Prod. https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty 

I hope you can forgive me I've been bad at goodbyes,
so I was hoping I could sing you another lullabye, like-

mmmmh, mmmh, mmmmh,

I'm bad to my friends I'm always lonely,
don't know how to get this out of my head,
I feel like im always in this zone i cant get out of,
I don't who to speak to when i can't ever get this right,
I feel like I'm always distant, now I don't know why-

Mmmm mmmh, mmmh,

I've always been bad at goodbyes,
so I hope you forgive me when I just wanna sing you lullabies,
like I-
don't know how to say this, but I don't wanna be here,
you don't understand me when I say you're always too near,

Mmmmh, mhhhmmmm, mmmmmmh,

I hope you can forgive me I've been bad at goodbyes,
so I was hoping I could sing you another lullaby, like-

mmmh, mmmh, mmmh,

I hope you can forgive me I've been bad at goodbyes,
so I was hoping I could sing you another lullaby, like-

mmmh, mmmh, mmmh,
mmmh, mmmh, mmmh,

Goodbye Lullaby

Prod. VOV / VOV.Productions

Another nightmare spilled out from my dreams again,
I don't know how to get my way back home,
i don't remember all the nights alone,
and now that I've been growing distant
I've been scared you'll find me,
drifting inbetween the cities,
losing my head chasing after enemies,
I don't remember, the street lights waver,
I've been losing all again,
and when you see me, find me,
inbetween another reality for me,
I can't get it away,
I know that you've been chasing me again,
wondering where I'll find my end,
I can't get it right no matter how I try, cause,
Oooh, ho-oh-ooohh,

my own grave's been dug since I was little,
another remembrance made for me when I was brittle,
I can't get it right, you won't let me get by,
another empty excuse to get me through the night,
oh-oh, oh-oh, oho-oh, oh-oh-ho...
another lullaby made for me,
so I can fall asleep, another nightmare,
slipped right through the seams.

you won't hurt me again,
I swear it, I'll be better,
in my worst days...

Another Nightmare

prod. Heydium & https://soundcloud.com/jang0x 
la da da da da, la da da da da da, Oh-

So here we go again, another friend left me behind,
but I don't really mind, I'm fine on my own,
and I don't know where to go, but that's alright-
I've always been a wanderer~

I don't need to hear you anymore, I wanted you to tell me,
what it meant, when you said, "I was hard to talk to~,"
I always hit you up, and now you~
Leave me on read, and now that I don't know-
I don't know how to go, I don't know how to fix myself~,
I think that maybe, I need some help, but-

Here we go again, another friend left me behind,
but I don't really mind, I've always been fine on my own,
I don't mind if you just leave me behind,
I - don't need you anymore,

I swear it's - Always a journey in my head,
I don't mind if you leave me on read anymore~,
I'm fine by myself, I'll read a book, I'll play a game~ and,
I don't wanna play your games anymore, you always fucked with me,
I don't understand it, when you told me you should leave,
I thought we were cool? I thought we were good?
But maybe I was wrong, and maybe it was different than what I thought-

So maybe you should just tell me now what your problem was with me~
I can't help what I am without a little direction for me~ I~!
I don't mind if you leave me behind, I'm fine out here on my own~!
Here we go again another friend left me behind~,
But I'm fine all by myself - I don't mind-
If you leave I swear I'll be alright, I'll pick up the phone~!
If you change your mind, my line's always open,
Just don't hesitate to - reach out if you need a friend,
I don't care if you left me behind, I'll still come over,
At 2 AM if you need me~, I don't really mind. :)

I Don't Mind

It, all, started, with a dream...
That, I, knew, from my start, was far away...
Oh-ohh-ooh, I've always been distant, never from my heart, I...
Thought that I'd be okay on an autopilot for a while,
but nothing ever made sense to me,
I tried to end it all, once before another great big fall
inside my chest I sunk right down, and-
The waters weren't even that deep all around me...
I think I just had enough, and I couldn't fathom anything more...
Cause it all started so long ago...
With a dream that from the start, always felt so far away.
So don't you tell me about an early exit now, I'm-
More familiar with it than most,
And I think that it changed me for the better now, Cause-
I'll always remember how bittersweet it was.
Oh-oooh-oooh, Ah~, Ah~, Ah~...

