the songs on "school spirit" were all written between february-june of 2017. this was a very interesting time in my life, and i would like to thank my parents, sister, and friends for dealing with my bullshit for so long. this is for them and everyone who has been stuck in a bad relationship.

i would like to especially thank my best friend colin riordan for playing cajon and tambourine on shower song, temporary tattoo, and community college (high school 2.0). if it wasn't for him half of these songs would suck and i would still be a very very sad guy. stay golden, box boy.

the following people/bands have been a big part of my life/music, and i would like to thank them all as well: cory fosco, cyndi fosco, lily fosco, nolan watts, michael mangan, katie anthony,  griffin tome, max king, mike taylor, jesse alcauter, jill krejci, geoff matson, james scott, michael drew, jon wadec, ryan mclaughlin, the front bottoms, modern baseball, sorority noise, mom jeans, weezer, counter intuitive records, mansions, walter mitty and his makeshift orchestra, bay faction, remo drive, hippo campus, my parents basement sessions, all of my soundcloud followers, everyone over at /r/emo and /r/poppunkers, my classmates at DGN, and all of my friends and family. thanks for being there when i needed you the most.

all songs were recorded and mastered at populist recording in wheaton, illinois, with the exception of 48 hours and chicago (piano version) which were recorded in my basement.

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school spirit

a few weeks ago i could only do 10 push-ups
and six months ago i thought you were my girl
now things have changed and i'm so tired
i thought that i was your world

but now you've got new friends
you have all these beginnings while i've got ends
that i didn't want
and yeah you fucked some other dude
i guess he loves you more than i do

you say that you've found god
but that's for brownie points
a lie only a sad sad person would tell
i don't buy religion, so here's my concept
your school spirit is sending you straight to my hell

but now you've got new friends
you have all these beginnings while i've got ends
that i didn't want
and yeah you fucked some other dude
i guess he loves you more than i do
yeah putting up with all your shit
didn't work out like i'd hoped it would
so i guess i'll just move on
shower song

shower song

this is my "try-hard-angsty-emo-high-school-ass-bullshit" song about wanting to grow weed and high school. plz enjoy.

i feel so angry and i don't know why
my parents say it's hormones but i just wanna die
and i'm always tired but i can't fall asleep
thinking about the things i wanna be but i will never be
i stay up later than i probably should
when i wake up in the morning i regret it like i knew i would
i hate your friends because i don't fit in
maybe it's selfish but it sucks to not fit in

i want to buy a house in the mountains and i
want to grow illegal plants inside of my garden
i want to get arrested in a high speed car chase
and i want you just to love me and i want to kiss your fuckin face

i want to tell you that i love you
but honesty means that i shouldn't lie
i wish that i could say i miss you
but if i did well then i would be lying
to you

i want to buy a house in the mountains and i
want to grow illegal plants inside of my garden
i want to get arrested in a high speed car chase
and i want you just to love me and i want to kiss your fuckin face

i want to tell you that i love you
but honesty means that i shouldn't lie
i wish that i could say i miss you
but if i did well then i would be lying
to you
and my friends
and your friends
and my parents
and everybody else who knows about what happened
like you
and my friends
and your friends
and my parents
so i'll smoke a bowl and talk about later with you with you wake
up

saturn suv

try and try again
you bring me up and break me down
life is bland
i'm tired of playing around
new faces i don't know the voices of
yours is not the one i long for
anymore

i fell in love with a temporary tattoo
i risked a lot to ink my skin
but it fell through
and every day i miss the old you
i'm not saying that you gotta stay the same
but i didn't think you'd change

remember now and then
the way we used to feel, in love
now i'm spent
from hours of thinking i'm alone
how should i feel
now that you say the past few months
have not been real
you used me

i fell in love with a temporary tattoo
i risked a lot to ink my skin
but it fell through
and every day i miss the old you
i'm not saying that you gotta stay the same
but i didn't think you'd change
i'm not saying that you gotta stay the same
but i didn't think you'd change
yeah you changed
i wish you hadn't changed
but you changed

try and try again
you bring me up and break me down
life is bland

temporary tattoo

artwork done by my mom. thanks mom, love ya :)

we've been growing apart for a while now
and it's been breaking my heart for a while now
the laughs have turned into silence
every argument added to my list

