The Upload 70

thanks for always supporting me, i love you all so much

i've been stuck here crying all by myself
i been waiting for too long to find my wealth
back to my roots, i hope you're doing well
beacuse i'm eight fucking seconds from goin to hell

lost all my friends from an argument
hours later and i dont even know what it meant
what the fuck does activity have to do
with being your friend? i dont care bout you

maybe it's worth it, just giving you up
it was way too draining for me to keep up
you'd always vent to me all the time
now i got a fuckin job, and i work full time

get out of my messages
(you already went and fucked up your last chance)
don't talk to me again
(i don't ever wanna hear your name again)

problems <yukiro>

MENTAL HEALTH AT AN ALL TIME LOW ⚠⚠⚠



lyrics:
You thought I'd just sit around, never givin a fuck
And I just wanna be alone so why you tryin my luck
You know I begged you to leave, oh
I don't know what I need, no
Sit around and get comfy
Keep low expectations, I cant stick to nothing
I'm trying my best to give all of you something
Its hopeless, I'm tired of sayin the same shit, it's over

I'm stayin true to myself, sayin' I wont quit
But nobody fuckin knows why I'm doin this shit
Mental health at an all time low
You're not my friend, you're just a mofuckin foe
Had my chance ripped me from me, I call it karma
Nobody shuts up, they all want the drama
I'm tired of venting, I'm tired of bullshit
Cry in my bed and just sleep it off all day
But I'm never left alone
Result to turning off my phone
Please just stop talking, I hate what you say to me
I'm so close to leaving, I deal with this daily

(You know exactly how much I've been struggling recently)
(And you still decide to blame me for every little fucking thing in your life)
(I'm so tired of this and I'm fucking tired of you, get the fuck out of my life)

Sit around and get comfy
Keep low expectations, I cant stick to nothing
I'm trying my best to give all of you something
Its hopeless, I'm tired of sayin the same shit, it's over

I'm stayin true to myself, sayin' I wont quit
But nobody fuckin knows why I'm doin this shit
Mental health at an all time low
You're not my friend, you're just a mofuckin foe
Had my chance ripped me from me, I call it karma
Nobody shuts up, they all want the drama
I'm tired of venting, I'm tired of bullshit
Cry in my bed and just sleep it off all day
But I'm never left alone
Result to turning off my phone
Please just stop talking, I hate what you say to me
I'm so close to leaving, I deal with this daily

I'm stayin true to myself, sayin' I wont quit
But nobody fuckin knows why I'm doin this shit
Mental health at an all time low
You're not my friend, you're just a mofuckin foe
Had my chance ripped me from me, I call it karma
Nobody shuts up, they all want the drama
I'm tired of venting, I'm tired of bullshit
Cry in my bed and just sleep it off all day
But I'm never left alone
Result to turning off my phone
Please just stop talking, I hate what you say to me
I'm so close to leaving, I deal with this daily

(All time low, All time low)
(You know I begged you to leave, oh)
(I don't know what I need, no)
(I call it karma)
(Nobody shuts up, they all want the drama)
(All time low)

You thought I'd just sit around, never givin a fuck
And I just wanna be alone so why you tryin my luck
You know I begged you to leave, oh
I don't know what I need, no
Sit around and get comfy
Keep low expectations, I cant stick to nothing
I'm trying my best to give all of you something
Its hopeless, I'm tired of sayin the same shit, it's over
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in dedication to shaun, i hope you're proud of me

foe <plxce>

sample: doja cat - so high (original)

you get me so high.

so high

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Wheels

Sonny Boy・Rhapsody
By toe
From the Sonny Boy soundtrack.

