i cannot compete for bitches man you’re just the saddest bunch
i got them sitting in their bedroom they’re feeling mad as fuck

i used to be so embarrassing
nowadays i don’t say shit
everybody hates everyone but they’re too afraid to say it

i’m just not better than anybody 
i get distracted by pretty bodies 
maybe if i had just taken my time i wouldn’t be trapped in this melancholy 

i watched my friends become enemies
i guess they just weren’t feeling me
look through the rubble of everything
i guess that shit wasn’t meant for me

i love every leaf that grows after me
look down the branch they still mad at me
they think that my grass is greener it didn’t come naturally
they think that my fruit is sweet but they’re never taking a bite of me

dammit i’m living what i wrote 
god dammit i’m living what i wrote

seems i made my heart to mince meat
i just miss the feel when you kiss me
cry in front of my friends in the backseat
i’m so tired it’s not that hard to see

i’ll never know when it’s my turn
search for the feeling that i yearn
won’t be a stone i leave unturned
light all the bridges i’ll let them burn

not sure if it’s fine to still cry about things that i thought i was over with
and you aren’t mine i still wish i could call you and get this pain over with
cause every time that i see you on my phone don’t know if you’re missing me
one thing’s for certain the one thing that matters is you’re not forgetting me

cause i told you that i love you first
nowadays i’ve been feeling the worst
i’m sorry the thought of you doesn’t hurt
just missing the feeling you would return
salt in the wound guess i’ll let it burn
i need my penance there’s more to learn

i’ll never know when it’s my turn

i’m one with the birds again
i’m one with the woods again
i know it’s better off that,
that i did it myself again

penance

@pr4y3rs

prod. flesh

lyrics:
i know that im lost and complacent, pull me in places 
i've been smoking heavy just so i can feel the day end 
i've been caught in my web of lies and i dont wanna face it 
i know that im paranoid im drinking till im brainless 
if i fall pull me up hollow eyes tainted love 
i pour 1 cup then 2 cup im fucked up i know
cant go back to my old town its been way too long 
now im trapped in the cycle my back on the wall

feeling caught in a web of my thoughts
its a lot and i understand if you dont wanna talk 
this protection's a weapon against all i got
but i get it, it's best, get your rest and i'll walk 
it's a long way back to the place i'm from 
on a one way track when im tainting my lungs
so the next time y'all wanna give me my shot
i'll be ready for death or whatever i want

oh I had a dream I was caught up in the strings 
and I saw the puppeteer and the bar was crossing me 
I was frozen up in fear when I lost a part of me 
from the heart I couldn't steer so I parked under a tree 
I listened for some words of wisdom from the worst 
the barking made it clear that branching never works 
cause an end is always near what's the chance that I'll defer 
from the area thats paved where the variants converge

dream w/ prayers

@goneafteraugust

prod. flesh

lyrics:
i wish that I didn't have to worry bout the money tho 
i got all these banks you'd think that I got me some money rolls 
like the way it sound when I get hungry but my tummy don't 
I just wanna pull up to the mall and get me one of those 
I don't got the funds to make withdrawals for shit to help me grow 
barely even get any applause I think it's funny tho 
really I been crying on the ground it's getting muddy tho
I could mix that shit up with a crack and make it fucking dope 

I've been slipping again 
and this shit all my fault 
I ain't telling my friends 
that I wanna end it all 
if I do it depends 
really hope that its not 
something that I'll commit to 
when I'm closer to god

she said when im in ur presence i feel like im next to god
ur the only one that ever helps to make these voices stop
i’m not doing well i been stuck in my house with just my thoughts
paid in full but if i lost myself was it really worth the cost
anyways i’m hoping for better days
looking to the sky but it’s no use so i don’t ever pray
i don’t have any faith big blows like a heavy weight
slip until i fall off of this earth n knock at heavens gate

fissure of woe w/ goneafteraugust

life goes on [prod. shinju]

unreleased

shinigami - man down prod dylan brady

★..your smile fades in the summer..★

[producer]
@shikixo
@noahmadethiss

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/pogchampswagepicfrfr/i-know-that-u-feel-me-prod-shiki-xo-noahmadethiss-nitecore-mix

