a song i made EARLY 2020
i gave it to kmoe and he loves it a lot and so ima just post it here lol.
hope yall like it

delirious [2020]

i had to jump off the porch
i wanna kill myself now
i wanna feel but i can't
now i got blood on the door
don't wanna feel just like this
don't feel real, don't like this
now i feel worse than before
why in fuck it work like that
thought i was safe, no, my bad
i turn myself to a corpse
i got a target on my back
i got a mark on my right hand
i got a slit on the left one
no, i don't think she gon write back
no, i don't think she gon write back
i sit around let the time pass
i take a shot then i lie back
when i fuck up, i'll be right back to you
when i fuck up, i'll be right back to you
when i fuck up, i'll be right back
in the same spot that you left me
oh no please don't test me
i might walk in let the tec sweep
i wasn't this fucked when you met me
i could be yours if you let me
i could be yours if you let me

all of this could be slowed down, slowed down
i could save you but i don't know now
i don't wanna talk i must go now
all of this could be slowed down, slowed down
slow down slow
i don't know, i won't go
i can't slow down now

i feel so selfish, i cant be tied to the things that i've dealt you
i never knew how this felt til i felt you
all of the plans that we had always i fell through
i always fell through

the porch

bitch i fucked up (damn)
draco wit the cooling kit
if i got this gun up in my hand
i swear i'm shooting it
i wish i could feel ok at heart
at heart i'm losing it
i walk in start shooting shit
bitch i walk in start-

i ran outta options, nothing going on inside my head
i have no conscience
existential dread, not scared of death
think of it often
everything looks ok on the surface
but i'm rotten
ho my brain is melting
i reach out for help
but i don't think nothing could help it
then i do the things i do
and they all say i'm selfish
if i walk inside this bitch
i swear to god i'll air the whole place out
so much blood on my face now

omg
bitch i feel so bad. wait, i think i don't
hollup hoe, where my feelings go
hollup, ion know. bitch i'm gone
bitch i feel insane. hollup, no i don't
feel like god, feel like i'm satan
i start losing hope

woke up i passed out on the ground
i can't tell if you're talking to me, where do i hear this sound
there's a ring and i hear it, i hear it all the way around
drowned myself in the river where i know i will not be found
i never wanna be found, agh

i ran outta options, nothing going on inside my head
i have no conscience
existential dread, not scared of death
think of it often
everything looks ok on the surface
but i'm rotten
ho my brain is melting
i reach out for help
but i don't think nothing could help it
then i do the things i do
and they all say i'm selfish
if i walk inside this bitch
i swear to god i'll air the whole place out
so much blood on my face now

i've finally run out of options

if this shit a problem, i mean nun by it
he can't stand to see me, i leave him eyeless
this is all i wanted, and now you're dying
this is not my problem, my bleedings violent
it's never a problem i like it
he stuck at the bottom, i strike him
i play up the sorrow, i'm violent
my fate inevitable, it's been decided

swear to god if i get mad i'll leave the crib and i won't come back
body lie around 40 more bodies, ion want that
i still keep this metal on me, you can't get this gun back
i replace the color of my iris with these thumbtacks
if i jump off of this roof, please don't be mad at me, my fault
i'm so done with living past this fucking tragedy, my fault
i could end you, i could end me, oh so happily, my fault
this ain't envy, it's disgust, his brain get spattered on the wall
it's not my fault

if this shit a problem, i mean nun by it
he can't stand to see me, i leave him eyeless
this is all i wanted, and now you're dying
this is not my problem, my bleedings violent
it's never a problem i like it
he stuck at the bottom, i strike him
i play up the sorrow, i'm violent
my fate inevitable, it's been decided

eyeless

i'm in the brinks trunk, stole that hoe, i'm deep in
swerve that bitch, off the road, what am i thinking
ion care about myself, don't care about you either
don't stay awake, i'ma sleeper
drown in the dread, getting deeper
i'm holding hands with the reaper
yeah i'ma bleeder, care bout you either
don't stay awake, i'ma sleeper
drown in the dread, getting deeper
i'm holding hands with the reaper
yeah i'ma bleeder, care bout you either

i get it back in time, ion care, it's what i felt
let it eat me up inside, ion care about myself
i'ma go until i die, ion care about my health
ion care about nothing, no i don't care bout what i dealt
mix the AR wit the hunnit, 15
so when i blow my fucking brain they miss me
swear to god, when i die, i hope they all forgive me
you know i got that chop on me by the way i lean
glock too fed
talk to myself and i talk to the dead
every minute i'm alive, wanna die, its the routine
its the routine 

don't care about you either
don't stay awake, i'ma sleeper
drown in the dread, getting deeper
i'm holding hands with the reaper
yeah i'ma bleeder, care bout you either
don't stay awake, i'ma sleeper
drown in the dread, getting deeper
i'm holding hands with the reaper
yeah i'ma bleeder, care bout you either

