Are you kidding me this is amazing?!?!?!?!?

easily one of my favorite songs this year. <3

produced by chalyre <3 

lyrics:
you make me
incomplete
no escaping
your cold reach

now my throat is sore
from saying your name
i'm not going to go
until you repay
the debt that you owe
its always the same 
for love

let go
of your hold

you say you love me
i would just die
i'll never be worthy
of your divine

you're killing me slowly
but i'll be fine

it's not like i'm better
from seeing the light

careworn

prod by stezzyxl 
guitar by michael harrison 
enjoy ^\^

lyrics:
she’s like a mystery, a puzzle i can’t solve
i try reach out but she ghostes, and withdraws
she loves to keep it to herself, silent resolve
the more that we don’t talk, the length of it evolves

she invites a side of her, a stranger i don’t know
her words and action are like poison she can’t control 
as her dark side emerges, fear begins to grow
the more I fight, the more she tightens up her hold

maybe someone else needs come and take my place
to whom i once loved to the point i’m losing faith
10 months have passed yet, you remain the same
you turned into the being, that u know i hate

oh
where have u been
no one likes me anymore (x2)

(leave me)

she makes me turn into the person that i don’t wanna be
she ripped my heart out of my chest and layed it so we can feast
her actions says it all she will not change even if she tried
but i’ll still hold on to her even if it makes me die

why would i
go ahead and ruin my life
for someone like yourself
if i didn’t even care for ur health
so tell me 
why would i
try so hard to make this work
if i didn’t even care for ur worth
but u treated me like i’m dirt 
so tell me (x2)

ive done some things that i dont like to say
i’ve been all of the the things that i say that i hate
a cheat, a lie, the smoke in the sky
i don’t want u to see, can u please close ur eyes?
but i have learned from all my mistakes
i will never go back to reside in that place
i have changed for the better and that i can say
i put that on my grave (x2)

back in time ll

produced by grayskies & xona

-lyrics-
and i can’t take that pain
it’s getting me close to death
~ i can’t take
cause i haven’t felt that safe
got me running within my head
~ you feel safe?

and if only i could help
without you cause i hold the guilt
while I’m staying right by myself
and ignoring what you felt
when i could easily tell
the taste of wanting to kill

and i can’t take that pain
it’s getting me close to death
~ i can’t take
cause i haven’t felt that safe
got me running within my head
~ you feel safe?

how did you find me?
do you think i care?
do you think i care at all?
cause im not you
and you fell through
this line of faking truth
i felt that weak
when your hands are all on me, i knew
there’s nothing
i ever loved about you

and i can’t take that pain
it’s getting me close to death (close to death)
~ i can’t take
cause i haven’t felt that safe
got me running within my head
~ you feel safe?

and i'd forget your face
i dont wanna fall again
again
again~

bloom

spotify

prod heylog

lyrics:
hearing conversations that i don't know what they're talkin bout
give a little lip and bet you know that i'll be walking out
holding up the line like seriously what are you on about
stepping up to fight, do you think i'm afraid to knock u out
gloves up, round one
i can't wait to pounce ya
blood bath, get smacked
come on, can you hit back
no chance, throw hands
punch him in his throat glands
your boy is a pussy and i'd like to throw w you next

your excuse is blaming her being a hoe
if that was new to me i'd kill you on the low
but i was stupid then and brushed it off
i'm in the trees and my bow is drawn

it doesn't matter
i'm moving like better than ever
it's all been captured
you notice how there is a pattern
i take a weapon and turn it into an aesthetic
i take aggression out all on myself & accept it
she looks so fine
i won't let her know why
"i like your hair and your pretty blue eyes"
i'm a disaster, oh baby i'm a disaster
and does that matter
oh baby does that really matter

𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳

POSTED OUTSIDE
WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE
STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A M-
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
don't you ever talk a-
wake up & i'm winning
how does second feel when i'm first
my life might be lame-
least that i'm not lamer
cry
i gotta get going and i hope to see you never

disaster

prod by skylin ✧ and @grasior

lyrics:

"I'm only hard on you because I know you can take it"
"because I want you to win"

(grasior ✾) - [prod grasior ✾]

tell me everything i thought was a lie
gave control to everything in my life

what did i do, to deserve you
DiD took me out of who i knew

but
you got me lost in denial
cry in the night what a liar

thought lost in love i held
but it was him not me so i fled

but i dont like what you hold me too
drives me crazy just the thought of you

tell everything is all my fault
when you lost the shit

(skylin & grasior) [prod skylin ✧]

you said you wanted me but I guess those were lies to me 
you turned your back and say I'm throwin all these blasphemies
I cut you off because I found out you're bad for me 
too many snakes in the grass think oughta cut the weeds

(skylin)

got DiD I guess there really are two parts to me
I black out then I don't know what the fuck is happening
got a protector, I don't know if he looks out for me
with time, I learned I was another personality 
in light of these events I guess it's kinda bitter sweet
to learn within of me that there are three whole parts to me 
I put the pieces together after you dumped me on the streets
I lay there lonely with no shoes up on my fucking feet


[prod skylin 0:00 - 1:00]
[prod graysior 1:00 - 1:14]
[prod skylin 1:14 - 2:35]

