Fromthisaltitude- DEATHWISH
from the EP "GIVE IT UP"
released August 21st, 2022.

Produced by SONIUS x Fromthisaltitude
Written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
Mixed and mastered by Fromthisaltitude
Special thanks to Kyle Mac, Cas Stone and Wes Watson

Lyrics:
How did I get here? I lost track of time. It's a pattern repeating, I'm losing my mind. There's nowhere to go now so I just keep it all inside. I don't even care if I live or I die... It used to mean everything to me, now even breathing it hurts. A constant reminder of failure and still it gets worse... Now I walk around with a deathwish, got problems that I can't fix. Shoulda walked away but I can't quit cuz I got a deathwish... Now I'm running out of excuses, got me feeling like I'm useless. This shit doesn't hit like it used to, now I don't know what the fuck to do... I thought that time would heal my wounds, how many years does it take? The pressure of every mistake's gonna lead me to an early grave...

DEATHWISH

Fromthisaltitude- THE HARD WAY
from the EP "GIVE IT UP"
released August 21st, 2022.

Produced by SONIUS x Fromthisaltitude
Written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
Mixed and mastered by Fromthisaltitude
Special thanks to Kyle Mac, Cas Stone and Wes Watson

Lyrics:
You could never know how far I was willing to go. You could never relate to the chances I had to take. You could never know of all of the choices that I made and it hurts me to say that I had to learn it the hard way. I had to learn it the hard way, there wasn't shit to me that you could say no... In search for something that's fleeting but after what happened I'm never repeating. Shit that I couldn't explain, secrets will go to my grave. I thought I could do it alone but I had to learn on my own. Pack in the mail, digital sale. Watching the box paranoid as hell, don't wanna get stuck in a jail cell. Taking that risk, it doesn't make sense and it didn't even hit me- one is a felony now there's a hundred in front of me. Penitentiary chances, do-or-die circumstances. Damage that can't be undone. Shit that you don't come back from...

THE HARD WAY

Fromthisaltitude- NEVER ENOUGH
from the EP "GIVE IT UP"
released August 21st, 2022.

Produced by SONIUS x Fromthisaltitude
Written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
Songwriting help from Cas Stone
Mixed and mastered by Fromthisaltitude
Special thanks to Kyle Mac, Cas Stone and Wes Watson

Lyrics:
It was never enough no was never enough... Used to bite down and smoke up and then drink 'til I drowned. It was never enough no was never enough... I'm at the bar on a bar. I take a drink when I'm drunk. I was just trying to turn up. You'd never guess where I turned up... Take a look at what it cost me, try and guess what it taught me. Gotta get back to the old me. Fuck all this wasted time... Used to be wasted all the time and I wasted so many years of my life, somehow I made it out alive... The shit made me drop like a bad habit, I couldn't stop all the bad habits... A couple milligrams will make you forget that it happened but the pain doesn't go away... The thoughts of my mother and father and sister and family and friends... the look on their face when they're looking at me in a hospital bed... I said it was never enough but now I say never again. I'm sick of fucking up I gotta make it up to them... I said it was never enough... If you're sick of fucking up, you gotta make it up one time. And if you think it's not enough, you're gonna lose it all one time...

NEVER ENOUGH

Fromthisaltitude- GIVE IT UP
from the EP "GIVE IT UP"
released August 21st, 2022.

Produced by SONIUS
Written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
Edited, mixed and mastered by Fromthisaltitude
Special thanks to Kyle Mac, Cas Stone, SamE and SONIUS

Lyrics:
So I gotta give it up...

GIVE IT UP

Fromthisaltitude- LIVING TO DIE
from the EP "GIVE IT UP"
released August 21st, 2022.

Produced by SONIUS x Fromthisaltitude
Written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
Mixed and mastered by Fromthisaltitude
Special thanks to Kyle Mac, Cas Stone and Wes Watson

Lyrics:
How many times did I tell myself that it was over? I couldn't find the words, I didn't have the nerve, I can't even lie, I was just living to die. Took so many losses, can't make up for lost time. Cannot shake the feeling that I fucked up my life... Had so many missed calls- they turned into close calls and now I'm a lost cause, it lead to my downfall. I feel like I couldn't escape from a shallow grave that I had dug, then it was too late to save face, couldn't stop what I would become. "Couldn't stop the momentum"... I was just trying to slow down the thoughts in my head... And even if it's hard to see it, please believe in me. You are the reason I haven't given up on myself yet. So I gotta give it up... I didn't have the strength. I couldn't walk away. I was about to say fuck it, you were like "Yo what the fuck are you doing man?!" I said I was trying to slow down the thoughts, I said it was never enough... I'm just tryna make up for the lost time so I gotta give it up one time...