TV ANIMATION "Sonny Boy" original soundtrack

サニーボーイ・ラプソディ

The song is from YonKaGor: https://youtu.be/IYCPzZtDj98
All credit goes to them
This is not my song
I just wanted this song on soundcloud He doesn't post often

You're Just Like Pop Music (YonKaGor)

just self reflecting, follow my main @squiblers

i just need a hug, i need a bit of love right now
talking shit in my uber, am i really bouta break down
deep breaths, getting told i'll be fine
but i'm always overthinking, what if they all were lying?

calm down, you already know the outcome
you have all your friends and they let you feel welcomed
you know that they love you, you know you're important
if you disappear then you know they'd report it

i don't know why you're like this
you always assume the worst, you never hide it
emotions are fragile and yours are no different
so then why the fuck are you keeping them hidden?
away from your friends so then they never notice
thats so fucking harmful, you need to control it
im not confrontational, im just being helpful
please can you listen i dont want you to hurt anymore

we're in this together, forever, i promise i promise

i just wanna see you happy,
i never expected what this all would cause for you
but its all for the best,
its a tiring process but please try to pull through

i know it's hard, i know it is
just try your best? our motive is
to see you smile, that's all we want
but if you're tired, then we can stop

even if it's for a moment
you're doing so great and i'm so fucking proud of you
look at you go, do you see where you're headed to?
honesty led you here that-

don't listen to them cuz you know they are lying
you're doing so poorly, are you even trying?
give up, throw yourself into your bed
write your last words, put a gun to your head
let it end

note to self <clearlyyy>

ive been obsessed with a song lately and i wanted to write something to it so i did this idk how to rap sorry lol

original: https://soundcloud.com/mimideathh/if-god-didnt-want-us-to-snort

lyrics: ya, ion really care if ur toxic
ion care if u wanna talk shit
just keep it away from me, cuz ion really wanna see it
but im scrollin thru my feed like they all wanna be a mofuckin hero n shit
like they a fuckin avenger but they aint ever go-getters
n i aint ever felt better when i am lonely
you aint ever even wanna phone me, hypocrite
you aint even wanna talk a bit

about the shit that you said outside
that you said online, spreadin all these lies
about the people that you never even met in your life
go hard, make em stare at the end of the knife
make em question reality, make em feel all this agony
call em everything that you ever thought of them out to be
make everybody feel like they dont deserve any empathy
makin rumors bout the things that you know will make casualties

i know it's really hard to just be a little normal
its feeling impossible to never get into a wormhole
drama fiends and their selfish needs
makin anyone remember any of their bad deeds
lookin back when they attackin anything that you were lackin
in the first place, they aint letting u to first base
sit back, cant relax cuz u know that youll collapse
watch it all fall apart like a fuckin time-lapse

i dont know what to do when they dont want you
let it all fall apart, they wont ever see it through
all the lies, all the time they aint ever gonna stop
crumble down, to the ground, they just wanna see you drop
drop, drop, drop, drop, drop, they just wanna see u
drop, drop, drop, drop, drop, they just wanna see u
drop, drop, drop, drop, drop, they just wanna see u
drop, drop, drop, drop, drop, they just wanna see u

drop dead

timepasser

stream

timepasser w/ lucas lex

stream "notice u" on all platforms: http://noticeu.luvse.at

recorded on christmas eve, released on valentines day

prod 02ashes
whoisluvseat on ig
kevinkempt on ig
1luvseat on twt
kevin_kempt on twt

lyrics:
[luvseat]
i kinda hate that my friends still talk to you
its like they dont care bout everything that you put me thru
everywhere i look, i see your face, i dont know what to do
i dont know what to do

what am i supposed to do?
wanna get close to you.
when i see you on my screen, cant help but notice you
what am i supposed to do?
i wanna hold you too
when i see you on my screen, cant help but notice you
what am i supposed to do?
wanna get close to you.
when i see you on my screen, cant help but notice you
what am i supposed to do?
i wanna hold you too
when i see you on my screen, cant help but notice you

[kevinkempt]
talking down my own mind. wish i didn't see that
now im treating every other thought like relapse
clean slate: i just really wanna be past it
wanna be past it
ive been making progress but i wish i did it quickly
going to new places here but i still hate the city
my burden's my fault, so now it's with me
i thought it would be more challenging for them to ditch me
being young is messing up so i guess i did that right
staying up for nothing but viewing my ceiling at night
i guess i should stay strong. i guess i should grow up
waiting for the pay off, hoping that it shows up
waiting for the right time to say that i beat the past me
good intentions but the executions backstab me
till im combatitive, my silence is the death of me
threatening myself because ive always been my enemy

