How Am I Alive :) Maybe Im Not Anymore

[credits]
@bandiicam 
@eurodancer07

blood splatters love matters is it what you fucking want
so tired so tired i just couldnt get enough
love shattered heart battered now im all a fucking lone
wanting you wanting you please pick up ur phone
x2

baby please just pick up your phone
i dont wanna be so alone
can you please pick up your phone
i dont know what to do i feel so alone
and i sit here so alone
crying my eyes out i dont feel like im home
i dont know what do to where is my home
you were the one u make me feel so alone

blood splatters love matters is it what you fucking want
so tired so tired i just couldnt get enough
love shattered heart battered now im all a fucking lone
wanting you wanting you please pick up ur phone
x2

BLOOD SPLATTERS + EURODANCER07

i realize i know tht u dnt feel inside
its hard for me but ill surprise

early mornin im screaming 4u
but you dnt ever hear me
he treats you like shit
but i guess you like it dearly :(
i cnt resisttt
its the way urr body needs me
put u on a crucifixXxXx
if u ever try nd leave me

dnt leave me baby


ur brains so flawed
ur obsessed with all these weirdo guys:////
one look at ur Instagram
its hard to describe the pain inside

just kill me now 


u look at me nd u think that ima popstar
im rockin suicide goyard
now she gon cut me cause i wnt to
dosnt matter if she really wants me back now
smokin all my lungs away tonight
talkabout me put up a fight
reach out when the time is right
die together oh myyy</333

screaming 4 u

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screaming 4 u (okayjml)

Freaks w/ luvwillow-saffi-4rde-ri4h [harmless]

Ya I fucking hat3 my self & I don’t evr care at all
But I realy miss u lik the nights whn I’m on adorall
Locked inside my head Im feelin useless with my iPhone out  
I dnt understand these stupid feelings that I’m all about 
Ok I lost my phone 1 time and I went fucking crazyyyy 
I luv wearing headphones in place that doesn’t faze me 
I hate everyone that ever cared and ever gave me time 
Stupid little mean and angry thoughts inside my stupid mind :/ 

Wearing really big jeans out in public cuz I’m like super cool
I just lied I’m useless and stupid and get used like a tool 
I don’t get why I feel like everyone fucking hates me 
I just wake up planning lies I do this on the daily

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L0ST IN THIS ARC4DE w/ GhostMasheen (buhguul)

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you know how to lie
ya u do it sogood 
i cnt ever love u like the way that i should
give u the whole world
bby u know that i could
got a crush on u nd it feels so good
but everything else is shit tho
nd it always fucks wit my mental
wanna give u everything
know its hard to trust me
can u promise to love mex2

idk if what we have is real
all this time thrown away what do u even feel

do you love me?
bby do you really wanna cut me?
broken glass on the floor its disgusting
so are you... id disappoint you 2
walking thru the catacombs all night
you left me stranded nd its not right
wasted youth i jus sit out in the moonlight
everything fucked up got me so tight
im not goin thru this anymore
so dnt even try nd just shut the door
ur bones nd blood layin on the floor
but shawty i just cnt escape ur a bore
bby take a capsule if you feel bad
i dnt wanna fuck this up nd make u real mad
bby can you rlly make me feel that
can you fuck me up my love you go and steal that

you know how to lie

uh
I wana shoot u in the head rite in the face
stab u 30 times just incase I just 
I just broke inside your house just for a taste 
of your presence it won't ever go to waste
im in pain but I don't understand it
lost inside my head how'd it get this bad
things just fall apart I don't know how to plan it 
im jus so tired of always feeling last 

im jus so tired of how I feel at night
the things I could do with just my thoughts and a knife 
and I jus wanna b happy but it doesn't feel right
and u took me in like I just gave u a bite 
show me the light
and ill just sit there 
I feel like everyone hates me but I do not care
got so much to say but I do not share 
I feel so useless and it is not fair

