Steven's Shield Super Extended

Mix 2 is rendered with a deeper sense of freedom and release...

“I’m Not the Man I Used to Be” is a song about what happens after rock bottom — that quiet turning point where survival becomes transformation.
It’s the moment you stop running from yourself, stop fixing everyone else’s storms, and finally face the truth you’ve been carrying for years.

This track is about evolution…
About burning the old versions, breaking the inherited patterns, and choosing to rise anyway.
It’s healing, raw, honest — a reminder that scars aren’t failures; they’re blueprints for who we become.

I wrote this for anyone who’s ever rebuilt themselves from the inside out.
For anyone who’s carried ghosts, chased the wrong salvation, or lost a love that cracked them open.
For anyone who finally said, “I’m done hiding. It’s time to be me.”

If this song finds you at the right moment, I hope it gives you the same strength it gave me while writing it.

Lyrics:

I used to run from every shadow,
Hide my hurt behind a grin.
Played the joker, played the fighter,
Never let the real me in.
I carried ghosts like armor,
Thought the weight would set me free…
But all it ever really did
Was steal the breath right out of me.

I broke, I bled, unraveled—
But the fall taught me to see:
Somewhere in the wreckage
There was more to me than grief.

I’m not the man I used to be.
I’m standing here with open eyes.
No more running from the mirror,
No more swallowing the lies.
I walked through fire just to feel
My own heart beating honestly…
And now I know, for the first time,
I’m not the man I used to be.

I used to chase the wrong salvation,
Tried to save everyone I loved.
Fixed their storms while mine kept raging,
Built a shelter with no sun.
But something broke—and then I opened,
Let the truth come pouring in…
You can’t heal another’s damage
When you’re bleeding from within.

Lost, betrayed, awakened—
Every scar rewired me.
Pain became my teacher
And it finally set me free.

I’m not the man I used to be.
I’m stronger where the fractures are.
No more begging for acceptance,
No more worshipping the stars.
I don’t need the past to tell me
Who I am or who to be…
‘Cause now I know in every heartbeat:
I’m not the man I used to be.

I buried old illusions,
Burned the versions built on fear.
I lost a love that broke me—
But it brought me back to here.
Back to the center of my spirit,
To the man I couldn’t see…
Sometimes you lose your whole world
To find who you were meant to be.

I’m not the man I used to be.
I’m wide awake and breathing deep.
No more clinging to the memories,
No more sinking in the deep.
I walked through hell and learned to heal,
Learned that truth will set you free…
And now I rise, rebuilt, reborn—
I’m not the man I used to be.

Not perfect… just present.
Not broken… just free.
A little scarred, a little wiser—
But finally…
finally…

I'm not the man I used to me

I'm not the man I used to be - Mix 2

皮肤之下，血液的热歌 (1)

Sung by: Perfectlyvindictive & the wonderful Katerinu
https://www.youtube.com/user/Katerinu2

(Special thanks to Katerinu for editing and working with me on this cover! It was truly an honor!)

Instrumental by: youseeeberkeley
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KfuiVSJ0Ne0

Lyrics by: abovelimitations
http://abovelimitations.tumblr.com/

Steven Universe (c) Rebecca Sugar
All rights to the show go to Cartoon Network

Lyrics:

Lapis: I do it for him
And I would do it again
I do it for him
That is to say, I’ll do it for them
Keep myself strong
Keep my mind in focus
As she’s fighting upwards
Love will be my key
One day, two days
Will the time pass faster?
And as she’s fighting upwards
Keep my chains on her
Keep myself strong

Jasper: Weak!

Lapis: Keep my mind in focus!

Jasper: Pathetic!

Lapis: And as she’s fighting upwards


Jasper: Usless!
Do you think you can win?


Lapis: One day, two days


Jasper: Yes, but you cannot hold me forever!
Everything you lack, everything you aren’t
You will give me
On the battlefield
When everything is chaos
And you’ll be nothing but an empty shell
Your power mine to control
Just think about the lives I’ll take
My glory after the war!
Jasper: And I do it for me,
That’s how I know I can win!
I do it for me, that is to say
I’ll escape the sea!
Jasper: Deep down you know
You weren’t built for fighting

Lapis: But that doesn’t mean
I’m not prepared to try!
What you don’t know
Is my real advantage!
When you’ve been forsaken
You’re prepared to die
Deep down, I know
That I’m just one weak Gem
Jasper: Exactly!
Lapis: But I know that I can hold these chains and fight!
Jasper: But I know that she could keep me chained in spite…
With my short existence
Jasper: No!
Lapis: I can make a difference
Jasper: You can’t!
I will stay here for him,
I can make this right!
I can do it for him,
And I would do it again!
I do it for him - and now I’ll say
I do it for them.

Do It For Him/Me [Lapis/Jasper] ft. Katerinu

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