Early Exit

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty

Cause you moved away, I thought you'd stay,
Oh, but you promised you wouldn't change.
So I might just leave, and seek clarity,
And lately I can't help a thing.

If I'm not your favorite person, I don't know what's next,
I've been waiting for you to hit me back, but every time I check my phone,
it's always empty, I'm alone again, I know it shouldn't be surprising,
but I've been waiting for you ever since I can remember,
now that I have you I don't know what to do, but...
When I, touch, the, sky, I feel alive, but I don't know why I,
Always crash back down again, I want you to see me fall,
I think if I go out in flames, you won't hurt me at all...

Cause you moved away, I thought you'd stay,
Oh, but you promised you wouldn't change.
So I might just leave, and seek clarity,
And lately I can't help a thing.

It's always out of my power, I don't know why,
Every time I try it's always my demise, I've been waiting watching you go by, and...
I get lost inside your eyes, watching time fly by,
I think that I've been stasis for too long, and-
I've developed habits where i victimize myself,
I've been searching for the demons when they won't come out, and,
Now that I've been better at it all, I know that,
I'm the biggest problem in my life,
I just wanted you to know, you were right.

Cause you moved away, I thought you'd stay,
Oh, but you promised you wouldn't change.
So I might just leave, and seek clarity,
And lately I can't help a thing.
if I didn't hate, leaving town, again,

You Should Leave

Prod. Capsctrl

I defy, say goodnight, Cause I'm getting kind of restless,
I won't dare, close my eyes, Cause I know that I can't fight this,

Lay me with I'll sing you lullabies until it's done,
I've been chasing nightmares as long as it's gone on,
I've been waiting for you just to find that I'm the one, but-
I know everything's been stacking up waiting for Dawn, and-

I say goodnight, As I'm getting kind of restless,
I won't dare close my eyes, Cause I know that I can't fight this,
As I lay, Close my eyes, And I promise I won't fight this,
I've been watching every single day drift away from where I was,
I don't think it matters if I could break it now,
It's  a cycle in my head, that'll never repeat,
I promise it's a straight line, until I feel my defeat,
I don't think you understand me when I say it's been done,
But maybe you'll believe me when it's all just a rerun.

Hold your cat for me, I sing you asleep,
I don't think it matters if I never hit complete,
I've been chasing dreams, I won't let it be,
I'll just be a ghost inside your walls.

Close your eyes I promise it'll be alright when I'm done,
I can't get it out of my head, the way I outrun,
Everything that's wrong with me,
I'm always chasing down another reality away from my own.

The answers always hidden in a simple little punctuation ;
I can't get it out of my head, the way the fluctuations,
Come and go at night,
I won't close my eyes, even when I'm falling apart,
And the reaper comes for me.

Goodnight Prod. Capsctrl

https://soundcloud.com/kloudside

Don't know what's about me, is this the one to try,
Girl you knocked me on the ground when you caught me in your eye,
Feel like I'm falling for you, so I'm never switching sides,
I said I don't want you, then you caught me in a lie,
Falling headfirst when I dive, I feel so alone without you in my life,
And I, Don't know if I can survive,
Leaving in the morning every time you stay the night,

Don't know what's about me, every single night,
I've been thinking way too much and I,
Been feeling lost, Wondering where I'll find you next,
You're leaving me in the night time, when I need you most,
I can't get a grip, even when I bite, and all it does is hurt,
And I~, Don't know if I can survive,
I need you to tell me that it's gonna be alright,

But I can't turn to look when we walk away,
I don't even know where your heart is now, and I,
Don't know if I can survive,
Leaving in the morning every time we say goodbye,
I don't know about you, but I wanna try,
I've been hurt again, Falling head first when I die,
But I wanna trust you can catch me if I try,
I've been falling on my lonely, and I~,

Don't know what's about me, is this the one to try,
Girl you knocked me on the ground when you caught me in your eye,
Feel like I'm falling for you, so I'm never switching sides,
I said I don't want you, then you caught me in a lie,
Falling headfirst when I dive, I feel so alone without you in my life,
And I, Don't know if I can survive,
Leaving in the morning every time you stay the night,

