ch2rms - self loathing (4am)

prod: [@violetxx9] 

lyrics:

i despise that name of yours when i hear it in my ears
i just wish you could disappear 
i remember your name in vain
so i gotta get it out my brain
a-ain

i know for your love it drives me insane
please just give me your heart its not no game
we could get caught up id take the blame
just to show you for love im not on games

live in constant paranoia 
i know you love me but i still annoy ya
but its okay cuz you know i adore ya
we can go and take a trip to california
if you want that necklace then ill put it on ya
get hot like a sauna 
we smoke marijuana
and i do what i wanna
cuz i been by myself

i despise that name of yours when i hear it in my ears
i just wish you could disappear 
i remember your name in vain
so i gotta get it out my brain
a-ain
i know for your love it drives me insane
please just give me your heart its not no game

out my brain prod violet

tell my self it’s ok but it’s not true
heard yo ass is weird jus like  zatru 
If I had the gun nigga I would’ve shot u
If I had dem pills nigga i would’ve popped 2 
I’m so scared baby I need u now 
I’m so high imma hit the ground
things lookin scary when u not around 
Always lookin up I’m never lookin down 
boy we is not the same 
Nigga tryn say I stole his soun 
nigga yo ass is lame 
underdog don’t need no crown
ain’t in it for the fame 
Love this shit like I love my child
u niggas the fuckin same 
Man this shit is fuckin wild 
we dnt gotta get along 
Told dat bih gotta move dat thong 
kickin with @assdirt we smokin on dat bong 
I’m kickin it with @essenceofhope we smokin on dat strong 
move on in life don’t care if u did me wrong 
dat hoe call my phone say dis my fav song 
dat nigga talkin down gettin smacked right by the palm 
I jus took some hits right out by the bong 
I jus took some shots I feelin like lebron 
Man I’m heartfelt feel jus like I’m @pwon 
Name hold more weight den a goddamn ton
u dnt scare me boy bitch i got a gun

not true prod violet

sasaeng - lil xan freestyle +eric2k (epv)

Produced by @violetxx9
yeah this past years, 
It all felt like a fever dream 
can't seen to grasp what any of it means.
I wish my memories would just turn to smithereens...
Cus I cherished every minute 
every second, that we're together 
yeah I loved everything, (yeah i loved everything) 
But you said it never happened 
I hope you understand the stars will shine 
but it won't allign 
Yeah we intersect, but we wont intertwine 
yeah we'll find ourselves in our own little time (own little time) 
and im sure it will happen 

I wanna know where you have been 
sometimes i just wanna know if you're happy 
sometimes i hope that you lose and go crazy 
cus its not fair if its only.. 
Only me that is hurting, the only one searching 
Im caving in hard from the pressures in my heads 
ich finde es zu schwer, dass ich allein geh
ich finde es zu schwer wenn ich habe nichts zu gib
(i b sayin' whatevr)

I loved everything (violet)

with @cipx & prod @pw4prez @1namaee

@floatingmethod
it's your love, you know that i'm crying on you 
crying on youu
amg body you know it fit 2
you know it fit 2
and when we argue you gonna get in your mood
you gonna get in your mooood
"i love you" you know that i love you too
i love you tooo
i got blood on my boots, i got blood on my boooots
i got blood on my boots, i got blood on my boooots
i got blood on my boots, i got blood on my boooots
i got blood on my boots, i got blood on my boooots

@cipx
telfar on her bag
truey jeans on my ass
walk in the spot wit my cuzzin n nem hy we gettin racks
vonskino gon put onna mask
ik he a catch him a hat
celine on my hat
remember when i was down bad
froze up
fn push up
arp on me and he shook up
hadda block that hoe cause she too dumb
telfar on my bitch ya
ksubi jean on my bitch ya
mix it up wit the lanvins 
i was broke asf that was back then

@floatingmethod
i got blood on my boots, i got blood on my boooots
i got blood on my boots, i got blood on my boooots
i got blood on my boots, i got blood on my boooots
i got blood on my boots, i got blood on my boooots

blood on my boots w/ cip (sochi & namaee)

#RightNextToMe

@catchnshoot

i got glock19s, arps ken carson
and i got them 2 red keys on me like lucki
said she want me yea, been want me since she saw me
ion dtm ig thats why she want me 
look how the jeans sit on top of the shoes
aint rockin amiri not rockin no trues
hysteric glamour bag count me some blues
no i dont love you dont mean to be rude
aint doing too much jus got me some food
can tell that she love me jus look how i move
got the same clothes i aint got it from u
got me some money its just what i do
got me some money its just what i do
you hatin on me im not hatin on u
lovin on him while im lovin on u
poppin these pills jus to better my mood
kop up we gettin the dough
kop shoppin yk how that go
cannot be me dont know what i know
cannot be me dont know what i know
x2

uh uh uh uh
no i cant stop now
goin to the top now
countin up my guap now
yea these bx they gon flock now
they waitin for my drops now
stay down till u up tho
kick back light this blunt bro