my suicidal thoughts when i’m alone

Damaged [Prod. Ty David]

$uicideboy$ - My Flaws Burn Through My Skin Like Demonic Flames From Hell

[VERSE I: Yung Christ]
i got the glock in my yoga pants
fucking that bitch in a yoga stance
swanging that K in an open stance
loaded from smoking that opium
stain a lil boy in the clothes he's in
all of my walls they closing in
5150
they tryna come get me
just minding my business and moseying
matte black
smoking packs
panic attacks back to back
xanax on my lap debating 
should i relapse?
but back to the hoe i was talking bout
i just wanna put it up in her mouth
pimping up in my blood
wassup cuz?
thuggin that dirty south
four letter
two numbers bitch
GREY*59
three fingers in the air
main bitch by my side
slicky pull up in a quarter mill and slaughter up your daughter
young jesus with them forgi wheels
don't walk he drive on water
anytime, anyplace
any hood, any state
good til i fucking ain't
woods to the fucking face
riding with my baby Sage
lines on expensive plates
tears on my diamond chains
stoic never looking phased
poet when i'm spitting game
show me how that pussy shaved
dosage climbing with my shame
mama crying for my pain
will they ever understand?
can i even help my dad?
money fucking up my fam
giving until there's nothing left
pulling up in that latest "damn!"
chopper stay on me 
don't need no hands
prefer to be lonely 
don't need no friends
hoe we just fucking i don't date fans
i'm with my cousin and talking plans
went to my hood and copped some land
blowing through my money like democrats
2 step on the IRS fuck a tax



[VERSE II: Romeo da Black Rose]
why the fuck you look to me for help?
there ain't an ace in the cards i was dealt
i'm 31
still don't know how to take care of myself
honestly i'm scared that i might melt
leave behind a bunch of black spots on a white pelt
maybe in the next life i'll come back as a nice belt
i don't know
there's a fine line between me and you
the biggest difference is i'll snort that shit and prolly puke
dodge and juke all the bullshit yall try and put me through
but i'm shining
babygirl wylin
catch me riding by with that look in my eyes
palm starts to sweat by the way i'm gripping my 9
yeah i'm always on my toes but i'm still the same height
standing tall over my grave
make sure it's filled with all the people we supposedly saved
make sure you throw the plaques in and all the money we made
i can't put 'em on my wall that shit just ain't my taste
lil shawty wanna marry me
i said "you're better off in debt"
if it didn't work out, baby, i'd be real hard to forget
germans whips and private jets
private beaches to access
fuck on me, baby
i'm still a mess and no that ain't a threat
i ride for my family that's GREY*59
try and be all i can be and not waste my time
on the brink of insanity
i can't make up my mind
yeah i battle my vanite and think i'm blind

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Sing Me a Lullaby, My Sweet Temptation

