I wouldn’t know what to say if you picked up the phone 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤phone

I don’t think I’ve found a song of yours I haven’t loved yet lmaooo, keep it up ts truly beautiful 🫀

【﻿ｂｒｉｎｇ　ｍｅ　ｃｌｏｓｅ，　ｋｅｅｐ　ｍｅ　ｃｌｏｓｅｒ．】

thought i'd release something for new year's eve :')
prod @1michaelharrison
[soundcloud exclusive for the time-being]
i can't begin to thank you all for the support this past year.
i have so much i've been working on that i've been planning out for the near future.
for now, just,  thank you so much for being here & listening.
hope you enjoy. 🖤

at some point something's gotta work
when i reflect upon my actions
i always go unheard, it's like:
year's passed, it still hurts
different me, same curse
why am i inclined to feel at all anyways
'cause i hate this song, and the way that it's sang
but i'll repeat my fate
a new day's another phase
it's obvious you don't care what i say

i crave your touch but you won't ever find me
i'm sat in plain sight, with my hands on my eyes
'cause if i cover them up i have infinite vision
so why
do i keep reminiscing?

about the moves that i make
about the words that i say
about the thoughts that i think
about the time of the day

i'll take my time to heal, but it's never enough
if you got room to judge
then you got room to care
i feel so impaired
i need you right now
and i hope it works out
i hope you play fair
'cause i'm trying my best
but you're never there
every moment blends together too fast
and i hate myself for the way that i feel
liquid spills over downing some pills

what's real? (4x)

tdi on the tv
hoping i don't grow up
miss being a preteen
and not seeking closure
bring me close
keep me closer
bring me close
keep me..

different me, same curse [prod. michael harrison]

rest in peace to everybody i love you all 

i’ve finally had enough 
baby won’t you grab your coat
and go home 

if you’re not happy, stop
baby just take the jump
or you’ll never know 

“and oh he’s such a cunt”
well if that’s the case
then why’d you stay for? 

and she loves him so much
she gets on with his mom
yea they still talk 

and i promise i’m tryin my love can u see it
“i swear to god that ima make it this year”
but this music it comes and it goes like the feelin
of missing somebody you want but can’t see em
when i’m in the zone think i’m one of the meanest
4 years in this game, im still new, ima realist 
i been sippin for years 25 i’m still geekin
think it’s time to grow up, i wrap up the bleeding
i’m skating to work fuck your friends ima kill em
still feelin 18, pick these pills up n spin em 
i miss my friend collins he couldn’t stay here
so he took his own life, hug your friends when you see em 
shoutout to nickisgonenow, rest in peace 
shoutout to jd, pvscale, joe and sleep
we still here please try remember the key
i got family and friends yea what more do i need 

so stop right there
lay your head here 
on my chest 

and i’d jump 
i swear 
if you want it 
giveth you my best 

and i’m fucked
i pray
that god looks down with pity
on my head 

so just go
i’ll be okay :( 
just give me a year
before we talk again

i’ve finally had enough 
baby won’t you grab your coat
and go home 

if you’re not happy, stop
baby just take the jump
or you’ll never know 

“and oh he’s such a cunt”
well if that’s the case
then why’d you stay for? 

and she loves him so much
she gets on with his mom
yea they still talk

a song for the angels (branwen + nevrfall)

(prod. emmett)

oh my god this is it
dressing up for this bitch
im alone
but im in love

she just wanna go home
she dont want no one
she just be alone
but shes always on her phone

she dont make it make sense
she just wanna dip

sorry to say this
ima make up lies just to play this
thats what you thouigh last week when i made this
said ill take you somewhere nice i dont deserve this
but i got it cause im worthless

weighing out the pros and the cons im kinda used to it
fucked up every little thing on my conscious
in my mind you were everything that i wanted
but in reality you showed me that you are - nothin

whys there silence
im just getting by it
whys it getting quiet
i just met you why you violent