Ijust

Prod. @lovuandy 
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@evilgang 😈😈


lyrics:

emo lover
emo lov
(andy i lov u)

i rly like her ya she turn me on 
she hit da spot
so seductive i lov it
invader zim on her t shirt
she so fucking hot!!!!!!
emo lover
but we dont lov her

ok baby do it lets get to it
lets get chuggin lets get wasted
if u do it then ill do it
baby aint no hesitation
baby do it in my house
or we can do it in ur house
or on the counter in the couch 
or in ur mouth a lot

i cant contain myself tn
face a fucking 8th out the bong im high
i dont idolize her 
i dont even like whores
if ur dusty dont touch me
aw ur game is ovr sucks cuz 
if i had time id give u the whole earth
fuck all the crushes on da girls im not ovr
im blowin a big bag at lenox 
i dont shop at dovers
i cant contain myself tn
im nic sick off the mole but im so high
ima thug it out til i finess it
and ima die a fucking legend

i rly like her ya she turn me on 
she hit da spot
so seductive i lov it
invader zim on her t shirt
she so fucking hot!!!!!!
emo lover
but we dont lov her

ok baby do it lets get to it
lets get chuggin lets get wasted
if u do it then ill do it
baby aint no hesitation
baby do it in my house
or we can do it in ur house
or on the counter in the couch 
or in ur mouth a lot

blow a dub outta blunt wrap
i just got som shrooms from tht dude
in a bucket hat
i like shawtys hot pink cheetah print bra strap
i need her to sleep every night 
she a night cap
bro u should touch grass u live on an ipad
look straight at my rollie u go blind heres an eye patch 
i’m just glitching bro i got mods you can not patch 
im counting decimals and distro residuals
and
gandolf with the fit check bro u do not pass
i feel like lil peep dying out west
she go pyscho cuz she so jealous
maybe im the toxic one cuz i like it

i rly like her ya she turn me on 
she hit da spot
so seductive i lov it
invader zim on her t shirt
she so fucking hot!!!!!!
emo lover
but we dont lov her

emo lovr 
emo lov
we dont lov her
we dont lov her
emo lovr 
emo lovr
but we dont lov her
dont lov her

ok baby do it lets get to it
lets get chuggin lets get wasted
if u do it then ill do it
baby aint no hesitation
baby do it in my house
or we can do it in ur house
or on the counter in the couch 
or in ur mouth a lot

eM0 LoV3rr <33 (lovuandy)

sigh
im sorry
I think I've had enough 
hate every word hate all of that stupid stuff
I mean I get it I know that times get rough
everything feels pointless I don't think im good enough

im the problem 
I think I need some help
still apologize but that's not how I really felt
think im lost
can't tell where I begin 
is it wrong that ill b here intel the very end

I hope things better then when they begin
rip it all away from me intel it ends 
take my heart and rip it right in front of me 
nothing is as easy as its plans 2 b 

plz don't take my hand ill take you right back

I didn't wanna die today till I saw ur contact
its a problem I feel like ur everywhere 
I can't even sleep I don't think its even fair

enuff

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prod @lonestarcollective

ima lay and rot away 
i need u right here i’m always by myself 
hate myself wish i was somebody else 
always be my dear i’ll meet u down in hell 
slit my wrists but i’m not sorryy
bleed red like playboicartiii
staring at u like my phone 
she thinks i’m a corpse cuz my body’s turning cold
everything painted red all the walls and all her clothes 
i miss when i was alone 

plz stay
i need u rn
plz stay with me
we can turn it back aorund
raindrops fall down
angels allaround
thinkin of ur face when im walkin thru the clouds
but this cant be fixed
liquor in my mix
evry single day
fuck u stupid bitch
i hope u kys
my minds gone numb i hope ur happy with urself
:-)

suicidal feel this way like everyday 
pretty murder homicidal 
cut a smile on my face 
beauty’s pain but i’m gorgeous 
u cannot adore this 
i’m only pretty when im doing drugs im not important 
baby hmu online 
i turned regret into a habit idk what happened 
i swear i try my best but i waste ur time 
i just wanna die