LIVING TO DIE

Fromthisaltitude- LOVE MYSELF
from the EP "GIVE IT UP"
released August 21st, 2022.

Produced by SONIUS x Fromthisaltitude
Written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
Mixed and mastered by Fromthisaltitude
Special thanks to Kyle Mac, Cas Stone and Wes Watson

Lyrics:
I gotta learn how to love myself before I can share with anybody else. I gotta learn how to love myself before I share the love... I know that my standards were too high when I was too high to have standards. I set the bar for myself too high, I took a bar and got too high... Too tuned in and too stressed out, need a better way to take the stress down. Spent a few years in the background I'm tryna get it all back now. The mirror looks clearer than it has in years now... I can't show no love so I gotta give it up. All this self-doubt had me blacked out but I'm back now. Gotta break out before I break down. Now I know I gotta listen to the sounds of my subconscious, got me feeling self-conscious... In my mind this sounds perfect but I'm so far from perfect, doesn't mean that this is worthless (doesn't mean I'm fucking worthless...) gotta learn to trust the process. Gotta learn to love the losses. Drink until I feal nauseous... Fuck it up lost conscious, got a fucked up subconscious, now I'm looking for the confidence...

LOVE MYSELF

Fromthisaltitude- "A cry for help" [prod. Viramaina]
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I hate to admit I've been wasted this whole time
and now it just feels like I wasted my whole life...

This is far from a cry for help
I've been screaming for what feels like years now
But your deaf ears cannot seem to hear your friend when he's in need...

I don't wanna die, this isn't suicide
I just don't wanna exist for awhile...

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Fromthisaltitude- "A cry for help"
from "Growing old and moving on"
released November 28, 2018.

lyrics, melodies & vocals written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
tracked and mixed by Fromthisaltitude
mastering help from Kyle McCallum
produced by @viramaina

A cry for help

Fromthisaltitude- "Highs and lows" 
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20 years and nothing changes, I try but don't wanna face it...

I used to call this place home, now it's looking unfamiliar everywhere that I go.
But I know that time passes, things change, and people move on, but I've been stuck in this fucking town for way too long... then you wonder why people like us turn to drugs
...cuz I'm broken and hopeless
I'm a joke and I know it...

Bitch I'm flexing you can hear it in my voice now...
I'm sober you can see it in my eyes now...
I'm unstoppable and anything is possible.
Taking one of anything to me's impossible

now yea

All I had to do was call you but I didn't wanna bother you.
How stupid was I back then to not think that a good friend would wonder how I had been?

The highs don't feel as high as they did with you...
And now the low's just something that I'm used to...

I don't wanna be stuck here my whole life, gotta find a way out somehow.
Everyone I love is somewhere else
It's time for me to go there myself...

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Fromthisaltitude- "Highs and lows"
from "Growing old and moving on"
released November 28, 2018.

lyrics, melodies & vocals written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
tracked and mixed by Fromthisaltitude
mastering help from Kyle McCallum
produced by @nixonyung and Fromthisaltitude

Highs and lows

Fromthisaltitude- "Never spoke" feat. Evan Paulson
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Do you remember the stupid things that we used to say to eachother?
"Baby, we'll be together forever and I'll always remember you..."

yea yea...

"You're the best, you're the greatest, together we'll make it.
We're unstoppable..."

I remember I meant every word I ever said to you.
I'd kill to feel that alive again, but I was a different person then.

Now a decade's passed and it still feels like the same like's nothing changed but our ages
The familiar faces were just a phase, now we're all in different places.

I have nothing left to say to you now,
except drop dead and I regret the things I can't redo...
You pulled me down but you pulled me through...
I can't even be in the same room as you now
I thought I had you figured out but I was wrong, it was all on me all along

Whether you hear this song your don't, maybe it's better that we never spoke

Now a decade's passed and it still feels like the same like nothing's changed
There will still so many things I never got the chance to say...

I'd kill to feel that alive again...
For the times we had back then...
I could never forget them...



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Fromthisaltitude- "Never spoke" feat. Evan Paulson
from "Growing old and moving on"
released November 28, 2018.

lyrics, melodies & vocals written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
featured lyrics, melodies and performance by Evan Paulson of The Alpha Couple
tracked and mixed by Fromthisaltitude
mastering help from Kyle McCallum

produced by unknown! Downloaded the original instrumental years ago and can't find the file information. If you know the original producer, please let me know! and further production by Fromthisaltitude.

Never spoke feat. Evan Paulson

Fromthisaltitude- "For granted"
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Sometimes my life is like a living nightmare
and I try to pretend that I don't care.
I'm stuck in my head and I can't resist
My dreams are dead and they don't exist.

