im not okay

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self inflicted dead at 20

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its whatever i got an alcohol method on doordash so i get drunk everyday

my fault we forgot

i dont wanna intrude, but my best friend, he thinks that im rude, cause i stop him
taking medicine, inhale the toxins, please fix your self, please dont die
i think ur kute, ill keep u in the cellar,
show u to the children, kill me after dinner, ur alright
you look like someone i would bury in the garden, cover you in diamonds
when i die, and when i die, and when i die im dead and im gone

imsg - kute

you could see me if you wanted to
musta cracked my skull when i fell for u
may he stab my heart if these words arent true
god strike me down if its all a ruse

oh and one last thing

toryn berger needs to commit suicide and fuck his mom jodi berger shes a teacher

i sing by the window
ive seen only god knows
i do things so i grow
but you still think that im a bad person
i think i might be a bad person
i do some things thats just not worth it
you see the point yet you still worsen
i speak my truth thats why you worship
something i cant do at all
something you shouldnt do at all
sometimes your skin may crawl
makeup destroyed us all
genetically i was fucked from start
i had no chance from my birth
howd things get so much worse
howd things get so much worse

i was 13 in 2017 and didnt have a cat

prod @wildcardart
lyrics 
i know u know me well enough to say that
keep doing what ur doing you wont make it far 
im in agony still by your side
im in agony be better if i died
please just tell me what you need
cause i am tired of all your fighting and complaining 
i dont see why its so hard to understand what im saying 
your lips are so red i just dont know if its bc im biting because im biting or am i fighting or am fighting you youuuuuuuuu

you wont make it far

guitar by me 

ill take a walk idk this road
what u been on u think that i dont know
every word every phrase over your head once again 
saying we shouldnt end but it all comes to rest 

ha ha i cannot leave im so dumb
ha ha do what you want with me again 
ha ha i cannot leave im so dumb
ha ha do what you want with me again 

ill take a walk idk this road
what u been on u think that i dont know
every word every phrase over your head once again 
saying we shouldnt end but it all comes to rest

ha ha i cannot leave im so dumb
ha ha do what u want with me again
(sickening) aaah aaah i can’t leave Im so dumb
aaah aaah i wanna cut off my thumb

don’t know the reason why you come and go
oooooh you can’t leave and i just won’t go
you know that he only wants to see you under your clothes
i think that i’m gonna put this knife in my-

oh i love our situation it’s so lovely
get to be with you and sometimes your my honey
my head hurts and my stomach to i’m feeling funny
guess i have to go home with you cause you my honey

sit in misery

idc what she doin

sorry for not quitting cigarettes today mom

i never saw you crying
it was just your mascara running down your face
i thought it was so ugly any fucking ways
i know that i get scary and you dont feel the same
i put way too much pressure on you and your little brain
i wanna set a fire and dance all on your grave
i knew you for ten seconds when your eyes were filled with rain
you told me its jusr water and not to be that way
then you fucking died the very next day

mascara

mandy / jaydes - stain


it gets worse, yeah, I know it hurts
can you swallow your feelings one more time?
cut me up until my wrist burns
can you swallow your feeling one more time?
anything to pass the time
im so tired of it all
im a hoax and you see why
i won't do this without u

it gets worse, yeah, I know it hurts
can you swallow your feelings one more time? 
cut me up until my wrist burns
can you swallow your feeling one more time?
anything to pass the time
im so tired of it all
im a hoax and you see why
i won’t do this without you


jaydes - burn

it's what you do

jaydes - the end (frown)

mandy/jaydes - haunt

prod sickboi

dont even say it
i wish i could face it
rejection oh i hate it
it feels like im praying

i just want to hear you saying
that you want me to stay right here
i cant pretend any longer
i need you to call me louder

i cant open up
to someone like you
its really hard to do
im so scared of the things that you might say

to tell you

real eyes realize real lies

helen x sally passive agressive sob story

we could be like latias and latios
i was puking up my guts i know you thought it was gross
if my pokedex dies imma need escape rope
i take these potions man that shit it help me cope
she look like nurse joy i just wanna make her moan
i remember back then i was 10 leaving home
i cant get a phone call from my fucking mom bro
everydays a sad one and ill always be alone

puking up my guts lol

pony

isnt it obvious

2008

helen - im such a drunk fuck og

helen - stupid college slut og

helen - be nice og

helen - medicate my self og

helen - god i love mary og

helen - tfw ur cucked og

@crowdirtfeeder
@bella-blind
fuck u mulah

og desc:
@menthol100s

(oh yeah)
i could never count all the hours i spent
just telling myself that you never existed (alright)
buzzin like a radio, my mind keeps buzzin like its never alone
alright
like i really need a medal all the times i tried
you should really get a bucket all the times youve cried
get knocked down but i still survive
you know that i suffered for less
tell me
did it hurt when you fell from heaven?
does a god exist?

helen - medicate my self og

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