im always wonder what does... things are? i mean, where do you get them, is this some old movies and tv shows???, home videos??? cant stop thinking about it.

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feel better - scruffpuppie

you said okay

saturday dec 14 2013

bubble boy, an insignificant cell on a strangers body. a nobody, with no purpose, but i’ll still find a way to draw parallels to who looks better with their shirt off. now it feels like the world is spinning too quickly and sometimes i just can’t fucking believe that i’m here right now. please, i’m begging you to compare me to someone else. spit in my mouth,  then on my chest. let me taste you so when you’re gone i’ll know exactly what i’m missing. it’s 1am and i want to be apart of you in ways you’ll only bring up when you talk shit on me years later. until then i’ll kiss your stretch marks, and you’ll run your fingers across old scars, and together we’ll repeat 'i love you' until the mirror breaks.

the root of my problems doesn’t have a root at all. it isn’t a string or trail of bread crumbs i can follow back to a single moment. it isn’t a suppressed thought, it’s a voice that convinces me my thoughts are worth suppressing in the first place.

we'll repeat 'i love you' until the mirror breaks

don’t hold your tongue
i know we’re done
i’m not an idiot
there’s no coming back
from where we’ve been
and who we’ve been with
but these are not the people
we thought that we would touch
and i’m scared that if i see you
i’ll start missing you too much

i know i felt like home
a year ago
when this was new
we’ll learn who we are
when we drift apart
when we drift
but when did we become so old
tomorrow i turn twenty four
and i’m still chasing the dreams
we had in high school

now we’re clinging onto objects
that someone else had touched
in hopes that we still smell them
in the fabric and the dust
i took the book you wrote me
and i tore it into shreds
but i still keep it in a shoe box
in a space next to my bed
i want to hold you until i’m empty
and i’ve got nothing left
so when you let me go
could you do it slow

and i’m sorry that i went away
i just needed some time to make
the pain into something
you can hold

july 8th, 2014

you're a mess in public

it's thursday, january 12th and this is the last time i'll talk about drowning

we'll live

i'm broken but i'll try

i love you more than i thought was sober
you’re a flawless gem
i can see you in my smile

its your cartoon eyes
when you ask me if
when you ask if you can stay the night

i hold you close as we watch the ocean
under all the stars
we collapse through time and space

you kiss my neck
then whisper in
my eager ear

"will you fucking eat me out?
mother fucking eat me out
will you fucking eat me out
while my favorite shows on?"

eat me out demo

Everything gonna be alright. The sun comes out tomorrow.
No need to worry your pretty head.
I know you’ve had your share of pointless pain and sorrow.
I know you’re battered, bruised; you’ve bled. 

Everything gonna be alright. There’s hope on the horizon.
We’re gonna make it through this mess.
We’ve been through this before, you gotta keep on tryin’. 
You’ve gotta find your happiness. 

Everything gonna be alright. You’re not the only one who
Is giving all they have - their best. 
Everything gonna be alright, keep doing all that you do.
Just look around at all the rest

Who, just like you, care enough - they care enough to try.
As long as even one of us is trying, we’ll get by.
So when you see someone who cares, just look ‘em in the eye.
And tell ‘em brother, tell ‘em sister, keep looking to the sky.

Everything gonna be alright. The sun comes out tomorrow.
No need to worry your pretty head.
I know you’ve had your share of pointless pain and sorrow.
I know you’re battered, bruised; you’ve bled. 


Everything's Gonna Be Alright

Citizen // How Does It Feel?

Taylor wrote this awesome guitar riff that we made into a song. This is us practicing it for the first time and I'm so glad it sounds this way with all the instruments. 
Listen to the finished recording of this song here!
https://open.spotify.com/track/6LyA6defawzVyvPdL3LqIK

Space Again (Demo)

fighting a losing war

catnaps in an abandoned parking lot

try to sleep- for granddad

i record songs and write poems and i really hope you're having a good day.

my teachers believe that i sacrificed my grandma to Satan.

fighting a losing war

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