[[betrayal & mental health]]

snake

snake w/grasior

i'm not gonna bother you ever again

@heylog

heylog - repeat (nevrfall remix)

guitars done by @prodjpjp
rest produced by heylog
enjoy

lyrics:
starving now, it gets pretty bad
you saw it all get split in half
about every bridge has been collapsed
old friends of mine slowly detached
i think it's all my fault
questioning if i'm wrong
how do i make it stop
can't rest at all

one call was all i needed
right now, i feel completed
2019 is over
been four years and got lower
though, for me it stood out
bleed to just hear one sound
i'd die to hear that noise
the calmness of your voice
i knew how it'd turn out
soon you'd be leaving town
and i couldn't bare that thought
was hard to move on
32 degrees, lungs get colder by the second
been through hell and out
it's like there's some type of obsession
wondering the choice you made if you've ever regret it
if you gotta say something why don't you come confess it
everytime you mention how, i need to find me
don't know what ur tryna say
don't know what u mean
i think ur just saying words
you're just saying things
even you confuse yourself
you don't know what to think
the reason why i live is to hope for a day
to finally see guidance leading ur way
wonder how to start, wonder where i go
all of it requires leaving my home
been through a bit and so much has gone
you don't gotta be sorry if i went through a lot
i can see us starting a family
i think it's the only thing that'll help me

starving now, it gets pretty bad
you saw it all get split in half
about every bridge has been collapsed
old friends of mine slowly detached
i think it's all my fault
questioning if i'm wrong
how do i make it stop
can't rest at all
heart's pounding strong
been up for hours
the sun's almost up
like how do i do it
she say, "where you been"
no where
just haven't checked my phone to use it
it's all gone down in carnage
debris in my lungs
wake up, feel like garbage
and get my yeti cup
i'm obsessed, pop a can of caffeine
even 300mg can barely do a thing to me

carnage

feat. @chiefjuno
prod Oh well. & @thrmls

lyrics: 

I just get mad at me
10 thousand hours of regret
I do it masterfully
I'm overloaded but I'm drained 
Just like a battery
And all my problems
They get worse at night like after three

Man I hate this feeling
It's hard to describe
Living in a box
No one can see me like a mime
Nothing I do is good enough 
I'm never satisfied
And the more I think about it
Then the less I wanna try
Man I hate wading
Lost in the ocean with no one to save me
Try to paint a picture but 
I'm too nice so no shading
All give and no take so
My magic is fading
Tried to build a bridge 
But my legs were shaking

I'm so scared of 
Shit that isn't there
It's getting hard to handle
But I can't pretend
We're just friends
It doesn't make sense 
For me to be your man though
Like can we just be honest
Do you really expect me to solve this
I've been up all night
I'm nauseous
It's never gonna work out 
I called it
She feels so unseen
Dropped out of school
Low self esteem
Taking different kinda pills all for the dopamine
She's been waiting all her life to take it out on me

Man I hate this feeling
It's hard to describe
Living in a box
No one can see me like a mime
Nothing I do is good enough 
I'm never satisfied
And the more I think about it
Then the less I wanna try
Man I hate wading
Lost in the ocean with no one to save me
Try to paint a picture but 
I'm too nice so no shading
All give and no take so
My magic is fading
Tried to build a bridge 
But my legs were shaking

I guess this is all that's left of me
Hate to admit it I got jealousy
Cause I don't really have a legacy
I probably need therapy

This feeling is too hard to describe
Living in a box
No one sees you like a mime
That's why I'm always late when I arrive
The more I think about it then the less I wanna
Try

hard2describe (feat. juno)

lyrics:

So baby go ahead and run your mouth
Your mind's a maze and I don't think I'm ever getting out
Can I picture every truth, you never show me how
No way
So why you saying that we don’t belong
Bitter harmony in every single thing you want
Now and then I’ll still be singing all your favourite songs
All day

Maybe I was wrong
Maybe I’m just too good at assuming
Maybe I moved on
Or I don’t know what the hell I’m doing

But we go from loving hard then fighting we keep getting loud
Countless thoughts in my mind and you can't get 'em out
Go ahead and run you always let me down
And I don't wanna find my way out of your maze 'cause you don't like it
Love to see me struggle always messing up my psyche
Burning all my bridges just to love someone that's not me
I hate it when you smile 'cause I know I'm stuck in a pipe dream
'Cause I know you don't like me
I know you don't like me

I could’ve known about it all along
Said you’d write down all your wishes but I’m sure you won’t
They were never really perfect but we didn’t know
Nothing
You had me thinking ‘bout it for so long
Were my neverending reasons ever good enough
Way too many sour melodies for me to want
Something

Maybe I was wrong
Maybe I’m just too good at assuming
Maybe I moved on
Or I don’t know what the hell I’m doing

But we go from loving hard then fighting we keep getting loud
Countless thoughts in my mind and you can't get 'em out
Go ahead and run you always let me down
And I don't wanna find my way out of your maze cause you don't like it
Love to see me struggle always messing up my psyche
Burning all my bridges just to love someone that's not me
I hate it when you smile cause I know I'm stuck in a pipe dream
'Cause I know you don't like me
I know you don't like me

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maze (with OHON and kuiper)

Stream "know a thing" by @heylog (prod. @irby314)
https://streamlink.to/knowathing-heylog

Lyrics:
i don't wanna heal myself again
no, i don't need to miss you like i did
promised recently i'd hit decline
but i couldn't do it this one time

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

every night i wake up in a sweat
every single word you ever said
come together without feeling harm
quickly run to you with open arms

can't believe i'm doing this again
it's been so long so like, how you been?
they don't even know a thing or two
they know more about me than 'bout you

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand

do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

heylog - know a thing (irby)

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

maze (with OHON and kuiper)

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