Matte Black

MATTE BLACK

Not Even Ghosts Are This Empty

due to a pretty high demand, I decided to please you all by uploading this finally. this time it's in a much higher quality(FLAC from Tidal) and of course I included the requested fifth part. to anyone complaining about any missing transitions(if there are any at all), then you should take your complaints to Tidal. I do understand your complaints but if it bothers you so much then you can upload your own version. anyways I never expected there'd be so many people listening to the compilation, but I'm glad my purpose has been fulfilled. enough with the chit-chat, sending love out to each and every one of you, keep your head up and your eyes wide open, never stop questioning the "reality" you happen to be in. peace be with you all, enjoy.
(half of the comments on the previous upload kept asking what song is playing despite me clearly adding each song in the description, well now I'll add timestamps too so there's hopefully less of you asking the same stuff over and over. they are rough estimates, some tracks may be off by a bunch of seconds.)
I No Longer Fear the Razor Guarding My Heel (I)[00:00-07:09];
1. My Flaws Burn Through My Skin Like Demonic Flames from Hell[00:00-02:48]
2. My Scars Are Like Evidence Being Mailed To The Judge[02:48-04:51]
3. I Will Celebrate For Stepping On Broken Glass And Slipping On Stomach Soaked Floors[04:51-07:09]
I No Longer Fear the Razor Guarding My Heel (II)[07:09-14:08];
4. I Will One Day Learn to Fly into the Stars[07:09-09:19]
5. My Closet Is a Graveyard[09:19-11:36]
6. CLYDE (I Hope at Least One of My Ex-Girlfriends Hears This)[11:36-14:08]
I No Longer Fear the Razor Guarding My Heel (III)[14:08-21:02];
7. If You Were To Get What You Deserve, You Would Know What The Bottom Of A Tire Tastes Like[14:08-16:45]
8. Soul Doubt[16:45-18:45]
9. All That glitters Is Not Gold, But It's Still Damn Beautiful[18:45-21:04]
I No Longer Fear the Razor Guarding My Heel (IV)[21:04-28:58];
10. NO SALIVATION FOR THE PROMISE OF SALVATION[21:04-24:15]
11. TRY HOWLING AT THE MOON WHILE BEING STRANGLED[24:15-26:58]
12. MISSED MY CUE FOR CURTAIN CALL[26:58-28:58]
I No Longer Fear the Razor Guarding My Heel (V)[28:58-36:32];
13. Not Even Ghosts Are This Empty[28:58-31:58]
14. Finding Shelter In My Larynx[31:58-34:18]
15. A Little Trauma Can Be Illuminating, And I’m Shining Like The Sun[34:18-36:32]
download the converted compilation in HQ here: https://www.mediafire.com/file/1to47wo386xwptr/$UICIDEBOY$+-+I+NO+LONGER+FEAR+THE+RAZOR+GUARDING+MY+HEEL+(PART+I,II,III,IV,V)+.flac/file

I No Longer Fear The Razor Guarding My Heel (V)

$UICIDEBOY$ - I No Longer Fear the Razor Guarding My Heel (I, II, III, IV, V) [HQ]

one of my favorite $B projects for sure. keeps you from drowning at your lowest. only a few other of their mixtapes are as packed with so many highlights as this one. I'll go as far to say that there isn't one bad song on here. the 13th track I feel kind of does disrupt the vibe of the mixtape, but I still love it. enjoy fellow $B fans, safe travels. I love you, but you should love yourself too. may peace be with you.
1. I Miss My Dead Friends 
2. That Time We Went to Wal Mart In Memphis To Steal Some Shit Before We Met Up With TA To Shoot His Video (Ft. Ghost (Memphis)
3. LTE
4.Gloss of Blood
5. La Croix
6. All My Life I've Wanted a Chevy
7. I Ended Up Driving the Camaro Off the Causeway Bridge
8. April Mourning
9. Cerberus (Ft. Masta Drag)
10. In Order to Cast a Shadow You Must First Light a Fire
11. Handzum $uicide (Ft. Rozz Dyliams)
12. Sold My Soul to Satan Waiting in Line at the Mall
13. Fuck Boy Blood Bath

YUNGDEATHLILLIFE

$UICIDEBOY$ - YUNGDEATHLILLIFE (HQ)

OFFICIAL VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zi3-P4qwpGo
FREE DOWNLOAD: https://suicideboys.bandcamp.com/album/gray-grey
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Gray/Grey

CLOUDS AS WITNESSES

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My Liver Will Handle What My Heart Can't

KILL YOURSELF (Part III)

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[VERSE 1: YUNG $CARECROW]

Locked in my room
Four black walls
Tie the noose
No recall
No resolve
Fuck withdrawal
Rather shoot up till I fall
Murder on call with the 59
Twenty years and it seem like a lifetime
I been hanging everyday from a lifeline
While these fuckers had a dinner every night time
Smo-smokin that dope off the foil let me ball
Hoe please don't call
Don't fuck with ya'll
Spray paint the walls
With blood and whatever
Drag you outside let you rot in the weather
I don't think I can explain any better
I'm $carecrow the terror
I live for the lesser
My birth was an error

