Just a collection of some of the things I've done recently especially more of the folk alt indie type stuff I've been feeling a lot.

Thanks for listening.
Producers you will find on here:
Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 
Prod. https://soundcloud.com/yunnygoldz
Prod. https://soundcloud.com/autrioly
And special thanks to https://soundcloud.com/davey_legend  for doing a special Mix on Close Your Eyes.


Everything here nonprofit, I ain't big. I greatly appreciate and credit the producers behind these instrumentals thank you for creating what you do.

Snowfall

A mix of old and new. As usual non profit use here, thanks for listening.

Producers you'll find on here:
https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare
instagram.com/michaelharrison_/
https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty
https://soundcloud.com/autrioly
www.instagram.com/prodbyzbeatz/
https://www.instagram.com/lior_soltz/

Morning Came

Prod. VOV / VOV.Productions

Another nightmare spilled out from my dreams again,
I don't know how to get my way back home,
i don't remember all the nights alone,
and now that I've been growing distant
I've been scared you'll find me,
drifting inbetween the cities,
losing my head chasing after enemies,
I don't remember, the street lights waver,
I've been losing all again,
and when you see me, find me,
inbetween another reality for me,
I can't get it away,
I know that you've been chasing me again,
wondering where I'll find my end,
I can't get it right no matter how I try, cause,
Oooh, ho-oh-ooohh,

my own grave's been dug since I was little,
another remembrance made for me when I was brittle,
I can't get it right, you won't let me get by,
another empty excuse to get me through the night,
oh-oh, oh-oh, oho-oh, oh-oh-ho...
another lullaby made for me,
so I can fall asleep, another nightmare,
slipped right through the seams.

you won't hurt me again,
I swear it, I'll be better,
in my worst days...

Another Nightmare

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare

And I feel so sorry, cause my-
Personality feels like-
Cigarettes and cheap plastic toys I used to love.
It never made sense to me so,
When I come back around please be patient now.
And I'm~, Just so sorry, For-
How I ghosted again,
I don't know where I am,
I want you to know,
You're my best friend,
I know I'm not the one you think about,
When you look back on happy memories,
And fond times and everything around my mind,
It always comes and goes,
I can't tell the time anymore, so I-
I'm sorry my personality feels like-
Cigarettes and cheap plastic toys that I used to love,
I don't know what's wrong I've been trying to make it alright,
But I know-
I've~ been,
Distant lately I've been waiting for a chance,
Just to apologize one more time,
The word, "Sorry," comes right to my lips,
Like water melds with wine,
I don't want you to see me cry,
I've been waiting for the chance to say,
I'm sorry my head doesn't work right,
I can't get it out of bed,
My mind's muddled covered in dirt,
Tell me how to make it better,
I just wanna sit with you,
And talk about the same old shit that we used to.

Cigarettes And Cheap Toys (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod: https://soundcloud.com/piero-ricci-302976262 

Heather gray skies and cloudy eyes,
A tight throat with air caught in my lungs,
I'm working over time from the inside out,
But all I can do is~

Fall further from myself,
I saw a beauty in the dark,
But my loved ones called it dissociation,
but for me, it was more like sanctuary,
So now~ I'm~ Back,

And I tell my friends I love them when it comes to mind,
Cause I'm done biting my words,
I'm scared they need to hear it as bad as I once did,
And now, I feel alive, and I wanna speak,
I held my tongue for so long it feels like whiplash,
Just for small talk, So~

It won't matter how far I've fallen this time around,
Cause the ones who love me most will track me down
Cause, at my depths I'll greet them with a smile,
and a warm embrace I always wished for,

So hear me now,
I won't let you fade,
I won't let you waste,
I care for myself now, And I'll hold you up just the same,
So when I say I love you, I mean~ it,
I'm not going anywhere...