[lyrics]

intro:
fate fell short this time
your smile fades in the summer
place your hand in mine
i'll leave when i wanna

hook:
since when do i talk like that
had conviction but it all fell flat
hide my feelings in a brand new tat
i know that you feel me

im lit but my songs all sad
stats up so my cheque is fat
driving fast dont know where im at
i know that you feel me

verse:
cause theres something in my head
but i cannot seem to lose it
i dont wanna feel like
im going through the motions

i dont wanna be
just another memory
(just another memory)
(just another memory)

ill change enough
till i think im getting better
but i dont know where to start
with these letters

fall back to my old self
unless i take measures
i dont wanna give
you back your sweater

bridge:
fate fell short this time
your smile fades in the summer (so lost in these illusions)
place your hand in mine
ill leave when i wanna (so lost in these illusions)

repeat hook:
since when do i talk like that
had conviction but it all fell flat
hide my feelings in a brand new tat
i know that you feel me

im lit but my songs all sad
stats up so my cheque is fat
driving fast dont know where im at
i know that you feel me

ending:
fate fell short this time
your smile fades in the summer
place your hand in mine
ill leave when i wanna

★streaming★

★i know that u feel me★ (prod. shiki xo & noahmadethiss)

another me ft. silvverbell (brody + fish narc)

<333 GARDEN AVENUE <333

try to keep looking at the bright side
stared too long it hurt my eyes
i met u at the wrong time
but i cant stop its so sublime
struggle with the sacrifice
know its wrong but it feels so right
reaching for the satellites
sisyphus try a thousand times

you will always be a part of me
i never want to see you hurt again
you will always be a part of me, i know
never will i be without you

its never enough
its never perfect
the stars wont align
so Ill make it worth it
its never enough
but well never be perfect
so just hold my hand
so hard that it hurts it

i tried a thousand times
could never get it right
i dont think I can stop it now

you will always be a part of me
i never want to see you hurt again
you will always be a part of me, i know
never will i be without you

you will always be a part of me

i found a strand of your hair right in my pillowcase
i can't describe the feeling how my heart aches
there's so many things that i wish i could say
i guess i only wonder if you're playing it safe
everything was meant only to be, just not as long as it seemed

but i could never cheat on you, or even anyone
unless they did it to me first because i might be that petty
my insecurities, there might be too many
i wanted nothing more than us going steady

it's such a shame how the times have changed
i renounce it all and let the feeling remain
another day, dead and gone to waste

i tried to go back and find it, that's when i knew i was wrong
ran out of words to describe it, that's when i ruined the song

all the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
wish i was feeling something other than pain
and i've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
worried i'm working without something to gain

aching from the weight of my grief, show me mercy

show me mercy

but i could never cheat on you, or even anyone
unless they did it to me first because i might be that petty
my insecurities, there might be too many
i wanted nothing more than

i spent my days trying to be multifaceted
in some years i'd try to tally up the damages
i can't hope you'd take me back, i guess i'm past it
and like the other song goes, "i like to do magic"

fear is only a feeling that only feelings can change
i still try to maintain, but despite everything strange
our different phases of life, i'll never blame
i light the spliff and hope the emotions fade

i tried to go back and find it, that's when i knew i was wrong
ran out of words to describe it, that's when i ruined the song
all the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
wish i was feeling something other than pain
i've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
worried i'm working without something to gain

how can ever keep myself from harm?
running away to scream inside my car

MERCY

shinigami - boys dont cry (demo)

@lilskeleskrrt

[wstdyth]
everything they try to put ur way 
no it’s all deceit 
follow what u know 
it’s okay 
yea it’s promising 
technicolor dreams psilocybe 
it’s a conjuring 
shawty fucking see me on that stage 
and she follow me 

what the fuck
symbols on my arm
got me with a charm 
i need luck 
asking where u are 
find me in the stars 
reconstruct 
where my visions are 
i can play the part
smoke it up 
jinx got me barred 
free it with a scar 

incantations 
yea they ground me 
feeling tied to locations 
all around me
bitch u know that i’m wasted 
yea u found me 
other world visitation 
seein cloudy 

i dont like it when i hold back 
i can’t really see the sun  
now my souls black 
save face i can’t fold and i hold that 
gotta get outside head 
that’s a dull task 

everything they try to put ur way 
no it’s all deceit 
follow what u know 
it’s okay 
yea it’s promising 
technicolor dreams psilocybe 
it’s a conjuring 
shawty fucking see me on that stage 
and she follow me 

[skele]
imma pull up in a ghost
or a spaceship
don't try to hit my phone
i'll lose my patience
i feel like a witch 
u got me spellbound
u got my eyes so low
i can't make a sound
yea i been off the glue
think i'm stuck on u
i been comin up
commas come in 2's
what'd u do to me
baby i can't breath
draw a sigil on the floor and feel the energy

[wstdyth]
everything they try to put ur way 
no it’s all deceit 
follow what u know 
it’s okay 
yea it’s promising 
technicolor dreams psilocybe 
it’s a conjuring 
shawty fucking see me on that stage 
and she follow me 
 
incantations 
yea they ground me 
feeling tied to locations 
all around me
bitch u know that i’m wasted 
yea u found me 
other world visitation 
seein cloudy

dream w/ prayers

flesh golem

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