(KloudSide)
Made me feel okay, in the night time time time,
Lovers in the stars, you were mine mine mine,
But I screwed it, don't hate me don't blame me,
I don't need you to save me, You can just replace me,
You take my soul for ride, Let me know everything's alright,
Why won't you tell me? I needed meaning, I needed healing,
These demons are screaming, screaming, screaming,
I'm not feeling, I'm not feeling, feeling,
Oh~,Oh-ho~
Can I survive?
Survive....
Oh-ho...
Oh-ho....
Don't know what's about me, is this the one to try,
Girl you knocked me on the ground when you caught me in your eye,
Feel like I'm falling for you, so I'm never switching sides,
I said I don't want you, then you caught me in a lie,
Falling headfirst when I dive, I feel so alone without you in my life,
And I, Don't know if I can survive,

Goodbye Ft. Kloudside

prod. TennisThePlayer

I know, you don't want me round no more,
And I know I'm not the one to ask,

I know, you don't want me round no more,
I, know I'm not the one to ask, Why,
But I know why it's all the same, you hate me now I get it,
You don't want me round no more,
Cause I'm always pissed off, Always livid,
I don't wanna be the one to tell you,
But, I know,

You, don't, want me round no more,
And I, know, I'm the reason why~,
Yeah, I can't control my temper now,
I'm, always locking in the night~

Dirty little girl, calls me her bandaid,
Tells me I need to behave, or I'll get the bear yeah,
I, need to stay in my lane, but I've never had a name,
So how can I behave, if I never was one to be known anyways?
I know, that it's all just the same~,
Yeah,

I know, You don't want me round no more, I,
Know I'm not the one to ask, Why~,
But I know why it's all the same,
You hate me now I get it,
I don't need this answer twice,
I've heard this all before,
I just need you to let me go, Let me be,
Let me burn, burn, burn, burn.

Burn Prod. TennisThePlayer

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/hieloways

I've~, Been~, Running on idle,

I've been running on idle,
I don't know why, but I feel like I've been walking in and out of life,
I feel, like I just popped out of existing,
I've been on my own for so long, I can't tell myself what's wrong,
And I know, all my friends, they look at me,
And wonder, what the fuck?

I've been running all on idle,
Mixing bottles mixing idols,
I don't wanna say it now, but i know I've been broken-

Broken once or twice before, always on that four to four,
I don't wanna do this now, I feel like you don't love me now,
I don't wanna be the one to say it, but I know I'm all fucked up.

I've been~, Running on idle~,
Lights have been on, but no one's been home,
I know I'm not wanted round here,

Now I'm not sure, if it's fair,
Every moment left in the air,
I feel like my words have caught again,
And I don't wanna be the one left out,
No one wants to see no more,
And I know why,
I don't wanna be around to watch it all go by,
So I'm just gonna go back and let it all, run on idle.

Idle Prod. Hieloways

Prod. BigBadBeatz

Lonely,
Lonely...
Lonely...
I've been lonely all at night, ight~
Lonely~...
Lonely~...
I've been lonely all at night, and my friends tell me it's fine.
(Mouse click, lol)
Everybody wants me to stop, but I can't keep up in my head,
I feel like I'm all alone, I don't want this existential dread,
How do I tell my friends that I'm not okay?
How do I say that I'm not alright?
I don't wanna be alone at night, and lately I feel like-

My dreams haunt me everyday, The nightmares come and go,
I don't wanna be alone, and I can't take this any longer,
But I~, I keep pushing my friends away even when I'm-
Lonely~
Lonely~
I've been lonely all at night, and my friends tell me it's fine.

I've been lonely all at night, all my thoughts are taking flight,
I don't wanna be alone again and,
All my friends are telling me to stop,
But where do I even start?
I don't wanna go away again,

But it feels like my only option,
And when I say that, they all come around,
Just to kick me when I'm down,
They don't understand it doesn't help me.

Lonely~
Lonely~
I've been lonely all at night, and my friends tell me I'm fine~,
Lonely~,
I've been lonely~,
I've been lonely all at night,
And my friends tell me I'm fine,
I don't wanna be alone again, I feel it building faster than before,
And I just wanna say I'm alright, so-
Don't leave me alone whenever I say that I need the time to think~
I've been lying through my teeth,
And I'm not sure what that means...
Lonely...

Lonely Prod. BigBadBeatz

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/hieloways

I saw you in the twilight, I saw you dancing at midnight.
You know I'm never one to be alone,
I hate the thoughts in my head, the way they swish around-
I can't keep with the tempo.
My mood switches faster than the waters,
All alone I can't take it anymore, I don't know where to find you.