take the top off the droptop
glock make yo block hot
ain't nobody left to get it back in blood
i hop off
top off the droptop
glock make yo block hot
ain't nobody left to get it

don't care about you either
don't stay awake, i'ma sleeper
drown in the dread, getting deeper
i'm holding hands with the reaper
yeah i'ma bleeder, care bout you either
don't stay awake, i'ma sleeper
drown in the dread, getting deeper
i'm holding hands with the reaper
yeah i'ma bleeder, care bout you either

routine

bitch i got bloody eyes
blood in my cup i'ma sip that
ion know where the fuck i'm at
i just sit back
sit back, act like i'm alive
i been dead man
if he look me in the fucking eyes
he a dead man

why you worried bout some shit that i ain't did man
all i serve is hate, so what i get is what i get man
if he do me dirty, i ain't worried bout no get back
he can't even leave the fucking room, without his shit pushed back
i just slit his throat, record that shit, yeah need it forever
ion feel shit anymore, i just feel whatever
no i cannot feel remorse for what i do, like never
go to sleep and close my eyes and i just see em severed

bitch i got bloody eyes
blood in my cup i'ma sip that
ion know where the fuck i'm at
i just sit back
sit back, act like i'm alive
i been dead man
if he look me in the fucking eyes
he a dead man

yeah he a dead man
stress in my head, man
i just wanna murda
ion even see red man
all i see is black now
hoes in the back now
green, white, red in my veins
i can't back down

bitch i got bloody eyes
blood in my cup i'ma sip that
ion know where the fuck i'm at
i just sit back
sit back, act like i'm alive
i been dead man
if he look me in the fucking eyes
he a dead man

bloody eyes

i know something you don't
i know it's hard to understand what i know, i know
i know i get in my own way but, i hope i don't
get in my way this time i know i
won't fold, won't fold

it's a full lobby, 12 gauge shotty
i got kevlar on my chest
so why he think he got me
been a decade, i'm obsessed
the thought of dropping bodies
drop until ain't nothing left
until they all forgot me
i just dropped a body
ain't nobody caught me
i ain't doing nothing wrong
i just do what they taught me
this what my pc taught me
the shit that i embody
my brain so fucking foggy
don't wanna get too cocky

i know something you don't
i know it's hard to understand what i know, i know
i know i get in my own way but, i hope i don't
get in my way this time i know i
won't fold, won't fold

bitch i drop dead
body draining on the pavement
think i lost it
i consume and then i act
my brain so rotten
repetition of my actions
i'm so toxic
yeah i'm so toxic
blood is running down the walls
i'm at my own burial
i see things that nobody else can
i'm so scared of that
i asked them about what i just saw
they never heard of that
oh i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry
yeah i'm such a burden, that i can't help it

i know something you don't
i know it's hard to understand what i know, i know
i know i get in my own way but, i hope i don't
get in my way this time i know i
won't fold, won't fold

toxic

lyrics

don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
the night you hate me most
don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
night- night- night-

don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
the night you hate me most
don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
night- night- night-

you move on, i know that
you come back, i get it
i move on, i stay back
you're too close, regret it

emotions i keep pushing out
i swear they're just too fake
you tried to change
i just shot back, afraid you're just too late

think i know what you are
i saw you in my sleep
again, we went too far
again, i'm in too deep

i feel the warmth of my own blood
no need to hold me tonight
know what you do when you're not here
so please don't hold me tonight

don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
the night you hate me most
don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
night- night- night-

so long i lay so wide awake
you try to change, i try to face
the darkness i brought to the day
it's all my fault, i wash away

don't hold me tonight

and maybe this is just a dream
maybe this just a nightmare
i don't know what it means
i don't feel happy when i sleep
i think of you, and you of me
and nothing's ever as it seems
i could be the good one
even if i shouldn't
no, i probably couldn't

there's a knife in my back again
you left it there, i pass again
i stay back i see how it ends
i loved you so much i forget  
i might rip my fucking eyes out
i don't wanna see you
i wish i could be you
just so i could kill myself
i hate how you're acting
séance with the lights out
i was just reacting
you can fucking die now

thisisjustanightmare

thisisjustanightmare ft. bronclair

wake me up in the morning, im just gettin started
pour four in my tylenol, im retarded
you looked like a stranger when we parted
feel like, feel like i got what i wanted
left alone in the house i was haunted
bridge boys make the money move, iconic
you looked like i knew you when we bonded
feel like, feel like i got what i wanted

standin in the corner like a loner, im baller
blood in my nose from when i rolled up a dollar
charms on my flip phone i dialed and called her
everyones starin as my eyes start to wander
in the night im a ghost imma haunt her
i been walkin in the dark skinwalker
im a bad dog i eat like a donner
im a good guy watch out for the slaughter 


eyeless

funeral