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Odyssey

I Miss You

The Memory Club returns with a new website, a new album and a new song "Prison Ship". The words are based on an 18th century poem but somehow they're bang up to date https://the-memory.club/index.html#tour

Prison Ship - The Memory Club

Dementia is an increasingly common brain disease, I see it more and more in my immediate environment.  Especially in the elderly, but also in younger people.  The disease is irreversible and varies from person to person.  What is common is that those people develop a kind of pattern.  What they hold on to.  Asking the same questions every time or something like that.  The longer you have it, the more you lose.  Actually, you don't want to die like that.  On the other hand, you don't realize it yourself.  You fade from the present world.  You are no longer who you were.  And takes on a completely different character.

I Am No Longer I (changing character)

This track is one of my new work.  it is a part of a very short album, called "Small Amount´s Of EDM"   it is Micro Dose´s of Electronic, music,  now i use my last 3 minutes in here to hear the rest of this short album,  you have to go to youtube or bandcamp..  plz Subscribe if you one day will listen to my music on youtube..  i always subscribe back..

Depression

Burn It All Down

BURN IT ALL DOWN

With God, I still fall apart sometimes.  But I do it with grace.

Gracefully Falling Apart

CityBoy

It's been a few months since I've posted anything and while part of that was my dealing with school and facing the WORST writers block yet, part of my absence was also prompted by my quitting my antipsychotics. This may have prompted the writers block, now that I'm typing this out, huh. 

It DEFINITELY prompted another psychotic break that burned HOT and BRIGHT and FAST like the stars I believed I was talking to. This bright, intense break stood in stark contrast to the slow-burning first one. I thought there was only one shade of psychosis for everyone and I'd just have my harmonious hallucinations pop up whenever I got too stressed. It was honestly the ease and gentle nature of my first break that prompted me to stop taking my medication. I could handle anything that came my way, I already had! 

I was incredibly wrong. This October proved the most intense, thought-provoking, traumatic, and surreal 4 weeks of my life. I will NEVER stop taking my medication without a professional's guiding hand again. The hallucinations identified themselves as celestial bodies, extraterrestrials, even "Jesus" at times (INCREDIBLY confusing for an athiest with eastern religious interests). There was one moment where the hallucinations made it appear that I had caused a supernova because I looked up at the night sky without "permission" from the voices in my head. That I was filling our surrounding space with black holes because I could not stop looking up. 

Psychosis is STILL one of the biggest mysteries in modern psychology, despite "madness" and "hysteria" being among the first recognized abnormal mental states. Since the first psychotic break, I've been trying to musically simulate what psychosis FEELS like. 

With my Desert of Delusion album, I tried to paint a picture of the varying storybook-like genres I had experienced during my eight month break. With "Downtempo Decay", I tried to simulate the decaying nature of reality as it is substituted with increasingly absurd delusions. Now, with "Pseudo Psychosis", I've found that I've replicated the experience of having audible hallucinations(through the dialogue) while simultaneously expressing the fluid nature of reality (through the line of melody). 

The first vocals are positioned dead center, between the ears. This is to represent your internal monologue. Audible hallucinations, when inside the mind, are like dynamically-voiced thoughts that have specific positions in the head. As the song and psychosis continue, though, these positions become muddled. While it's initially easy to tell the difference between your own thoughts and the hallucinations, soon there isn't any way to deiscern between the two. That's where people get hurt. 

Those in the depths of psychosis are actually much more likely to harm themselves than harm others. 

This was, possibly, my most challenging track yet as all of the dialogue matches exactly to hallucinations I have had, save for the introductory singing verse. That just sets the scene as it represents the last coherent and stable line of thinking before madness hits. 

I'll probably come back later and add more context to the dialogue but I was really excited to post this as much like with Desert of Delusion and Downtempo Decay, the creation and posting of this track has helped my processing of the traumatic event IMMENSELY! I'm now completely at peace!!

Also, in my mission to demystify stress-induced psychosis, feel free to leave any questions below and I'll be happy to answer them to the best of my experience!

Mastered by https://soundcloud.com/izero-7-9 !!

Pseudo Psychosis

Name Me Please

Beers Beats & TheBiz

Projekt Mars

I'm a producer/composer putting my all into making music.  Genres are obsolete.  If you're a vocalist who wants to collab or hop on a track, please hit me up!  I don't care about the fame so much as making you feel SOMETHING when you hear my music.  It's such a powerful thing.

I thank God for everything.

-FreeNotFree

Gracefully Falling Apart

FreeNotFree

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