i turned regret into a habit 2

xoulsss & decayy - touch

prod @43u

hit u on my laptop
ya my heart stops
cuz id do it all over again
laptop top top top
heart stops stop stop stop
x2
idek wuts true
all i evr wanted was u
tell me do u think of me 222
bby cuz im feelin u

its wut u want its wut u want now
call me when u can cuz u kno its over
fading away ya my heart gets colder
kno that she know all the shit that she wrote
she know she know
i know i know i know
now im trying hard 2 breathe
but u kno its u & me
dont tell me u dont ccc
its what u want its what u want now

hit me on my laptop
ya my heart stops
cuz id do it all over again
laptop top top top
heart stops stop stop stop
x2

what u want (2040x2040)

https://open.spotify.com/track/01yjxmV8TijhayeHiIYEPf?si=862421211b0c4ca7

produced by @user-481427442
cover art by @angelremnants

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go to sleep
they are watching me
close your eyes
say goodbye
you feel scared
cover your ears
they are screaming
i am bleeding
lullaby, lullaby, lullaby, lullaby
lullaby, lullaby, lullaby, lullaby
lullaby from hell
reaching out for help
i just need some help
to escape this hell
lullaby from hell
reaching out for help
i just need some help
to escape this hell

lullaby from hell [rottenspirit]

(prod by. ewenli)
lyrics?_
flash flash yeah i gotta stay calm
rags and they bloody in my palms
whats the problem problem problem
like its my fault
oh she pissed see i pulled up with a machete machete
oh she pissed see i pulled up with a machete machete
hacking pieces of this bitch an her blood like confetti 
ok bitch its like is you off a pilly
ok is like murders on my mind like im melly
and like i cant fucking take it
these voices in my basement
hope i never make it
cuz i let go to fast and ima crash
pull the trigger drain me of my blood
like a zombie she wanted more of my flesh
im an issue im a rodent im a pest
spirits in my room watching me cut myself again
crash
pull the trigger drain me of my blood
like a zombie she wanted more of my
whats the problem problem problem
like its my fault
oh she pissed see i pulled up with a machete machete
oh she pissed see i pulled up with a machete machete
hacking pieces of this bitch an her blood like confetti 
ok bitch its like is you off a pilly
ok is like murders on my mind like im melly
and like i cant fucking take it
these voices in my basement
hope i never make it
cuz i let go to fast and ima crash
pull the trigger drain me of my blood
like a zombie she wanted more of my flesh
im an issue im a rodent im a pest
spirits in my room watching me cut myself again

machete [ewenli]

produced by me

@avoidr
yeah-uh, the pains getting greater
you dont know, yeah you love me harder
yeah-uh, the numbness getting better
you dont know, i dont wanna live no more
i put a knife to my heart, i've been dying now
killing myself, bleeding out losing all of it
you really thought that i'd be living in a world like this
thats kinda silly of you to pursue im out of it

@lexanax
still pursuing all of it
i said its a waste
come find me in the dark
i really miss your face
i could give you my heart 
if it would make a difference
i could choose to belive 
but it's all just fiction

@avoidr
hell nah, you thought im living in a world like this?
oh girl, you dont know what is going on
help me, im stuck inside of this endless loop
nightmares, thats what im trying to be living in

@lexanax
everything you say is a complete contradiction
wanting me to stay, 
then you're leaving without saying 
i've been losing sleep, 
all my dreams are haunted
said you wanted me, 
yet you don't like who i am

@avoidr
im so stuck inside an endless loop
i dont know if im holding on
im so stuck inside an endless loop
i dont know if i can trust you now
i put a knife to my heart, i've been dying now
killing myself, bleeding out losing all of it
you really thought that i'd be living in a world like this
thats kinda silly of you to pursue im out of it

@lexanax
still pursuing all of it
i said its a waste
come find me in the dark
i really miss your face
i could give you my heart 
if it would make a difference
i could choose to belive 
but it's all just fiction

@avoidr
thats kinda silly of you
thats kinda silly of you
to pursue im out of it
to pursue im out of it
thats kinda silly of you
thats kinda silly of you
to pursue im out of it
to pursue im out of it

out of it

out of it w/ LeXanax

Save me

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