I just wanna find you now, I can't keep tracking through this snow,
I wanna know where you went, I wanna know what happened,
But I can't keep up.

I saw you in the twilight, I saw you dancing at midnight,
I saw you in the twilight, I saw you dancing at midnight~
Midnight~, Oh~,
Midnight~,
Oh, In the twilight...

Midnight Prod. Hieloways

I've been rolling my head out again,
Falling my way back and now,
I don't know what's wrong inside anymore,
I can't tell you why I've got my heart inside my lungs and I don't know,
I don't know,

It's getting harder to breathe and I can't seem to get a break,
I can feel it building underneath, I don't even know if I'm awake,
And I can't keep my head straight,
And throw on the locks and leave me alone,
Kick down the doors, I'll never be gone,
I just wanna know, Know how to break it down,

Running inside my head, You won't leave me alone,
Haunting my memories, and I want you gone,
Running inside my head, You won't leave me alone,
Haunting my memories, I know, you're not gone,
Haunting me how I wish, you weren't,
The one inside my head space, I, can't think straight,
Oh, I, Oh, I,

You haven't left me for a day, since you walked out,
I don't wanna miss you anymore,
I know you'll be there when I'm gone,
I want you to know, Maybe we're not far from home,
But I know that you'll follow if I try,

I know, you're gone, but I feel so haunted,
Running inside my head, you won't leave me alone,
You've been haunting my memories for too long, how do I break out?
All I know is that I'm not alone anymore,
I want you gone inside, How do I fall apart?
And I, oh, I,

Running inside my head, you won't leave me alone,
Haunting my memories, I know,
How do I find my break again? I don't wanna break again,
All I know is breaking down,
I don't wanna fall apart,
I just want you gone,
Haunting my memories, I know that you're gone...

Growl

Prod: https://soundcloud.com/piero-ricci-302976262 

Heather gray skies and cloudy eyes,
A tight throat with air caught in my lungs,
I'm working over time from the inside out,
But all I can do is~

Fall further from myself,
I saw a beauty in the dark,
But my loved ones called it dissociation,
but for me, it was more like sanctuary,
So now~ I'm~ Back,

And I tell my friends I love them when it comes to mind,
Cause I'm done biting my words,
I'm scared they need to hear it as bad as I once did,
And now, I feel alive, and I wanna speak,
I held my tongue for so long it feels like whiplash,
Just for small talk, So~

It won't matter how far I've fallen this time around,
Cause the ones who love me most will track me down
Cause, at my depths I'll greet them with a smile,
and a warm embrace I always wished for,

So hear me now,
I won't let you fade,
I won't let you waste,
I care for myself now, And I'll hold you up just the same,
So when I say I love you, I mean~ it,
I'm not going anywhere...

I'm Back

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Yeah I know no one expects to hear it from me,
But I've been doing okay, and I don't even mind,
I've been waiting for the days to come to an end,
So I can just unwind and decompress,
Now I'm waiting for the voice inside my head to quiet down,
So I can get to sleep at night,
But it never wants to hear me now.
I've been waiting for the time to go by,
Every single time I try, it never feels right,
I think,
I'm not so bad, Maybe once before?
I was wrong, and I was violent, no more~...

In my head I thought I'd be a better man,
If I could stand my ground and,
Be the one who always held you at my fists,
Now I'm all alone and I don't even understand,
How I ended up in this mess.
So, let me paint a picture for you,
One more time I'll wait again,
One more time I'll let my friends fade away.
If they reach out I'll know that they love me really,
More than I ever understood, So I~
I'll, go, ghost again,
Waiting for my time to end.

Yeah, I know no one expects to hear it from me,
But I've been doing okay, at least I thought that...
Until I started drinking too much,
And started smoking too much,
And spending too much money on the stupid things,
I've been drowning in my vices.
Waiting for the time to come,
That I'll never be able to come back again-
One more hit, I'll be fine, Just let my mind unwind,
If I fall, it's okay, I was doomed from the start.

If I fall again, I promise I'll be better in my landings,
I was watching, waiting for the time to go away,
Now my friends will know me better,
Waiting for the chance just to come back around.

Sometimes I shut down~, and, I'm sorry for that,
I promise it's not personal, I just needed to rest.
So-
Please, come, back again, I'll treat you with warmth,
Every person in my life who left me, for their health,
I'll still pick up, if you need me now.
Don't let me waste away...

