"Expectations" 2013 Recorded by Brian Cosgrove, Mixed by Stephen Touchton, Mastered by Pete Lyman

Expectations

unfinished but felt like posting it so here

trust me DEMO

nail biter

YOU'RE DEAD

What’s wrong wit me? (Prod. Iaayz)

ANGEL HAIR

costume

popeyes bag

sawdust

nascar

the dogs in the yard
are barkin loudly
i can hear it fine
my ears 
are hurting

noises 
all around me
are so big
they bounce in my head

all this food is making me sick
nothing in my bed
nothing in my fridge
nothing in my chest

i’m dulling out
i will not stop i will not stop it
i’m dulling out 
i will not i will not
i feel it still
the claws in my brain trying to remember 
but i’m too dull 
to recall what it was i wanted to not forget

i’m dulling out
overstimulated 
unprepared for the consequences of my actions 

i feel myself
dulling out 
my senses are getting weaker 
my sense of self is growing smaller 
 
the moths that used to crowd me
are no longer attracted to my glow
they’ve found something brighter
than what they used to know

i can feel my brain as it gets older
sense my hair turning grey 
at roots
i will not cover them
i will not cover

i’m dulling out
i will not stop i will not stop it
i’m dulling out 
i will not i will not
i feel it still
the claws in my brain trying to remember 
but i’m too dull 
to recall what it was i wanted to not forget

the crows have come
they’re singing softly
they can see i’ll be there soon
they can smell it on my breath

Im dulling out.
Im dulling out

Dull

the third track of DAMAGE CONTROL


painkillers make me cry
:(
june 2020

sleeping in the bathtub

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