Written, Recorded, Mixed & Mastered Entirely By MEEJ.

BUT I'LL LET YOU TRY.

(LYRICS.)
Girl, I’ve got a green thumb.
I’ll pick your petals off, I let you free fall.
I never said I loved you.
Fear of response.
Now I’m dead to you again, I have no respawn.
Baby I remember that day.
The day I read that text.
I will never understand why.
You chose me to be next.
I had you obsessed with me.
Should’ve thought I was blessed.
But I was cursed.
With your beauty.
Baby, please believe my words.
I plucked your petals off, you cut me with your thorns.
Look what I’ve become.
Without you.
You see that I’m numb.

Lemme tell it to you like this.
Couldn’t tell it to you like that.
It’s time we’ve broke our pact.
There’s no going back.
All the feelings, all the memories, I should go unpack.
Now, I feel your wrath.

Then, I felt your scorn.
Then, I dealt your scars.
Now, I see the prize.
Was more than just your heart.

JAVONTÉ & THE ROSE. [PROD. MEEJ.]

(LYRICS.)
Everytime I think about them loving me I cringe.
I could speak my mind to them and still not make no sense.
I knew I was born for this I had to take a risk.
I can’t take a hint.
All the time I spent on her it Changed me but it never made me Cents.
In this crazy life of sin.
I’m prolly the worst of the worst, I admit.
Been committing evil ever since I was a kid.
You wouldn’t believe me if I told you what I did.
Only choice I have is talk to God and go repent.
But even then I feel.
As if he’s laughing at me as the rest of them reveal.
The hatred that we share.
The hatred that was targeted to me because the pain that I have caused can never heal.
I got scars on my heart.
Scars on my soul.
Scars on my mind.
The stories never told.
And for the ones that are.
Shall sit and grow old.
The ones that seek to Find MEEJ will heed what I bestow.
I can really show you where the bottom is.
That’s where I’m from.
I can show you who the problem is.
I’m the one.
I’m the one that you don’t know.
The one that you don’t know that you gon hate before you go.
And when that day arrives I’ll let you know I told you so.
I’m nothing worth to save.
Please don’t waste a prayer.
Neglect the words I say.
Every single song.
That I sit down and make.
Alongside all the beats.
They all just sound the same.
And all the girls I get with.
They treat me like a game.
They tell me that they love me but they barely know my name.
I know I deserve it.
Because I did the same.
To all the ones I knew were too good for me to blame.
To all the ones that knew that I was lying in their face.
To all the ones that would’ve stuck with me before the fame.
To all the ones that knew that I was too lost to be saved.
I’m the son of a pastor.
I’m the son of a bastard.
Can I die any faster?
I just wanna see what’s after.
Murder on my mind.
I just want revenge.
Revenge on myself.
I’ll lead me to my end.
And if you wanna help.
That’s when I’ll let you in.
Just call my number once and if you want, come bring a friend.
I’ve been lying to my parents.
I’ve been lying to myself and I’ve been crying to the Lord, despite the cards that I’ve been dealt.
Despite the cards that I’ve been dealt, I’ve got an Ace under my sleeve.
And just believe if it’s not suicide I promise that I’ll be.
Amongst the greatest.
Fueled with all this rage and.
My humiliation: Dedication I was raised with.
I don’t need a placement.
Had to put myself on all my beats cuz half you rappers, let’s be honest, don’t deserve them.
They left me deserted.
Too long I’ve been hurting.
I know I deserve it.
I’m barely 18 and it feels like I’m pushing 30.
The devil is a hoe.
And she keep on flirting.
I know God Is Dope.
Most High is what I’m yearning.
He showed me the ropes.
I know I’m still learning.
Say that with my chest.
Even when it’s burning.
When I lay down in my bed.
When I lay down in my room.
It feels like I’m dying.
Like I’m lying in my tomb.
Gotta keep it quiet cuz I can’t let them assume.
Can’t let them assume I let my thoughts to be consumed.
I first made this song two years ago I wasn’t ready.
I still think I’m not, but God assured that he would let me.
When I get my strap, I know my aim will remain steady.
When I get that buss-down for my AP, Imma flood it like the Levees.
And Drizzy told me Say What’s Real.
And Ye told me to Say I Will.
I’m Really Willing.

Im Really Willing.

REALLY WILLING. [PROD. KANYE WEST X MEEJ.]

(LYRICS.)
Got in some drama back in Cobb County.
And to be honest I could see why it was hard to count me.
Into activities, actively losing guidance.
Son of a bastard with the last name of a highness.
Even with these chains on for some reason I’m never binded.
Hers for The Weeknd her love a light that I’m Blinded. 
I need a check, dropped a kit to balance the minuses.
They’ll wipe my nose and just know I’m not talking sinuses.

I lost my mind when Gary Stern had took his last breath.
Moved into Bellingham, almost turned back to Grand Theft.
Auto a weapon, nah this is Autobiography.
Stay with a Ratchet not talking Autobot obviously.
Honestly I don’t know what I’m doing.
I’m moving careless, in New York they had the Metro Boomin.
I hope to God I meet him just so I could say I knew him. 
Not even off the music tip, don’t even show improvement.

