SadBoy

august 19

August 2019 🔥

FUCK WHAT THEY'RE TELLIN' ME
produced by jeremy zucker
DQYDD.

♠♠♠

Melody

so long, goodbye (ft. Lil Lotus)

Track two from Make It Through Fall

Guitar Lyrics And Vocals: Lil Xtra
Additional production: Kado

Links:

Spotify

https://open.spotify.com/artist/7j8XINhxkD7WS4efrPxbhm

Soundcloud

 https://soundcloud.com/lilxtraatl

Merch

https://lilxtraofficialmerch.bigcartel.com/

Insta

https://www.instagram.com/lilxtraatl/

Twitter

https://twitter.com/LilXtraATL

Youtube

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCYqEuND_ZtclJ6RQzzsPtcA/videos

Facebook

https://www.facebook.com/LilXtraAtl/


Lyrics: 
Yo I'm Doomed to a life of 7.25, 
No point living right won’t make it out alive 
Making plays downtown, let me sleep on the drive
Leaning from the fucking codine in my sprite 
Leaning on the hollows in his fucking four-five like,
Put it to my head and we’ll see if I can fly 
He don’t really care if I’m impaired just stares, says 
What the fuck is up, bruh you really want to die? 
Yeah, I been blessed with a death wish 
I just hope that I die young and high like Hedwig 
I’ve been too distressed to address this
But I know I can’t be the only one who feels helpless 
And I’m sorry that I’ve been so selfish
I’d change if I could, but I just can’t help it 
But I know who I am, no need to pretend 
Guess I’m I’m still fucked up, and let down again.

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture underneath my mattress
Can’t see the sky to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I know I'm fucking different....

Why the world gotta be like this?
Getting high and she tells me what her step dad did 
I keep the secret so she can pretend 
That her innocence hasn’t been lost in a sense 
So we go to the mall and buy some bullshit 
To block out how fucked up it all is
I just need a whip with the gold plate rims
I just need a pill to feel happiness 
I just need a check and some ice I can flex 
A few more drugs to feel a little less 
A few more hits and a girl that’s obsessed 
That loves all my shit and loves having sex
So I can pretend everything’s okay 
But the world’s so black and I’m so grey 
I hope in the end one day I’ll say 
I see the same old world in a brand new way

Cause I’ve been feeling down can’t wait until it passes 
I hope you keep me underneath your mattress 
Still too blind to see my own condition
I know I can’t be perfect I know that something’s missing

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture, underneath my mattress
I can’t see the sky, to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I hope I'm always different

I hope
I hope
I hope...
I hope I'm always different

Different

Crush~ Souly Had

no one is home (ryini)

lock da doors (samashi)

sorry (hbeatz)

b alright (vitals x jabarionthebeat)

Song Title - Fiction
Production & Vocals By Lund.

Lyrics: 

Feelings come and go
Time to hit the road 
Can’t afford
To watch this 
time move past
Im never going back 
Moving forward 

Lying to yourself 
You don’t really need me 
Fiction in your head
That you keep on believing

People come and go
Everybody knows
Love is potent
Let you go
Had to let you go
Now I’m hoping 
You get closure
Cause I’m feeling 
so much better 
now were over

With you
It ain’t right 
To many missed calls 
And long nights 
I heard your voicemail 
to many times
And I aint wasting no more love on you
X2

Open up my chest
Deep into my heart
Do you see it
A shard of glass 
I can feel it slice  
as I’m breathing 
it cut my strings 
Now my fucking 
heart isn’t beating 
And from my brain 
is where I’m bleeding 

Deep inside my mind
Scared of what I’ll find
Our memories linger
hurt confined 
Love the way you’d lie
With a smile
I’m saving me
There’s no wrong or right
This is survival
Put me down
You'd put me 
in the ground
No revival

No revival 
No survival
Im 51:50
Suicidal
there’s no way out 
As far as I see   
I’m going through hell
Can you find me

Boy you left me down
Broken on the ground
Im so sad 
cause your always gone
Out there on the road 
I’m not mad 
I just wish that you would
Call me sometime
I just wish that
We could fucking rewind

But 

Girl you let me down
You been running round 
Im not dumb
Got me staring down 
The barrel of a loaded gun
You burned our bridge
And we can’t turn back time
I got to go 
Before I lose my mind