Wasting time without you...
There's nothing I can say or do
Fucked up 'cause I choose to
I never thought I'd lose you...

I'll lock myself in my room and sleep the day away
Try to make all of these memories fade away.
I still hope that I will see you again someday, but for now in a dream is the only way...

Now every time that I close my eyes it takes me back to those nights when we felt young and alive and I had you by my side
But I pushed you away cuz I couldn't stand it
I regret taking you for granted... 

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Fromthisaltitude- "For granted"
from "Growing old and moving on"
released November 28, 2018.

lyrics, melodies & vocals written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
tracked and mixed by Fromthisaltitude
mastering help from Kyle McCallum
produced by @apisol
further production by Fromthisaltitude

For granted

Fromthisaltitude- "Beneath the ground" [prod. Fromthisaltitude]
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There's nothing I can do anymore and I know I've said this all before.
These memories inside of me, I've tried for so long to ignore, but I can't change it, and I'm sorry I can't explain it. I'm moving on on my own, but it's so hard to do it alone. These last five years I should have known, there's nowhere you can go when you're running away from yourself and nowhere feels like home. All that I have left is me now and I wish that I could make you see how you took a part of me that's buried with you six feet beneath the ground.

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Fromthisaltitude- "Beneath the ground"
from "Growing old and moving on"
released November 28, 2018.

lyrics, melodies & vocals written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
tracked and mixed by Fromthisaltitude
mastering help from Kyle McCallum
produced by @Fromthisaltitude

Beneath the ground

Fromthisaltitude- "Back to you" [prod. Masquerade]
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Why does this feeling bring me back to you?
When every single day and night, I think of things we'd do...
Why can't I just move on with my life?
All the cigarettes and alcohol won't make it all okay...

I'm coming down, I'm coming off this high that I've been on. For the last few years I can't remember anything at all. Why can't I just live a normal life? Cuz getting high just to get by makes me feel so low...

Why does this feeling bring me back to you?
When every single day and night, I think of things we'd do...
Why can't I just move on with my life?
All the cigarettes and alcohol won't make it all okay...

I'm confused and lost in this world and I thought that I had it all figured out and I try to justify my use with excuses and lies to you. Why can't I just get my shit together? I try to think of times in life when it seemed so much better...

I try to think of times in life when it seemed so much better...

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Fromthisaltitude- "Back to you" [prod. Masquerade]
from "Growing old and moving on"
released November 28, 2018.

lyrics, melodies & vocals written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
tracked and mixed by Fromthisaltitude
mastering help from Kyle McCallum
produced by @masqueradeghoul

Back to you

Fromthisaltitude- "Used to be feat. lil ch@d" [prod. lil hearbreak]
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My time is up, I must grow up or I'm going down in flames...
For way too long I was so far gone but I lied and said I'm doing fine.
I really should've tried to treat you right
I wish we never had to say goodbye
Just look at me now, I can't stop thinking about who I used to be with you.

We were so young when we met and we didn't get how impossible that it could be that two complete strangers could feel like they knew eachother for eternity. the way that we hit it off that night I swear has never happened the rest of my life...

We don't see each other or talk that often but that night will never be forgotten...

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Fromthisaltitude- "Used to be feat. lil ch@d" [prod. lil hearbreak]
from "Growing old and moving on"
released November 28, 2018.

lyrics, melodies & vocals written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
tracked and mixed by Fromthisaltitude
mastering help from Kyle McCallum
produced by @lilxheartbreak
features @lileastegg

Used to be feat. lil ch@d

Fromthisaltitude- "Would it even matter" [prod. LIFE/ØVER]
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I need to know the purpose
Why do I only hurt the ones that don't deserve it?
Years of being let down lead me to this dark place
I can barely see the light now and I'm not sure if I can escape
I'm just trying to find comfort in this hell that I helped to create...

I'm going down the path less traveled
The choices that I made along the way
they got me here so I gotta deal with it...

yea yea...

Can't go back to the way things used to be
...even though that sounds so perfect...

With everything that has happened since then,
I gotta wonder would it be worth it? 
Would you even be the same person that I fell in love with all those 

years ago? 
As much as I'd love to know,
I have to let that part of me go. 
But this is for the better, 
we shouldn't see each other ever.

Would it even matter?
Would it even matter at all...?