(You give me a feeling that I've never felt before.)

I made some beats and for some reason that started a movement.
I juuged the Gateway, juggled Jugger beats for two blue moons and-

(It's becoming something that's impossible to ignore.)

Lemme get it off my plate.
Lemme go and clean my slate.
I played two girls at the same time when I moved outta state.
One of them found out and forced me to tell the truth to the other.
I know my mother would slap the black off her sons face.
Maybe my father would do it and I won’t even blame him.
I’d look them both in the eye and I’d even prolly thank them.

I am not ready, keep my head up gotta keep it pushing.
Sagging my jeans to show my belt knowing nobody’s looking.
I haven’t guarded myself from this world’s evil delusions.
Pervert the word of God, the clean facade boosting confusion.
My former lover was allured by all of its allusions. 

Last month I hung my pads and helmet for the last time.
I gave my cleats to Quinn I told lil bro; "It’s time to shine."
My momma found out and got heated, like I commit crime.
"I figured action of kindness was worth more than a dime."
I find the well-being of others worth way more than mine.
That’s why I troll inside these servers and say: 
"I’m not trying."
Put down my mic and close my laptop and get straight to crying.
Pick that mic back up and press record and get right back to grinding.
What good is all that worth if I stand face to face with my father and if he asks if I’m better I get right back to lying. 
Not unachievable.
Maybe in 5 years I’d prolly done TheUnThinkable.

THE UNTHINKABLE. [PROD. MEEJ.]

(LYRICS.)
I know I’m the worst.

I get on your nerves.
I don’t know my worth.
Kick me to the curb.
That’s what I deserve.
I’m so stupid, I don’t ever learn.
You was never mine, it was only just my turn.
In this pool of flames I’m going under, watch me burn.
I can’t find the words.

I know I’m the worst.
I get on your nerves.
I don’t know my worth.
Kick me to the curb.
That’s what I deserve.
I can’t find the words.

I CAN'T FIND THE WORDS. [PROD. JAYREWIND]

(LYRICS.)
Please don’t hang up.
I just wanna tell you that I’m sorry, I’ll do better.
I’ve been in this storm for way too long that any weather.
Different from the rain and wind that blows can not be measured.
The grass is greener on the other side.
I’m tired of anger had to leave it all behind.
I drive on this road all alone along this ride. 
Had to make a choice I had to grow up and decide.

I’ll do better.
I’ll do better.
I’ll do better.
I’ll do better.

Please don’t hang up.
Nowadays I call them out the blue, I really changed up.
I told all the girls I had to leave that I’m too dangerous.
Even now we don’t see eye to eye with the same trust.

Please don’t hang up.
I just wanna tell you that I’m sorry, I’ll do better.
I’ve been in this storm for way too long that any weather.
Different from the rain and wind that blows can not be measured.
The grass is greener on the other side.
I’m tired of anger had to leave it all behind.
I drive on this road all alone along this ride. 
Had to make a choice I had to grow up and decide.

I’ll do better.
I’ll do better.
I’ll do better.
I’ll do better.

I'LL DO BETTER. [PROD. MEEJ.]

(LYRICS.)
It’s 22 inside this clip, I made this beat with 20TWO.
14, ran a rack up offa Fruity Loops.
18, it’s too easy.
They ask: 
“How did you?-“
"Excuse me!-"
Please keep all receipts from ones who doubted you.

Masked up.
With that Stick on me, I feel like Casey Jones.
Masked up.
With that Stick on me, I feel like Casey Jones.
Masked up.
With that Stick on me, I feel like Casey Jones.
Masked up.
With that Stick on me, I feel like Casey Jones.

Hunnids Blue & Green like Leonardo.
Whip Red: Raphael.
Her Lace Purple, just like Donatello.
Bad like O’Neal.
Cook up with that Nunchuck on me.
That’s two different shells. 
All Orange on my Lamborghini.
All Black on the wheels.
She said I’m the 1 like Mikey.
Told her keep it real.
Had to go to sleep with roaches on me.
You’n know how it feel.
Devil woke me up in my bed.
Said he had a deal.


All against my will.

I can’t count how many times I’ve said: “Tonight will be my last one on this Earth.”
Let nobody in, this darkness has consumed me since my birth.
You said that you want her, that’s okay. 
Just know I loved her first.
I’ll let you both step over me, I’ll let you both neglect my worth.

Don’t blame me, blame the streets that chased me.
Project baby.
I been living life on thin ice, like I was Gretzky. 
My blood was on the pavement.
Pay me.
She drive me crazy.
I’ll kill myself, ain’t graduating.
“Therapy won’t save me.”

Masked up.
With that Stick on me, I feel like Casey Jones.
Masked up.
With that Stick on me, I feel like Casey Jones.
Masked up.
With that Stick on me, I feel like Casey Jones.
Masked up.
With that Stick on me, I feel like Casey Jones.

[BONUS.] | CASEY JONES. [PROD. MEEJ. X 20TWO]

MEEJ.