Racks In My Thoughts

LYRICS:

i got to much fears that i cant face alone
i been needing you more thn ever
i wanna go back in time to the day that i met her

all theses thoughts are the things that makes me
sometimes i cant take it im losing it baby
i dont fight for u, or myself
its just the thought of helping someone else
all theses thoughts are the things that makes me
sometimes i cant take it im losing it baby
i dont fight for u, or myself
its just the thought of helping someone else

i dont fight for u, i dont fight for myself
its the thought of helping someone else

i been in my head baby no u cannot save me
lately i been feeling like u fucklin hate me
dont know why u date me
u say i drive u crazy
dont know whats the problem i told u from the beginning

i been on the edge
waking up on
the wrong side of bed
its fucking with my head
i just wish i was dead
i wish we never met
my fears were right it was all for nothing

i got to much fears that i cant face alone
i been needing you more thn ever
i wanna go back in time to the day that i met her

all theses thoughts are the things that makes me
sometimes i cant take it im losing it baby
i dont fight for u, or myself
its just the thought of helping someone else
all theses thoughts are the things that makes me
sometimes i cant take it im losing it baby
i dont fight for u, or myself
its just the thought of helping someone else

i dont fight for u, i dont fight for myself
its the thought of helping someone else

rotted (p. drma)

her friends (feat. October)

psycho! [p. recyclebin]

i hate the music community but i love her

Lyrics -

Some say its worth it
But I know I’m fucked up inside

(I would like to pretend baby)
(You and me in the end baby)

Some think they’re perfect
Bur fuck ‘em all cuz everybody dies

(I would like to pretend baby)

And we pretend we wont die at all

October nights
You and I
We don’t have to fantasize
My love for you never dies
The obsession only multiplies

I would kill to keep you alive girl
I would kill to just see your eyes tonight

(I would like to pretend baby)
(You and me in the end baby)

Find your substance
Call your friends
Feel alone
When the party ends

I don’t party enough
I should start again
In the studio
I’m goin’ hard again

I feel a thousand miles away from my baby
I feel like I just might go crazy girl

That’s how you make me girl,
I love you.

Some say were fuck ups
And I agree with ‘em
I hate everyone around
But when I leave I’m gon miss ‘em
Some of us got habits
One day we gon kick ‘em
Your problems are my problems
So baby I’m gon fix ‘em

Some say they’ll never change,
Watched them all fade away.

I lost it all.
Baby I lost it all, hope you stay.

(I would like to pretend baby)
(You and me in the end baby)

Some say its worth it
But I know I’m fucked up inside

(I would like to pretend baby)
(You and me in the end baby)

Some think they’re perfect
Bur fuck ‘em all cuz everybody dies

(I would like to pretend baby)

And we pretend we wont die at all

October nights
You and I
We don’t have to fantasize
My love for you never dies
The obsession only multiplies

I would kill to keep you alive girl
I would kill to just see your eyes tonight

(I would like to pretend baby)
(You and me in the end baby)

to pretend // october nights (p. matt bartkus)

paparazzi

Err
ok I think I’m somewhere on the right path
Hold on open up ya mouth I think I like that 
Text me once or twice I still ain’t write back
Hell no I’m not saving you find a life vest
I heard the truth hurts and it’s hard to digest
I fucking hate looking at your face why you ain’t die yet
Ok baby you can slide jus keep it private
They keep talking bout they dying lit im tryna die rich
Wonder who gon stick right by my side when I hear sirens
OK bae I’m tweaking outside I been wyling
Ooo
Money hit my bank and I start smiling
Give a fuck what a nigga think I’m on timing
Oooo
Plug jus hit my woo
Say I’m gong dumb
I jus pulled up on her 
Skrrt ha
I drop it on her tongue
Oo 
Smoke inside my lungs
Oo
It’s a party
I can barely move my fucking WOO
Move my body
Ok bae I really love it when you wanna ride it
Ok bae I love it love it in ya mouth I trident
Huh I’m surviving ok I lied I’m thriving
I jus made bout hmmm I think bout 5 thousand
I jus dropped my song and it got em all wyling
Ill drop another one if it means that ur smiling