I'm Back

Prod. https://www.instagram.com/prodbyzbeatz/

Oh, no, I can't sleep at night,
I wonder if it's cause I stopped telling lies,
To myself about my future,
using bitter tones and ice,
I thought that I'd be alright,
As long as I held my morals tight,
But now as more time seems to drift drift by,
I don't even care what it means to be, alive,
I've been waiting another another way just to survive,
I never thought that I~

Would be happier all alone in my room,
Looking through the mirrors,
And all I see is you,
The one who held me down, I know~
Now all I have is love~

And I know in the end it won't matter,
As long as I can hold my own~
Nothing in my head will matter now~

Cause when I go to lay in bed at night,
I'll be the one to cast the sails,
Drifting into shallow waters,
Hoping I don't run aground,
But now I know that I~

I was made for more than this,
Born to be without this bitterness in me.
But now, oh no~

Oh, no, I can't sleep at night,
I wonder if it's cause I stopped telling lies,
To myself about my future,
using bitter tones and ice,
I thought that I'd be alright,
As long as I held my morals tight,
But now as more time seems to drift by,
I don't even care what it means to be, alive,
I've been waiting another another way to survive,

Shallow Waters (Prod. ZBeatz)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

I don't remember how I got here once again,
A gentle boy with stars in his eyes,
Lost in the afterlight,
Street lights wasting all their might,
Watching me drift by,
So,
Let me~ Waste another day where I never know how to stand,
I feel so empty on demand,
So, If it's all the same to you,
Let me waste my time,

Drifing inbetween my thoughts,
Through different lands, but I'm always at a loss.

Now I, Feel like I can't come home ever again,
I've been wasting all my time,
Losing what it means to be a man,
So~,
If it's all the same to you,
Let me waste my time,
Drifing inbetween my thoughts,
Through different lands, but I'm always at a loss.

I can't sleep anymore, I don't know where it all went wrong~
I don't remember how I got here once again,
A gentle boy with stars in his eyes,
Lost in the afterlight,
Street lights wasting all their might,
Watching me drift by.

Let Me Waste My Time (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Recorded this at like 4 AM one night a long time ago and every time I tried to redo it it just didn't feel right. So, sorry, but it's kinda messy but I like that.

Hmmm, mmmh, mmh-mmmh~...

Writing love letters to the sound of the moon,
I was losing of track of everything that I knew, 
But it always, Comes back around,
Whenever I need it most.

Something better than this,
That I could always hold.
A reason I was missed, A story to be told,
If I let it fade away,
I'd be such a disgrace.

Writing love letters to the sound of the moon,
I was losing track of everything that I knew,
But it always comes back around,
Whenever I need it most.

Something in my chest is building better than before,
A reason I could hold on if I could make it through the door,
One more winter braved away, I know,
I'm much better than I used to be.

Something hidden deep in my heart,
A reason I was always wrong,
In the end I always knew,
If I could hold on, I'd do better this time around,
I think I can make mama proud.

Writing love letters to the sound of the moon,
I was losing track of everything that I knew,
But it always comes back around,
Whenever I need it most.

Sound Of The Moon (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Well maybe I'm just different this time around,
But I can't seem to get it right,
Something in my mind's, been, fighting me at night, but,
That's how I know I'm alive.

Pick it up again, another chorus in my head,
Something that'll let me get through this resent,
For myself another reason I can lament,
But I won't judge at all my friend.

Mirrors are finally becoming my friend,
I don't see malice in those eyes,
Something's different this time around,
And I don't know if it's just me...

But when I wake up, I don't feel the same dread,
Something's better off in my head.
A lullaby I made just to go to sleep now,
If it can help you that's alright.

Let me know if I hit a wall,
I can't tell at all,
Between the darkness and the numb in my veins.

but maybe, I'm not what I used to be~...
I've been getting more sleep,
And I don't cry at all,
Until it all comes down again,

Well maybe I'm just different this time around,
Mirrors are finally becoming my friend,
I don't see malice hidden in those eyes,
Just confused and needing a rest...

Mirrors (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare

Mmmmmh~,
I know that you're just as surprised,
Something hidden deep in your eyes,
I know you don't wanna see it,
But when I say, "Bye".
Know that it's only temporary in my mind,
I can't let it go this time,
One more night will pass,
Where I won't see your eyes,
I won't mind at all,
Cause when I wake,
Every morning greeted by the sum of my mistakes,
Something in the mirror is telling me that it's okay,
When i see you next time,
I'll make it fine,
I'll let you know how hard I fell this time,
Head over heels,
Stuck in the after-reels,
Playing back highlights of every time...
That you smiled my way.