Ghost Again (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/autrioly

It's the end of a year, for me,
I'm thinking of you,
Why should I hold on?

I'm older, I'm fading,
I don't know what's been taking over me,
I'm losing track of memories,
and home always feels so far away.
If I let it fall, will I follow down this time?

And I've lost mementos meant for forever
And in my mind, I thought that if I let it go,
I'd be alright, but when I look back,
It never makes sense to me.
Because now...
I'm losing everything that I see.

In my head~ I thought I~
Had a chance~ Just to make it through the night~

It's the end of a year for me,
I'm thinking of you.
Why should I hold on?

I've lost track of reason,
I don't know when it happened,
But whenever I think back,
I think that I was always different,
But now I don't know how...
How to stay alive in this house.

I'm smoking, I'm drinking, I'm fading every single part of me.
I'm hoping the numb will take me as far as it can possibly be.
So when I wake up, and I don't know where I am...

Play along with me so I can feel it for a moment,
Let it drift away into my nerves,
I never even knew what to do,
So let me just be.
Let me just fade in my end.

Fade (Prod. Autrioly)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Hmmm...mmmh....mmmmh...
One more reason, I, tried it twice as hard,
Writing notes left out for myself,
Saying I don't mind at all,

I'm a terrible liar, I've been chasing down everything I saw,
I can't make it through another night at all,
I'm hiding inside myself, vaulting every single memory,
So I never have to think.

It's draining down the kitchen sink,
My worries and my fears,
I'm losing everything I had this year.
And with everyone that follows,
I'm drifting further out,
So I don't think you understand.

One more reason, I, tried it twice as hard,
Writing notes left out for myself,
Saying I don't mind at all,

And there's some truth to that,
I think that it's been coming back,
Every single time it feels like a relapse,
I hear your voice,
I know your name,
I won't let it change the way I stay.

When I, come back down,
Let me have my peace,
I know what it took from me,
Let me rest a bit.

Rest Prod. Idly Blare

Prod. In Bloom: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCiyry28OdB8YtgnylURfZZA

Like the ghost inside your walls,
I'll be hiding after all,
But I can't take it all the same.

Disappearing, ghosting again,
Hiding from my dearest friends,
I know that I was waiting for a fall-out.
Mmmmh~,
Mmmmmmh~
I won't go away this time,
Hiding in the after light,
I think I've been watching over every lie,
And I know what stemmed from me,
Something I can't defeat,
But you know I'll never go away.
So here's my promise, But I-...

Can't control~ a thing, I'm drifting inbetween~,
And I don't know what that means to me,
I lost track of myself~,
And I fell down again~,
But I hope you know I'll always be~ a friend.
Or~ at~ least~, I'll try to be, cause-

Like the ghost inside your walls,
I'll be hiding after all,
But I can't take it all the time.

Disappearing, ghosting again,
Hiding from my dearest friends,
I know that I was waiting for a fall-out.
Mmmmh~,

But here I go,
I'll always be the one, that'll catch you if you fall,
If you keep me around,
I joke that I'm not smart,
And that I'm falling apart,
But, Really I could be useful if you let me try,
Mmmmh~

I don't think it comes from me~
The demons that I See~
And I know now, It's always gonna be the same,
No matter what I'll always be in your lane,
Backing your corner, and ready to punch in.
Hmmm~...

Ghost In Your Walls (Prod. In Bloom)

Prod. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCgZKvxrpXZu4to8d_2Koxiw 
Another Friday night, where I watched as you flew away,
I knew that I, had a better role to play,
Holding you down, I'll watch it all fade away,
One more time more, I'll remind you it's okay.

I wanted to let go, Everything that I had,
Just to be your best friend,
Now I know that I was never enough,
I waited to watch, as everything drifted away~
And-
I was never, what I wanted~,
Falling further from~ me~,
Sometimes I think, maybe I could try again,
But now when I pick up the phone,
All I hear is dial tone,
Oh~mmmh-mmh-mmh~
Oh I don't blame you, I would do~ the same,

Another Friday night, where I watched as you flew away,
I knew that I, had a better role to play,
Holding you down, So I could watch this time around,
I'll be the best friend you ever knew,

Hype-man in your corner, Just the golden retriever,
I know I what needed now~
Cause no one ever tells you how hard it is,
Just to watch your friend fly away,
It's just another fact of life,
That you held them back.
Oh they do so well without you now,

