Crywank - Memento Mori

and also i'm really scared - fox academy

Whatever Dad - "Stalemate/Spud" 3.8.14

Wild West - Gregory And The Hawk [slowed + reverb]

Fox Academy - Lavender Blood

Teenage Blue

From Adult Mom's debut LP, Momentary Lapse of Happily, out Summer 2015 on Tiny Engines

Adult Mom - Be Your Own 3am

'to have & to hold' is not a biography, a lecture, or a historical reconstruction. It is an imagined world — one you step into to feel your way around an idea rather than to learn it.

The album takes place loosely in early-20th-century Cambridge, at the moment when Western thought was beginning to strain under its own certainty. Science had proved astonishingly powerful at breaking reality into parts, explaining mechanisms, and producing results — yet at the same time it was encountering problems it could no longer fully contain. Probability was replacing certainty. Events mattered as much as objects. Meaning no longer sat still.

Out of this tension emerged process philosophy: the idea that reality is not made of finished things, but of ongoing happenings — that love, time, marriage, and even truth itself are not states you reach, but activities you keep participating in.

The album imagines this moment through a human lens. A mathematician trying to complete a system of logic. A thinker insisting that nothing important is ever truly finished. Proofs accumulating. Years passing. A marriage understood first as a statement, then slowly revealed as a practice. Love appearing not as romance in the foreground, but as something quietly unfolding elsewhere — happening whether it is attended to or not.

Rather than explaining these ideas directly, the songs allow you to inhabit them. You hear bells ring. You feel evenings close in. You sense the weight of unfinished work and the relief of letting something continue without control. The philosophy is not taught; it is lived.

This is a soft documentary in sound — an audio quantum leap into a world. Its purpose is not accuracy, quotation, or instruction, but immersion. By the time the album ends, you may not be able to define process philosophy in a sentence — but you may feel why it arose, what problem it was answering, and why it still matters.

To Have and To Hold is an exploration of commitment not as possession, but as attention.
Of marriage not as a conclusion, but as renewal.
Of understanding not as something you arrive at — but something that keeps happening.

If you listen closely, nothing here ever quite resolves.
But something continues.

Eighty Pages

spent too long gazing at these lights
smears of purple and green impair my sight
knew it wouldnt be long before it arrived
my anxious monologues fill the night
questions to myself hard to answer
introspective thoughts with no candor
pollen always makes my head hurt
mirror image starts to distort

why cant i just be someone immune
natures pain it takes a toll on you

ive been sad for ten weeks straight
i wish i did not have to wait
for life to move at such slow rates
i cant help but feel desolate

my mind and i go toe to toe
cause i cant know whats not been shown
i tend to not go with the flow
scared to get caught in undertows

allergies

i took a walk in the park
but i got bored
i took a moment to breathe
what am i outside for
i hate this place
it all wants me dead
cant help but make a face
my skin is turning red
just what i dread
how long will i be this young
i stay up late
i burn my tongue
i dont wanna pay my bills
ill walk the world
ill live off thrills
life on the outside

art by @rikpld on social media

on the outside

chiot by WHATEVER, DAD. i don't own this, just really wanted this on soundcloud! PLEASE be sure to watch their original video on youtube, or stream on spotify.

lyrics:
Pretending to sleep doesn't work... well
Doesn't work well for me.
Your nose is close to my nose
Your nose is close to my nose
Lying unsteady,
Do I taste like spaghetti to you?
I am awake
I am awake.
My golden boy tastes sweeter in the morning,
The snow has fallen without warning
And this bagel could be warmer
My first kiss
Is a secret on your lips.

maybe later

chiot - WHATEVER, DAD

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Michael Todd Berland and Christian Novelli