cannot a trust a soul its really tiring
writing in my diary
age a little fast im looking scary whys there sirens
and my heart bleeds out the pain
i saw you on hinge today


oh my god this is it
dressing up for this bitch
im alone
but im in love

she just wanna go home
she dont want no one
she just be alone
but shes always on her phone

she dont make it make sense
she just wanna dip

she dont make it make sense

crumbling everywhere i go to, lately 
breaking down nowadays is something, daily 
i swear i tried but i can't seem to escape this trapped in a maze where every corner's an abyss

it seems like no1's trynna save me 
no helping hands, no calls nor texts
they just leave me to face it
got no support, full of remorse i need you to embrace me 
in ur arms, they sooth the scars and make me just forget this

u didn't care u din't ask
all our love's fading fast 
hit me sudden like a crash 
watch us both turn into ash 

make of my heart a cast
pour hot iron on my chest
watch me fail to catcha breath
as my body slowly melts r 

and i’ll sit alone
my phones on dnd 
but it wouldn’t matter 
no one checks on me 
and they’ll say they care
but don’t listen closely 
they’ll say they care 
when i finally can’t breathe 

friends hit me for a feature 
but they’ve never shared my songs 
and i’ll pretend it’s cool 
cause it’s not worth i’ll play along  
so i may be a narcissist 
please say that it’s okay 
cause if i do not love myself 
then that leaves no one loving me 

i walk alone 
drag broken bones 
they throw their stones 
and go for my throat 
i’ll turn off my phone 
and i’ll keep it closed 
cause i don’t need anyone to know where i’ll go

u didn't care u din't ask
all our love's fading fast 
hit me sudden like a crash 
watch us both turn into ash 

make of my heart a cast
pour hot iron on my chest
watch me fail to catcha breath
as my body slowly melts r

casperrr & geist - cast (pekarot)

so it’s just me and this tap water
all full of lead
and we circle the drain
til i go back to bed
it’s just you in the morning
you’re all that i want
and you’re so far away
hope the bombs don’t go off
and this world is bad theater
the third act is on
and it’s falling apart
til the curtain draws
there’s a light i can’t see
but it shines on the stage
and i’m sewn to my seat
like i’m part of the play 
is it true? what you told me
an autumn ago 
empty words in the darkness 
from mouths full of smoke
it’s just me and this medicine
no one prescribed
it gets caught in my throat
and i choke and i cry 
it’s just you in the mirror
always judging me
take my eyes and my tongue
i forgot how to speak 
it’s okay, give it time
it’ll all be alright
there’s a girl in the shower
she’s singing and alive 
there’s a dog in the graveyard
so patient and sad
there’s this place we can go
where it won’t be so bad
there’s fresh air and clean clothes
and silence you can stand
your grandmother's in the kitchen
with flour on her hands
and police don’t exist there
you won’t have to hide
and police don’t exist there
and no one has died 

and we never tried the hard stuff
and no one has died 
and our bodies work perfect
and no one has died
and nobody owns nothing
and no one has died
and no one has died
and no one has died

it’s just me in this bedroom
rewriting cliches
cutting open my sickness
every fucking day
and it all tastes like ashes
and blood in my throat
there’s a man with a gun
in my childhood home
and you’re tied to the radiator
burns on your wrist
nothing bad happens here
since my mother got sick

and the walls are asbestos
and no one has died
and the water’s still poison 
and no one has died
and the kids all have cancer
and no one has died
and my body's a target
and no one has died

and no one has died
and no one has died
and no one has died
And no one has died
And no one has died
And no one has died
And no one has died
And no one has died
And no one has died
And no one has died
And no one has died

a place where no one has died

lyrics:
50 milligrams per milliliter, I can't get away
And even if I could, i think I'd stay
I remember what they told me back when I had learned to walk
Said, "darling, whatever you do, don't walk away"
And I was born in a place where people go to die
And I wrapped the chord around my neck, attempted suicide
I just couldn't breath, they fed my tiny body candelight
And said, "baby, happy birthday"

You can try to stay alive or just get drunk and learn to dance
You can shiver through the night and, in the morning, learn to stand
And if I told you all my secrets, I would turn back into sand
Like everything, like everyone, like what I am

I wonder if my name has crossed your daughter's lips
Do you forget to draw the curtains? So the moonlight meets your hips again
And I can't help but reminisce and wish I did it right
Was I always bound like this? Could I have fixed it if I tried?