[Verse 2: Ruby da Cherry]

i am the lord of loneliness
i'll hold my breath
just spoke with death
he said he hopes for the best
told him i'm roping my neck
then I woke up choking from the hole in my chest
somehow i manage to function and hope
every day got a lump in my throat
that's them pills swallowed whole
smoke a blunt and then fuck all these hoes
end up humping they throat
get the fuck away from me
i hate all of you faithfully
this world was never made for me
thankfully I'm trained to see
passed all the lies, the ranks, the scenes
i'll shank my knees then walk the plank and freeze

ANTARCTICA

FREE DOWNLOAD: germjeezus.bandcamp.com
PROD. BUDD DWYER
ENGINEERED MIXED/MASTERED: @CASHMERECHASE

FUCK Y'ALL HOES (FEAT. $UICIDEBOY$)

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VERSE I: RUBY DA CHERRY

they figure me a dead motherfucker
romeo da black rose
shedding petals
hold me over until they finish digging me a hole
i need a new beginning so i tip toe behind my foe's bitch
unzip, i'm throwing it into that bitch's hole
calling all my enemies the same place where that dick go
fuck an online pussy boy 
talking shit
acting like it was a brick thrown through a window
sticks and stones might break my bones
but words will never hurt me
some slick hoes might catch me froze but soon they will desert me
get rich blow that smoke in o's
don't ever act so thirsty
sick diss though
fuck all this 
slowly die before i'm 30

VERSE II: SLICK SLOTH
isn't it so convincing how that blade slide across my throat
coke residue all in my nose
couple graves dug for my foes and it goes on and on
my girlfriend calling my phone
ain't seen her in about a week
this depression got me weak
ever wake up everyday and you want to die?
life going good 
can't figure out why
blank walls all around me keep the pills near by
play with the nine and then i close my eyes
$uicide only thing gonna gratify this urge to leave
can't you hear my plea?
i'm down on my knees

Tape

KILL YOURSELF (PART IV)

OFFICIAL VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZQRsDx11pCg

[VERSE I: SOULJA RAG MURDER]

all i see is scrubs
face mean mugged
on a couple drugs
smoke with migo plug
FTP my blood
grey the fucking gang
boy stay in your lane
never high
just maintain
hate this fame
hate this game
take these shoes
last a day
oil flowing through my veins
lil remains that make that stain
y'all look good in cellophane mane
insane
real blade
swing it through your fucking brain
i said fuck 'em
we got a problem?
what you gonna do with it?
i think nada
just a persona
and i'm nirvana
popping xans to make you mad i know you want some
rolling rolling rolling rolling rolling rolling rolling
got an ounce of the coke white snow floating
river road shawty
yung christ the one chosen
slick tote the AK47 stolen
woadie joscin' 

[VERSE II: SNOWMANE]

all of yall are oversaturating 'preme and bape
bitch its FTP all fucking day
all yall look the fucking same
fuck the fame
fuck a lane
bitch i'm bout to swerve into the toll booth and scrape the change
bring out your dead and blaming it on yung plague
bitch i pull up with the K
K9 by my right leg until i say OK
K9 on his hind legs ripping off your face
all i gotta say is G*59 until the grave
1 color
2 numbers
3 fingers in the sky amongst the thunder
i'm like fuck the others
ima bring the ruckus
i might fuck your bitch
she swears she suffers under the covers
ima hell hound
hell bound
shawty wanna die
ima sell pounds
shawty said she might let them bells pound
shawty wanna cry
i'm like fuck
every night keep turning black
i close my eyes

KILL YOURSELF Part XII: The Dark Glacier Saga

2ND HAND

NIGHT LOVELL x $UICIDEBOY$ - JOAN OF ARC

[VERSE I: Lord of Loneliness]

It's lonely at the top
all of my enemies have been defeated
the crown has been sitting on my head for too long
it's starting to give me these legions
don't follow the crowd
the crowd is misleading
stay solo
surrounded by all of my demons
licking my wounds as they deepen
constantly feeding them all of my secrets
007
i got the golden gun
i got the golden
im busting
open up the door
I'm at my breaking point
I cannot take this shit no more
I'm ready to fucking explode
open up
knock knock
here comes the glock cocked
9 mili pop pop pop
oh no
making a mess
my aim ain't the best
I guess I should clean this all up and go home