I Hate Saying Goodnight And Goodbye (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. instagram.com/michaelharrison_/

Oh~ I was begging for a shelter in the rain,
But I never thought you'd see the notion,
Something more than a friend,
But I never liked the title anyway,

Indulge me again just like we were kids,
And disclose everything new you found,
Illusions foster misconceptions,
Magnetic attractions to futures that frighten me
And miserable temptations,

Oh, I know, everything was all just a lie,
That you told me just to keep me alive,
But, you won't let it go, the way I did,
And I can't help it if I fall out of grace again,

Reducing me to nothing more than car wrecks and revolving doors.
I know you never wanna see my face again,
One more time I'll fall back down,
And I pray you'll see me better this time around,
I'll try, One more time,
To express this better through,
A course, a costume, a slam on the door,
And everything is losing everything more,

Indulge me again just like we were kids,
And disclose everything new you found,
Illusions foster misconceptions,
Magnetic attractions to futures that frighten me
And miserable temptations,

Oh, I know, everything was all just a lie,
That you told me just to keep me alive,
But, you won't let it go, the way I did,
And I can't help it if I fall out of grace again,

Miserable Temptations (Prod. Michael harrison)

Prod. instagram.com/michaelharrison_/

I hate the thought of you,
I hate the thought of you,

You're like the star I couldn't reach now,
I wished for too much, now all I feel is defeat,
An angel in my room, I know, but,
When I come down,

It'll be different this time,
If I could just uncross that line,
I know I said too much,
And you think I've had enough,
But no I'm not angry;
I'm just falling apart at my seams,

An angel I can't touch, no,
I can't say enough, so,
I'll take my leave,
Cause I'll never get over this,

Oh, I, tried my best,
But one more time I can't get rest,
I don't sleep anymore,
Cause in my mind, you're always there,

An angel in my room, I know,
But one more time I'll come back down,
And hope you'll be here,
But I know, you never stay,

It'll be different this time, I swear,
I tried everything I had,
Just - to hold you in my hands,
But, you never stay.

An angel in my room, I know,
But you hate the sound~
I hate the thought of you now,
Ethereal, I know you're not real,
I'd miss you but I can't feel,
So when I lay down, it all begins,

So I'll dream of you each night,
until you tell me that it's wrong,
But lately I've been thinking that it never went along,
The way I wanted~,
And I can't get it out of my head,
I'm waiting for you just to tell me that it's never gonna end,
I'll come back when I'm sober,
One more time I wished it was over,
I can't back down now,
I hate the thought of you now...
I hate the thought of you now...

I Hate The Thought Of You (Prod. Michael Harrison)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/autrioly

I took all the flame,
And found, Somebody else.
I thought, an art or soul, in somebody else.
Things that make sounds, the rest I can do without.

Wait,
I've been trying every single day for something new,
Hoping that you'd see me if I really came through.
I don't want you to go away,
I wanted you to stay,
Waiting for the chance just to make you say,
"Oh no, I fell in love again, waiting for that bitter end,"
I know you don't trust it,
But you need to understand...

I took all the flame,
And found, Somebody else.
I thought, an art or soul, in somebody else.
Things that make sounds, the rest I can do without.

Lower your guard a little, I've been trying my best,
Just to show you that I really meant well,
But lately I've been wondering if you really feel the same;
I can feel you watching me,
It's always the same-
I know you're confused,
I know you're scared,
One more time you're not prepared,
I know that you saw it coming,
You just don't know how to feel.

I took all the flame,
And found, Somebody else.
I thought, an art or soul, in somebody else.
Things that make sounds, the rest I can do without.

Scared (Prod. Autrioly)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/autrioly

Oh, I, know you think that I'm so tough,
But baby please I've had enough,
And lately I hate the sound in my head,
Ringing between my ears bleeding out,
One more time back down I felt alive,
Now I don't know how to part the tides,
Now when you see me I know you cry,
I know you hate me but I think you needed to see,
Baby, I'm not just for free,
I know there's something wrong with me,
Now I don't think you can leave, please don't leave,

One more time back down I waited for more,
Waited for you just to open the door,
Now I'm just waiting alone on the floor,
I think you hate me but I needed you just to see,
Baby I know it's for me,
I've been selfish from the start,
You don't know how I feel apart,
Oh, my, heart just won't let go,
I know I, hated this sound just so long ago,
Now I can't live without it,
Oh I hate it.

Free (Prod. Autrioly)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Do you dream of me the way I did of you?
Nightmares in my head I hear your voice,
It's different in the end again,
Lost in my mind, the pictures intertwine.
Hmm,
Lost in the feeling of the smoke and the wine,
I thought if I could tell you,
That I'd be just fine, but,
All in due time I know you see it,
It's falling apart again,
I'm stuck in a cycle, walking a tight rope,
And cursing your name on my way down,
Throw me a line, and I'll drop you a ladder,
All is fair in the war,
There's no love here it's only pain,
Dream of me the same way,
You haunt my dreams and now I know,
I'll be the reason you can't close your eyes.

