yeah this might be the one

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Copy of gfhjfgh

Sophmore year

Lilacs - Pastel Ghost (slowed & reverb)

iris - pastel ghost (sped up + reverb)

Elusin - Highway (Best part)

Drop a gear... and disappear | Highway Elusin | (slowed) night drive

CLOUDS VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qn2L9M7kfHE

https://pastelghost.bandcamp.com
http://pastelghost.com

CLOUDS

kmk discord server - discord.gg/EyaZkHkwZG

instrumental / mix / master: @bloodsekai | featuring: @odihu @bloodsekai @foreverstained

[odihu:]
im feeling empty like no ones at home
im scared im gonna die alone
a feeling that nobody knows
and my head is feeling really cold
its only me inside of this school
everyone stares at me like a fool
in their heads i think that theyre judging me
or its just my thoughts that are killing me
i deal with this shit like everyday
i really do not like my face
why not just speak to me and say im okay
i wish someone would just take my place

[sekai:]
stuck in this school
idk what to do
im not comedy
not another stupid fool
and all of these jerks
and all of those jocks
they treat me like trash
just another kid to mock
wallowing, wallowing everyday
sobbing crying in the hallways
feels like the protagonist left me in the rain
u'd think by now i'd know my place

[odihu:]
im feeling empty like no ones at home
im scared im gonna die alone
a feeling that nobody knows
and my head is feeling really cold
its only me inside of this school
everyone stares at me like a fool
in their heads i think that theyre judging me
or its just my thoughts that are killing me

oh no
oh no
oh no
oh no
oh no
oh no
oh no

[lifeless:]
in ur crystal palace
i enjoy this poisoned chalice
i see ur face thru the flashing lights
yea ur glare stabs my guts wit a knife

my ice heart
is shattered art
are u ashamed
blood splattered face
u turn away
i jus suck in pain
my hearts filled with waste
all i am is a skeleton
i'll still be a gentleman
maybe i'll feel real again
maybe i'll just settle in
i cant hold this embarrassment
maybe i was too love bent
i watched u disappear into the crowd

music too loud u cant hear me shout
pulled to hell i cry on the ground
pushing thru jus to find u
why's it odd that i see two
its him yea its him
ur lips fixed to his
i'm hollow chested and my eyes are lifeless

imdyingalone

https://open.spotify.com/track/5ZIIE80NheRzoIBzmo18dU?si=f78fc6c0ed884726

@melodyx_o cover
prod me

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont know why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarrayed
and i cannot feel okay like
i dont have like any power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarrassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed my shitty mood
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

jisatsu girl (自殺) (cover)

https://open.spotify.com/track/7GHsBQ5oLMz6Jhq6TgzBHj?si=m6AqD8a8T5CoOFmWkkiqOA&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A4fE7fPBBe4x8t58IbcpFs4

prod me ft @kiheir

@requiem-for-you
saw u at that party last week
im so damn awkward u know i cant speak
but baby please
believe
that ur everything to me
x2

u treated me like shit
i know its not ur fault but it kinda is
i never thought that it would end like this
i never thought these words would leave my lips
but baby im cutting at my wrists
and i dont see an end to it
can someone help me
im dying
without u darling
oohhhhhh

@kiheir
and i never thought id feel this way
now that im seein u in the same damn place
or meeting u in these awkward ways
now that im seein u in the same damn place
or meeting u in these awkward ways
no one here to fill the void of my days
cuz ur gone
cuz ur gone

i needed u said ud never run away
the partys almost over i just hope that ud stay
my mind went blank ive got no words to say to u
and i doubt that u do too
ooooh i doubt that u do too
and i miss u but im glad that i met u