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Fromthisaltitude- "Would it even matter"
from "Growing old and moving on"
released November 28, 2018.

lyrics, melodies & vocals written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
tracked and mixed by Fromthisaltitude
mastering help from Kyle McCallum
produced by @my-life-is-over

Would it even matter

Fromthisaltitude- "Into the light feat. cemeteryflowers" [prod. Cajole Brand]
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You’ve got my attention now... I live and die by your every word. I’ll follow you into the light, I’m good when you’re by my side... I could desperately use some attention, my life is just tension and stress, I’m a mess without you... You brought out my best when I was with you, now that you’re gone I’m so lost and confused. Every day fucking sucks without you cuz things will never be like they used to... Bring me back to those nights when we felt so alive. Bring me back to when anything seemed possible. Bring me back to when I thought that I knew who I was. Bring me back to when I thought there was a future for us...

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Fromthisaltitude- "Into the light feat. cemeteryflowers" [prod. Cajole Brand]
from "Growing old and moving on"
released November 28, 2018.

lyrics, melodies & vocals written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
tracked and mixed by Fromthisaltitude
mastering help from Kyle McCallum
produced by @trillwavegod
features @cemeteryxflowers

Into the light feat. cemeteryflowers

Fromthisaltitude- "Stronger drugs" [prod. yvng parris]
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I can only say I'm sorry so many times 
but I still can't get you off my mind.
The pills and the alcohol were all that I wanted, all that I needed, and I couldn't see it...
I was surrounded by friends I'd call family
I took them for granted, so you know why I'm lonely
This whole time, all I ever needed was you
You're stronger than any drug I could ever do

You're strong and I need you
You're stronger than any drug I could ever do...

I can't eat, I can't sleep, feels like this shit is killing me...
You're the only drug I need........

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Fromthisaltitude- "Stronger drugs" [prod. yvng parris]
from "Growing old and moving on"
released November 28, 2018.

lyrics, melodies & vocals written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
tracked and mixed by Fromthisaltitude
mastering help from Kyle McCallum
produced by @tmrwnit3

Stronger drugs

Fromthisaltitude- "2005" [prod. nixon yung]
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I swear that I feel like I know you from somewhere...
It feels like we've met before but I swore that I would never forget you...
Even if this all is just a dream and I'm still asleep, then don't wake me up, I don't wanna know, just leave me alone...

I saw your face in the crowd from the stage and I couldn't look away
(It's got me feelin' like it's 2005 again)
Nothing would ever be the same, now I'm not sure if I'll ever be okay.
I thought you would be everything that I need 
I couldn't believe you would do that to me...

The memories they still hurt
(It's got me feeling like its 2005 again)
...can barely remember the times that I had back then
I just remember that I had so many friends
we would hang out at the skatepark until dark
then we would go jam pop-punk songs in our friends' parents' garage...

I swear that I feel like I know you from somewhere...
It feels like we've met before but I swore that I would never forget you...

Those days I dream about are dead and gone...
Now I'm growing old and moving on...

Goodbye, so long
singin, "We can't go back, but we'll always remember the times we spent together..."

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Fromthisaltitude- "2005"
from "Growing old and moving on"
released November 28, 2018.

lyrics, melodies & vocals written and performed by Fromthisaltitude
tracked and mixed by Fromthisaltitude
mastering help from Kyle McCallum
produced by @nixonyung

2005

Forever The Sickest Kids- Bundled Up (2008) cover! 
FTSK has always held a special place in my heart since way back in the day. Their songwriting, harmonies and production have always just been god-tier in the scene, even compared to the mainstream. Undeniably catchy hooks and instrumentals. Add in a zany, G-rated presentation, and they were appealing in pretty much every way!
Bundled Up always struck me as the quintessential "scene christmas song" because of the heartfelt message, earnest singing, harmonies, and acoustic nature. It's just such a great representation of that time period. 
Every winter since then, each year I've always thought back to the song and remembered it fondly so I wanted to make a tribute! 
Was difficult to get started, then took too long to finish. So a classic wintertime song is almost released during the spring but hey here we are. Thanks for listening, check out Forever The Sickest Kids and my album Growing old and moving on! 

Recorded November 2019-February 2020.
Produced and performed by Fromthisaltitude
Special thanks apisol and Kyle Mac!
Released March 1, 2020.

Bundledup [Forever The Sickest Kids cover]

You could never know how far I was willing to go........

production by SONIUS x Fromthisaltitude
written/performed/tracked by Fromthisaltitude
mastered by Kyle Mac

demo recorded march 2020
released october 2020

(ihadtolearnit) the hard way

Fromthisaltitude is a Chicago-based post-hardcore solo-project started in 2017, using anxious energy and emotional intensity to bring perspective to life-altering events. 

Influences: Future, Fall Out Boy, Mayday Parade, I See Stars, Juicy J, The Story So Far, Pusha T, Panic! At The Disco, Forever the Sickest Kids, Wiz Khalifa, The Acacia Strain...

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