how come you don't listen
to the same music anymore
and why do i feel
like i just make you bored

i'll be in chicago
who knows where you'll be
i know you and i hate this person
that you're trying to be
i loved you the way you were
but now that part of you's gone
i know what i should do
but i just don't want to

i'm doing everything i can to move on
telling myself it'll be okay, but i've been faking for too long
a lot has changed in these three years
but it hasn't felt like three years

the smell of weed
and disappointment
the little things
are adding up to this

i'll be in chicago
who knows where you'll be
i know you and i hate this person
that you're desperately trying to be
i loved you the way you were
but now that part of you's gone
i'll love you but i hate this person
that you've somehow become

chicago

this is a song letting out three and a half years of pent up frustration.

you're going to community college
which means that i'll be here for you
so you can place me on hold and call me
when you fail your tests
cuz you'll fail your tests
and you say god fucking hates you
because you think you try so hard
but you were born to fail
and i've known that yet i still love you

i know you better than i should
accept the bad and love the good
but at some point love isn't enough to make this worth it

so this one's
for the rides back home
the only time we'd get alone
all the pictures on my wall
now we don't take any at all
it's for the catholic school you hate
but suddenly you seemed to change your mind
and now i'm second place
it's for you

and all your new friends will leave you
cuz they have better things to do
while i've spent three years knowing you'll stay at your house
wasting away the days like you do
you don't deserve to go away quite yet
because failure and laziness end up the same
but they're achieved by different ways

i can't keep lying to your face
you shouldn't be proud of your place in life
because 18 years of bullshit doesn't pay the bills

so this one's
for the rides back home
the only time we'd get alone
all the pictures on my wall
now we don't take any at all
it's for the catholic school you hate
but suddenly you seemed to change your mind
and now i'm in second place
it's for you
yeah this is for the lies you told
all the hands you chose to hold
every place you said you'd be
but you were always late for me
for your dad who never tried
when i held you while you cried
our beginnings and our end
it's for you

you're in community college
which means that i'll be here for you
so i can love you until i can't do it anymore
i can't anymore

artwork done by @midnaut (luke davenport) on instagram, thanks man!!!

community college (high school 2.0)

the afterthoughts.

all that you said was i'm sorry
cuz everything was too true
gave every reason that i had
for why i could no longer love you
a single tear on your face
but still no words to explain
your actions, words, and demeanors
the times you lied to my face

so i had to move
otherwise i would sink
because these weights in my chest keep bringing me down
and i just need a little more time to think
so far i still really miss you
but i'm not changing my mind
because it's time

48 hours of sadness
some anger thrown in there too
when i woke up this morning
i hoped that i'd hear from you
i haven't cried yet which hurts me
but i'm not really surprised
cuz we've been over for months
everything since then was lies

i thought that we were the long run
different from all of our friends
but we expired a while ago and i've been too scared
to bring this to an end
so far i still really miss you
but i'm not changing my mind
because it's time

i'm sorry that i'm not enough for you
i'm sorry that you don't care anymore
i'm sorry that i'm an idiot
i'm sorry that i can't love you anymore
i'm sorry that i can't change this
i'm sorry that this is a shitshow
i'm sorry that this was the way we ended
but i never wanted to end it

48 hours of sadness
some anger thrown in there too
when i wake up in the morning
i won't hear from you

s/o to my good friend lock for the artwork, canboy forever <3

48 hours

WOO BONUS TRACK

we've been growing apart for a while now
and it's been breaking my heart for a while now
the laughs have turned into silence
every argument added to my list

how come you don't listen
to the same music anymore
and why do i feel
like i just make you bored

i'll be in chicago
who knows where you'll be
i know you and i hate this person
that you're trying to be
i loved you the way you were
but now that part of you's gone
i know what i should do
but i just don't want to

i'm doing everything i can to move on
telling myself it'll be okay, but i've been faking for too long
a lot has changed in these three years
but it hasn't felt like three years

the smell of weed
and disappointment
the little things
are adding up to this

i'll be in chicago
who knows where you'll be
i know you and i hate this person
that you're desperately trying to be
i loved you the way you were
but now that part of you's gone
i'll love you but i hate this person
that you've somehow become