@requiem-for-you
saw u at that party last week
im so damn awkward u know i cant speak
but baby please
believe
that ur everything to me
x2

awkward w/ kiheir

https://open.spotify.com/track/5Nnwe5weuh5fyte28mcrJR?si=ea812a2a3b0c4e23

old (wujek) styleeeee !!!!! beat by me 

w/ @humanendeavour

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never

[sekai:]
migraine my head aches
ur phone contains my messages
u haven't read im dead
im being ignored again
yesterday i had the worst time
and today if i said im good
then thas a lie
can't get better
im stuck inside
this shitty weather
i wanna die
i said my head hurts
a thousand times
but when ur near me
i feel fine

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never

[sekai:]
can't get better
im stuck inside
this shitty weather
i wanna die
but when ur near me
i feel fine

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
ill my blood feel it up i wanna fill it all with blood
i feel your guts i cut it up
im sorry if that is too much

together forever w/ endeavour

im so pissed
you can see the blood thats covering my fist
throw ur stuff into a pit 
cause you treated me like shit
i hate fighting for our love when u miss treat me all again
my emotions stuck inside like a bottle filled with sin

why am i still fighting?
dont know why im still trying
you just keep fucking lying
i think im done replying
all of those messages went right over ur head
i guess thats it where done i wont text u again




i guess thats it were done i wont text u again
u had ur fun with me no i am not ur friend
i guess thats it were done i wont text u again
and i wont say goodbye this is the end

why am i still fighting?

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Yod5zUEZ5SyNe0LTqbhVu?si=f91fced6fb2c4d31

w the boat @yukisasayaki prod me

i can't get out 
I've been feeling so fucking down
no one hears me 
when i'm clearly screaming loud
every chance i get
i mess it up without a doubt
put me in a crown
when im the worst like all around
benefit from the misery that i feel
cuz i know no one wants me around anymore
there's no mistake, i'm a waste
i'm not real
cuz that's the sense i get
i'm played with like i'm fake

im drowning in my sorrow
about tomorrow but also yesterday
i don't think i remember
it's been like this forever
I've never gotten better
at least that's on my record..
my hearts buried down
cuz no one sticks around
I've wrote my vows
to never open up
to anyone
i dont need new friends
im better off alone and dead

i cant do it
wont make it thru the day
yea ill prove it
slit my throat n decay
u want what i want
n i rlly want me dead
it mightve been from
all of the things u said
n i cant take it
the words infecting my head
i guess no one would care if i bled out in my bed
im such a loser n im always such a fucking burden
i try n socialize but i can never get a word in
n u look in my eyes n tell me that im fucking worthless
u leave me paralysed oh pls just finish me for certain

and worst of all, it's me

and worst of all, it's me (ft. yuki)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Mkqb85Xssw7NjMCH7zDKN?si=f0939011e78b4e22

prod me w/ @yukisasayaki again yayyy

meet me on the roof after school
i fell in love n i wanna tell u
i know we don't talk but i think ur cool
n if u don't say it back, ig death will do
i-l-y, i might die
k-m-s, suicide
it's lie after lie, but this time i might try
knife in my chest twist it right close my eyes

baby i feel like im gonna die
tell me that u love me while u look me in my eyes
notice how i see u
from across the classroom
pretend to drop my pencil
and watch it roll past u
i jus wish ud notice me
a loser with no apathy 
slit my throat n watch it bleed
if u n me can never be
i swear that ill take my life
use ur silence as my knife
so come and take my hand
i wish u could be my wife 

yea be be mine
never leave my sight
we can live together in a loop
for the rest of time
no different options
no fucking pathways
ur stuck here forever we'll never part ways 

meet me on the roof after school
i fell in love n i wanna tell u
i know we don't talk but i think ur cool
n if u don't say it back, ig death will do
i-l-y, i might die
k-m-s, suicide
it's lie after lie, but this time i might try
knife in my chest twist it right close my eyes

dating sim suicide (ft. yuki)

https://open.spotify.com/track/74RwQbNMVqPSbp3bvtdwAd?si=fc258f8a429f4b54

i'm rewatching citrus rn, it was like 1 of the first animes i watched when i was 11 so i can't rly hate it....... 

