listening to this the first time months ago, felt nothing, now feel everything. spectacular

I don't know where it all went wrong
I'm not able to think back that long
It seems like ever since I met my teens
Life is but a distant memory

In my bed all day I sleep for fun
It's how I avoid dealing with my problems
Is this really how life is supposed to be?
Or has something been taken from me?
 
oooh I've been spawn killed
Life taken from me before it started
oooh I've been taken
Away from the life I thought I was promised 

oooh I've been spawn killed
oooh I've been spawn killed
oooh I've been spawn killed
Life taken from me before it started

Life is nothing but a big joke 
I'll waste time online - my cyber yoke
I mask all of my feelings in irony
I don't even remember who I used to be

I'll waste my time
I won't pay no mind 
An empty brain
Soothes the pain

oooh I've been spawn killed
Life taken from me before it started
oooh I've been taken
Away from the life I thought I was promised 

oooh I've been spawn killed
I was already dead before I loaded in
oooh I've been taken
Far away from anything that's ever been. 

oooh I've been spawn killed
oooh I've been spawn killed
oooh I've been spawn killed
Life taken from me before it started

City Slicker

Spawnkilled

Betelgeus

Gloomer (Fried By Fluoride) - Wasted (rare)

Its been years since I saw the sun
Alone in my room and I wanna run
Run to nowhere, all day I just wait
Maybe its my fault for feeding my hate

Its been years since I sealed my fate
Alone on my screen and I wanna hate
Hate everyone and hate everything
I cant let go of it, ill just keep at nothing 

Ooooo Im a rat in a cage
Ooooo Alone with my rage
Ooooo I dont wanna be happy
I just wanna be free

Its been years since I felt okay
Alone in my room and I wait all day
Wait for nothing and wait to age
I doubt there'll ever be better days

Ooooo Im a rat in a cage
Ooooo Alone with my rage
Ooooo I dont wanna be happy
I just wanna be free

Ooooo Im a rat in a cage
Ooooo Seething all dayy
Ooooo Feeding my hate
Ooooo Cluctching my rage

Ooooo Im a rat in a cage
Ooooo Alone with my rage
Ooooo I dont wanna be happy
I just wanna be free

Hatefuel

lyrics:

i need therapy
i dont wanna
rot no longer
dont care what
they think of me
tendencies are getting stronger

what in the fuck do i say?
what in the fuck's wrong with me?

crawling in my hair
digging into itself
altering my brain
killing my mental health
dancing in my prayers
feigning the screams for help
drowning in my pain
making me kill myself

(no one likes you !!!!!)

its not the right thing
to say
its not the right way
to be
but i can show you
the way
look very close and you'll see

crawling in my hair
digging into itself
altering my brain
killing my mental health
dancing in my prayers
feigning the screams for help
drowning in my pain
making me kill myself

i dont have much space left
to keep you in my head
in times of twisted gloria
with all that has been said
im so glad that we met
in times of my euphoria
patched up all the bugs
but you can still find them

crawling in my hair
digging into themselves
altering my brain
killing my mental health
dancing in my prayers
feigning their screams for help
drowning in my pain
making me kill myself

Beta Test

K

this time im gonna do it 
no more turning back no more
this time im gonna do it 
slit my wrist drop on the floor

and i dont understand 
how youd move on so fast
i fucked up real bad
and now youre gone and now im sad
and all the times we had
are gone and in the trash
i wish we couldve last
but now your with another man

this time im gonna do it 
no more turning back no more
this time im gonna do it 
slit my wrist drop on the floor

this time i'm gonna do it.

original song finally 

lyrics

could be bpd
thats why im so mean
could be adhd 
i cant do anything
why bother with doctors
im self diagnosing
they already told me up on my phone screen
oh im autistic
let me sperg about my special interest
im going nonverbal
im ticking im stimming
all of my symptoms
they just seem to fit in
schizophrenia
self diagnosis
you cant blame me when im in psychosis
if i did something bad it wasnt me
it was my alter i have did
meet my system 
its hard to keep up
please believe me 
even with the slip ups
and a buzzfeed test
told me that im bipolar
you cant call me retarded
yeah its really immoral
and im neurodivergent
you are neurotypical
we want you to feel like we are divisible
if theres not something wrong with you
then theres something wrong with you
the quizzes and videos
they are all calling you

self diagnosis

really_dumb

I don't go out to see the sunlight
I spend my summer days locked inside

Ill never see the light ill never never see the light
I'm terminally online I am chronically online 
Ill never see the light x3

This is exactly where I'm suppose to be 
a loser behind a screen
Got nothing going for me
This is the most Ill ever be

I don't go out to see the sunlight
I spend my summer days locked inside

Ill never see the light ill never never see the light
I'm terminally online I am chronically online 
Ill never see the light x3

This is exactly where I'm suppose to be 
a loser behind a screen
Got nothing going for me
This is the most Ill ever be

Chronically Online

FEATURING THE VOCALS OF MANY:

https://soundcloud.com/picks-in-a-pill-bottle
https://soundcloud.com/kaleb-g-s-2008
https://soundcloud.com/heret1k
https://soundcloud.com/healer777
https://soundcloud.com/fulltimeloser (no kidding)
https://soundcloud.com/milkkkarton
https://soundcloud.com/trvechvd
https://soundcloud.com/parzivalii

life is an rpg and i fucked up my build

Negative XP COVer yo

Im hi as fuck rn i feel like a Greeting...

If this is bad i am sorry 

1965

good music 🔊

🔊 NOW ON ALL STREAMING PLATFORMS !!! 🔊

Beta Test

fwuppy

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