[VERSE II: Yung Mane]

Percocet, Roxycodone, with some Xanax that I had crushed up in some dust
elevated to another dimension so I got a limp in my strut
I do not care to be here or be there
in the mean time, it seems that I'm stuck
swerving and crashing
that dying little bastard
Yung Christ, you address me as such
crazy little demon
they wave when they see me
face tatted from ear to ear
northside boy with a glock sized toy
if I cock it there's going to be tears here
manic depressive
when life is in session, I hide in a room that's as dark as me
dollar sign - B
and it's still F-T-P
fucking G-R-E-Y till I R-I-P

THAT JUST ISN'T EMPIRICALLY POSSIBLE

Tracklist:

Complete - Jordan (slowed to perfection)

Complete - jordan (slowed to perfection)

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﹒⁀   𓈒   𓂂 ׅ  𓏸 𝖙𝖗𝖞𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖔 𝖋𝖎𝖝 𝖜𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖘𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗𝖊𝖉... ˚ ༘ [ę] ೀ

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﹑   𝒏𝒂𝒎𝒆 ﹕ 𝓔𝓶
﹑   𝒂𝒈𝒆 ﹕ ᵁⁿᵈᵉʳ ¹⁹ ᵇᵘᵗ ᵒᵛᵉʳ ¹⁵
﹑   𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒔 ﹕ 𝕾𝖍𝖊/𝖍𝖊𝖗
﹑   𝒅𝒎 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒕𝒖𝒔 ﹕ 𝙰𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚘𝚙𝚎𝚗 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚠𝚘𝚗’𝚝 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚛𝚎𝚙𝚕𝚢
﹑   𝑫𝒊𝒔𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 ﹕ ℜ𝔞𝔠𝔦𝔰𝔱𝔰, 𝔟𝔦𝔱𝔠𝔥𝔢𝔰 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔭𝔭𝔩 𝔴𝔥𝔬 𝔥𝔞𝔱𝔢 
                   𝔬𝔫 𝔬𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔰 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔴𝔥𝔬 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔶 𝔞𝔯𝔢 𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔫𝔡𝔰 𝔴𝔦𝔱𝔥.



🌕 - on
🌓 - on/off
🌑 - off
💤 - asleep
🎧 - listening to music 
😞 - at school 
⭐️ -  at home
🥂 - on school holiday 
🗺️ - in another country 
🧸 - wondering wtf is going on 
🌺 - talking to ppl
🌸 - happy
🫧 - emotionless
🍂 - lonely 
🫙 - having bad intrusive thoughts 
🥀 - wanting to die/kms
😷 - sick asf
✨ - having a umm life ig
🌩️ - need someone in particular (they prob know who they r)
🔥 - wanting to kill someone 
🛍️ - shopping 
⚡️ - pls go away and get a life 
🎀 - with my besties 
💧 - swimming
☁️ - crying 

{🕷️~’Even if i’m off ill get back to you :*🕸️-



𝐇𝐢= 𝐘𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐜𝐮𝐭𝐞
𝐇𝐞𝐲 = 𝐈 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮
𝐇𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐨 = 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮
𝐒𝐮𝐩 = 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮
𝐘𝐨= 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚 𝐜𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐡 𝐨𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮
𝐖𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐮𝐩 = 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝
𝐀𝐲𝐞= 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐞

﹒⁀ ㅤ 𓂂 ׅ  𓏸𓍯ֶָ֢𓎟
﹒ ♩and we both know 𖥻 ִ ۫  ּ
イ ﹒∿ ﹒ this cant go on foreverྀི

‿︵‿︵‿୨୧‿︵‿︵‿
𝚃𝚑𝚡 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚢 𝚋𝚒𝚘 
ᶜᵒᵐᵉ ᵇᵃᶜᵏ ˢᵒᵒⁿ
. ◠ . ◠ . ◠ . ◠. ◠ . ◠ . ◠ . ◠. ◠ . ◠ . ◠ .

KILL YOURSELF (PART IV)

$UICIDEBOY$

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