Hell nah that beat drop hit my soul 😩 i havent heard ur music in so long and i come and see this wtf 😫❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 bro you improved so much and im proud of you ♥️🌹 and the beats is crazy too, dope producer lookin ass ❤️‍🔥

Yo lets work together hmu on instagram @ Harlosofficial

finally listening to u again after 2 months and omfg i forgot how in luv i am

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

She never coming back
I had a heart attack
I feel under attack
And I am still attached
She left me all alone
With my feelings and my ghost
I had to find a way to cope
So I don’t sit around and mope yeah
She never coming back
I had a heart attack
I feel under attack
And I am still attached
She left me all alone
With my feelings and my ghost
I had to find a way to cope
So I don’t sit around and mope yeah
Yeah

I’ve been, I’ve been, trapped in my mind
I’ve been, I’ve been, trapped in this time
She ain’t ever coming back, I’ve accepted this
Don’t know what to say to you, I know that I’m missing this
I’m missing all the times that we had in the past
But now I’m walking down the street and now I’m coming in last
I don’t know what, to say when, I see your face
Like do I say “Hi”, or “Goodbye”, or “Am I a waste?”
Times have been different lately
You have been off my mind lately
I’m starting to accept the facts
The fact that you’re not coming back

She never coming back
I had a heart attack
I feel under attack
And I am still attached
She left me all alone
With my feelings and my ghost
I had to find a way to cope
So I don’t sit around and mope yeah
She never coming back
I had a heart attack
I feel under attack
And I am still attached
She left me all alone
With my feelings and my ghost
I had to find a way to cope
So I don’t sit around and mope yeah
Yeah

I’ve been, I’ve been, trapped in my mind
I’ve been, I’ve been, trapped in this time
She ain’t ever coming back, I’ve accepted this

she never coming back (prod. tennis player)

Im Losing It w/Matego (prod. moon)

written by Lxst Boy
produced by spencer hunt
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy

-lyrics-
(Verse)
take me back to the old days
don't get no wiser in my old age
fall down then melt like a snowflake
I'm never fine but that's ok
yeah lay me down when I'm at peace
I cant sleep, you haunt my dreams
I'm not that fun whenever I drink
but it helps write songs so I can sing
like what, taking it back
all of the lies, I'm taking them back
what was the price of hating me back?
the look in your eyes says you don't mean that
like how did you leave like that?
taking my heart making it relapse
yell at me but I'm not your dad
so I don't really care if you hate these tracks
you never cared to listen

(Break)

(Refrain)
take my soul, I
don't care baby
break my bones, I'm
never resting
x6

i stopped caring a really, really long time ago (spencer hunt)

i ripped out the pages that reminded me of her
i know that i hate myself don’t need to see the words
i remember i had blamed myself for every time she hurt herself
it happened with the first but with the second it was worse
the deeper cut 
my feet are stuck and sink into the earth
i’ll never be good enough that’s something i have learned
crazy how the coldest person left me with these burns
and then in my time to heal it’s like there’s people taking turns
just to slow down my progress
i convinced myself that everybody is dishonest
i am no exception 
broken hearts and broken promises
follow me
traumatic memories are always haunting me
don’t pick up the blame to pour it onto me
like i always do
i’m not mad at you
because i been moving on and showing gratitude
i been smoking tryna fix my shitty attitude
numbing any feeling in my body through and through
and my memories are lacking any detail so i know that it’s working
i got a woman that i love and treats me better for certain
but the anticipation of finding what’s under the surface
it fucking kills me
but more because she doesn’t deserve it

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

oh the irony
oh the irony
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
(will you die with me)
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
(that's fine with me)
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

please love me, i’m trying my hardest (prod. 4lexf)

not official, just a remix, i really loved this song that rxse made and 
i really wanted to make som to it

official song https://soundcloud.com/feelingmysorrow/two-way-street

@TheMarkerFlipper x @Sorrow - two way street (prod. underwood)

NVR/MND x Thomas Reid x Nü - Something's Not Right

imperfections w/cavasoul (caps.cntrl) and (rx808)

@sorrow - ghost inside my head (prod. jang0 & autrioly)

written and performed by: @futoh
mixed and mastered by: @futoh
produced by: @futoh
———
wandering soul.
———
lyrics:

the birds silent,
and I’m my own tyrant,
I rule over the world for a bit,
but then I snap,
the worlds not vibrant,
and it all just seems so violent,
in a prison of requirements,
I let go of my garments,
I’m the one without a target,
I’m free (im free),
I’m truly free (im truly free)
I got no fees to pay (no fees to pay),
I got no friends to make (no friends to make),
I got no goals to reach (no goals to reach),
I got no truth to seek (no truth to seek),
it’s only me myself and I,
the flowers blossom as we speak,
they pay attention
when no one else would,
but no one else should,
they’ll just laugh at me,
the apathy’s,
disgusting,
they just ask me for my money,
beat me till my nose is runny,
and then they’ll think it’s funny,
swear I’m better as a mummy
decompose into the earth,
I’ll be part of something greater,
in a hundred years,
when grass is green,
you’ll hear my name in fables,
but for now you only hear my name when teachers send me home,
(they send me home),
that kid was getting picked on,
and they left him all alone
(yea all alone)

nature sleeps and i'm still wandering (prod. futoh)

didn't see this coming did u?
ep of these kinds of songs in the works <3
did this all in one take btw, kinda proud of that :)
hope you guys enjoy <3

1 2 1 2 (prod. justdan)

the breeze will blow
and i will go with it.

nature sleeps and i'm still wandering (prod. futoh)

futoh

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