I'm yawning through the ceiling
And I hold on to that feeling
I end my sentence with a comma
But there's no ending to the drama

And I feel like shit
I'm too old for this
I don't want to play
But I need to win
There's no time to waste
And no room for saves
I don't want to lose
But I don't want to play

And I'm crawling in the darkness
And I'm losing all my kindness
I end my sentence with a comma
But there's no ending to the drama

And I feel like shit
I'm too old for this
I don't want to play
But I need to win
There's no time to waste
And no room for saves
I don't want to lose
But I don't want to play

Original Soundtrack (Original Version)

worlds a fuck acoustic cover w/ puke

https://youtu.be/PiwWzWIIPO4?si=tznxy0rK_3DV74IG

All these feelings that I can't understand
I wish that someone would come to me and
Tell me that it's okay to be this way
And make me feel alright I dont wanna go away

I feel so angry and anxious all the time
I guess I'll get loaded to make me feel alright
But then I feel sorry about my past
I guess I'm distracted these feelings never last

Notra Sleep - timebomb (acoustic ss cover)

svrfthvkvliyvga!

Beetle in the dirt, does it bother you at all? 
Fighting with yourself, if it's time to make the call? 
Many months have passed
yet you still have room for change,
isnt it strange:
the one in the mirror doesn't always seem the same? 
it infects your mind
they say "a parasite burrowed deep beneath your eyes, killing you inside"
"blame reflection, when there isn't perfection"
"it cant be your own brain," thats what they say, "its infection- try medication"
"just poison yourself"
"its good for your health!"
its simple addiction, without confliction

Beetle in the dirt, are you happy with yourself?
A hundred pills down, another bottle on the shelf
How many years gone? 
A decade of wasted youth;
Is it finally true? Does the mirror now reflect the real you?

Of course that's not true, but
what can you do? 
maybe switch to injection?
you hate your complexion,
but what can you do? 
Maybe a cure is just too good to be true
they say that the pain
is a small price to pay for perfection 
it's self-oppression 
just spread your wings right, 
and you might fly up to HEAVEN


(with medication)

with medication (ACOUSTIC DEMO)

failure - swans (COVER)

failure of an oath to the angels:
oh god
i'm sorry

under a spell:
jesus, set me free again
now
i need some warm, need you to come home
if you could only see.

failure of an oath to the angels/under a spell


pretty girl, how much do u really fucking know
cause i dont wanna know
because I hate u so

my little girl is screaming I dont wanna go
I wanna drown right now
I wanna drown right now

gonna use a meat cleaver in the freezer room tonight
If you wanna peel my ribs i'd happily let u so

my little girl is screaming I dont wanna go
cause i dont wanna know
because I hate u so 


damn those fairies!

dont you see the fantasy ,
hidden in the mundane?
the colors on a black and white display? 
the rgb , in the lcd? 
technicolor ghosts all whispering to me
a fly above the screen
hanged for all to see

rip them out, wires in your mouth
youve been tapped by cords
and use them now against me
can you hear, the buzzing atmosphere 
that surrounds, 
the both of us right now

didnt you try,
to stop your eyes from winding?
the colors in your pupils turn to grey
the catacombs, 
the winter tombs
you want to go home
but my home is you
dont push me still away now
theyre coming back to haunt you, too 


now the hive minds 
are swarming up against you
are you writhing so deep
inside your grave?

winter tomb (ACOUSTIC DEMO)

Live Audio Recorded August 24th 2024,

Remastered and Repackaged to commemorate the loss of Ian Mockler, a.k.a. Lil Watermark. A Natural Showman who put on one of the best shows East of the Mississippi deep in the forests of Virginia. A Great night of banter, partying and solidifying another great celebration of soyjack party

credits:

Performers:
Ian Mockler (Lil Watermark) - Guitars & Vocals
Danghul Bangyana - Drums
Aidan Ziril - Bass

Photography, Design - Foolz
Mixing & Mastering - Foolz

Additional Audio Submitted from Phone Video Recordings, Action Cameras, and Handheld Recorders:
- Elias
- Gabe
- Shot
- Tac

Special thanks to Bessarion and halfwayhobo for hosting. 

Post Show Chant

composer: XO_willow☆

All I want is
A happy day again
It's getting harder
Driving that car again

CUZ ALL I WANNA DO
IS TELL THE WORLD IT'S TRUE
AND I HAVE A LIFE TO LIVE
AND I'M SCARED ABOUT IT

Only if
I had a choice in it
Your ghost
Is haunting all of it

I SLIT YOUR THROAT
YOU'VE GOT TO CHOKE
COCK IN IT TOO
I CAN'T STAND YOU
YOUR INSTAGRAM
I DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHY CAN'T YOU SEE
I'M THE BEST FOR YOU

I SLIT YOUR THROAT
YOU'VE GOT TO CHOKE
COCK IN IT TOO
I CAN'T STAND YOU
YOUR INSTAGRAM
I DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHY CAN'T YOU SEE
I'M THE BEST FOR YOU

// coming to Spotify this Friday, September 19!

Bianca Devins

https://davyde777.bandcamp.com/album/lucretia

svrfthvkvliyvga!

𝔇𝔞𝔳𝔶𝔡𝔢777