i can't find a good cover art w/ them in it so i'm using the i can't stop crying girls. everything by me (like always)

lyrics:

ur confusing me
are we meant to be?
i feel heartbeats
i don't wanna breathe
when ur lips are so sweet
i know it's wrong
i want to love
let's make things clear
i'll wait right here

even if they get us to break up
i'll be thinking of u night & dusk
what else could we call this besides love?
i wanna be the one u see above
ur in my heart
don't hide ur scars
look at the stars
while i sew ur arms

(kiss, kiss, kiss)
why'd u have to kiss me? 
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
why'd u have to kiss me? 
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
why'd u have to kiss me? 
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
why'd u have to kiss me? 

ur confusing me
(nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa)
are we meant to be?
(nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa)
i feel heartbeats
(nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa)
i don't wanna breathe
(nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa)
when ur lips are so sweet

i know it's wrong
i want to love
let's make things clear
i'll wait right here
come wipe my tears
destress my fears
away, i can't veer
away, i can't veer

(kiss, kiss, kiss)
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
(kiss, kiss, kiss)

as long as we're under the same sky
we're rly not that far apart

citrus | 君に恋するはずじゃなかった

@bloodsekai @deadcouple

99.999999999% of players let riamu die in this game


Haa, I'm so sick! On the outside, I might look stupid healthy, but the truth is I'm a late teenager with a heart of glass! Filled with the desire to give up on school! That's me, Riamu-chan!! If I become an idol, it'd be my one chance to do just that, right!? Right!?

lyrics:
i'll fall right down ur heart <3
i wanna be ur star
short pink hair, my life's hard
i know there's no correlation
if only my brains were as large as my chest
then i think i wouldn't be so stupid
i'm a klutz, i'm clumsy
my lifes hard cuz i mess things up
i fall down in weird ways
pls don't look i can't hide my blush
or get up

i just want u
i dont rly care
im pulling out my hair everytime ur not there
ur so fucking cool it actually makes me scared
but i know that u dont care
no i know that u dont care
just block me just kill me
because i dont want to leave
just block me just kill me
cuz i dont want to leave

やむ, i'm so sick
oh やむ, i'm so sick
やむ, i'm so sick
oh やむ, やむ, やむ
(just get over it!!!)

if only my brains were as large as my chest
then i think i wouldn't be so stupid
i'm a klutz, i'm clumsy
my lifes hard cuz i mess things up
i fall down in weird ways
pls don't look i can't hide my blush
or get up

just block me just kill me
cuz i dont want to leave
just block me just kill me
cuz i dont want to leave

i'm a klutz, i'm clumsy
i mess things up easily
i fall down these strange ways 
that i cannot escape

bloodsekai x deadcouple .. klutz

prod. fallen ang3lx
vocals by @lilcoochievert and @05hilt
mix by @05hilt

❆lyrics❆

@lilcoochievert
1273 you aint know the real me
pop another molly as i walk down rockefeller street
bitches on my dick but they wont ever get the real me
yeah the real me, walk down rockefeller street

uh yeah pop a molly pop a bean
uh yeah just to feel a lil thing
uh they dont wanna see me win
uh yeah they aint want the real thing nah

uh yeah they want this shit for real
uh yeah they want this shit for real
i dont think that i can heal
got so high i dont think that i can feel

@05hilt
and she got her hands up on my body
if u see me at the club then its a party
im just posted with my brothers and some barbies
spending all yo money and u rocking ed hardy

at the function, we rlly on some fucked shit
hop up on the beat with hyphen, we be on some dumb shit
yo ass im done with
now i just want a bad bitch
stealing all ur bags
i just want a bad bitch

#club #hyphen #hilt

HYPHEN + HILT - ❆ ROCKEFELLER STREET ❆

i did not make any of this, the only artist im aware of is pwnd, if the original artists want it taken down or privated, i will

hell is near (prod. pwnd)

header and profile by the amazing doctor nowhere, i love him

hell is near (prod. pwnd)

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