Close Your Eyes (Prod. Idly Blare)

Instrumental produced by Lior Soltz - Glistening Ripples Lullaby non profit use.
https://www.instagram.com/lior_soltz/

Fall in love, waiting for my own head,
To catch up with myself,
Hiding away in bed,

Hold me down, Wait for that final sound,
Until you hear that bell,
Hold me back down where I fell-
Fall in love, hopeless and lost without,
Your mind it held me down,
Now I'm just lost, oh well~,

I know what it was now, but I don't mind,
If it was all just in due time,
Hopelessly writing you love letters,
Waiting for more,
Hoping you'd open the door, But I,
But I know my, own way back down, it's hopeless and now I know,
There's something hidden deep inside of my chest,
I hope you can see it before I,

Fall in love, one more time I left out,
Something you cared about,
I know you're used to me now,
Guiding me, back to life, I lost my, final breath,
Now I don't, know what's left, but if you...

Follow me down I promise I would hold and cherish all I'd know,
Wait for you hiding away in the snow.

Snow (Prod. Lior Soltz)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare

Yeah, I love you, but that's al~right,
It's like loving a star, cause you're millions of miles away,
And I thought I was fine with that,
But then i started wondering, if you'd ever say it back.
Hmmm-mmmmh-mmmh,
It makes it easy, I don't have to worry,
Falling in love with something so unrealistic, I~,
I'll fall through the space between us,
Until I'm far enough out no one will know at all,
Drift between the satellites and dream of your face,
I'll watch it all fade into the black of space,
And I'll wake up, cold and alone,
Just the way we started,
Just the way it's meant to be,
I'll devote myself to be the memory,
You'd hate to lose, Cause I want you to love me too,

Steal The Show (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

I still hope that I cross your mind time to time,
Waiting for the lines to blur where I,
Find myself back where I started,
Watching the sun set,
Chasing after all the stars when everything went out,
Black light, back light, one more time I'm back at night,
Wishing you were near, but I know you're not,
Living in my memories, I'll dream of all I've seen,

I'll keep writing letters,
And hoping that you'll hear this time,
Cause I'll miss you, when you're far from here,
I hope that you're doing alright,
I think I lost the fight,
But I'll keep going as if you were still watching me.
Mmmmmmmh~

Shooting stars don't act the way they used to,
I see them every night,
I'll make my wish and know that nothing's ever right,
I think that if I could go back in time,
I'd still meet you even if you disappeared again.
Oh~,oh~,oh~...
Oh~,oh~,oh~...
I'll keep writing letters, and hope that you'll hear this time,
I hope you're doing alright.

Shooting Stars (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

You told me not to worry,
But that doesn't mesh well with me,
Baby I'm just a fool you see,
One more time I'm back down where I started again,
I'm just thinking of the memories I had with friends,

Sitting in the back seat of a car, I don't remember anymore,
Once more I felt alive with the window down,
But it was one more white lie,
I was nauseous and so lonely,
I wished someone would just hold me,
But now when I think back,
I'm worried,
I never cared at all, Oh no~

I wish you'd just come with me,
I hate this scene I've seen it play out too many times,
I know what you see when you look at me,
It's never changing anything but I've been waiting for you
just to see that I'm not what I-
Promised I'd be,
I lost it all again and I think maybe you know...

You told me not to worry,
But that doesn't mesh well with me,
Baby I'm just a fool you see,
One more time I'm back down where I started again,
I'm just thinking of the memories I had with friends,

Laying on the couch waiting for the time just to pass right by,
I know you see it-
One more time I watched as everyone faded out,
You know that I love you,
But I don't know how to stand on my own,
So forgive me I need to go...

A Fool (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty

Always a lie inside my head,
I'll dream again.

I'll dream again of your voice when I go to bed,
But I don't know how my head just always goes through
these same old sounds.
I don't know how I got here, one more time left for dead-
Now-I'm-Fine.
I'll dream of all the nights that I could have had,
Wait for the mornings that made me so sad, and now...
I'll wait for you to call me back,
Oh~... Oh~...

