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The very nature of desire is that it remains unfulfilled
- Osho
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A song about existing
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Watch the video: https://youtu.be/uMfXWkOORQc
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lyrics
(In my dreams...)
It's a pattern
I've seen repeating
(From where you're standing)
The destruction
Is deleting
All the promise
I was holding
(From where you're standing)
And crippled
What was unfolding
I thought I wanted you
But now I see
(From where you're standing)
That's just not true
And it can't be
(I tried to meet you in my dreams)
((In my dreams))
Perceive me
From where you're standing
Judge me
I am expanding
So run away
From the brightness
This silence is
My politeness
Perceive me
From where you're standing
Judge me
I am expanding

releases August 23, 2025

Paradox of Desire

3-8-2025

Lyrics & vocal : UK Man
Music, instruments & mix : PJ Project

Oh Kim

Nothing like a pesky raccoon to stir things up a bit… Oh, hello. Glad you dropped by. A raccoon, I named Bandit, has taken up a vacation residence under the shed here. It’s right next to the raspberry patch and apple trees. A couple nights ago, Bandit snuck into my small greenhouse, where I grow tomatoes and peppers, and made a salad of the pepper plants, munching one plant completely down to the stalk. Bandit also likes the heavy crop of choke cherries here. He also uses the back corner of the vegetable garden as a latrine, which last summer was up on the house roof. I’d awaken with a start to hear little footsteps running across the roof. Luckily no roof excursions this year. Anyway, this is a Blues song with some solo banjo. Lyrically, it has a couple of reflections about life, mortality, gardening, relationships and partner expectations, letting go of life dreams, a nod to Bandit, the wacky weather, and making peace with old age. And of course, there’s a fair amount of daydreaming going on, while plucking banjo. Hope all is going reasonably well with you, wherever you are on Earth, during this whirlwind tour we’re on. Mark

Back Porch Banjo Blues

Another awesome electronic collaboration with David a.k.a. @blackmarketbrains ! I love his minimal techno beats so asked him to send me one that included one of his cool old movie samples.I was inspired right away to lay down some melodic loops and even a bit of guitar.

Cover image is public domain, an illustration from an old edition of Mary Shelley's Frankenstein.

Forge the Creature! w/ Black Market Brains

Lyrics included
Paul Paploviante offered the instrumental:
https://soundcloud.com/paploviante-and-friends/expedition-offer-open-collaboration?in=user-234918190-88573969/sets/paploviante-and-friends-ar-1&si=01cc01ddf6974af6a0aafa048c99803f&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

i made lyrics about an expedition...not the kind of journey to discover the environment, but the one we do exploring ourselves and renewing.

Singing is for me a "sine qua non"... I did several vocal lines and made it faster and more robot-sounding (added samples, dallek sounds, synth); i even played on my guitar (Eko Est 1959) some notes. Hope you enjoy!
             
Expédition--lyrics

Je commence une expédition
Je récrée mon identité 
et j’établie un lien profond 
avec moi-même et la nature


Je prends conscience que je suis unique
Aujourd’hui Je fais le premier pas.

Je retourne à l'essence de l'existence.
une remise à zéro du corps et de l’esprit 

Loin du bruit,  
 la nature pure. 


J’embrasse mon  individualité et danse alors dansez

Expédition (collab Paploviante)

NEW COLLABORATION with https://soundcloud.com/billy-korg
Lyrics:-
It's time to face the lies we're told
Indoctrination's got a hold

Down the rabbit hole
Down
Down 
Down

When you look up and see the sky
All of those trails 
You should ask why
When you look up and see the sky

Are they spraying us for fun
Or blocking out the sun
'Cause I'm not the only one
Who's looking up and seeing that

Change this 
Change this
We've got to change this

When you look up and see the sky
All of those trails
You should ask why

Down the rabbit hole
Down
Down
Down

When you look up and see the sky
All of those trails
You should ask why

Are they spraying us for fun
Or blocking out the sun
'Cause I'm not the only one
Who's looking up and seeing that

Billy Korg / winkanwoo 2025

Down The Rabbit Hole

Down The Rabbit Hole - Billy Korg & winkandwoo

Opus84

The Aries & The Leo (II)

thank you for this collab https://soundcloud.com/blackbird-750549711
instrumental version: https://soundcloud.com/30gradx/on-the-roof-2

With Blackbird - Chocolate Day (On The Roof Indie Mix)

N.O.B.S. II

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Music: Jan Schonander
@thegats
Lyrics: Jan Schonander & Amanda Sanderson
Lead Vocal: Amanda Sanderson 
Guitars, Bass: N.O.B.S @nobsmeyer
2nd Vocal, Piano, Synths, Drums: Jan Schonander @thegats

Thanks a lot Jan and Amanda for your passion and your dedication to create this excellent song!

