Saving for Reasons Soon to be Forgotten

QuickScopeedXD (prod.shinju)

@eunhae + @bedhead2001 prod @iofmusic art by digiyams

eunhae:
how many times were you there
because you felt like you had to
how many calls did you miss
then say that you didn't mean to

when you were really with her
just admit honestly
i'm used to it now
i've never been treated fairly

everyone said 
just give it time to get better
but they didn't know that
it was just getting harder

to get a grip on my life
and it was getting tighter
felt like i could die
and everything would be better

felt like i could just die
can't get a grip on my life
i think i'm losing touch
i can feel my insides

leave me here or bury me alive
cause i'm starting to love the ones that lie
and i can't let myself be free
cause everything that hurts is what makes me happy

bedhead: 

how many tears should i cry
when i talk on the phone with you
i'll only be fine 
when i'm the one that's alone with you

and it'll shatter my heart
if you let your guilt get in the way

so you'll put me first or i'll put you down
and i know it'll hurt she's not even around
and the scars even it out careful who you're surrounded by
i wouldn't trust the discretion of those other guys

eunhae:

leave me here or bury me alive
cause i'm starting to love the ones that lie
and i can't let myself be free
cause everything that hurts is what makes me happy

everything that hurts ft. bedhead

@joshuasageart
@quinsea
@methboiswag

Lyrics:
(JoshuaSageArt)
I still feel so shattered, I’m on the run
And I feel so attached to all we’ve done
How could I feel like you loved me🈵
It kept me from hurting👨🏻‍🦲
No heart, just open surgery🫀❌
I felt your warmth so closely🫂 <3
You make my world start turning🌍
Feels just like my skin in burning❤️‍🔥
Forever ♾ just pressure ♾
And that’s all that I have
(QUINSEA)
why do
i feel
like im breaking
inside i hope
you hate me
cut me up
simple surgery
i hope you listen closely
when i say that you should hurt me
when i say that im still lonely
i feel like im dying slowly
i can feel the world stop turning
(JoshuaSageArt & quinsea chorus)

Spotify

Surgery (w/ quinsea) [+methboiswag]

blaccout prod. genshi

@joshuasageart
@kojowav
Artwork source:
https://godenteredmybody.tumblr.com/post/663915347200655360

Lyrics:
(Intro)
whatever...
I haven't forgotten how good we are together.
(JoshuaSageArt)
I’ve been dealing with enough things going on
I’ve been searching for a way to right my wrongs
It’s the only thing I want, it’s all I want
With you I cannot take a loss, it’s like you’re all I got

Searching, I’m searching for an answer
So broken & so shattered
Hold the keys I am the master
My heart rate moving faster 


Deep inside the lightsss
I feel so satasfiiieed
Open up youuuur eyyyyes
You could save a liiifee


I just feel so attached
I just cannot relax
Never want to subtract
You from how I stay awake
I don’t know where you’re at
Baby don’t you come back?
I can feel you inside of my own brain

And I feel like
It’s all in my head
And it’s so bright
I feel lost in it
(a voice)
ya know and something tells me...
maybe you haven't either.

JoshuaSageArt - divine 9 [+kojo]

on that! w/ alleycat & lilkirby (prod. deadat18 x yukio)

cant save me w/ xograye

prod by jakeygotit https://www.youtube.com/user/MRtoadsworth1
Vocals & mix by @joshuasageart

Track # 5/10

www.joshuasageart.com

Merch

Psychopath

cover of bladee and ecco2k's obedient <3

Can't you see it?
Bad dog, but for you I'm obedient
Trash Star, cross my heart, that's the reason
Look up at the stars, they're retreating
Don't get lost, don't live what I'm preaching
Drain Jesus, ice me immediately
Can't even come home when it's freezing
925, burn me my medallion
Smell like spray paint, yeah, what I'm off of
Link at the gas stop, won't stop, I can't stop
Can't even see clear, where I'm at though
This not a mansion, it's a castle
You a fuckboy, heard it from Ecco
Drain show, no face, came through the back door
We can't even bring no girls in my section
Feel like OD9, I'm a dragon
I can't even talk to myself cause I'm wrong now
White gate calling me, won't be long now
I can't even put those words in my songs now
Big strong compounds, life force get crossed out
Siren calling, ambulance sound
Drain Gang track you down like a blood hound
I can't even trust myself when the night comes
Four doors, red or blue, pick the right one
It's some writing on the wall, it said "Die scum"
No heart, but I do wish I had one
And my baby wanna know what I'm scared of
Don't worry, it's been taken care of
Bladee, I'm coming for the trash like a trashman
Hell Gang, put that back in the trash can
I can't even trust myself when the night comes
Step on my head twice like a cockroach

