Fill this song 
With my dreams
Love is strong
The brave believe
Believe in me
When I don't
Feel my tears
Run down your cheek 
I don't want to know 
and not feel
Because isn't it both 
Which makes it real
What is real
Can I touch it 
When I find it 
I'm taking it with me


Both

rescue me 
give me emotion
i can't feel 
anything 
mm
i try to sing
of a something
that i know 
nothing of
mm
will you rescue me
I'm only human
i am weak
so break me open
so break me open, open, open

Break Me Open

I’m my own my own biggest contradiction 
In one step alone I question my direction
I want to feel tall, but not by making others small
And I want to be brave but turn from what I am afraid 
And in my reflection my better self says with such conviction

I see that look in your eyes, when you’re giving a smile but deep down you’re frightened 
Take one step in your life and then backtrack, don’t know if you like it 
Cuz that fear that you hide won’t give it a rest till you compromise it 
You’re not small this time, it’s funny to me you think you don’t got it
Cuz that’s the furthest from the truth truth truth truth you got it 

And I’m my own my own biggest contradiction 
I am scared that I don’t really know contentment 
Is it being still in every type of weather
Is it being chill and only looking at what’s better 
Is that living still, is that a life that’s real 
Is that contentment or avoidance of I need to feel 
	Show me what is real 
and in my reflection my better self says with conviction 


Biggest Contradiction

I’m an escape artist honey
Could look for years down at my feet cuz I’m scared of what is coming 
And it’s childish of me but I am so damn good at running 
So look at me this is my heart when walls have fallen 
I tell myself—that I'm growing up just fine
But in the night—I wonder if I’m doing right
Cuz I guess in happiness you can still be a long way from fine
But I swear I do my best not to be part of the crimes 

I know it’s hard for me to understand when I am wrong 
I hold on to innocence like I’ll die if I don’t 
Don’t want to be bad, that shame wouldl eat me up  
But ironically, I’d die too if I stayed stuck 

That’s the way it is—am I growing up just fine?
And in the nights, I wonder if I’m doing right
Sometimes in happiness you might find it’s the best place to hide
But I swear I do my best not to be part of the crimes

hold me gently please, I’m scared if that’s not clear 
I feel alone like I don’t matter if no one else is here 
Tell me I’m fine – don’t have that strength in me tonight 
Be my friend, share back and forth the love tonight

And I’m just hoping, that I’m growing up just fine
Oh tonight, I’m worried if I’m doing right
Cuz even in happiness you could still be a long way from fine 
And I just hope I’m good enough even when my best just isn’t right 
but I’ll make it right 



Escape Artist

Nightingale nature sound at the beginning of the song is captured by Aries Munandi on YouTube and the cricket night sounds at the end of the song are by danik1953 on YouTube
Dedicated to my grandfather who loved birdwatching!

Nightingale
On my window sill
What you sing?
Is it a good thing?
What you want?
All my love?
Come and get it child 
Cuz I run 
Beautiful in your eyes 
What you looking for 
Take all mine
Take your time
Don’t you rush
We got all this life 
In front of us
Don’t you worry now 
Struggle is part of life
So is what is right
Be true to every side 
You deserve it child
Be true to what you find
You deserve it child 
Be true to every side


Nightingale

Dr. Brittney Cooper joins us this week to talk about Adele's Grammy Awards mention of her "black friends," and why we should look deeper than our initial irritation at her comments. Here's Dr. Cooper's article on it for Cosmopolitan: http://www.cosmopolitan.com/entertainment/music/a8775477/adele-black-friends-at-the-grammys/

This Week On Strange Fruit: Adele's Black Friends

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COMING SOON: Yaba Blay on Being a #ProfessionalBlackGirl

Each night I fall asleep thinking there is more good than bad
awake to a tragedy hoping the world was better than that.

I find it difficult to understand
that all humans bleed the same but have such different plans
I reuse to accept these trying times
I'm grasping at the straws just to remain kind.

Our differences could drowned me in vengeful thoughts
Or I could pray for your imposion
But then we'd all be entangled in loss
Can we come together for just this moment?

Cause

I see a bright future without fear
a storm of loss and loss make us questions what's happening here
Only in the eye of the storm can we strive forward
Stronger than rivers and mountains as a united force, united force.

We travel different paths but have the same vision,
protect the one's we love, keep them safe
We're blinded by divison, how did we get here?
Who has ever improved the world with hate?

But

I see a bright future without fear
a storm of loss and loss make us questions what's happening here
Only in the eye of the storm can we strive forward
Stronger than rivers and mountains as a united force, united force.

Make room for me when I fall short
we don't see eye to eye, but I see your worth
Do your best to walk in another's shoes
Reach across the aisle, see more than
more than just rules.

Each night you fall asleep have more good thoughts than bad
Don't fall for the fallacy that we cannot bring love back.

Better Than That

Emi and Elise Hanson get together to talk about their experiences with health challenges like lyme disease and chronic pain, how they've found agency and self advocacy through those journeys, and what this means for friendships.

CW: eating disorders, some discussion of body changes, some discussion of food, health issues, difficult experiences with doctors

navigating health challenges and developing agency with elise hanson

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