“I Am!

I am—yet what I am none cares or knows; 
My friends forsake me like a memory lost: 
I am the self-consumer of my woes— 
They rise and vanish in oblivious host, 
Like shadows in love’s frenzied stifled throes 
And yet I am, and live—like vapours tossed 

Into the nothingness of scorn and noise, 
Into the living sea of waking dreams, 
Where there is neither sense of life or joys, 
But the vast shipwreck of my life’s esteems; 
Even the dearest that I loved the best 
Are strange—nay, rather, stranger than the rest. 

I long for scenes where man hath never trod 
A place where woman never smiled or wept 
There to abide with my Creator, God, 
And sleep as I in childhood sweetly slept, 
Untroubling and untroubled where I lie 
The grass below—above the vaulted sky.”

-John Clare

sunfear • eylül deniz 

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past (2025):
20.03 Kaburgasiz Kabza #6, Sahika Istanbul
28.03 Hinterraum Berlin
14.04 fractals #2 @refugeworldwide
19.04 Reset Club
20.04 MeinBlau Project Raum, Sounding Bodies
02.05 Tennis Bar Berlin
31.05 The Lodge Berlin (dj set)
12.06 Lark Berlin
21.06 West Germany w Nesso, Kashual Plastik Night
01.07 fractals #3 @refugeworldwide
17.07 Bar Neun Berlin
24.07 8MM Berlin
31.07 Giri Berlin (dj set)
15.8 W1 ; Leipzig
22.8 blush 90MIL ; Berlin
29.08 KunstRaum Aarau MidA Festival w/ @nesso_xyz ; Aarau, sz
31.08 Les Digitales Festival w/ @nesso_xyz  ; Zurich, sz
11.9 Spazio ; Marseille 
11.9 L'Embobineus ; Marseille 
04.10 Rauchhaus ; Berlin
8-11.10 Changeover Festival ; Belgrade
12.10 Mutant Radio Silent Green ; Berlin
24.10 Bar Neun Berlin
08.11 Kiezkapalle Berlin w. R.Miro

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Kemerburgaz Eyüp/İstanbul
VKN: 7230041675

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