scruffpuppie

the last demo before the album is officially released
(artwork done by allyssa van cuyk)

affection

demo I wrote for a project that is currently in the works

derogatory robot- demo

the only reason I'm uploading this is because I love the way it sounds it's not even the full song

alien- little tyrant cover snippet

lyrics:
so this is what you meant
when i saw you get distant
i begged and pleaded you
free of care you used
me to tie your shoes
to pick you off your blues
with all the wine we sipped
you never gave a shit

and now im lost inside a glass museum
what did i do to make you look to him
i thought the trip we had meant more
but now im hurting im so fucking sore

so this is what you meant
when u put it to an end

glass museum

I tried
tried to explain how I wasn't right
and now I don't know how I will survive
shadows round me I don't even mind
mind

you lied
lied about the things you couldn't hide
so I stopped caring stopped trying to fly
amidst all of these feelings I'm so high

rest your head inside of mine
fill it up with pretty lies 
and I'll try to get a clue so I can open up to u
and start breaking ur heart instead of mine
every time
if I got time
I don't have time
every time

time (ft. spencer)

do u still (u saw the sky in me)ft. spencer

I found a sketchbook I owned when I lived in texas, this isn't really a song, but more of a story about my growth from an ignorant, selfish child, from a young boy who began to experience hell and hurt, to somebody who wants more than anything to help those experiencing hell and hurt. I hope you enjoy.
the story:

7 to 13 years ago
your little sketchbook snuck it's way into your posession. so little. so carefree
when you were a selfish brat who never saw the world outside of the light load you carried

you left home 13 years later
young, naive, and scared.
clinging to your materialistic desires.
and look at you now;
not so naive anymore.
you've learned so much, but it's not so easy now
18 years later you've discovered so much happiness subjective
not too many are as lucky as you 
life is pain but you know that now 
you know relentless pain
you know the endless rain
everything is burning as you sing
trying to save broken minds
take them under your wing
anything that you can do
to help the souls who felt like you
sometimes words make do
when you don't stop asking who
who will help me thru

you know hell

I spend every single day thinking about how it’s always someone’s last, and it’s never going to end, until it does, of course.

learning to know hell from the beginning

up up  down  down red- grimtweakr

this song had so much meaning to me a long time ago I hope u enjoy. this cover

snow (xxxtentacion cover)

here's an acoustic demo I wrote since I haven't posted one in a good while, I hope u enjoy
lyrics:
speed for breakfast and i spin
weak and careless is all i've ever been
drowning in a lake of sin
mother tells me time and time again
selfish intake for my brain
trying to feel sane again

self indulgence and fake romance 
longing for some change
im being honest i just want my thoughts
to be blocked from the pouring rain

can't show emotions to the people  who care
and dared to ask me why, why i am always so high
im ready to die 
cross the river stix but no goodbye
i jump inside
and decompose 
destroy my soul
but maybe one more line of coke
to wake me up
destroy my gut
with drugs i take to stay awake
words can't help and i'm to blame

(chorus)

so much pain
all for worthless gain
in a field of grass and hay

crying softly as I lay 
vision blurrys as i stare
i don't want you all to care

scruffpuppie

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