4u(; [p. silver]

lyrics:

kill me slowly, i'm tryna die faster
my soul's so lonely, my heart's your platter
kill me slowly, i'm done with this life shit
you say you know me but i don't like it

treading lightly, you say you loathe me
you say you like me, you just can't show me
i know you don't like when i do my worst
you're tryna help, it's getting worse
get a grip on my health, put that shit in reverse
i need your help, pick me up in a hearse
i'm back in my shell, guess i'm never gonna learn
you're gonna send me to hell, i know you really wish the worst
the way no one can tell that you put me on a curse
can you tell that she threw me in the deep end?
can you tell she got my heart but she can't keep it?
if you tell me that you love me then i'm sleeping
i got the codes for this shit like i'm cheating
can you tell i'm going up but i'm still bleeding?

[chorus]

no i don't like it, but i've been fighting
you think you can read my mind but you're not a psychic
don't know what she's tryna hide but i'm tryna find it
getting tired of the games, i'm so sick of lying
overthinking, overdoing, everything has gone south
now you wanna make up but i'm already gone now
you can try and keep up if you wanna find out
you can do it all wrong, baby this is your life now
kill me slowly, don't know why i'm holding on
life gets lonely, but i'm guessing that's the cost
you don't know me, really that's the truth
but you'll just call me psycho like you always do

platter ft. vvsaint (prod. blossom1)

lyrics:

when is my life gonna end, like can it get any worse?
swerving my car round the bend, i should've bought me a hearse
i should've never had a friend cus in the end it only hurts me
i should've learnt to play it dirty
it's 11:30, i'm pouring up the lager
all this shit i'm doing, swear i disappoint my father
throw me in the derby, i'm making enemies with karma
every time they left me on the curb so i surround myself with armour

i'm in the field like a farmer
if i was american i'd tell you i have trauma
can't deal with immaturity surrounding drama
they dragged it on for so long, i got trauma from that
i'm not hot-headed, i prefer a korma
but i don't feel happy when backed into corners
i don't have money to possibly launder
i got a clean record, i'm normal for that
am i normal? i'm not normal
i'm a weirdo, why you acting formal?
i attract attention, that's why i'm immortal
why i gotta live for so long on this planet?
i'ma jump through the portal
i'ma call up my friends, let's do anything unlawful
i'm waking up every day feeling awful
if i died, would you feel awful? like

derby (prod. ninewaters)

If you wish to contact me, feel free to DM me on SoundCloud, or send me an email at 9inewaters@gmail.com. I hope you enjoy this mixtape and thank you for listening (also sorry for not dropping it sooner LOL).

we can stay hopeful ft. darza (prod. 8t33n)

lyrics:

i feel exhausted, my feelings deported
i'm feeling haunted, i need your support
i'ma leave you in the past, yeah i had to cut it short
i'm controlled by your strings but at least i'm never bored
i feel exhausted, my feelings deported
i'm feeling haunted, i need your support
yeah i had to cut them off cus i'm not fucking with these whores
i don't care about your feelings or your cause

you wanna love me, are you sure?
i don't really fuck with you cus you got insecurities
i don't really fuck with those who lack in all maturity
i don't really fuck with those who stick with the majority
it's why i'm by my lonely
i don't really fuck with those who keep pretending that they know me
i'm in my pit, so cozy
i'm just tryna keep warm cus in my soul it's always snowing
could you keep me warm inside?
you can't do that for me, you're so disappointing
i'm tryna put up with your shit but you're just really annoying
it's your soul i'm destroying but i do it for fun
see me, better run
cus when it comes to wrecking shit yeah i am next to none
i'm so exhausted, i've only just begun
my world is distorted, but i don't think i'm done

Racks In My Thoughts

G3TLO