You can sleep inside a memory and wake up all alone
You can kill all of the pain or you can make yourself its home
And I wouldn't know what to say this time if you picked up the phone
I just called to hear your voice and I'm so sorry

if i told you all my secrets

lyrics

i just need one text back
i just want a sign so i know im on the right track
i just wanna make you laugh
cuz how could i ever be happy if you’re sad
she told me get home safe
i’ll hit you when im back
she know im too high for this drive home
i’m better off just tryna drive with my eyes closed
every single song a gem it’s like i mine gold
im taking hits right out the pen and feel my mind fold over

i’m slurring words on this beat but i’ll redo it when im sober
i got my drink on the rocks but im so high they look like boulders
she too familiar with crying i told her lean up on my shoulder
it gets worse every night but i feel better when i hold her
if i don’t fear death how the fuck i’m so scared of growing older
she said baby lay you’re head back let the blunt smolder
i spilled slime all on my jeans uh huh
end of the week and im off of this hybrid imma tweak uh huh
girl the suns bouta set
i realize you’re upset
but what’s one night, to an eternity without you and i
when i turn ghost you’re the only thing keeping me alive yea
you’re keeping me alive yea
look i been up half the night
this drink been freezing my mouth who put that bitch on ice
she said she like me cuz im cute but im nice
you hate i manufactured armor round my heart like a knight
i used to white pill in the morning wash it down with some sprite
swear all this shit feels unimportant when i’m thinking bout my life
slow down hero you playing with you’re life
im tryna leave a part of me here im recording every night
it’s a slippery slope cuz i found myself here again
slimey creatures crawl up on my bed
and fill my brain with pictures of sin
it’s a parasite
so can you stay the night
fighting for my life
i fear for my life
watch your beautiful face pass me by

i just need one text back
i just want a sign so i know im on the right track
i just wanna make you laugh
cuz how could i ever be happy if you’re sad
she told me get home safe
i’ll hit you when im back
she know im too high for this drive home
i’m better off just tryna drive with my eyes closed
every single song a gem it’s like i mine gold
im taking hits right out the pen and feel my mind fold over

i'll hit you when im back (under the maple tree)

really struggled with this one, i hope u enjoy ☆

//
fill my screen up with words
only works when it hurts
till it starts feeling worn out

hands flushed
with my blood
from the cold
in the streets
they go silent by sundown

and my knees running weak
feel the ice up my sleeves
like it's minus degrees tonight

and the path full of smoke
made me sore in my throat
like the systems in me collide

eyes locked, everythings so slow
look how i'm just wasting all my time again
like why can i not write a single line again
maybe i should drop it all and try again
//

sundown (despairintoashes)

broken home. w/ greenwood (king theta)

p. michael harrison

i forgot where I was going
there’s a lot inside my mind and im just hoping
that you’d be there to listen and console me 
cause lately ive been feeling fucking lonely 
could you hold me?
cause it’s not fair
it’s not fair
it’s not fair
it’s not fair 
could you kill me where I stand while I stare into your face
I could never let it out all the shit I wanna say
you really showed me how easy it is to be replaced 
just hope he doesn’t die by the hands of knives I shaped
I hope you fall to guilt I hope you feel like shit
just know it’s all your fault that he can’t raise his kids
now you’re a single mom with no will to live
maybe you shouldn’t have been a fucking bitch
cause it’s not fair
it’s not fair
it’s not fair 
it’s not fair

if i told you all my secrets

ghostdaughter

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