Every time I close my eyes I stop existing
Every now and again I can't tell the difference
Woke up falling, I'm still falling off of buildings
Want a new addiction, wanna fall victim
Something you might crush my heart but I'ma risk it
And I'm still sinking, need a curse lifted
Blacklisted at all the clubs but I can fix this
Think I need stitches, pray to three sixes
I wanna see heads roll, execute past life
Hundred white birds, ninety-nine fall out the sky
Fast life, race against time, it will outrun you
Rains return to the earth, sunlight to the underworld
Maybe in another life we could be lovers
Eversince we met, these thoughts keep getting worse
Iron will, ironed shirt, now I want a Fendi purse
I don't talk with empty words, what is any of it worth?
Every time I close my eyes, I go to prison
Every now and again I can feel the distance
Woke up running, I'm still running through the system
Want a new sickness, want to fall victim
Somewhere, someone broke your heart but I'ma fix it
And I'm still wishing for that first kiss
Get blacklisted at all the clubs in Seven Sisters
Industry children play with three sixes

obedient +crescent (yandere + lilac + waifu)

made this beat with a bunch of oakscreen samples from splice fr such an amazing artist <3

lyrics:

walking with my hair tucked down
with the frayes undone
with a pain like anyone
feel like i dont even talk about nothing less than the rich life that i live
hanging on for all this time
with a pain that wont subside
and i dont wanna lose more time
is it better when u die

is it bad that i cant sleep
moving different
got my back against the wall
got my back against the wall
and i dont feel different
than the time u left me
i gotta do it this time
this time

gotta battle with the mess
backs against the wall
i put my armor to the test
damn i got it bad but every day i try my best
tryna do my best to get some rest
i need some rest

gotta take my time
weight on my back feel it pressurize
and it makes it hard
so hard

walking with my hair tucked down
with the frayes undone
with a pain like anyone
feel like i dont even talk about nothing less than the rich life that i live
hanging on for all this time
with a pain that wont subside
and i dont wanna lose more time
is it better when u die

bliss fields +oakscreen

good luck charm </33 (prod. discent)

i jus wanted u to fix the way that i don't feel at all
really miss the way you’d bounce around my head like basketball
we got problems but its not not late solve em intermission jus for kissin i jus want it back

do u really wanna live like this
spotlight feelin good but i know i'm not shit
friends with the burns on my wrist
but i'm reppin shini gang yea shini gang thats my clique
if its what u want then u gotta chase it
yea i'm tryna link like a chain bracelet
long hallway with many doors
i open one up i been here before
now i feel trapped i lay on the floor
i don't wanna move not anymore
try to live life with what i adore
but ion ever see u anymore
like a trance
lookin at the headlights dear in the road
greeted by the sunlight sex in the mornin
i promise i give my all your all i live for

i jus wanted u to fix the way that i don't feel at all
really miss the way you’d bounce around my head like basketball
we got problems but its not not late solve em intermission jus for kissin i jus want it back (x2)

harmony〘prod. blackwinterwells〙

girl next door +heads (shyburial)

bedhead x lilbearshawty x cillacybn - yr lyfe but i miss mine (+ vendr)

shout out Narnia brax shy curtains retrocanon virgostarlove and plushiegutzz for helping w this <3

Sour Candy 3000 prod curtains

MY TAKE ON CAPITALISM (2020)

leave, dont try to bring me down
oh will you please?
cant wrap my head around
from what it seems
oh i dont even know if its a dream
it aint what it seems, seems...

and i 
dont need any bullshit
tonight
just leave me alone
inside
i try to keep it going all the time
should i even try?
try...

you say i dont mean too much
what the fuck you see in us?
i will tell my future self
not to let you go
"dont waste a chance,
hold her hand,
dont say you wont love again,
when it all comes crashing down,
then it will start making sense"
like what it is

you say i dont mean too much
what the fuck you see in us?
i will tell my future self
not to let you go
"dont waste a chance,
hold her hand,
dont say you wont love again,
when it all comes crashing down,
then it will start making sense"
like what it is.

 - dont tell me what to do, ill try to let it go -
 - you tell me everything but i know, i know... -
 - i wonder bout my worth, if everythings absurd -
 - i know that everything will be gone -

be gone.

you say i dont mean too much
what the fuck you see in us?
i will tell my future self
not to let you go
"dont waste a chance,
hold her hand,
dont say you wont love again,
when it all comes crashing down,
then it will start making sense"
like what it is

you say i dont mean too much
what the fuck you see in us?
i will tell my future self
not to let you go
"dont waste a chance,
hold her hand,
dont say you wont love again,
when it all comes crashing down,
then it will start making sense"
like what it is..

leave, dont try to bring me down,
oh will you please.
cant wrap my head around from what it seems.
oh i dont even know if its a dream.
it aint what it seems.

seems...

give yourself a hug

golden hour (yungspoiler)

all for you, i stumble round looking for clues, looking for you, its hard to find, so hard to find, just what to do, i feel you close, i got to leave, i got to go, when im not seen, everything just hurts the most.

just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed.

im so naive, how should i compete? you made me complete, you made me complete, who am i to keep? please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me.

behind closed doors, theres nothing more, im looking for, im looking for, you make me complete, cant make you be me, i need you to leave, just leave me just leave.

please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me.

dont tell me what to do, ill try to let it go, you tell me everything, but i know... i know... i wonder bout my worth, if everything's absurd, i know that everything will be gone. be gone.

just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed.

Saving for Reasons Soon to be Forgotten

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