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The Upload

The Upload 1

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CHURCH & AP - READY OR NOT (INSTRUMENTAL)

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It's Happening

SPOTIFY:
https://open.spotify.com/album/0Ku2JIGUMA3i4tImTMkngp?si=ve2ROX5JSmy29YM_sVMb9Q

APPLE MUSIC:
https://music.apple.com/us/album/desire/1477370982?uo=4&app=music

FREE DOWNLOAD:
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1UOW_ZRWCIc4fMtVRhK00ZxrCK9vDqJrZ?usp=drive_link

BOOKLET:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/qh27xr1idjo45bs/DESIRE%20Booklet.pdf?dl=0

LINER NOTES + LETTER:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1wl5VqbNEWCGjuNocDZmEQ7fxdrEa4RkH/view?usp=sharing

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About
DESIRE is the second album in my DEVOTION trilogy. I've been working on it for close to 3 years now and it has gone through so many revisions in that time. If you had read my other letters, I trashed the concept I had for this album in 2017 and released half of it in the form of LNR_[02]. It didn't live up to my expectations at the time. I've always struggled with self-acceptance and confidence issues and it was at an all time low for me at that point. This album has been weighing on my shoulders for all of those 2 1/2 years. It hung over me like a dark cloud because every time I thought about it or spoke about it, I treated it like it was the one that was going to blow me up. "This time for sure.." "It'll definitely get me there.." All toxic thoughts. Thoughts I couldn't even view as toxic because I had lost myself in my work and expectations. So the album is a story of self-hate and of self-growth. A reflection of self-doubt and dealing with all of the negative emotions that have come with the disappointment I have been feeling for the past two years. A battle against the feeling of always coming up short and an introspective study on my obsession with a past I can't change and the fear of a future I don't know.

The album reflects on the nature of desire and the Zen Buddhist principle of how attachment is the root of all suffering, especially when it comes to personal goals and past relationships. It deals with sexual desire, career desire, materialistic desire, emotional desire, and a wide range of other desires. I use my music to confront my own selfish desires and the dichotomy it carries in everyday life. I also investigate the theme of desire in the context of my own religious faith, not only of Zen, but confronting and challenging Christian themes and ideas which are woven throughout the record. The struggle with my own dichotomy of striving to be humble, yet wanting to be best/the center of attention (when it comes to my music). Striving to be non-materialistic, yet wanting to buy nearly every VST and synthesizer I come across or wanting to buy Balenciaga or CDG clothing. Striving to be saintly yet embody all of the seven sins as I am so jealous, proud, lustful, etc. towards so many things. Alan Watts said that Christianity has made guilt a virtue, and whatever your thoughts of Alan Watts (i.e. entertainer vs philosopher) I think it's an interesting point. The guilt I feel for wanting all of these things when I was raised Christian extends itself into so many other aspects of my life. Aspects that I can't speak about at the moment out of respect for personal and familial relationships.  But I guess all of this is just the nature of being human.

[..] Full letter in the link above^^

SPOTIFY

AFTERLIFE

SPOTIFY:
https://open.spotify.com/album/0Ku2JIGUMA3i4tImTMkngp?si=ve2ROX5JSmy29YM_sVMb9Q

APPLE MUSIC:
https://music.apple.com/us/album/desire/1477370982?uo=4&app=music

FREE DOWNLOAD:
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1UOW_ZRWCIc4fMtVRhK00ZxrCK9vDqJrZ?usp=drive_link

BOOKLET:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1B_9nTqMegQJlxeIVEk0XuhTig8KNEq5S/view?usp=sharing

LINER NOTES + LETTER:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1wl5VqbNEWCGjuNocDZmEQ7fxdrEa4RkH/view?usp=sharing