Feelings come and go
Time to hit the road 
Can’t afford
To watch this 
time move past
Im never going back 
Moving forward 

Lying to yourself 
You don’t really need me 
Fiction in your head
That you keep on believing

People come and go
Everybody knows
Love is potent
Let you go
Had to let you go
Now I’m hoping 
You get closure
Cause I’m feeling 
so much better 
now were over

Going going’ gone
I think my soul is moving on
Hate me while I’m here
Then love while I’m lost
Do we fight to feel the pain
Or Do we bleed to feel the same
Why’s the world so fucking cold 
Why do I often feel alone

Fiction

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NhLKr3ENz1E

guitars by https://soundcloud.com/suprghst
@vibevoka
@cpt_sad

barren:
take a sip of water
back to sleep
back to sleep

and i cower in the corner
in my dreams
i been great

every step you take
gets in my way
in my way

what could you be thinking
that is not okay 
neither are we

if you aint fuckin with the boys   
you know you fuckin up
miss with that bullshit
you a straight fuckin dub
got home from work
after a long day   
hit the hub
fuck a interest in my life
im good on it all   

the futures brighter when you
take a step off to the side
hop on the train
need 1 ticket to take this ride
i am so pressed
every thought of my death
running the show
dont pull the curtains
it all must go on
i been on E
fuel me up
let me back in the ring
choke slam 
you bitches
right off of your feet
fingers like trees
rooted to
the rotting ground
destroyed by the sea
baby you trynna
take a picture with me?
hope ya boyfriend dont mind
as hes tapping the screen
with yo arms around my waist
the biggest smile you see
i know what u thinkin baby
and i think the same thing
you need to ditch ur man immediately
and come home with me

if you aint fuckin with the boys
you know you fuckin up
miss with that bullshit
yeah you still a straight dub
get home from work
after a long day
i hit the hub
fuck a interest in my life
im good on it all

yesterday:
and if u aint fuckin wit the boys u know u fuckin up
smoke a gram straight to the face
then imma fly into the sun
same shit
different attitude
i couldnt give a fuck

now these frat boys enter to the scene
and bitches eat it up

u can see me cuttin corners to my grave
(to my grave)
she dont love me
she just want me for the day
(either way, catch a fade)
marijuana got me feelin kinda strange
(kinda strange)
talk is cheap
but what im writin got me paid
(hope that nothing went in vein)

dont hit me up
while im drunk
tryna play these silly games
miss me with that bullshit
all my woes will dissipate

u really think
that we in this for the bedroom pop appeal?

dont hold ur breath
bitch i live and die for something real

together:
if you aint
fucking with tha boys
you know u fucking up
miss me with that bullshit
yeah u still a straight dub
got home from work
after a long day
i hit the hub
fuck an interest in my life
im good on it all

music video

good on it all (prod voka x suprghst)

One of the few songs off my EP "I got a million things on my mind" Let me know what you think and when I should drop the rest of the tape<3

On My Mind (Prod By King Theta)

JasperFlow

JasperFlow (Prod. Yung Germ)

OFFICIAL VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SPZ1YEzpmpk

SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/0EXALHcwMN2PqycOa5VRPa

MASTERED BY @PRODBYBRODY

i tried to hit your phone up in the middle of the night
left 20 missed calls and a feeling of contrite
cause I saw you at a bar with some preppy looking guy then my fist clenched hard and your chest got tight
but now I’m 
hissing words like a poisonous snake
you’re crying I’m sorry I promise I won’t do it again
but I’m fucking sick and tired of trynna play pretend
so just let this be the end of everything 

I wanna know what it feels like
I wanna see what’s on the other side
I wanna know what it feels like
Do the roses still die there on the other side?

I hope you know I’ll never be what you want me to be
deconstruction from the start and found the worst of me 
I’m just rolling with the punches You can’t see
and I hate that all these words wont mean a thing

I left you in the dark and smashed the glAss on your flashlight

I Waited in the car and watched the Instagram stories of that night

and now your
fumbling words and twisting your tongue
Is the taste of him a sour reminder of everything that went wrong
cause I can tell that your heart isn’t in this anymore
so get your keys and start up your shitty car while I wither away alone

is the taste of him a sour reminder of everything that went wrong?

frvgment.