Golden Retriever Prod. Waves

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Do you dream of me the way I did of you?
Nightmares in my head I hear your voice,
It's different in the end again,
Lost in my mind, the pictures intertwine.
Hmm,
Lost in the feeling of the smoke and the wine,
I thought if I could tell you,
That I'd be just fine, but,
All in due time I know you see it,
It's falling apart again,
I'm stuck in a cycle, walking a tight rope,
And cursing your name on my way down,
Throw me a line, and I'll drop you a ladder,
All is fair in the war,
There's no love here it's only pain,
Dream of me the same way,
You haunt my dreams and now I know,
I'll be the reason you can't close your eyes.

Close Your Eyes (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty

No clue what genre this falls under Lofi Rap it is for now.

New chapter new cosmos but it never really changes,
Everything inside me is shifting places,
Waiting for the comedown but it never happens,
I feel so sick now, I feel so lightheaded,
I don't really know how to change it,
So I breathe in more smoke, I breathe out another reason,
That you shouldn't stay but,

Please don't tell me that you love me I can't take it anymore,
I always waited for you just to find the door on your own,
And now I don't know how to say that I'm falling apart,
I was waiting for you just to have a broken heart now,
I don't wanna make this split, I don't wanna make this happen,
Everything inside my head is screaming just let go,
It's just a mistake.


I found another nightmare hidden inside my daydreams,
Cause everyone who dates me is always gonna feel the same,
They always feel that old pain, Something inside me just ain't quite right.
I'm lost in the sound and I hate the feeling,
That it'll never go away, I just stare at the ground,
But sometimes I still wonder if you stare at the same stars,
But I know that you don't cause it's always gonna be so far,
...
I'm stuck on mars waiting for the comedown,
Watching everyone on Earth having the time of their lives,
Knowing that I'll never be alone as long as I die,
Inside my head it's always always gonna be another,
Always always gonna be another mistake.
Hiding inside my mind, letting the time rewind,
Until it all comes back...

New Chapter (Prod. Boyfifty)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty

I don't want anything else on my mind,
I fell too far this time,
I watched as everything fell in line with what you wanted,
Now I'm lost in my own mind,
Losing track of time, I don't know how long it's been,
I only know I don't know where you went,
So when I wake up, I'll dream of you all the same,
Waking from the nightmare of everybody's waiting for me,
And now I don't how to breathe,
But you've held me down so long,
I don't think it matters now but,

Breathe Prod. BoyFifty

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/autrioly

Breathe in, breathe out,
I'll wait for that sound,
Oh i could never be the one, that you wanted me,
Oh that you wanted me to be...

Wake up again, drown out all my friends
I waited all this time
just for you to see,
That I could never be,
Breathe in, breathe out,
I'll hide away again,
I'm the monster in my own closet,
Baby don't you see?
You just weren't meant for me,
So-when-I-wake-up-now;
It always goes back,
Away from myself,
And down again another reason I could just be your friend,
And I don't want you to know,
No, I don't want you to know,
How my head spins-
One more time around, you're on my mind,
I can't shake it free no more, it's always in time-
Every minute, every hour, every single day,
I waited for you just to say, no-
I was-
Waiting again,
Drown out all my friends,
I waited all this time,
Just for you to see,
That l could never be the one, oh no,
Breathe in, breathe out,
I'm the monster in my own closet,
Baby don't you see?
I could never be the one,
Oh I could never be the one,
Cause here I go again-
It always goes back down,
Waiting for the final sound inside my head to come back round again.
The voice inside my mind won't let me go this time,
I waited all this time, and now I'm all alone,
I called your name, I called your phone,
I texted, I called,
I don't know why I fell so far down,
Waiting for you just to see,
That I could never be,
Oh I could never be.

Never Prod. Autrioly

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty

Lost again and I don't know what to do with,
Everything inside my head,
I feel stupid,
I misplaced you in the end, I know it's not right,
Lose another friend, I'll lose another hour of sleep.
And I can't get through to you,
Everything's been so distant, and you know it's not true, but-

Mama says she's proud again but dad doesn't hit me back,
But I can't blame him, I know that,
I've been busy too,
Big bro's always asking if I'm okay,
And I don't know how to act,
I'm only back from being away so long,
For just a little while now.
Don't hate me when I can't speak,
I lost my reality,
And I don't know who I am yet,
Or how I'm supposed to be.
I think that I'm different now,
But I still make the same sounds~
And I think I've barely grown at all.
I still make the same mistakes,
And I drown it out in the same ways.

