tunes, chords, beats, and develop sophisticated arrangements.

School, work, marriage, children, and associations with other bands threw them onto separate life paths. Raji continued composing with other bands and on his own, while Keith officially took a long hiatus.

The team temporarily regrouped in the early 1980’s for a few profound Christian musical offerings. Eventually, Raji found the time and energy to record many of their earlier songs and publish them – both in several of his novels and on soundcloud.com. Then in late 2021 they regrouped once more to continue their creative journey together.

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