[luvseat]
what am i supposed to do?
wanna get close to you.
when i see you on my screen, cant help but notice you
what am i supposed to do?
i wanna hold you too
when i see you on my screen, cant help but notice you
what am i supposed to do?
wanna get close to you.
when i see you on my screen, cant help but notice you
what am i supposed to do?
i wanna hold you too
when i see you on my screen, cant help but notice you

ALL PLATFORMS

notice u w/ kevinkempt

prod guda & swiftslash & me
written and sang by me

lyrics:
- part 1 -
never been the same since i was that day
i'm so tired of attention cuz i wanna run away
people always act out but they never wanna change
and my life is like a book the wear i'm tearin off a page

and i've never been the same since i was that day
i'm so tired of attention cuz i wanna run away
people always act out but they never wanna change
and my life is like a book the wear i'm tearin off a page

i know how it ends but i still really wanna give up
i hate that you're persistent, can you give me this and let up?
i'm always fucking hurting, always told to keep my chin up
so i'll just buy a rope and make a promise to keep it up

you know i'm tired, and i'm very unstable
i'm constantly looking for reasons to label
myself as dead and have no one bat an eye
cuz they'd never wanna question why the fuck i'd wanna die

i don't wanna make them sad
i always make my parents mad
i'm still hurting really bad
but i know how it ends up

- part 2 -
i need to sleep
i'm so exhausted from my medicine
why am i so weak?
am i really goin through it again

day five, i wont speak
i think it's probably cuz of medicine
why am i here?
i thought you said you'd never call them

pick me up, they throwin me into a small, brown room
another person says "hello, who am i talking to?"
i'm introduced and then they took my phone away
i'm fucking terrified of who i even was that day

they told me that i would recover here
and that they'd always lend me an ear
but when i tried to talk about my problems
they kept me round and told me that they'd solve them

do they think that i'd be happy here?
these fucking walls are stained with all my tears
they never even fucking cleaned my window
they kept me locked inside my brand new limbo

晚安

im back baby
prod. plxce - vocals & mix by naku
"best drill music to blast in a bouncy house"

lyr:
bitch mic up
ion give a fuck about a pessimist
im tryna fight a wannabe
who know that they can't ever snitch
they gonna let me go n try to fuck around a little bit
or maybe take a nap because im fed up with the sleepy shit

but they never do it , they never wanna fight back
i just go through it , i tryna get a big bag
but how will i do it , ion know, i gotta write that
don't act like you you knew it , mofucka tryna snipe that

hop off that dick that i know that you're riding
i'm too fuckin lazy, i'm reusing writing
fuck all the shrooms, i been tryna get a real trip
fuck the 1p , killed my ego from that shit

fuck every song
that i've written , they're all wrong
maybe i been paranoid
music that you should avoid
fuck every song
that i've written , they're all wrong
maybe i been paranoid
music that you should avoid

bitch shut up
never gave a fuck about irrelevance
smokin on your loud pack
vaf get hella lit
drinkin watchin mlp
fuck yo gang, cant mess wit me
people try to run up all the time but they cant ever leave

talk yo shit , so you can let it out
empty clip , into your liver now
1312 , we fuckin runnin now
i need help , but i wont get it now

fuck ton of weed in my bag, call it cat piss
mothafucka tryna throw hands, can you catch this?
bad bitch think that i'm a prick, like a cactus
never know the truth, like they dont know what the fact is

fuck every song
that i've written , they're all wrong
maybe i been paranoid
music that you should avoid
fuck every song
that i've written , they're all wrong
maybe i been paranoid
music that you should avoid

(thanks to my friends that let me harass them for mp3 files of them bullying the shit out of me LMFAOOOO love yall ♥ thx)

ROFLcopter! <plxce>

prod mud
this gona flop but idc it was fun to make

idfk why ur mad at me [p. mud]

prod eternal rose god
thanks for all the support on my music recently this shit fun as fuck
thx to the people who i randomly hit up at 4 am asking them to record themselves saying my name for the intro <3

okay

original song by jack conte - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dzr32OqGlOA

prod @blackwinterwells

thank u to ethan @soupandreas for help transcribing to midi

:D

jack conte - yeah yeah yeah (blackwinterwells)

out by the water
realfishers
aka @squiblers

note to self <clearlyyy>

k4

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