Like- Mmh, na na na, na na na, na na na...
Another lullaby to go to bed,
Now I can't sleep at all,
I hate the sound of my voice,
I don't know where it went wrong,
I think I've been bad all along,
Like- Mmh, na na na, na na na, na na na...

Lost again and I don't know what to do with,
Everything inside my head,
I feel stupid,
I misplaced you in the end, I know it's not right,
So, I'll Lose another friend, I'll lose another hour of sleep.
And I can't get through to you,
Everything's been so distant, and you know it's not true, but-
Lemme rewind and go back in time,
I'll be the same boy I always thought I was,
Innocent until proven guilty,
But you know my history proves me wrong,
I think that if, I could go back again,
I'd lose it all and start over,
So you wouldn't get hurt.

Mmh, mmh, mmh, Mmmmmmmh~
Mmh, mmh, mmh, Mmmmmmh-uh~
Mmmmh, na na na, na na na~,

I'll sing another lullaby,
Now I can't sleep at night, I don't know why,
But when I go down,
I'll dream of you until I wake~...
Mmh, mmh, mmh, Mmmmmmmh~
Mmh, mmh, mmh, Mmmmmmh-uh~

Wake Prod. BoyFifty

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Another dream, I had of you,
I'm thinking lately, it's all true.

You know I hate to be alone inside my head too long,
It doesn't feel right,
Cause I can't shake this feeling that it happens every night,
There's something at the edges calling out my name,
I hear bells in every ring,
There's something sweet that I...
I chase it all throughout the woods,
And hope I'll see it this time, but I...
Mmmh-mmh-mmh-mmh mmh-mmh...
I dream of better days,
Waiting for the way to come back down,
I know what you think when you see I-
I can't let go of my head, no,
Something better off inside me, better off dead,
I hear demons calling out,
Wait for your voice don't make a sound.

Don't Make A Sound (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/autrioly

(Na, na, na...)
Mmh, Na, na, na-
Sunshine break me again,
Something in the end,
It crushes me again,
But I, I know that you love the fight,
You like to watch me fall,
You don't know how far it's gone,
My chest tightens when you speak,
I love when you laugh at me,

Rain fall, makes me drown,
And it's not right,
I know what you wanna say,
But I know it won't go-
(Go), Go, (Go), Go, (Go)
I know it won't go-
(Go), Go, (Go), Go, (Go)

Back down where I belong,
I know I heard this song before,
And it danced so far in my nerves,
I know you hate me now,
But I,
I'd fall so far just to hear you lie,
I'd die just for you,
Cause I know it won't change my thoughts on love.

Sunshine Prod. Autrioly

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

Hold me down, I promise,
It's everything that I wanted,
I don't care about your warnings,
Never let me go again,

Early mornings are starting to show,
I can see the light you hold,
It's a pretty little thing,
Ethereal I think.
Cause I can't seem to grasp it the way you do.

I'm jealous now, it's foreboding,
Cause I can't shake this feeling of mourning.
Like there's something at the edges warning me it's time to go,
But I know everything's just a part of the show,

It's not what I chased after,
But I'm hopeless for all the laughter,
I'm hoping that you'll notice and you'll let me just drown,
Cause everything about you is perfect this time 'round.

Hold me down, I promise,
It's everything that I wanted,
I don't care about your warnings,
Never let me go again,

I Know What I Want (Prod. Idly Blare)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/idlyblare 

I'm staring out the window sill,
Wondering if I came back now-

Would you love me still?
Or is it all done?
Am I just a fragment of a rerun?
I know what you wanted and it wasn't me,
So let me just be alone when I-
Crash, down, again at night,
I'll lose my mind and I don't know why,
I think that I've been chasing everything I thought you were,
Nothing of what you are now,
So... I'll dream of...
Campfires, mountain paths, and everything I saw,
I lost it all when came I back down...

I, die, at night, I scream your name,
And I don't know how to refrain from-
Everything I thought I was, it's all been a blur,
Maybe when you see me, you can tell me if you've seen her,
Angel, Demon, I don't know,
Something I've held onto through the stations,
Static shuffles again, I lose my footing now,
I'll fall back down to earth-
Still stuck on her.

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