IF ONLY

If only you could see through my eyes
If only I could find just one more way
If only we could go back in time
If the two of us didn’t feel so lonely

If only could be sublime

And I will never forget
I remember your tender embrace
I miss gazing into your eyes
I miss hearing your laughter
Seeing your smile
Feeling your love

And yet
There’s so much more
Why I walked out that door
I can’t ever forget
Lying on my back 
On a cold floor

If only you’d never got mad
If only you hadn’t made me sad
I sing every night and day
I sing if only
If only

If we could get back to just having fun
If everything could be undone
If we could live on regret
If the two of us, had never met
If no-one had to run

If only you’d never got mad
If only you hadn’t made me sad
I sing every night and day
I sing if only
If only

I pray from Monday to Sunday
I pray for both of our souls
I sing every night and day
I sing if only
If only

If Only | Amanda Sanderson, NOBS, TheGat(s) by TheGat(s) is licensed under a Creative Commons License.

If Only

If Only - with Amanda Sanderson & The Gat(s)

Jump out of the forehead

Long Time Gone was originally written as a “swing” blues for a recording session with Bill Kavanagh's Blues Affliction in 2014 (SC link below).
	In keeping with my fascination for eccentric rhythms, I later thought I would try it in a 7 beat meter.   The result was good enough that I asked Foresto, N.O.B.S., and Tot. to give me a hand.   These very talented musicians had joined with me previously on “Heart of Snow” (SC link below).
	The track came out even better than I had hoped ... retaining all the characteristics of a rock/funk boogie while losing none of the odd feel of the unusual meter.

Credit to:
	Andrea Martini aka Foresto (electric guitar) https://soundcloud.com/user-959329289
	Norbert Meyer aka N.O.B.S. (bass) https://soundcloud.com/nobsmeyer
	Tot. (percussion) https://soundcloud.com/tot-beat
	I can be held to account for the lap steel, acoustic guitars and vocals

Cover image: L.Moonlight, acquired through Pixabay	https://pixabay.com/users/LMoonlight-236255/
Swing blues version with  Bill Kavanagh's Blues Affliction:
	https://soundcloud.com/kcm069/03-long-time-gone
Previous collaboration with Foresto, N.O.B.S., and Tot.:
	https://soundcloud.com/kcm069/heart-of-snow-w-tot-foresto-n-meyer

Lyrics
        we're a short time here and a long time gone
	we're just a short time here but we're a long time gone
	make hay while the sun shines you can't once it's down

        you might dance with the devil but that don't make him your friend
        you might gamble on the devil but that don't mean you're gonna win
        best to keep your cards close you just might meet him again

        perhaps I'm just a fool behind a sage's mask
        I keep posing questions only heathens ask
        may be come judgement day I will pay for my faithless past

        we're a short time here and a long time gone
	we're just a short time here but we're a long, long time gone
	make hay while the sun shines you can't once it's down