You know I was never meant for this,
I always wanted you to test the limits
of what's in my head and inside my heart,
I was just lost, I lost all my blood,
And now my veins open up easily whenever you say my name.
I hide in my place, waiting for you just to tell me it's okay.
But I know that it's never so easy now,
Wait for me when that final sounds comes, like- Oh~
Oh~, Oh~, Oh~...

One more nightmare come to pass inside my head,
I wished that everything would always go back the way I left it,
But it never does at all, I saw you through all the Adderall~
I waited all this time, just for you to seize my mind.
I don't need thoughts, I don't need feelings,
Take it all and hide in the ceilings~...

Break the walls again, I'll see the sky and know your face,
Know it's never going away.
I'll dream of stars, and think about Mars,
Waiting for you to come back down,
I think that if I go to bed,
I'll soar through space, and wait for you instead.
Oh~...

Dream (Prod. Boyfifty)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/autrioly

Breathe in, breathe out,
I'll wait for that sound,
Oh i could never be the one, that you wanted me,
Oh that you wanted me to be...

Wake up again, drown out all my friends
I waited all this time
just for you to see,
That I could never be,
Breathe in, breathe out,
I'll hide away again,
I'm the monster in my own closet,
Baby don't you see?
You just weren't meant for me,
So-when-I-wake-up-now;
It always goes back,
Away from myself,
And down again another reason I could just be your friend,
And I don't want you to know,
No, I don't want you to know,
How my head spins-
One more time around, you're on my mind,
I can't shake it free no more, it's always in time-
Every minute, every hour, every single day,
I waited for you just to say, no-
I was-
Waiting again,
Drown out all my friends,
I waited all this time,
Just for you to see,
That l could never be the one, oh no,
Breathe in, breathe out,
I'm the monster in my own closet,
Baby don't you see?
I could never be the one,
Oh I could never be the one,
Cause here I go again-
It always goes back down,
Waiting for the final sound inside my head to come back round again.
The voice inside my mind won't let me go this time,
I waited all this time, and now I'm all alone,
I called your name, I called your phone,
I texted, I called,
I don't know why I fell so far down,
Waiting for you just to see,
That I could never be,
Oh I could never be.

Never Prod. Autrioly

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty

Lost again and I don't know what to do with,
Everything inside my head,
I feel stupid,
I misplaced you in the end, I know it's not right,
Lose another friend, I'll lose another hour of sleep.
And I can't get through to you,
Everything's been so distant, and you know it's not true, but-

Mama says she's proud again but dad doesn't hit me back,
But I can't blame him, I know that,
I've been busy too,
Big bro's always asking if I'm okay,
And I don't know how to act,
I'm only back from being away so long,
For just a little while now.
Don't hate me when I can't speak,
I lost my reality,
And I don't know who I am yet,
Or how I'm supposed to be.
I think that I'm different now,
But I still make the same sounds~
And I think I've barely grown at all.
I still make the same mistakes,
And I drown it out in the same ways.

Like- Mmh, na na na, na na na, na na na...
Another lullaby to go to bed,
Now I can't sleep at all,
I hate the sound of my voice,
I don't know where it went wrong,
I think I've been bad all along,
Like- Mmh, na na na, na na na, na na na...

Lost again and I don't know what to do with,
Everything inside my head,
I feel stupid,
I misplaced you in the end, I know it's not right,
So, I'll Lose another friend, I'll lose another hour of sleep.
And I can't get through to you,
Everything's been so distant, and you know it's not true, but-
Lemme rewind and go back in time,
I'll be the same boy I always thought I was,
Innocent until proven guilty,
But you know my history proves me wrong,
I think that if, I could go back again,
I'd lose it all and start over,
So you wouldn't get hurt.

Mmh, mmh, mmh, Mmmmmmmh~
Mmh, mmh, mmh, Mmmmmmh-uh~
Mmmmh, na na na, na na na~,

I'll sing another lullaby,
Now I can't sleep at night, I don't know why,
But when I go down,
I'll dream of you until I wake~...
Mmh, mmh, mmh, Mmmmmmmh~
Mmh, mmh, mmh, Mmmmmmh-uh~

Wake Prod. BoyFifty

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Another dream, I had of you,
I'm thinking lately, it's all true.

