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if i write this shit on paper does that mean i feel it less
branches out the window like im starin at impermanence
and balance feels impossible i walk out n always lose my step
i changed up the scenery but i still wont go and take it in

down n out like
its just me no doubt
and its just pound for pound
and i'll reach back n take em out
some days i be layin down in my place like
why am i still the same 
in my bedroom burnin sage
stealing time like day to day
and thats the way

yeah im feeling slow
i wipe off my knife
and toss it back n go
life is just an obstacle
in a cosmic heavy undertow
i got ripped apart n hide the damage
you dont need to know
feelings visceral man i cant manage
and i know it shows
make me something im so tired of being nothing
they think that they the second coming
i just want someone to love me
i dont even trust me
not enough to even be me
countertops are rusty
and my grey matter is bleeding

down n out like
its just me no doubt
and its just pound for pound
and i'll reach back n take em out
some days i be layin down in my place like
why am i still the same 
in my bedroom burnin sage
stealing time like day to day
and thats the way

bitter (NVY)

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Moon Don't Cry

song is out on all plats too <3
feat @autumndropsdead
prod @jolst @pekarot_161
cover art www.instagram.com/zaperwave

lyrics:
[Intro: autumndropsdead]
Break me apart, I'll probably like it anyways
Dirt in my heart, was the cause of the heavy weight
Living ain't smart, but it's better than eternal pain
With the way that I'm feeling right now, there'd be no way

[Chorus: autumndropsdead]
Hot water pours down my head like it's procaine
I just dust off the rust, while they're still all joking
You hope that they notice, it's hopeless, you know it
I've lost grasp, will I get it back?

[Verse 1: autumndropsdead]
My only consolations momentary to my past
I reach out, both my arms, but the sky won't do it back
Let it go, lay to waste, I may not be here tomorrow
Every day feels delayed, bitch, I feed off of the sorrow 

[Verse 2: heroine diaries]
Shits not a movie, this my real life man my old girl is a groupie 
They wonder if I'm okay, I don't know I say it loosely 
I just ran out of Percs, need some more before I'm moody
They can kill me that's the beauty 
Sober days, no cannot relate 
Ex mad, yeah, get out my face 
Can't talk she busy at raves 
Laced pills, yeah, they are my favs 
Death soon, oh, this is a race 
Not worth the stress, she in love with the chase 
In an out, I ain't leavin' a trace 
Crackin' cards, but beatin' my case 
Don't wanna talk about it, don't wanna think about it 
Now you stalkin' on my page, I know you read about it 
She still playin' all my songs, she think she slick about it
And I'm never goin' rehab makin' sure about it

[Chorus: autumndropsdead]
Hot water pours down my head like it's procaine
I just dust off the rust, while they're still all joking
You hope that they notice, it's hopeless, you know it
I've lost grasp, will I get it back?

[Verse 3: autumndropsdead]
The tide casts I can feel you tugging on my heart
It's getting colder, hold her
It was a set up from the start
Hold it still, steady pace, but it never works out
My wrists break from the rain as I fall to the ground

[Outro: heroine diaries & autumndropsdead]
I've been up for two whole days 
I can't sleep blow out my brain 
Xanny bars help numb the pain 
Need your love right in my veins

procaine (feat. autumndropsdead) (prod. jolst & pekarot)

lyrics

its been a long time
been a long time since i thought of myself
i only think of u
im staying safe for u

i need a pouch for my gums
i need a patch for my lungs
i need a clamp for my toungue baby
i need a shield for my bones
when u call on my phone
its either a fight or its love baby

this the type of weather to make u do something youd regret
please dont take my picture cuz i dont like who i am
im terribly sorry for not treating u like the best u are
i may not be 100 but ive come this far
restless
im a dead man walking im defenseless
u got it go ahead take my heart off of ur checklist
text message
i really feel strongly even tho i dont express it

so much for a first verse
i dont save face tryna stay safe save me in the dirt
got ur head down inside the sand only take it out when u lurk
i gotta find a new style nothing works
im drunk can we go home baby
i need to find peace in my self but i cant
i need to find peace in my self but i cant

this the type of weather make u do something youll regret
i cant take my picture
i dont like who i am
im terribly sorry for not treating u like the best that u think u are
amazing how i came this far
im restless
im a dead man walking im defenseless
i think its time that u wrote my heart off of ur checklist
text message
i know i have trouble showing my love
thats why i make these songs for u

deadmanwalking (p. michael harrison)

Mixed by﹒⪩⪨﹒ stezzyxl﹒⪩⪨﹒
Produced By Stezzyxl and ME :3

Lyrics:
Can you imagine how it felt walking in on Christmas Eve
Seeing you and someone else kissing right beside the tree
No mistletoes around, can't blame it on the season
But it's over for us now, no matter what the reason

You'll look back to the past and be filled with regret
In the present you'll be cold all alone in your bed
You'll never see me again, that's the future you've set
Three ghosts (three ghosts) that's the company you get

Three ghosts (three ghosts, three ghosts)
Three ghosts (three ghosts, three ghosts)

Can you imagine how it feels knowing I can spend my time
With my family or friends, or anyone I'd like
And it's no longer you, my holidays are free
Though it don't bring me joy, it does bring me peace

You'll look back to the past and be filled with regret
In the present you'll be cold all alone in your bed
You'll never see me again, that's the future you've set
Three ghosts (three ghosts) that's the company you get

Three ghosts (three ghosts, three ghosts)
Three ghosts (three ghosts, three ghosts)

Haunted by the past, the present, future more
You'll have nothing left of me to even keep you warm
And as hurt as I am now, you'll hurt much more than me
A guilty conscience sticks around even in your dreams

You'll look back to the past and be filled with regret 
In the present you'll be cold all alone in your bed 
You'll never see me again, that's the future you've set 
Three ghosts (three ghosts) that's the company you get 

Christmas Eve

Cant Decide

Til The Day That I Die (At Storms End)-Nate Victor REIGHN

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what was i thinking

Don't Look Back (You Might Not Like What You See)

Lyrics:
So it starts again 
I think I lost a friend
I think to when we were fine
I think I miss her; cry
Kiss until our lips hurt
I cannot forgive her
sing that lullaby
give it a rest I tried

what the fuck's going on in my head
I can't forget you these thoughts leave me dead
I know that your bad for me
know what you said was nothing but lies
told to me you mislead
wish we could go back wish we could rewind
but honestly I am not sorry, I tried
you took my worth and tossed it to the side
happy one month to us; the wasted time

the wasted time
leave it behind
leave it behind I cannot forget the past though I tried

I Tried

Recorded in Holt Stairs studio
Produced, Mixed, & Mastered by @Holt-Stairs

Mosh Pit Migraine (prod. Holt Stairs)

my album ‘in the woods’ is coming this halloween

what was i thinking

foreign forest

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