yes we're a long, long time gone

Long Time Gone

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Long Time Gone 7

『Blazing Higher Dance』
作詞・作曲 / Papyrusたくや

あそう美和のtalent tropical 
ラジオドラマ “クールボーイズ ~宇宙を守りし男達~” 主題歌

【Music Video】
https://youtu.be/z0RUcM6QIpQ

ギラついたCity
眠れない夜
彷徨う心
体が疼いているんだ

全力だった
あの日の事が
過ったときは
きっと血が騒いでるんだ

すべてが力持っていって
押し寄せる流れの中で
センス皆無の閃きで
世界を変えちまえ

Beatの渦が
紐解いた答え

Blazing Higher Dance
だっさいステップで
踊り明かせ
悩みなんて消え去った

Crazy Disco Fever
ださいステップで
Blazing Higher Dance
踊り明かせ

闇が希望を呑んでいって
押し寄せる不安の中で
センス皆無の煌めきで
光を解き放て

ぶっとんだBoogieで
紐解いた答え

Blazing Higher Dance
狂ったステップで
踊り明かせ
悩みなんて消え去った

Crazy Disco Fever
ださいステップで
Blazing Higher Dance
踊り明かせ

Blazing Higher Dance

Some people carry around a secret, a carefully buried basic feeling or a wish that is locked away deep in the abyss of their soul. Often it is only when death is already in the doorway that they can bring up and communicate what has been hidden for so long.  
This is also what happened in this true story, in which a man can only tell his wife how he really feels about her just before he dies of cancer. 

Lyrics in English:

The Last Words

I'm lying here in hospice
Eaten up by cancer

I'm at stage four
I'm about to be killed 
Can't see anything more

My body fully tattooed
Now as skeletonized
My fitness-treated muscles

Mercilessly pureed 
I've never felt so strong
Yeah, I must be losing myself as a hero   

You sit at the edge of the bed
Swimming in a sea of tears
Yes this softness is incredibly difficult for me

You cried for me
Rhymed the most beautiful funeral poems for me
Lived for me the pain
With noble dignity

I'm stuck in a tank dress
Even in the deepest suffering
Can't I tell you how I feel

Fuck!
I'm a John Wayne idiot

I'm as good as dead
And it wants out
I push, cramp, swallow:
I love you

Don't look at me like that
I really mean it

There is no more repetition
I just die now
Please let me go

Somewhere in the next life
Let's meet for a beer
I promise you that
But please stay for a very long time- 

There!
Get the fuck out of here
I'm already dead in my grave

Cancer has won
Got me down

OKAY
No more fighting

I'm leaving now ahead of schedule
Cancer has freed me
Come black brother, take me with you
Wherever to go

Deutscher Originaltext:

Die letzten Worte

Lieg` hier im Hospiz
Vom Krebs zerfressen

Bin im Stadium 4
Gleich ist`s um mich geschehen 
Kann nichts mehr sehen

Mein Körper voll tätowiert
Nun wie skelettiert
Meine Fitness-gestählten Muckies

Gnadenlos püriert
Hab`mich noch nie so stark gespürt
Ja muß mich wohl als Held verlier`n

Du sitzt am Bettrand
Schwimmst im Tränenmeer
Ja dieses Weiche fällt mir unglaublich schwer

Hast für mich geweint
Die schönsten Trauergedichte gereimt
Lebtest für mich den Schmerz
Mit edler Würde

Steck´ im Panzerkleid
Selbst im tiefsten Leid
Kann ich Dir nicht sagen, was ich fühle

Fuck!
Bin ein John-Wayne-Idiot!

Bin so gut wie tot
Und es will heraus

Ich presse, krampfe, schlucke:
Ich liebe Dich

Schau`mich nicht so an
Ja das mein` ich wirklich

Ein nochmal gibts nicht mehr
Ich sterb` jetzt einfach
Lass` mich bitte gehen

Irgendwo im nächsten Leben
Treffen wir uns mal auf`n Bier

Das versprech` ich Dir
Doch bitte bleib` jetzt noch ganz lange – 

Hier!
Hau jetzt endlich ab
Lieg` schon tot im Grab

Der Krebs hat gesiegt
Hat mich untergekriegt

O.K.
Kein Kämpfen mehr

Geh` jetzt vor der Zeit
Der Krebs hat mich befreit

Komm nimm mich schwarzer Bruder
Egal wohin

Die Letzten Worte (The Last Words)

Die Letzten Worte (The Last Words) (Engl. Lyrics In The Intro)

Rock, Rock, Rock and no Alternative …
Rock is not dead, you can validate the evidences here.
People who want to get mellow might be wrong on this site, but are more than welcome to take up some energy here 😀
I am playing guitar and Bass. Keyboards and Drums are programmed.
Mix and Mastering was done in the „N.o.b.S. Moonshine Studios“ in Mainz Germany.
Nearly everything had been recorded during the night, sometimes at daylight on weekends.

Jump out of the forehead

FuWatt

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