You know I hate to be alone inside my head too long,
It doesn't feel right,
Cause I can't shake this feeling that it happens every night,
There's something at the edges calling out my name,
I hear bells in every ring,
There's something sweet that I...
I chase it all throughout the woods,
And hope I'll see it this time, but I...
Mmmh-mmh-mmh-mmh mmh-mmh...
I dream of better days,
Waiting for the way to come back down,
I know what you think when you see I-
I can't let go of my head, no,
Something better off inside me, better off dead,
I hear demons calling out,
Wait for your voice don't make a sound.

Don't Make A Sound (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/autrioly

(Na, na, na...)
Mmh, Na, na, na-
Sunshine break me again,
Something in the end,
It crushes me again,
But I, I know that you love the fight,
You like to watch me fall,
You don't know how far it's gone,
My chest tightens when you speak,
I love when you laugh at me,

Rain fall, makes me drown,
And it's not right,
I know what you wanna say,
But I know it won't go-
(Go), Go, (Go), Go, (Go)
I know it won't go-
(Go), Go, (Go), Go, (Go)

Back down where I belong,
I know I heard this song before,
And it danced so far in my nerves,
I know you hate me now,
But I,
I'd fall so far just to hear you lie,
I'd die just for you,
Cause I know it won't change my thoughts on love.

Sunshine Prod. Autrioly

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Hold me down, I promise,
It's everything that I wanted,
I don't care about your warnings,
Never let me go again,

Early mornings are starting to show,
I can see the light you hold,
It's a pretty little thing,
Ethereal I think.
Cause I can't seem to grasp it the way you do.

I'm jealous now, it's foreboding,
Cause I can't shake this feeling of mourning.
Like there's something at the edges warning me it's time to go,
But I know everything's just a part of the show,

It's not what I chased after,
But I'm hopeless for all the laughter,
I'm hoping that you'll notice and you'll let me just drown,
Cause everything about you is perfect this time 'round.

Hold me down, I promise,
It's everything that I wanted,
I don't care about your warnings,
Never let me go again,

I Know What I Want (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

I'm staring out the window sill,
Wondering if I came back now-

Would you love me still?
Or is it all done?
Am I just a fragment of a rerun?
I know what you wanted and it wasn't me,
So let me just be alone when I-
Crash, down, again at night,
I'll lose my mind and I don't know why,
I think that I've been chasing everything I thought you were,
Nothing of what you are now,
So... I'll dream of...
Campfires, mountain paths, and everything I saw,
I lost it all when came I back down...

I, die, at night, I scream your name,
And I don't know how to refrain from-
Everything I thought I was, it's all been a blur,
Maybe when you see me, you can tell me if you've seen her,
Angel, Demon, I don't know,
Something I've held onto through the stations,
Static shuffles again, I lose my footing now,
I'll fall back down to earth-
Still stuck on her.

Radio Static (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic 

I fell in love with what I knew,
And I don't even know why,
It hurt me when I tried,
I don't like this fight,

You say sorry, I say me too,
We say it's alright,
Let's just go back down,
It won't hurt this time around,

A better man hidden under every single story I know,
I told a lie and it wasn't worth the breath,
I still like to say that I love you even when I know I don't,
Call it home sick, call it love sick,
I like all your words,
They make me feel worth, everything I'm not,
So, Maybe~, if I,
Could take it all back,
We'd have a better chance in the future,
But I know there's no saving this,
So, I know, That you won't believe,
But I've been thinking maybe,
That I was never really all that smart,
I can admit now I was wrong, so,

Wait for me I think I'll be alright,
Don't check in too often though,
It's gonna take some time,
I've been a failure for so long so,

I go out once again,
Thinking maybe we could start as friends,
But it always ends the same,
Nothing ever mends this pain,
I know, I'm not I'm not I'm not the only one in love anymore,
But it just hurts when I don't feel it back,
I think it's wrong to hold it at arms length,
I know, I'm not what you wanted,
I'm just what you saw,
But you can't help it,
I can't help it,
We're just drawn together.

Mmmh, Blame it on the world,
No one understands you,
And no one gets me either.

It's All Lies (Prod. IOF)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/yunnygoldz

I think that I'm scared cause I thought I was better,
But the way that it's been, I'll just call it bad weather,

I know what you felt when you looked at me,
You thought I'd be a better man and that I could change,
Now we both know that I'm just stuck in my ways,

Call it quits like everyone else,
Go back home and let me know what you thought,
Over text messages.
Cause, you're too scared to talk to me,
And I know it's fair, I'm just caught in the air,
There's something here that won't let me be,
But I'll still try,
Even when I die, I lose my mind, I can't...

