Rant: I made this song in 8 hours and uploaded it here bc I'm so fucking mad at myself that I'm nowhere near as good at music as I want to be no matter how much time I've put in. I understand that it's a never-ending path and that I lack experience, but when I listen to the music of the role models I admire or even any SC artist, I genuinely wonder what I'm doing. I keep thinking about how people in SC who have less equipment make such beautiful music, and I keep telling myself that I'm not cut out for making music because I feel like it might be true given that no matter how hard I seem to try, I just keep producing things that I'm not proud of.  I'm still fucking mad, but I won't stop trying.

Edit: Arhghghg you guys really liked this song and wanted it on spotify so I uploaded it there! Thank you so much for the messages and love. I don't know how to feel. So please feel free to listen on any platform you like ;w; ♥ (Though I mastered the spotify version a bit better heheh)

[Verse]:
Lately I've been taking so much shit from no one but myself
(You wanna break it off, break it off)
I cant get anything to work,
Is it just my lack of talent and reserve?
(Boy, youre just not enough, not enough)

But I wanna cross 
The boundaries that I never thought I'd touch
All the pain that I go through for things I love
And I wanna give it up, god I wanna stop

[Pre]:
God I cant,
Waste my life
All this time, 
Have I done any right?

Dont think I wanna do this anymore
It just makes me feel miserable
Dont even know what to do
Lately I've been feeling like a fraud
Now I put my heart in the ground

"You're not cut for this, stop it now"
Ha, yeah

[Chorus]:
Mess up all the time, oh no
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more 
Mess up all the time, oh no
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more 

(God I cant)
Mess up all the time, oh no
(Waste my life)
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more 
(All this time)
Mess up all the time, oh no
(Have I done any right?)
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more

Frustrated

Love For You

Song with @dwennn!!!

Lyrics:

Baby won't you talk
To me?
I need your lies, to breathe
Oh baby I
Just need you beside me
Was wanting to love you
My mistake?
Cause now I'm lying here awake
Waiting for you

Why don't we talk about everything you
(Made me do)
You wanted love when days turns into dark
(Baby was I-)
Was I for fun or was anything real?
(Made me a fool)
Oh lie to me, cause now I need your love

Don't wanna talk 'bout how she really feel
(No she don't)
Wanted your love but I was not enough
(Baby your love)
Was I for fun or was anything real?
(Made me a fool)
Oh lie to me, cause now I need your love

But no, I didn't have enough
Don't let me go
I need you by my side
Oh baby girl
I'll take your hand
We could make some plans and take it slow
But I know you'll lie cause I'm just some plan B

So it should've been her, biding my time
(I waited for you)
Cause now I get to see her with some other guy
(I wanted to love)
I'm staring at your pics just to pass time baby oh
(I wanted to love, oh)

You got me all alone, conversating
It's hard enough to breathe
Don't know what to believe
You got me all alone, come save me
But baby girl you got me lost

Why don't we talk about everything you
(Made me do)
You wanted love when days turns into dark
(Baby was I-)
Was I for fun or was anything real?
(Made me a fool)
Oh lie to me, cause now I need your love

Don't wanna talk 'bout how she really feel
(No she don't)
Wanted your love but I was not enough
(Baby your love)
Was I for fun or was anything real?
(Made me a fool)
Oh lie to me, cause now I need your love

Loving you
Was my mistake
So I'll be here lying here awake
Waiting for you

ENOUGH (w/ dwen)

A lil' tune to get you in the mood to shake n' bake.
Art made in Blender.

Detox - [prod. by g3mstry]

GATEKEEP

drinks and gameboy

Algo

bôa - duvet flip

#TalkToMe

SLEEPWALKER (feat. brakence)

cover of "love yourself" by justin bieber
made october 20 2024

lyrics:
for all the times that you rained on my parade
and all the clubs you get in using my name
you think you broke my heart, oh girl for goodness sake
you think i'm crying on my own well i ain't
and i didn't wanna write a song
cause i didn't want anyone thinking i still care
i don't but you still hit my phone up
and baby i'll be moving on
and i think you should be something i don't wanna hold back
maybe you should know that

my mama don't like you and she likes everyone
and i never like to admit that i was wrong
and i've been so caught up in my job
didn't see what's going on but now i know
i'm better sleeping on my own
cause if you like the way you look that much
oh baby you should go and love yourself
and if you think that i'm still holding on to something
you should go and love yourself

Love_UrSelf 10/20/24

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