the day after valentine's day

my guts are black, must be a product of fear
the world’s hardly merciful 
i’m crawling on all fours
writhing with glee

every-
thing stays the same
stagnance 
and an intolerance to change

i don’t live by days, just a calendar year
it’s what feels most comfortable
with everything burning 
perpetually 

every-
thing stays the same
stagnance 
and an intolerance to change


my guts are black, must be a product of fear
the world’s hardly merciful 
i’m crawling on all fours
writhing with glee

i don’t live by days, just a calendar year
it’s what feels most comfortable
with everything burning 
perpetually 

i don’t live by days, just a calendar year

calendar year

Every Moment of your Life

what i remember of you 2024

support @wishing-music
bandcamp: https://wishing.bandcamp.com/album/to-forget

make your way back home
to the other side of town
or anywhere i don't come undone
but you hold my hand and you promise me
that we'll be just fine when we fall asleep
you'll be the one that holds me up

but when you're gone it's all just
black walls black sheets black eyes black clothes
black cars black streets black skies black holes
i'll be the one that's giving up

make my bed and leave
soap and shower clean
tugging on my sleeve
i need to leave
hope you got that job
at the bakery
it keeps escaping me
crazy me

are you coming home?
you've been gone all week
i can feel the gaps like they're missing teeth
you're the one who keeps me up
but when you're gone it's all just
black walls black sheets black eyes black clothes
black cars black streets black skies black holes
i'll be the one that's giving up

https://wishing.bandcamp.com

to forget

wishing - missing teeth

exceed your vision

ilysm

see him when i close my eyes
see him in his disguise 
waiting for me to find
him sitting in my mind
i dont wanna see him again
i just want to move on

i'll see him with my eyes

see him when i come back down
i dont wanna come around
i dont wanna see the light 
i dont think that i can fight 

him off anymore

i'll see him with my eyes

hello

"a pop/sound art album written and recorded while on spring break. the original idea for the project was to set every project and obligation i had aside and just write and record music constantly. there would be no rules and no limitations, beyond the time-limit. 
i did just that. 

thanks to colleen wynn for the cover art (she also designed the unlimited-free-milkshakes label logo!) check her out here - www.flickr.com/photos/colleen-w "
download the album and support the artist: https://unlimitedfreemilkshakes.bandcamp.com/album/spring-break

spring break!

i was my own favorite tv show the summer my tv broke

Careless - Lucid Dreaming

frail is how I see me
giving up on changing is ending me
feeling like I can’t feel
just another symptom you can’t heal

find nothing in everything 
mend my brain don’t want to break again
i can make you crave to be
someone that you’re really afraid to see

ignoring that corner inside of my
mind
tried to make sense of the patterns
im wrong
dream of a beauty in being so 
dull
disordered condition of living 
done choice

heart pounding why not be
learn to swim inside the dark abyss
you can make me so weak
use me like you used to when im sick

ignoring that corner inside of my
hell
tried to make sense of the patterns
they’re gone
dream of a beauty in being so 
numb
disordered condition of dying 
done choice

frail

I hate most of these songs but I’ll leave them as somewhat of an archive if I die lol.

exceed your vision

gavin m