I can't sleep at night,
But I still wake up and reach for you,
Even when you don't want me to,
Yeah, I know the feeling all too well,

You look at my name wonder what went wrong,
And how everything always sounds so bad,
How I'm just lost, and I can't seem to get back,
But, I'm just thinking that I,
I'm scared cause I thought I was better,
I think it's fair...
I'll just call it bad weather now...

Bad Weather (Prod. Yunny Goldz)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

I go, Back in time...
Hoping, That, If I...

If I erased everything, just to make you wanna stay,
Would it make you love me more, Or would it all go away?

I'm not used to this I don't like this feeling now,
It's always in the same sound I make when I can't sleep
Cause I know you hate me now,
I hate this feeling too,
Don't make me I say I love you,
Cause I'm not,

I'm not equipped for this,
My heart won't let me go,
My veins run so cold,
You can tell me what you want,
And how much you care,
But I don't.

Go Back In Time To Change Nothing (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Note: Dedicated to a wonderful friend and his mom, he wrote some of these lyrics for her and it touched my heart. Love you, brother.

So... Mama says it's alright, if I have my head down right now,
Cause when the morning comes I'll wake up,
And know that it'll be a better day but,

It's been kinda hard lately Mama,
I don't know how to say it, but I'm losing my stride.
I still keep my head held high like you taught me to.
Cause I know what it meant when you said, "I love you,"

And I can't shake this feeling that it's unfair,
And everything I've done is just held in the air,
And when you look at me and think it's alright,
I'm just trying to make it through another night.
I, still think that you're all that I have,
I'd lose it all to stay by your side,
But now I'm gonna be a light you'll always know,
I won't let the night take over,
I'll wake up and hold my head high for ya,

I'll live through every bad day,
If it means I get just one more with her.
I know you'll be proud when it's over,
But stay with me a while longer,
I wanna show you what I learned~,

Mama says it's alright, if I have my head down right now,
Cause when the morning comes I'll wake up,
And know that it'll be a better day,

I'll Wake Up (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/yunnygoldz

I used to think that if I held my ground,
You would open the door,
But I know I'm not all that you want,
So when I go away...
I hope you feel, okay...

That's just part of the mystery, baby I,
I don't mind,
If I die here,
You know it won't change how I fight... No...

You know it was never meant to last,
Everything is always coming back,
You know that I'm just a part of the game,
You like to play from, time to time I know...
You won't let this method go down slow...
Mmmh...

I still dream of the way you lied,
I don't mind...
If you tell me that I was just,
A way to kill... some time...

It's just part of the mystery that I like,
I don't mind...
You would never trust me if I told you,
That I'm fine... It's alright.

But you know that I'm just a fool.
And I'm in love,
With the way,
You,
Lie.

Part Of The Mystery (Prod. Yunny Goldz)

Vocals Mixed By: https://soundcloud.com/davey_legend 
Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Do you dream of me the way I did of you?
Nightmares in my head I hear your voice,
It's different in the end again,
Lost in my mind, the pictures intertwine.
Hmm,
Lost in the feeling of the smoke and the wine,
I thought if I could tell you,
That I'd be just fine, but,
All in due time I know you see it,
It's falling apart again,
I'm stuck in a cycle, walking a tight rope,
And cursing your name on my way down,
Throw me a line, and I'll drop you a ladder,
All is fair in the war,
There's no love here it's only pain,
Dream of me the same way,
You haunt my dreams and now I know,
I'll be the reason you can't close your eyes.

Close Your Eyes @Davey Legend Mix (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Oh, I'll go back down,
And start to hope again for another round,
But, you and I, We're made of different lights,
And I can't shake this feeling no, it doesn't feel right.
And I'm starting to think that...

I lost everything I ever had when I went back down,
Now I'm always at the edges of another rebound,
I know, you don't see me the same way and that's okay,
But, I still dream of you, and hope you're feeling it too,
But nothing ever goes right especially when the stars come out at night,
I see the fireworks spreading again,
It's a horrible way to see everything go dark after-

One more time inside my chest,
I felt this explosion building in,
I know you love me-I just can't explain how I-
Lose all my heart just to see you rise,
And all my mind just to see me fall,
I know you believe me, but-
Nothing ever stays too long.

So, I, I'll go back down,
And start to hope again for another round,
But, you and I, We're made of different lights,
And I can't shake this feeling no,
It doesn't feel right.

Bhaile

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