Join the subreddit:
https://reddit.com/r/prodbykillerbee

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About
DESIRE is the second album in my DEVOTION trilogy. I've been working on it for close to 3 years now and it has gone through so many revisions in that time. If you had read my other letters, I trashed the concept I had for this album in 2017 and released half of it in the form of LNR_[02]. It didn't live up to my expectations at the time. I've always struggled with self-acceptance and confidence issues and it was at an all time low for me at that point. This album has been weighing on my shoulders for all of those 2 1/2 years. It hung over me like a dark cloud because every time I thought about it or spoke about it, I treated it like it was the one that was going to blow me up. "This time for sure.." "It'll definitely get me there.." All toxic thoughts. Thoughts I couldn't even view as toxic because I had lost myself in my work and expectations. So the album is a story of self-hate and of self-growth. A reflection of self-doubt and dealing with all of the negative emotions that have come with the disappointment I have been feeling for the past two years. A battle against the feeling of always coming up short and an introspective study on my obsession with a past I can't change and the fear of a future I don't know.

The album reflects on the nature of desire and the Zen Buddhist principle of how attachment is the root of all suffering, especially when it comes to personal goals and past relationships. It deals with sexual desire, career desire, materialistic desire, emotional desire, and a wide range of other desires. I use my music to confront my own selfish desires and the dichotomy it carries in everyday life. I also investigate the theme of desire in the context of my own religious faith, not only of Zen, but confronting and challenging Christian themes and ideas which are woven throughout the record. The struggle with my own dichotomy of striving to be humble, yet wanting to be best/the center of attention (when it comes to my music). Striving to be non-materialistic, yet wanting to buy nearly every VST and synthesizer I come across or wanting to buy Balenciaga or CDG clothing. Striving to be saintly yet embody all of the seven sins as I am so jealous, proud, lustful, etc. towards so many things. Alan Watts said that Christianity has made guilt a virtue, and whatever your thoughts of Alan Watts (i.e. entertainer vs philosopher) I think it's an interesting point. The guilt I feel for wanting all of these things when I was raised Christian extends itself into so many other aspects of my life. Aspects that I can't speak about at the moment out of respect for personal and familial relationships.  But I guess all of this is just the nature of being human.

[..] Full letter in the link above^^

DISTURBIA

Satin

First collaboration with https://soundcloud.com/kylemcevoymusic, what a joy working with him!

Kyle McEvoy & iamalex - Forest Canopy

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Note To Self feat. Soul Food Horns

Welcome to Mercury Landing. Begin your journey through the Galaxy with smooth sounds curated by @murcutian

Episode #001 features sounds by; Mecca:83, J Dilla, Dennis Brown, ESTA., Viberoc and more. Sit back, relax and enjoy the ride.

Tracklist

Mercury Landing Episode #001

First of the Year, Ode to the flows of Little Brother and Aubrey and the Vibes of 9th

10th Wonder(feat. ROMderful)

big ups to this weeks guests...

@conducta of @kiwirekords
@adrian_e of @champainlyf

Get the tracklist.. 
http://shantanichiban.com

keep up w nu mixes :D

CONDUCTA + ADRIAN.E | UKG MIX

See Dee X WLLFLXX - Tha Cure

one of the only things i made on logic w/ phil (2016)

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Kehlani - All Me (feat. Keyshia Cole)(JON REYES TOWNBIZ EDIT)

vibeout time.

new joints as always, be working on some more things real soon as soon as uni gets lighter.

n'joy da vibes.

i just want to...

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everybody put up they hands

Welcome to show 41!

@djrhyrhy came through the booth and blessed us with a fire set. We also got a chance to chop it up and learn more about her, her influences and goals in the music game. Go give her account a follow - her first mix is up there now and it's dope.  

I start the show off with some soulful vibes from Hasan Insane, King Most, Franchise, Jun Tanaka, as well as some classic 90s hip hop. 

Tracklist coming soon, comment for ID in the meantime.

Tune in to the @up_records Radio Show live every Sunday night from 9 PM to 10 PM PDT on Save on Radio. Download the Save on Radio app for free to listen in live or go to www.saveonradio.com/

Shout out to @cocoasensei for the cover art.

Up. Radio Show #41 featuring RhyRhy

Wanted to get some new music out this month but there's been some delays on that front, so I thought i'd just drop this remix i've had on my hard drive for the last year or so. Just click the buy tab for a free download.

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one of the only things i made on logic w/ phil (2016)

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